I believe Josh Gatov was employed by the FBI at the time that he raped me. And there is cause to believe it was a premeditated rape, and not a simple hate crime.
The FBI has never wanted to investigate any kind of hate crime because it would fall on them.
I think, even though I never thought this in the past, when Dr. Parnell said I said, "The FBI raped me", I never said this. I said nothing close.
But I did know that at the time, I believed he was connected to police in some way. Then, he got tipped off too much to not be involved with them. After the way the FBI has tried to smear me, I believe he was working for them and they never wanted anyone to know or find out.
Think about it.
By the way, Joshua Gatov worked in an ESL/ENNL tutoring center in proximity with international students including people from the middle east. He was tipped off by police to leave the country to evade an investigation. When Det. Brian Grose told me recently that he was not going to pursue prosecution of Gatov, it was a reversal after I blogged more about suing the FBI.
I had also written to him, before he got back to me about whether or not he would prosecute, asking him if he had been, or was, employed by the FBI. After I asked this question, Grose called me up and said he had first thought he could press charges but now he couldn't. He claimed the statutes had changed and then said then he found out they didn't change. Then he asked me, over the phone, why had I thought to ask if he was connected to FBI or police, and he lied to me, saying, "No, not to my knowledge, at least, not from what I've been told." He qualified his statement.
Possibly, because if it's discovered in a court of law Gatov worked for the FBI or police, he could be in trouble if he's found to be concealing evidence or making false statements. So he said, "Not to my knowledge, off hand." He didn't say he had checked with the FBI or not. Then, he went on to try to further justify Gatov saying, "I met him and he doesn't 'seem' like the type."
Doesn't 'seem' like the type?
This man raped me, premeditated his rape, spoke with Lake Oswego police officers before committing his crime an hour later, and said, "What would your Dad think to know you were (raped) by a Jew?"
So according to Grose, because Gatov didn't "seem like the type", that's his answer about whether or not he worked for the FBI or police. After I brought up the question, Grose was wanting to drop the entire investigation as well.
As for "didn't seem like the type", he is exactly the type they hire. They hire sexual rapists and predators, and they hire people who get close to foreigners for their own FBI counter-intelligence purposes. He comes across as laid-back and then is capable of violence and demonstrated that. He is exactly what the FBI hires, and RETAINS. The CIA and the FBI retain people just like that.
Maybe, just maybe, all this time I thought Dr. Parnell was an asshole (which he was, and he refused to treat me and slandered me), maybe he was trying to also tell me something, or knew something. Because he said I said I was "raped by the FBI". I never said this, but since I had made a report to police already about being raped by Gatov, it's possible he is FBI employed and was an employee at that time. This would also explain his friendliness with police, how he got tipped off, and why I was then punished for "trying to run from an investigation". They made this false claim about me out of retaliation for my report that Gatov ran from an investigation. He is even potentially linked to Alvaro Pardo, who is linked to FBI. It would explain why I was assaulted with migraines repeatedly after this rape, and why this did not come up again until after I reported 2 more FBI agents from Portland offices. It would also explain why the FBI was blocking any attempt I made to report a pattern of hate crimes, possibly because they didn't want to respond to part of a report that contained one of their own employees. It would also explain why they colluded to push me out of my lawsuits that protected my reputation and why they would then use defamatory Willamette Week articles for their own defense against me, knowing I could potentially sue them up one side and down the other.
Det. Grose wanted to know why I asked. Over the phone he said something like, "I'm curious to know why you asked?"
They wanted to know if I had evidence against them. The only reason Det. Grose wanted me to answer his question was to get discovery for police and the FBI, about how much I already knew or had been told about their sick employees.
I said, "Well, I have always thought this was possible, right from the start and I told you that. Right before he raped me, he talked to police officers in Lake Oswego who he seemed to know already and then the way he was tipped off, could have only come from law enforcement because I didn't tell anyone."
He didn't say anything in response to that, not that I remember. All I remember, is that Det. Grose did not answer my question about whether Josh Gatov worked for police or FBI.
He lied to me and tried to dance around the question, and told me he was dropping pursuit of the case. Telling me "No--I mean I don't think so..he didn't seem like the type" is not answering my question:
Did Joshua Gatov, or does Joshua Gatov work for the FBI?
He did not answer the question.
He did not tell me he asked FBI and they said no, he did not tell me he checked with the Bureau and they said no. All he said was that he, personally didn't think so because he didn't 'seem like the type'.
Grose is a fucking liar who should be in jail for colluding to tip Josh off himself. I would bet money that he is connected to Christa Schneider's dad.
It would also explain why Christa Schneider freaked out and didn't want me to report him to police. Her Dad was connected to the Department of Justice there, and had been a U.S. Attorney for the FBI in Portland. They were linked to the DOJ. If Josh Gatov was working for the FBI, it could point to a connection. This would be a motive for trying to kill me in 2003 after I made my report against him, by plotting the hit-and-run. It would also explain motive for police and others draining power from my car batteries to try to cause an accidental death. Finally, Christas boyfriend was fluent in Japanese, which was the same language Josh Gatov was studying to be fluent in. There are not a lot of "white guys studying Japanese" (at least not then) in Portland.
Josh Gatov talked to Lake Oswego police before he raped me. Schneider went to Lake Oswego high school, just like her boyfriend did, who knew Japanese. She and her family were connected to Lake Oswego police and L.O. people. Her sister was in Texas going to college at Baylor University and married a Texan. But otherwise, they were connected to California and to Lake Oswego and very likely knew the same people that knew Gatov.
She freaked out and didn't want me to report Josh Gatov because it would implicate FBI, DOJ, and her own family and contacts. Her boyfriends name was Ryan. He was fluent in Japanese and worked with the Japanese market, went to Lake Oswego high school, and was one of very few Japanese-fluent white males in the Portland area.
This might explain why Judge Nakata, Japanese, had a problem with me if I didn't marry Alvaro Pardo. It might also explain why I was being chased down one time, in Seattle, WA, by some Japanese guy with artistic tattoos all over his arms. I couldn't figure out why anyone who was Japanese wouldn't like me, but if they worked for Ryan or for Gatov, that might be why.
In photos Alvaro Pardo showed me of himself and friends once, I said what is that? and he said it was of some friends in Thailand. That's the same country that Josh Gatov supposedly fled to when he was tipped off by Grose or Schneider (she was the only person I told actually).
After I reported Bujanda and Garza to FBI, when the FBI kept trying to block me from even making any kind of report about "hate crimes" (I guess because they already knew one of their own employees was a guilty party), Christa had me meet a bunch of people for a "last supper". Every single person there was from Lake Oswego and had gone to high school at Lake Oswego. Ryan was there and both Christa and Ryan were mocking me when they thought I was too intoxicated to notice. They knew I was doomed, because they knew whatever cover they needed to hatch had been hatched with Portland FBI and that my file was ruined. I had been blocked from defending myself with Willamette Week and that was further damaging, and the complaint against their friend Josh Gatov, had been dropped by their friend Det. Brian Grose.
Alvaro Pardo hadn't wanted me to see the photos of the men sitting around in Thailand. He also hadn't wanted me to see photos of him at a party wearing a rainbow colored clown wig. He tried to skip past these photos and I said, "Wait, what's that?" and to not appear guilty or make a big deal, since I had already seen some of them, he let me see them.
All I got was bad energy from those photos. "They're making fun of me". I saw the clown wig photos and knew right away, those people were making fun of me. It was intuitive, and it was also why he hadn't wanted me to see those photos.
I had made all kinds of comments to Dick Whittemore and Abbey lawyers and Christa, about wearing a "clown pin" to court because the justice system was so foul. I had said it was a mockery of all justice, and that I should just buy a clown pin, a pin for my suit lapel, and wear it to court. Then I saw this photo of Alvaro wearing a rainbow striped clown wig with people around laughing and the same evil look on his face that I saw from the man who looked like him, driving a sportscar filled with women after I'd dropped him off to "work at the car wash". I knew right then and there that it was about me. They were all making fun of me. This was why he didn't want me to see those photos.
Then I saw the photos of the guys in Thailand. They looked like businessmen and they were under curving roofs and Thai architecture and holding drinks. Mai Thais I guess. Little umbrellas hanging out of the glasses.
So let's put "2 & 2 together" shall we?
Josh Gatov is an FBI employee and rapist. He is connected to Schneiders through the DOJ and FBI, Jews (like the editor for WW), and Catholics (through justice department). He is fluent in Japanese and so is Christa's boyfriend Ryan. White guys. He wanted to meet me in Lake Oswego and Josh knew the cops. Most likely, Ryan and Schneiders knew the cops too. Schneider panics later when I say I'm reporting Gatov. Why? Because she's connected to the man who raped me. Gatov flees to Thailand. I get blocked by the FBI and when I say I want to work for them, more FBI try to get into my house. They try to get something on me because they are already liable for a rape. Who knows who else is FBI employed. Might be almost everyone I've ever dated actually. They get police to drop an investigation just as they bribed police not to investigate other agents. They start defaming me to everyone and block hate crime investigation because they don't want to be in charge of investigating some of their own employees. I am put on a hit list and almost killed many times. I get thrown in jail on false arrest because the FBI is freaked out about how much I know. Probably hearing a doctor said I was saying I was "raped by the FBI" freaked them out even more. They torture me and my son and collude to allow state-sponsored torture. They are trying to drive us out of the country, already knowing I told Christa I'd go to Canada. They set it up in Canada and collude more over there. Then, of all things, I meet Chris Dabney who is into Japanese anime and starts dating a Jewess. I get set up to marry Alvaro Pardo, who works for the FBI.
It's a funny thing.
It's a real funny thing because, you see, all the police in Maryland know and like him, the guards at the courthouse know and like him, and I get a computer from a CIA guy. Hmm. I find photos of him making fun of me on his own laptop, and of Thailand. I also catch him trying to set me up to go to prison and trying to block me from court. And he is directly connected to FBI. Which is funny because Gatov is connected to FBI and DOJ too, and so are Schneiders.
I get to Wenatchee and Judge Alicia Nakata is really nice all of a sudden. She's a Japanese-American Judge who most likely works for FBI as well. Who might she know? Ryan? Ryan, Christa's Japanese fluent boyfriend? His name is Ryan Barnes. Oh yeah, and Schneiders know FBI Bakens too. How does Robin Bechtold figure into this?
Schneider didn't want me to report Josh Gatov and Bechtold didn't want me to report Bujanda and Garza.
Is Robin Bechtold also an FBI employee now?
Would it have just been a little "too much" for me to have alleged 4 different, maybe 5 potentially, FBI employees sexually assaulted me?
Maybe that's more than the FBI can "handle".
Maybe Josh Gatov, who raped me, is FBI employed or was then.
Then there was Robin Bechtold, date-raping me while I was under the influence (there is a witness).
After this, Bujanda and Garza introduce themselves and sexually assault me (not rape).
Is Mike Tanzer also FBI? Or CIA? I had wondered with him, about a drink that was ordered for me but I never knew for sure but I sort of mentioned it.
So this might be a lot of motive for the FBI to torture me and my son and family, personally. It might be the reason why Christa felt so sure my ship was sunk after I reported Bujanda and Garza and the S.S.A.s that came out were from D.C. and Don from Palo Alto. She most likely already had knowledge of how I was defamed and how my testimony was altered in internal files. She also most likely knew they were covered by Laura Laughlin. They also knew I was blocked from reporting religious hate crimes, and have been blocked from making any report to this day--told over the phone not to report, refused entrance to FBI buildings after being told to go in person, blocked when I tried to give information in person.
It's pretty good motive for the FBI to then say to the military, "She's all yours. Torture her to death or kill her, it makes no difference to us."
It makes them desperate for excuses for the crimes their own employees committed or for covering up obstruction of justice. It means the best they've got is to fully discredit me and wiggle out of liability for sponsoring torture, by saying I'm paranoid schitz (as the Abbey always wanted) and then if they can throw in "borderline" too, to try to make it look like I can't take "rejection", this also works for the Abbey's original defamatory claim, about how I was "rejected" by Ansgar. I wasn't rejected--I reported him privately to the Abbot as a volunteer employee at the Mt. Angel Abbey religious library.
Note though, how Det. Grose then wanted to use this and say over the phone to me, Gatov claimed he "brushed me off" after a week. He said this to make it sound like I made the report because I was "rejected" again, trying to tie this in to a false diagnosis they made with no evaluation, in Nashville, TN, after I refused to marrry the FBI's Pardo. I was never "brushed off" by Gatov, I broke up with him after talking to a bunch of pastors, and then I quit my job because I had panic attacks whenever he was around. First I tried to change my schedule and when he still came around, I quit and had to leave my job.
It's all FBI and they are criminals.
Dr. Parnell was correct. I was raped by an FBI agent. It's odd that I could never imagine such a thing back then. I certaintly never said this, or thought this. At that point, I didn't even know what sexual harassment definitions were so I had to go with what the FBI was pushing me to say. "They weren't professional."
The only way to get a straight answer out of the FBI at this point, is in court.
"Was Joshua Gatov ever an employee or informant for the FBI?" Yes or No Mueller.
Calling me mentally ill is a lot easier to them than admitting to concealment of a government gang-bang.