Cameo Garrett

American Art Deco (& other things): landmines and atom bombs

2012-02-17T14:50:00.000-08:00

I had to make so many separate requests for my medical records I was just back and forth, and while being tortured too.

I am wearing a shirt from Cambodia today because my body, "Cam's body" is a walking landmine. Which is almost like being a walking atom bomb, isn't it?

I was crying on the phone to my parents the other night, saying that what is being done to me, and the use of metal in my body to inflict torture, is no different from being like a field that was had a landmine planted in it, and then the person's responsible don't want to do anything but profit from it, rather than be accountable and remove the harm.

My computer is not working at all, and I was just being tortured and then the UN is sending confusing signals, so I have done what I can these last few days, to walk up and down a hill to the hospital and back just to fill out multiple requests for my records.

A couple of days ago I picked up math books from a school, but I am being tortured while I attempt to study. I was studying the wrong book too, and it was so slow, that I was slow--a pre-algebra one. So I went to the Algebra I book and it's much, much, better and more fluid, which then sped up my own time, even though I was still tortured, but there is a problem with the answer key in the back. I sent a note today, to ask if there is a teacher's copy key.

Also! there are 2 different books on homeopathic medicines and they contradict each other at one part. It can't be both, there is only one answer, so I have to contrast and find out which one is right for this particular section.

Finally, over a week ago, before I even got these math books, I found a scripture verse missing from one of my Bibles. It's not that big of a deal, but the only way you knew, is if you read the footnotes to confirm something is missing. I happened to be reading the footnotes to scripture and it was verse 11 that was not there. The footnote is there, for the verse, but not the verse.

Who removes a verse from a Holy Bible and then leaves the footnote?

I guess mistakes happen but there are so many bad editors and proof-readers.

I had this epiphany, while my parents were in Yuma, AZ, that, while gathering my records, I was like a landmine. And then I had this fusion thought of how it's like my shirt from Cambodia, and how Cam-body is planted with things the government is using to create harm and then actually refuses to take it out and do something, and is making money off of me instead. While I suffer.
I don't know why, but I started sobbing when I was saying this, leaving a message on their voice-mail.

Then I also found out, just yesterday, that the first atomic bomb was made in the U.S. and named "Trinity". Which is a discovery I made on the same day that I had a key in my pocket with a tri-sign on it.

In addition to coming to discoveries about missing notes and verses and mistakes, and having to compare and contrast things, I have so many horrible things happening and then some very good things happening at the same time.

I still have verses and things from scripture coming to me, in very strange coincidental timing. I mean, even things I do. I will do something and then open to my Bible or pray and something will come to me that matches what I did before and I wasn't planning to do. A lot of it is just coincidence, but I think for me it is helping to affirm more, or lay emphasis on what I read. So it helps as a reinforcement, like "trust" is with "truth".

After getting my math books I wanted to round out my self-education and loaded up with some books. One of them, I don't know why I picked it out, but it was an American book to hand-weaving. I don't do hand-weaving and I've never been interested except for when I was a kid, I wove pot holders on a loom for my parents, out of orange, white, and green and a little yellow. That was one of them but I made more and gave them as gifts. I didn't have this in mind at all when I took the book out, because I was more interesting in paintings and glass art, but I went to it, and when I opened it up, it said:

"Combine Trust With Truth".

It was a heraldy emblem from an ancient English hand-weavers' guild.

I have my arrow of "truth", and my graphic design arrow I made for this word "Truth" long ago, in 1998, and then this strange arrow rock coming into my house from my shoe, literally, and thought, what is this "trust"?

Trust.

So I brought in my symbol of "trust" to my house last night when I first picked up this book and the woman said, "Doing some weaving?" and I said, "No, I had thought it would be a good adjunctive to my math studies." Which is true. I first saw the layout and thought, this might complement my algebra studies, so I decided to get it and then turned again, and BAM, right there.

Combine Trust With Truth.

Last night I listened to classical music, some Christian music, and made some notes, while looking at art books and doing some algebra.

I especially enjoyed the American Art Deco book, by Eva Weber. I went through this one very slowly, studying all the detail, and just, in awe. I had done some art studies of Art Nouveau and Art Deco back in the mid-late 90s when I found it, but I was revived last night, looking at this again. I also looked through some pre-raphaelite works by Rossetti and Waterhouse, which I had liked when I was younger. I still do like a lot of it, some of it is fantastic, for the color and imagery, but I am more into art deco/nouveau. I will be looking through them more so I didn't return them though I've gone through them already. I also got 2 books on glass, one on world glass art and one by felice mehlman. Some of it is horrible, some of the glass work is tolerable, and some of it is gorgeous. My tastes in glass art are particular.

Which then had me wondering what happened to all of my mother's "amber-ware". My mother had this enormous collection of glass, and since we moved to Sherwood, Oregon, at some point, it disappeared and I've not seen it.

She had amber glass, that was irridescent, like Tiffany's glass. A huge collection. Then she was also collecting, in Moses Lake, WA, some rose-colored pieces of glass.

Our house in Moses Lake, WA, which we moved from in 1990, had pink lace curtains at the window, antique furniture with copper-clad tacks to lock in the good upholstery, and then a rust colored carpet which made the rose accents not as "prissy". So to go with it, there was a HUGE collection of this irridescent amber glass, and it was all out for display. She had over 100 pieces and it wasn't cheap--it was an antique collection. Granny, Granny Baird, first had the amber glass, and then my mother got into it.

All of a sudden, it's just "gone"?

Suddenly, it was "fiesta" ware. I think that's what it is, this green glass and other glass she collects, along with my Aunt Holly. I like it as well, but where is her huge and expensive collection of amber and rose glass?

It was called "carnival glass", colloquially.

Did someone steal this from my family?

I found it and thought about it after first seeing the lotus vase by Tiffany.

I remembered it when I was looking at the glass book, and saw the irridescent pieces made by Tiffanys. It was the same thing. Higher quality, but that was the kind of glass collection. So this is what sparked my memory last night, of my mother's glass collection. I first looked at the glass book, by Equinox, Oxford press. Then I looked at the World Glass book by George Savage.

While I thought about these things, I also noticed this painting by Rosetti, I think, called "the empty purse", pink and red colors and other things and then this morning I found out that in addition to a few other things my parents bought in Mexico, she bought a purse with a flower embroidered on it. She said it was gaudy but she liked it.

I thought, yeah. Someone emptied my parent's pockets.

This stealing from my family has been going on for too long. I even first noticed my own jewelry and clothing being stolen from me after 1990, when we moved to Sherwood, Oregon. That was when I was wearing the skirt that had been my mother's in the 70s too, between 1990-1993 (I graduated from high school in 1993)--the one Kate Middleton is later photographed wearing a replica of?

I don't know. It's not normal. I had shirts and jewelry that had been my mother's in the 70s stolen from me, starting then. The next horrific events began when I had to sue to protect my good name and reputation. That's when it got very bad, but there were a few things happening earlier. After I was made Homecoming Queen, approximately, in 1992, or people imagined I was with a boyfriend or had offended his church by not wanting to be with a catholic, this is when they were stealing from me, but probably all groups did.

I got a key box the other day, that has a magnet on the back which looks just like the round shapes on the Art Deco Chrystler building. It's like a lip smuckers box, which slides at the tin top, like my lipglosses from grad school. On the back of it is a magnet that I thought, that matches this building and the little hospital magnets showing up in my CT radiology scans.

At the start of that morning I opened to Prov. 8, about Wisdom. I read the entire thing and just picked up some books, among them Hagia Sophia and then noticed the wisdom and knowledge art from the Art Deco book. I didn't know it would be in the book, but it was and thought it was nice to see.

This Jefferson Radio DJ, who is from New York I believe, named Bill McLaughlin, is somewhat sort of offensive, but he's had a few nice music selections. I turned to the station at Romeo & Juliet which is also what I got at the library. It was "Romeo & Juliet" with Suzanne Murphy and "Nazi, nazee? Yermi?" Then I turned it and listened to christian music. I heard a christian song about sleeper's awake which I sang to as I shot my turquoise rubberband out into the grass.

I was reading with a candle lit, and by lamp at my window, outside on my porch, with a heater at my feet, and making notes, drinking cocoa and having dinner. I felt like being outdoors. So I took my stereo out there too and listened to music while reading.

As soon as I shot out one turquoise band, I rediscovered a maroon band. There were other interesting synchronicities. A LOT of them, actually. I was thinking of David and Goliath when I shot it out into the night.

Then I opened my Bible at random and it was with Elijah saying, "Shoot your arrow!" and the archer shoots his arrow out into the night.

I am not kidding. Right to the spot, right after I shot out a rubberband like a sling-shot, into the night. Instead of one full circle from my finger to my other finger, I twisted it into a figure 8 and shot. I was thinking of my son, how I did this with him in our visits.

I just went to the counter to request another pass and said, "Is it okay to have another? I've used one time but..." and she gave me a pass for more time. (just happened at 3:51 p.m.)

So, many many things with doing something, or something to mind, and then all of a sudden, something happening from scripture.

I also directly (not randomly) turned to Psalm 1, after looking up another one. This one man had just named a composer of William Lawes and then I decided to look up, not at random, but on my own iniative, Psalm 1, which is about studying the law.

Before this however, there was the sleeper's awake song from christian music and then I changed it and it was "Annie Lauree"--a Scot's tune, being sung by the King Singers. After this, was another rendition of "sleepers awake" and it was from Bach Cantata #140, by Philip Bride (french instrumental).

I heard both.

There was this German piece I heard and loved, from Berlin symphony, late romantic, partino in E major (Bach) 1869, Hunts (huntz) Fitzner. With Max Stroop. Also, more Tchai, and then there were other pieces I wrote down and will write about later.

But it was after the christian music that I knew "He who dwells in the shadow of the Most High..." and I was looking this up (Psalm 91) and then knew to look up Psalm 1, and that followed William Lawes' piece and then I heard knew to look up Psalm 91 and did. Then, I prayed and closed my eyes and asked God to show me what to find and I landed, at random, on Psalm 91. The first time, I tried to find it. The second time, it found me.

The other thing with scripture, today, was that after my mother and I spoke, she said they were going to have more fig shakes today and I came across, at random, a verse about figs. This morning, late morning, I looked at random and found Zechariah 9:14-17 and then read further, right after I had set a candle into a container for enclosure which made me think about the section of jewels in the crown, in a religious sense.

So, as I was saying, sort of affirmative scripture things

Right after this, I turned at random to I King 10 about Queen of Sheba, and then Hebrews 2:5-18 and how he knows our suffering, and then "Figs!" I answered, "The good ones are very good." from Jeremiah 24:3-1. Then 2 Chron. 19:1-2 "Why help the wicked?" right after I had thought this aloud, why do they get help?

I also found many passages about dark cloud, and God in the dark cloud, which shadows us, and some temple stuff from last night. I wrote next to it, "Why, I'm a little black cloud!" and smiled thinking of my son.

Tortured Last Night & Today by U.S. Military Still

2012-02-14T15:02:00.000-08:00

I am still being tortured by the DOD and CIA.

I looked up where my parents have been staying, and every place they've had to stop at is a military base or CIA joint. Every single location. Right now they are next to a HUGE Air Force base next to Yuma, AZ and before that it was another base and before that some church fronting for CIA telekinesis and psychic work for govt. research (mind control programs).

All of it is psychic/telekinesis (psi) work that involves the U.S. military and CIA.

For me, it's just plain religious hate crime and then they tried to sell me out and use me for other reasons to mask what has been going on.

I am at the public library and they're torturing me here, to my lower back and also to my heart. Outside there is construction and generators and it was the same thing yesterday, which facilitates some of the things they do.

I didn't have anything happening today past 12 p.m. until I got inside this library.

I have been tortured at this library numerous times. Yesterday I blogged about it and then a lot of people came in and the computers were all full and it quit. My guess is that at least 1 or 2 persons who came in were unknowns so someone decided to quit what they were doing in case they thought they were being checked on.

Last night they used MRI-microwave technology on me all night.

The aching stuff to my lower back is ultrasound from what I can tell, but I think it's microwave (?) from MRI that creates the constant twitching.

One man called up asking about a "Jered" and we have a Jered now because my cousin married one. However, I am thinking that is possibly the name of that one guy from Phoenix, AZ who went on a shooting spree after the U.S. military and FBI used him and tortured the living daylights out of him.

I THINK that guys' name was Jerod? and he is the one who was photographed with this terrible droopy eye like I've seen on multiple family members, and who says he worked with the CIA and military there but then they copped out on him. They're the ones responsible, and in fact, you could probably trace someone and find out they knew of all of his thoughts ahead of time, and his plans, and they just wanted to watch him do it.

He was writing in his blog about "lucid dreaming" which is something The Virginia based "700 Club", as supposed Protestants, support. I would never say most of them are working for CIA or DOD but many of them are. And there's my two cents about some of the "Protestants" who support torture in this country while trying to point an angle for the Catholic church to other countries.

I watched them directly refer to this idea, of "lucid dreaming" and for them, they're interest is that maybe if they can literally "plant dreams" or "ideas" they can control the actions of others. So they feature some poor woman from Aghanistan who is talking about having a "dream" she was to go to this one place and she did and it was a "U.S. christian" there and she became a christian.

(a way to dismantle countries, one person at a time, from the CIA perspective--it lessens the risk of war over religion if you start 'acquiring people as religious pieces of property).

What they know is that many people, of different religions and cultures, have sometimes been influenced by having a dream that was impressionable, so this is the DOD interest and the excuse the FBI uses to cover for torture of citizens while they try to work to work their kinks out.

Most people, use discernment with dreams, and try to know if it's possibly 1., symbolic and from God, 2. from the military and govt. torture research, or 3., is random and means nothing.

I can pretty much figure out which dreams I have are from the Devil, i.e., United States trying to be "God".

How do I know? Well, for one thing, when they are blasting me with microwaves to create constant muscle twitching they are using technology to put the brainwaves and dreamwaves into a condition that is more "conductive" to reception of thoughts.

And yes, crazy as it may sound, this is what the U.S. military is spending their money on. Torture of women, men, and children over some things that seem as insignificant as "dreams".

All of it falls under the category of "mind control".

This isn't why I was blocked out of my lawsuits and fair competition. This is just their latest excuse. They are ruining my son's life. MY SON is the one at risk of turning into a Jerod that is mind controlled and shoots people.

So when my mother said to me it's worse in some other countries, I said, "I know that, but this isn't the best country." I said something "like" that. Why? Here's what I said, and later thought, "This is like something out of Schindler's List, in the opening scenes were families are whispering to eachother about things they've "heard" but can't "confirm".

I said, "The UN talked to the US about my petition against torture and do you know the U.S.'s position is? The UN is telling me that even though the U.S. signed something saying they agree to the treaty, they don't believe in it. So essentially the U.S. is admitting to full support of TORTURE."

She lied for my sake and said it was just me and I said, "It's not a personal problem Mom--they are TORTURING and then they CUT OFF MY COMMUNICATIONS?!"

The people who are in charge are people like Mike Mullen. Panetta. Hayden. And the DOD tops and most of these people are R.C. church members and they have R.C. FBI backing them.

In response to my statement that "this is not a personal problem" she said, "I have to help your Dad."

Does anyone else in the international torture community understand that code?

It's a discreet way of agreeing that yes, she knows this is not MY personal problem anymore than it is HER personal problem or my Dad's "personal" problem and we were talking about "spiritual things and mental health" and THAT kind of "personal problem."

I countered with, "This is not a personal problem" and she basically attempted (to my way of thinking, to anyone possibly listening in that is not with the U.S.) to agree and confirm, yes, it is not a personal problem that I have.

This is affecting all of us.

Osama bin ladin's Assassins

2012-02-13T16:23:00.001-08:00

(read my last post for insight into who is connected to killing Osama bin ladin)

My advice to the middle east is to not trust ANYONE connected to the Roman Catholic church or Logan's Roadhouse.

That same restaurant that tortured me in the workplace and forced me to work for them or go to jail, has "international" law firms hired who work "pro bono" for Muslim prisoners held by the U.S.

Well guess what?

Logan's is also OWNED by a Roman Catholic.

That Roman Catholic is the one who employs the law firm that represents Guantanamo Muslim prisoners. And they left out all these symbols about not only supporting the Middletons, but also about their intended "hit" on Osama bin ladin.

I am not making this up and this is part of the reason some of the U.S. is attempting to bribe members of the UN.

It is also why they are torturing me now and wanting me to say I'm "disabled".

The law firm that represents Guantanamo prisoners is based in the UK (England--Middleton territory) and the U.S. and this restaurant where I was tortured is run by a Roman Catholic businessman that employs them.

Anyone from the Middle East who is foolish enough to imagine the Middletons, or any of these "pro bono" lawyers from this law firm that also represents Logans, is on their side...if they care about torture victims, you have been deceived.

It is impossible to be "against" torture and "helping" prisoners and then torture U.S. citizens in restaurant chains you represent at the same time.

It is incongruous, impossible, not a match.

Do you trust someone who says with his right hand, "I am helping torture victims" and holds a device for torture while employing it at the same time?

No, they cannot be trusted.

I have no clue what they thought I had to do with Osama or why they wanted me to know, but they let me know. And these people have the Catholic church for their "boss".

Stay the HELL away from the Catholics.

"Ridiculous TN Catholic Terrorists"--Connected to Osama bin Ladin's death

2012-02-13T16:05:00.001-08:00

I still have not addressed or talked about the kind of torture and forced labor I was subjected to in Nashville, TN.

Some of the same people who used me and tortured me there, came all the way over here to torture and harass my family.

I am not done with my UN report. There is a LOT more information and much worse, and damning information to be added. It proves U.S. govt. collusion too.

There was an Italian-American guy with dyed purple-maroon hair and eye contacts, who said he was gay (the one who also worked as a decorator for a Middleton hotel), several black guys, one who used the word "ridiculous" (in a gay-sounding way all the time), Marissa and Beth (Roman Catholic women who were hispanic and married hispanics and who had relatives working as Catholic Bishops in Nashville Archdiocese). There was "Matt",who was a white criminal and was my "boss" there. There was "Ernie" who was part Colombian and worked for the U.S. Army--former U.S. Army. Marissa assaulted me, in the workplace, and then got away with it because her relative was a high-ranking Catholic clergy member.

I was forced to work over there, next to employees that tortured me, literally, IN the workplace, while I was working. There was a large, tall, white cop by the name of Jordan. He sort of tried to flirt with me and as soon as those men realized I wasn't interested in any of them, they started torturing me. Every single time he saw a police officer coming through the door, he was routing them away from me, and taking their table. He was a cop himself and dirty.

There was this white woman with very kinky brown hair, named Sheila, and I left TN to come over here and find one of the Power FM DJS imitating her style, voice, mannerisms, everything.

The other person who routed me around all the police and never wanted me to serve any of them was a Bartender, Jen. She was a Marine brat. They all used me, almost all of them were Catholic, and they were not good people--that business, Logan's, had law firms employed that support torture. They use lawyers for "pro bono" work at Guantanamo while torturing U.S. citizens.

Guess what? They even killed Osama bin ladin after leaving little mememtos there, at THAT workplace, that this is what they were going to do.

Those people threw me into a psych ward, then hired me out of the psych ward to force me to work next to them while they tortured me, and then left a symbolic message about killing Osama bin ladin, right after they assaulted me again, then fired me after I called police to report it and police refused to make the report, and then the next day it was Kate Middleton's wedding. Day after, Osama bin ladin was dead.

No, I am not making this up and I am not kidding.

Someone there, possibly more than one of them, had immediate ties and connections to the hit on Osama and ALSO to the Middetons.

And then after I was fired, when I tried to report them to police and police wouldn't take my report, I looked them up. I was so STUPID not to look them up earlier. I found out that restaurant, "Logan's Roadhouse" is RUN by...

Guess...

Guess who Middle East?

Your pal Panetta's church, the Roman Catholic church.

There are more names.

Jonathan. There was a guy there named Jonathan who tortured me as well. All of the employees there were Catholic, and most connected to government crap too. They have used us, used my family, and we are being tortured.

And just so you know--the Catholic connection sort of leads to Middleton, and to Panetta who is CIA, and these "pro bono" Logan's lawyers, and I am being tortured by people who have this kind of power.

Panetta, Italian-American bribes to UN, FBI, Catholic torture in the workplace, Middletons, assassinations, international lawyers who pose to get close to people who are being tortured while knowing they represent torturers...

It's the same bag. You pick up the bag, you get everything that goes along with it.

Rich and Famous Killed For Being Protestant

2012-02-13T14:39:00.001-08:00

I would submit to the general public, to please notice who is dying lately.

The celebrities and rich who are "suddenly dying" under suspicious means, are almost all Protestant.

Michael Jackson.
Whitney Houston.
Steve Jobs.
Christopher Hitchens (somewhat suspicious cancer in my opinion but who knows).

By and large, the sudden deaths in both the UK (Britney Murphy) and US are Protestant.

This is happening across the spectrum, from torture of some Protestant families that are middle or lower-middle class, to sudden deaths of rich, famous, or well-known Protestants.

Children are being taken from Protestants who are rich as well, as are their fortunes being divided (Britney Spears).

I do not believe that the U.S. Protestants, whether they are very religious or "churched" or not, are not paying attention to what is going on.

How many Roman Catholics are dying sudden deaths by comparison? None.

None of them are dying of cancers that cropped up, none are denied treatment for illness and disease. They are not losing their children to U.S. government experimental research and torture.

Some Catholics, SOME, have lost their children to bishopricks. Men of the "cloth" who use their religious status and connections with the FBI to conceal sexual abuse of their own Catholic children.

The FBI is to blame for the sexual abuse of these children as much as the torture of my own son.

Whitney Houston did not die a natural death. Neither did Michael Jackson. These deaths are being made to look natural or like overdoses, or naturally occuring cancers when they are not.

And the people who are currently in power, behind the scenes and in the fore, are Roman Catholic, some Jews, and some hypocritical "protestant" UK/US people who hide behind The 700 Club covers while working for U.S. human experimentation.

Many of these "conversions" from Catholicism are not true conversions either. They look more like convenient ways to pretend people creating misinformation are Protestant and not working for the Holy See or criminals.

Britney Spears, for example, had some problems but people around her created those circumstances and the person who had an interest in money and the child was Roman Catholic.

The Roman Catholic Church is stealing fortunes by finding out who has money, and marrying into it. Not unlike some Jews I suppose, with interest in the UK.

They are using their friends who work in government who have access and ability to torture others and then prevent anyone from holding them accountable.

Yep. I knew it.

I had Demi Moore to mind the other day and thought, "I will bet you anything she is not Roman Catholic and Ashton Kutcher is."

Another religious-political device by the Roman Catholic Church.

Demi, you are much much better off without him and please do not console yourself at this time with either female or male Catholic-raised parties.

I can't explain how I "knew" or got this intuitive or instinctive idea, but I did, just last night, after seeing just a photo on the cover of a magazine. I walked home thinking, it was another Catholic set-up hump and dump.

True enough. I just now looked up Demi, and she was not raised Catholic. She is actually now even more "kabbalah" or whatever. Ashton, raised conservative Catholic.

Frankly, they are monsters.

My opinion is that they have become very slick and schooled in how to ruin families and infiltrate and get to the top rungs by using others and then shitting on them.

Look at what happened to Britney Murphy. She insults Ashton's small Catholic penis and she gets murdered.

They're charming, aren't they?

Just like snakes Demi.

Okay, and look at the Victoria Beckham U.S. Catholic influence on UK "protestant" royalty now.

See?

Every single way you look at it or size it up, they are sizing up the fortunes and torturing and killing people to take over.

They have been using military connections to take Middle Eastern leaders who favor Protestants out of power, and then domestically, they have been like Leons ravaging and roaming the earth, seeking whom they should devour, by marriage, consort, business, disease, torture.

Of course it's Steve Jobs dying of cancer and not Bill Gates.

Of course it's me being tortured, and having a helicopter flown above my private house after I picked up on "funny business" happening with the Britney Spears and her Catholic Federloins' monastic Catholic connections.

Every single friend or family I had, about 7 years ago, that was single and rich, is now married and tied into subjection with a Roman Catholic, or has been forced to split their fortune with one of them.

STAY away from them. I am not kidding.

Hey, Christa was a "converted Catholic." Funny. Great friend. We really, truly hit it off. Made each other laugh hysterically. And she was stealing from me and using me the entire time, for several years.

They are charming as snakes. You are not destined to be a snake charmer or hypnotized by their seductive gaze. You are in control of you, your life, and your fortunes but some of you need to look past being "PC" and thinking I sound terrible and think about it.

Is it adding up? It really does make the equation I am trying to point out to you and I did NOT believe it myself until I was tortured for years and then started noticing who is covering it up, who is sidling up to the rich friends and family I have, and who is committing crimes and getting away with it while wanting to kill off anyone with money or a voice.

Hollywood and NY are very PC. No one wants to sound bigoted. It sort of sounds that way, but it's not. It's the choice of looking at the evidence and wising up. I'm not being very "gentle" but I've been tortured for years.

Wise as serpents, gentle as doves.

The Catholics have been making doves eyes at YOU while eyeing your fortunes.

Just take some cover, please.

If Protestants don't stop allowing themselves to be cooked (or koch-ed) and seduced, it's only going to get worse.

At any rate, this is something for Whitney's daughter, because last night I prayed and asked God to show me something in the Bible that was for her and would refer to Whitney Houston. I opened at random, to "The Greatest In The Kingdom." The impression I had from it, when I read it, is how it says whosoever should be great must be least and whoever receives a child in my name, receives me.

"I Believe The Children Are Our Future, teach them well and let them lead the way, show them all the beauty they possess inside, give them a sense of pride, to make it easier, let the children's laughter, remind how we used to be. I decided long ago, never to walk in anyone's shadow, if I fail, if I succeed, at least I live as I believe, no matter what they take from me, they can't take away my dignity, because...The Greatest Love Of All, is happening to me; I found the greatest love of all, inside of me...

Everyone is searching for a Hero, people need someone to look up to. I never found anyone who fulfilled my need--a lonely place to be, until I learned to depend on me/chorus."

So that is what I got for Bobby Christina Brown, her daughter. I sang it last night, took a ton of Advil before that because the U.S. is torturing me (literally) and stayed in the bathtub a long time. I then got out and found this in the Bible after I prayed, and sang this. Then I sang the refrain for "trouble the water". Trouble the water/trouble the water/trouble the water; my God will trouble the water. Stand in the water/stand in the water/I'm not afraid to wade in water/cause my God, he's troubling the water. Pools of Bethsada/Angel's on the water/moving on the water/my God he troubles the water. (I made up some lines)

And then I sang a chant, sort of a Freedom Chant, about God is taking up my fight. I made it up, clapping a freedom clap, and sang about, Taking up your fight. God is on my side, hands down, hands down, He's taking up the fight. The Holy Spirit's on your side, hands down, hands down, cause He's taking up your fight. Jesus is on your side, lean on him because He has the might. Hands down, hands down, he's taking up the fight.

Just hands down, hands down, believe He is on your side.

And then I got tortured more and had to take more Advil just to fall asleep.

(sort of impromptu singing for a short while and then that was it).

It's not mental illness. We are being tortured, literally. I am tired of it.

There were some other very interesting things that happened last night but I don't know how much I have time to write about it. I listened to some classical music and got a lot of visuals from it and then this morning I heard Leonard Bernstein's Westside story theme just before 11 and loved it!

My notes this morning from this, before I knew what song it was or who it was by:

"shouting then this violin @ 10:35 a.m. like misty silk nets falling and someone rising up, me, to be kissed.

cat burglar stealing diamonds and paintings, handing out bricks, passing money underground railroad paved with art and diamonds.

20s? french? or english on US Great Gatsby moonshine music?

GREAT DRUMS
sort of 50s noir but possibly going back as far as 20s? 10:42, there IS a beautiful romance...(tears) strings IIIII (5 big drums...beats) III (at 8 changing) IIII (fading at 12)--pause, then 13, 14, p., 15."

"symph. dances/westside story/leonard bernstein/1961" 10:47 a.m.

Music bach by perlman #4 D major. That's when I stepped out but I absolutely and thoroughly enjoyed the westside piece this morning. I had no idea it was from westside story but then I found out and thought my imagination sort of fit the music.

I counted the drums at the end for some reason. I wanted to know how many times. It changed up maybe 4 keys? at 8 beat and then fading, a little quieter and then longer pause after 12 and then 13, 14, longer pause, and 15. I marked my paper with straight lines, like prison scratches, marking days on a wall to remember.

My notes from last night, if I have time...

Well, maybe some other time. It was Norwegian music and this "posthumus" piece by Beethoven
which I loved, Opus #103 E flat, Zaveena maiers on clarinet. I saw it as a ballet.

I also like Mahler's Symph. 6 in A minor. (7:15 pm)

And then at about 8 p.m., for the Norwegian etude, Opus 5 of 1879 I thought the piano was an exquisite and felt it was the quality of the instrument itself in part. I wrote next to this one, "lots of sex...he wrote and had LOTS of sex" good piano--nice quality instrument.

I wanted to know what brand and model of piano it was actually.

And I liked the one by Roberto.

I wrote a lot of notes. Made a lot of descriptive notes about what I heard and scenes, but that's all.

We need to be torture-free and we need help from the UN and other international community.

I cannot live this way. In chains and tortured and knowing this is what my family endures. I can't live in a country that kidnaps children from innocent mothers.

Oh, and I saw a woman leading a horse in a circle, song 5 after 8 p.m. and then they played, for #6, Parker 1. "wearing of the green" and "cropping boy" just as I was pouring my green drink (from a green Silk soy milk carton, and with ginko, spirulina, and kelp) and wearing green (sort of funny). She was leading the horse in a circle with a little crop or whip to crack by not hitting the horse. I've done this before. I can't remember what it's called but I did this with horses. Bizarre? It's where you stand in the center and have the horse on a short leash, so-to-speak, and train it to go around you. And then I saw posting. I have never done posting myself, but that's what the song had in it.

I also heard about UN news and peacekeeping stuff and made notes about it. Anyway. I heard Laura Ingraham for a split second on a.m. radio and then switched and it was a protestant christian a.m. program talking about hard-hearted laura's. Hmm. Sounds about right.

Torture of children is hard. I thought to myself, "It sure hasn't hurt Laura any, to convert to Catholicism, has it? In fact, she got promoted in SUCH convincing ways."

Out of my entire weekend, the most I accomplished was writing a few notes about music (and christian hard edge music too), singing 3 songs and taking a short walk.

That's all I accomplished. Why?

Because it's "difficult" to do anything at all with ones time when one is being tortured and not "promoted" through membership in the Catholic church.

Continued Torture in U.S. Today & Last Night

2012-02-13T14:18:00.000-08:00

I was in the bathtub for several hours last night because of torture by U.S. military and CIA.

They were targeting me with technology that made my entire body twitch unless I was underwater.

Then, after 3 or more hours in the bathtub they did something that made my body twitch even then but not hardly as badly.

For some reason, they quit, or were not able to do what they were doing as well if I was in the bathtub.

I am getting proper nutrition and there is nothing wrong with my blood labs. All of that work has been done and I have no nutritional or mineral deficiencies.

It is the U.S.

Today they have targeted the metal in my neck and my ear on the same side of my head, while I have been at the library working on trying to send out a signed statement to the UN CAT and OPCAT.

My laptop has been shut down by the U.S. military and I am unable to use it--this occured immediately after my submission of my petition to the UN on Saturday night, and follow up to the Office of the Inspector General for the Department of Justice in Washington D.C. (Cynthia Schnedar).

I have no way of checking my email now or making emergency communications and I had money stolen from me at the last hospital trip, which makes it impossible for me to send a fax internationally and be able to pay for it.

I was able to electronically sign a PDF form of my document through Xchange viewer, which I had downloaded on my personal laptop, but as soon as I sent notice to the UN and OIG Dept. of Justice, my laptop was forced down, to make it impossible for me to sign electronically.

I attempted to go to a neighbor's house that same night and they didn't have a computer. That was February 11, 2012 that I then went to a neighbor's house out of emergency.

Following this, I was subjected to worse, and more severe torture by U.S. military/police technology.

My laptop is not old and showed no signs of wear or tear. It was forced down to prevent me from electronically signing a document claiming torture by official U.S. and Canadian government officials.

There is no international investigation of me or pending investigation or use which justifies any of this, as this torture began as early as 1997 and increased to full-blown torture after I filed a report of FBI misconduct in 2005.

Certain U.S. officials colluded with certain Canadian officials to commit torture. Torture occurred to me in B.C. as well as within the U.S., against my son and I. We were also subjected to cruel and inhuman treatment by both "states" (U.S. and Canada), and illegal human trafficking.

The person who took my UN complaint wrote back that they were "refusing" it because the U.S. had not made a "declaration" in support of the Convention Against Torture, but this is a lie and an excuse to justify protecting persons and taking bribes.

I submitted back to the UN, links from their own website, which proves both the United States and Canada have signed and/or signed and ratified all sections of the CAT. Signatory parties are subject to treaties as if they had made a "declaration". Their signature IS a declaration of agreement to abide by these laws.

If they do not abide by these laws, this signature is their release to the UN, permitting the Convention to investigate them and hold them responsible for breaking their agreement to obey the international laws against torture and cruel and degrading treatment.

I have now, as of this date and time of 2:34 p.m., February 13, 2012, sent my petition in MS works format by attachment to tb-petitions@ohchr.org, as well as to petitions@ohchr.org and cat@ohchr.org.

While I was doing this, one of the women librarians here, who is Roman Catholic and who had been viewing my computer activities in the back room, began talking loudly about mental illness programs and making reference to me.

This is what they have attempted to use against me to discredit my testimony, false claims of mental illness. The rest of my family is forced to lie about me and their own torture because of blackmail and involvement with government. I am the only one who is free enough to tell the truth, and I am tortured for doing so.

It was Roman Catholics in Catholics who colluded primarily with Roman Catholics in the U.S. and they are the ones responsible for using FBI and CIA and military contacts to deprive me of life, liberty, the pursuit of happiness, and my own son. There is also a Jewish group, but it is mainly religious hate crime by Catholics.

103 pages of torture, not 90

2012-02-13T13:21:00.001-08:00

I submitted a complaint that had over 103 pages related to torture. It wasn't 90. But now it's showing up as 90 pages when it was 103 pages when I sent it.

I just had it converted to PDF and my name wasn't even appearing in the heading like it was supposed to.

At any rate, it was at 103 when I submitted it to the UN, not 90.

Proof of CAT Submission Time and Date Below

2012-02-13T13:00:00.002-08:00

This is a copy of an email I just got in my inbox. It was not there until this morning after I had already blogged about the response I got. Even though a different email from the UN was sent later, after this one, I did not receive this one in my inbox until after I'd opened the other one. So I suppose someone from the U.S. withheld it for some reason.

This is the transcript of msg, below:

I am out of the office until 12/25/2025.

Dear Madam/Sir,

Please be informed that the tb-petitions@ohchr.org address will be discontinued.
Kindly address your communications or queries to petitions@ohchr.org.

Yours sincerely,

Petitions and Inquiries Section
Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights
Palais des Nations
CH-1211 Genève 10
Switzerland

Fax: + 41 22 917 90 22
'''''''''''''''''''''''''

Chère Madame, Cher Monsieur,

Soyez informé, s'il vous plait, que l'adresse tb-petitions@ohchr.org n'est plus en service.
Veuillez envoyer vos communications ou vos requêtes à petitions@ohchr.org.

Nous vous prions d'agréer, Madame, Monsieur, l'expression de notre considération distinguée.
This is another email that just came into my box but was not there earlier. I checked my inbox and this was not there, even though the next msg from UN was sent after this one, according to time and date:

Section des requêtes et des enquêtes
Bureau du Haut-Commissariat aux droits de l'homme
Palais des Nations
CH-1211 Genève 10
Switzerland

Fax: + 41 22 917 90 22

Note: This is an automated response to your message "Emergency Petition To Convention Against Torture" sent on 12/02/2012 07:33:12.

This is the only notification you will receive while this person is away.

Email from Parents (forced to lie because of lack of control re. torture)

2012-02-13T12:45:00.000-08:00

After the UN had someone with a clear conflict of interest try to reject my petition of torture and violations of CAT by government/religious officials in the U.S. and Canada, and respective collusion between members of these two states, I got an email from my mother.

It was basically after they were in Nevada, before forced to write things they don't believe.

I sent my CAT complaint to the UN on the evening of February 11, 2012. My mother sent an email to me the next morning, which was after my laptop shut down completely and wouldn't reboot, and I left phone msgs with both of my parents, telling them I was being tortured worse with U.S. technology since I emailed the UN and OIG.

The only reason my mother would then write and try to say not to send the CAT petition or deny any of us are tortured, or pretend I have spiritual "problems", is because they are unable to control what is being done to themselves, to their children, and their grandchildren.

They are forced to lie.

They have been writing this kind of thing to me, just lying for people, since I filed my lawsuits in 2001-2002.

They never did this before then. Ever.

They have been forced to lie because of criminals who are also working in the U.S. government and my parents were forced to "understand" that they and their family were going to be tortured and they had no control over it.

Sent Email To OPCAT

2012-02-13T12:26:00.001-08:00

I sent another email separately to OPCAT just now, asking for intervention and telling them I was sending my signature by fax and that I had been blocked from electronically signing by PDF because my laptop was shut down after I sent my petition to the UN and U.S. OIG.

I just checked my sent box and it's not showing up that I sent the mail to OPCAT so I'm sending it again.

Sent Email To OPCAT

2012-02-13T12:26:00.000-08:00

Evidence of U.S. Signatory to CAT & My Own Signature

2012-02-13T12:14:00.000-08:00

RE: Emergency Petition To Convention Against Torture‏
To cam huegenot, tb-petitions@ohchr.org
From: cam huegenot (cameocares@live.com)
Sent: Mon 2/13/12 12:13 PM
To: cam huegenot (cameocares@live.com); tb-petitions@ohchr.org

Please review your own UN website for evidence that proves the United States is a signatory to the Convention Against Torture.

A signature has the same effect as a "declaration". They signed it and they are bound to it. Please forward my emergency petition of torture to a non-Catholic member of the UN and note that my petition of harm is made against 2 "states", both which have either signed or signed/ratified the CAT: U.S.A. and Canada.

Thanks, and here's a link to your own evidence. I will be submitting my own electronic signature to my petition (which is still in draft form but needs immediate attention) as well as sending a signature by fax.

http://www.hrweb.org/legal/catsigs.html

From: cameocares@live.com
To: tb-petitions@ohchr.org; dicksiedael@aol.com
Subject: FW: Emergency Petition To Convention Against Torture
Date: Mon, 13 Feb 2012 11:57:03 -0800

Dear Madam or Sir,

First of all, my complaint was emailed to you on February 11th, 2012, not the 13th.

Secondly, my complaint is against TWO states: The United States of America and British Colombia (Canada).

Has Canada made the respective declaration?

Both states have government officials who have colluded to commit torture against my family.

Additionally, because the nature of my torture petition involves religious hate crime most particularly by members of the Roman Catholic Church, my petition should not be handled by any person who is a member of this church, from any nation.

Please let me know about Canada and also how you are refusing my emergency petition when the U.S. signed the Geneva Convention agreeing not to torture any of their own citizens.

Forward this to a non-Catholic party, and please, one which does not accept monetary bribes and favors from this church.

Thank You,

Ms. Cameo Loree Garrett
on behalf of an entire Protestant family tortured in the U.S.A.

Evidence of U.S. Signatory to Geneva Convention Against Torture

2012-02-13T12:02:00.000-08:00

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_parties_to_the_Geneva_Conventions#cite_note-1

Here you will find a list of countries which signed and also signed and ratified The Geneva Convention treaty, which is a primary treaty against torture, which is enforced by the UN.

The U.S. signed and ratified all sections in 1955, and 2007 and then signed a couple of other sections as well.

Canada has fully signed and ratified all sections.

http://www.hrweb.org/legal/catsigs.html
This site is from the United Nations official website and shows the United States has in fact signed the treaty for Convention Against Torture, and actually, even had OTHER countries sign it, in New York, U.S.A.

How clever to invite other nations to sign a treaty they later attempt to deny signing themselves.

What? The United States is unwilling to put their name to their own signature, and elevate their reputation by agreeing they do not subscribe to torture of their own citizens?

The U.S. is either a state that tortures its own citizens or is not. It has either signed the treaty or not.

This link is from 1997, but the other link shows they signed and ratified Geneva and other torture treaties from 2007 forward.

The U.S. is guilty of crimes in the name of religion.

UN CAT for U.S.A. and Canada (2 states, both signed Geneva Treaty)

2012-02-13T11:57:00.000-08:00

From: cameocares@live.com
To: tb-petitions@ohchr.org; dicksiedael@aol.com
Subject: FW: Emergency Petition To Convention Against Torture
Date: Mon, 13 Feb 2012 11:57:03 -0800

Dear Madam or Sir,

First of all, my complaint was emailed to you on February 11th, 2012, not the 13th.

Secondly, my complaint is against TWO states: The United States of America and British Colombia (Canada).

Has Canada made the respective declaration?

Both states have government officials who have colluded to commit torture against my family.

Additionally, because the nature of my torture petition involves religious hate crime most particularly by members of the Roman Catholic Church, my petition should not be handled by any person who is a member of this church, from any nation.

Please let me know about Canada and also how you are refusing my emergency petition when the U.S. signed the Geneva Convention agreeing not to torture any of their own citizens.

Forward this to a non-Catholic party, and please, one which does not accept monetary bribes and favors from this church.

Thank You,

Ms. Cameo Loree Garrett
on behalf of an entire Protestant family tortured in the U.S.A.

To: cameocares@live.com
Subject: Re: Emergency Petition To Convention Against Torture
From: petitions@ohchr.org
Date: Mon, 13 Feb 2012 10:19:44 +0100

REFERENCE: G/SO 229/31 USA(GEN) 13 February 2012

Dear Sir,

We hereby acknowledge receipt of your communication dated 13 February 2012.

After careful consideration of the contents of your communication, we sincerely regret having to inform you that the Petitions and Inquiries Section of the United Nations Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights (OHCHR) is not in a position to assist you in the matter you raise, for the following reason:

According to article 22, paragraph 1, of the Convention against Torture and Other Cruel, Inhuman or Degrading Treatment or Punishment, the Committee against Torture shall not admit any communication concerning a State party which has not made the declaration recognizing the competence of the Committee to receive and consider communications from or on behalf of individuals subject to its jurisdiction claiming to be victims of a violation of a violation by this State party of their rights set forth in the Convention. United States of America has not made the respective declaration under article 22, paragraph 1, and therefore the Committee against Torture is not competent to receive and consider any individual communications concerning the United States of America.

Yours sincerely,

Petitions and Inquiries Section (Section des requêtes et des enquêtes)
Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights
Palais des Nations
CH-1211 Genève 10
Switzerland

Fax: + 41 22 917 90 22

From: cam huegenot
To: ,
Date: 12/02/2012 07:33
Subject: Emergency Petition To Convention Against Torture

Dear Convention Against Torture:

I have 103 pages of my report of torture of my family.

It is out of order but my father showed up with another knife cut to his throat and I cannot waste anymore time.

I have the information to contact us with on first 2 pages. My parents will answer their cell phones but will not admit to being tortured in this country because they have been repeatedly assaulted and it will be worse.

I continue to be assaulted by technology and this has made it impossible for me to continue to try to organize the rambling information I have so far, and put it into chronological timeframe and order.

I hope that by sending this it is enough to request the U.S. to immediately quit all torture against these listed family members or use of them for any kind of government research and work.

I will continue to organize what I have and there is more to add, and parts to edit which are redundant.

Please help us immediately. I will follow this report with an electronic signature after I find a PDF program but I don't have access to a fax machine to send a signature to, so I will have to use PDF signature.

Because I am worried and this is urgent, I am sending this unsigned copy first, and then will do my best under these conditions of continued torture, to find a program to sign this with. Then I will continue to work on this and organize it better for your reception.

Thank You very much for your time. My parents have been sent out on a trip that is coordinated by the U.S. which they did not want to go on. They are in California now and will be traveling to Arizona and I believe the stops are involving CIA in both locations. They are forced to work and forced to remain silent about torture.

I made an inquiry in Summer of this year and they were instantly retaliated against. My mother had a 2 inch scar on her face and I reported this to the UN and the next day she was taken out of town and returned in shock, glassy-eyed, and abused. For the next 3 weeks she was forced to apply 100% solution alpha-hydroxy acid to her face to peel off evidence of the knife scar to her cheek (it was not extremely deep but visible as a knife scar).

I have not been able to try to address your CAT earlier because of the severity of torture and being drugged as well. My Dad has shown up with knife cuts under his chin and to the side of his neck and recently showed up with this and was trying not to cry.

We are being tortured and the Red Cross here, the U.S. Red Cross, is a waste of time. They work with the CIA.

Please assist.

Sincerely,

Cameo Loree Garrett
(this draft to be followed by PDF with electronic signature, and then completed copy to follow as soon as possible)

United Nations Complaint Submitted Feb. 11, not 13th

2012-02-13T11:32:00.002-08:00

I submitted a UN complaint of over 103 pages.

I believe a man of Eastern Indian nationality took this complaint that I sent and reviewed it, because it was of someone who at least appeared (mind's eye) to be Eastern Indian.

I submitted my complaint on the 11th and they received it that same hour.

It went to the wrong person.

Subsequently, I and my family were tortured more severely.

My laptop which I privately owned was shut down completely.

Not only was I unable to sleep at all, due to severe torture, my parents were nearly in tears that next day that I spoke with them, I suppose because they already knew what the outcome was.

Someone who is corrupt at the United Nations took this complaint of torture. They are bribed.

Then, I got a response from someone from this organization just today, on the 13th, when they had received it on the 11th. They addressed me as "Sir" already knowing I am a woman as my complaint indicates rape of a woman (myself) by a man.

They are working with the United States mafia, FBI, and CIA.

It is true that an Italian-American man, via Leon Panetta, attempted to pressure the UN. immediately after I made an emergency petition and inquiry last summer regarding torture and forced labor of my family. He directed his bribe and reminder of who pays for poor country's to have food (the U.S., and alluding to the billion dollar with East India) to the director of the UN, who is Eastern Indian.

Panetta's entire move to travel to Eastern India and make a trade pact with them was done when he knew and anticipated I was going to contact them for assistance regarding torture being committed with collusion of the Holy See and CIA.

I knew it then, before later an Italian-American man even shot off his missile to the UN, to remind them of the deal and bribe.

The UN has received numerous allegations of abuse and torture and civil rights violations against the U.S.

They are attempting to negotiate around the delicate reputation of United States criminals.

By claiming the U.S. has not signed, and is not party to Convention Against Torture laws, they are attempting to force me to redesignate my petition.

I am not going to do that.

It is a torture claim, nothing less, and the United States signed the Geneva Convention treaty.

I find it strange that the person receiving my UN petition would first claim to have received it on Feb. 13th, when I sent it, and they got it, on the 11th.

Not only that, someone there knows that my family was punished further for my submission of this claim.

I sent a copy to the United States Office of the Inspector General on the same evening.

The person who is in charge of the OIG at present is Roman Catholic and nearly the entire staff is as well.

My computer/laptop will not work properly at all since I sent my petition to the UN. Immediately after I sent it, and copies to the OIG, someone was refusing to allow it to boot up, then they were hacking and obstructing my access to email. I am now at the library computer and had to wait through Sunday, after sending in my torture complaint on Saturday night. Sunday the library was closed, so I am now here first thing on Monday.

The only thing I did not do is electronically "sign" my complaint to the UN.

Which I still intend to do, because the grounds upon which my complaint was refused by someone at the UN are improper.

They cannot "receive" a complaint of torture if it is not properly signed. I believe, given the nature of the complaint, they can make efforts to treat a complaint as true, without signature, or electronic signature, but the grounds upon which they denied my complaint are as thin and flakey as the person who responded.

When someone who is more professional, who has more experience with United Nations, actually handles a complaint the way it should be handled, I might pay attention, but as it is, I feel that since the Italian-American man was worried enough to try to bribe the UN back last summer, they know I have grounds to file a petition against the United States AND Canada.

And my complaint was against both states, not just one.

The United States is guilty of torture and violation of rights and degrading treatment, as are Canadian officials who colluded to do the same.

Has Canada signed a treaty for Convention Against Torture?

They both signed the Geneva Treaty and are liable to be held accountable to Committee/Convention Against Torture.

UN (eastern indian man) attempts to Obstruct CAT complaint

2012-02-13T11:32:00.001-08:00

EFERENCE: G/SO 229/31 USA(GEN) 13 February 2012

Dear Sir,

We hereby acknowledge receipt of your communication dated 13 February 2012.

After careful consideration of the contents of your communication, we sincerely regret having to inform you that the Petitions and Inquiries Section of the United Nations Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights (OHCHR) is not in a position to assist you in the matter you raise, for the following reason:

According to article 22, paragraph 1, of the Convention against Torture and Other Cruel, Inhuman or Degrading Treatment or Punishment, the Committee against Torture shall not admit any communication concerning a State party which has not made the declaration recognizing the competence of the Committee to receive and consider communications from or on behalf of individuals subject to its jurisdiction claiming to be victims of a violation of a violation by this State party of their rights set forth in the Convention. United States of America has not made the respective declaration under article 22, paragraph 1, and therefore the Committee against Torture is not competent to receive and consider any individual communications concerning the United States of America.

Yours sincerely,

Petitions and Inquiries Section (Section des requêtes et des enquêtes)
Office of the High Commissioner for Human Rights
Palais des Nations
CH-1211 Genève 10
Switzerland

Fax: + 41 22 917 90 22

From: cam huegenot
To: ,
Date: 12/02/2012 07:33
Subject: Emergency Petition To Convention Against Torture

FBI's Laurie Laughlin

2012-02-11T22:07:00.000-08:00

I forgot to write, but since I was just thinking about knives, I have this photo of FBI SAC Laurie Laughlin on my start page.

This morning, I started it up and saw her face, and saw her watching a throat being slit.

So I am sort of wondering what that is all about.

It just came to mind now, because I was writing about the knife scar to my mother's cheek and cut marks to my Dad's throat and neck.

I am not implying Laurie at all, but at least separately, when I saw her photo, I saw her, watching a knife slitting a throat.

So I am highly interested in this woman's extracurricular activities.

"Bethel" (The "Supernatural" CIA) in "Reading" (Redding)

2012-02-11T20:30:00.001-08:00

http://www.ibethel.org/

I feel really bad for my parents right now. I was supposed to have my report to the UN completed before they had to go on this "trip" to California and Arizona.

This group that came up from Redding, CA, which I visited, and where I was tortured while sitting there, with all kinds of Tanzer-Sterling mementos all over the place, is like another pseudo-church that is actually more like a Meth-LSD-CIA joint.

This is the place where I said, "I just don't want to get any LSD in a communion wafer."

My parents are going to this church tomorrow.

I think it's bad news. From what I saw of the church, these people are more CIA than religious at all. All they did, the entire night, was try to read other people, make fun of my family, put on acts to sound like people I used to know from New Song Church (which was totally bizarre) and a lot of PSI work.

It was straight-up, CIA, PSI.

I looked up the site and their 2 year college is called "Bethel: supernatural ministry".

What kind of christian college wants to give itself a title like that?

Bethel, the Supernatural Ministry college?

Can I get a real degree from there? Or just recruited into the CIA or military for more black op programs?

It's in Northern California, in Redding. Which used to be called "Reading" but it's Redding. It has nothing to do (my opinion) with whatever "Reading" is supposed to be some kind of prophetic thing. You know, with Kate Middleton being born in "Reading" in England and all, to conveniently fit some kind of prophetic prescription.

It has nothing to do with that.

If anyone ever made a prophecy about someone falling for someone who had something to do with "Reading" it probably had nothing to do with "Redding" or "Reading" in England and had to do with the fact that the woman "read" a lot. You know, big reader. Reading quite often. Sort of like Belle in Beauty and the Beast. Reading. I was reading Reader's Digest from the age of 5, before Kate was ever born. Reading Reader's Digest. Oh, let's shuttle Katie to Reading, UK.

Which I've certaintly always done. A ton of reading. Especially as a little girl and then my degree was in English Literature, which was, ah, I guess a "threat" which is maybe why some of these idiots didn't want me to get a college education.

Too much "reading".

I mean, the things some of these people have done, with little world wargames and psi games, is quite sick. Would I marry me? Of course not. No one would. Not now. Not anymore. But look at what they did to me. Was I possibly the person they were most concerned about?

Yes.

I was.

There is NO other explanation for what has happened and the lengths that certain groups have gone to. So absolutely, way overdue, way past prime, and not counting on my eggs to hatch or anything but just wanting my own son returned, criminals tortured my family because most likely, I was the one that was showing up as the signaled prophetic booty call and not Kate. Sorry, but an ocean apart makes zero difference when it comes to these things.

Do I care? Am I pining? Do I think it makes a difference?

Not now. Not at all. No possible way, hope,...way beyond, beyond. But my point is simply this.

A spade is a spade.

I am not going to call torture of my family something other than what it is and how dare anyone attempt to change or convert the whole thing to look like it was something else.

It wasn't.

Am I a threat now? I don't know. I should say not, and then I get blasted away with torture again just for putting up some links to songs and portraits from online art galleries.

I still get assaulted for things like this. But no, I am not a threat. How is that possible? It's not. I have photos of myself all over the place, taken when I was doped and not ones you show to the world. I have said and written disgraceful things in the middle of extreme and severe torture. I am impoverished and told to be "mentally ill" for the sake of peons who are not yet satisfied that I am 37 years old and pushed out of everything.

So no, I am delusional. I don't imagine to fit my foot into that shoe.

But the point is that now I DO know what this was about and don't dare lie to me. You lied to the world and everyone else, and tortured my family, and there is no way I am allowing this to go down without the truth told.

If they had not worried about my parent's prophetic gifts and what they saw down the road for me, which may have taken place had we not all been assaulted in our own country, none of this would have happened.

None of it.

I never would have been raped. I never would have been stalked. My mother might have worn her hair parted down the middle longer than she did, quitting that style in the late 70s (she told me tonight). I asked my mother about her headaches, when she started getting them, and she got them 3 days at a time in Moses Lake. She said in her 30s. I said then, "How come you quit wearing your hair parted down the middle mom? because there are all these photos of you with your hair parted in the middle." She said, "I don't know, because it wasn't the style anymore." I sort of laughed and said, "When wasn't it the style anymore?" and she said, "Late 70s".

All of a sudden, the phone got super patchy and was breaking up. My Mom said, "It's getting choppy. It's choppy. I can't hear you because it's choppy. Your voice is breaking up." I said, "Ok". She said, "You said Ok? I got that. Okay talk to you later."

My parents have literally been tortured over The Middletons for decades.

It is one of the most disgusting things I have ever discovered.

As for me, I wasn't tortured (that I recall) until later in high school with the flare with Robin Bechtold's parents and then especially with my lawsuits.

But there were these people always lurking around, trying to keep me from being noticed, from going to college, from looking nice, they just wanted me married and shuttled away under a troll bridge somewhere. Out of the way, forgotten, let's not remember her and let's make sure she is never discovered or found.

It's like I've had hideous curses from evil witches hanging over my head for decades and never knew it.

It is the worst cinderella story in all history. Ever. It's the one that never goes back to the way it was because it's impossible. Two ways to permanently impair fairytale prophecy: Kill the woman, or B. trash her, make her look like a criminal, rape her, torture her, capture inglorious moments on video and audio and blog, and designate for psych ward.

Sorry, but it's not exactly looking like an Uma Thurman rising from the grave story. Its not even a "Let's repair Angelina Jolie's reputation by placing the humanitarian stamp over the blood vial! YEAH!"

No.

This is like the world's worst horror movie, sponsored by the CIA.

They don't know what to do with their MK-Ultra rejects. They let Mossad rape them, the Holy See throw them into jail on false charges, and then fold their hands and blackmail the existing ones into training up a new brood.

Like I was the good seed that fell on faulty soil. I was, unfortunately, on U.S. soil and what a shame that's it's their turf that is the problem.

So now it's like, okay, retire the bitch. She's not putting out for anyone we work with, and we knew that awhile ago.

They literally punished me by stealing my singing voice. Now they torture me, and want to do a surgery to remove whatever crappy tracking devices they implanted in 1995 before I leave the country on political asylum and some other country does it.

I don't think the U.S. wants that kind of evidence hanging over their heads because then it would definitively prove everything I said is true.

They've attempted to completely rewrite history too.

My parents never lived on "Cherry St." It was "Matson". Right. I mean, these criminals are literally torturing my parents to LIE about our own history. Why??! So the Wale's boys don't ever really know what their own mother was about and who she supported??! What if Diana worked for the CIA. No one really knows for sure.

All I know, is that my parents are forced to suddenly wear crappy clothes, and send me things to wear that they would never pick for me or think is nice, and our entire family background and history is being turned into a lie.

It's like the Catholic church and some Jews wanted to get out this huge Eraser and start wiping away any trace of anything that might point to a conclusion that is vastly different from her sons are led to think.

My interest in it is this: My son and I are ummm...TORTURED.

That is NOT NORMAL. People in the United States of America do not get randomly tortured and visited regularly by the CIA and military okay? Not unless there is something very serious going on. So when I start talking about this, it isn't out of a delusional idea that I might get somewhere with it personally (how does it make me look good to tear anyone down?), but the point is to get to the bottom of why we are being tortured.

I don't trust my parents at this Bethel church. I do not entrust their safety there. That California group came into town and I sat there being tortured so badly I almost vomited and blacked out. It was all to my lower back and it felt like ultrasound. I didn't notice it as much while sitting there but it got hotter and hotter and then I got up to use the restroom and noticed my back was KILLING me and ached and recognized it as ultrasound.

They fucking lasered me and used ultrasound on me in this "church".

Do you know what else they did? they had some guy with a British accent paint a painting of the impression I wrote I had on my blog days earlier, of a V shaped veil inbetween 2 mountains.

I felt it was like the whole thing was a combo mind-warp mixed with mafia and black op CIA psi crap. They like to warp it a little just to make people feel slightly nuts. Because what they DO, IS NUTS.

They sang and played 4 worship songs. I didn't sing for even one of them, noting the little inscription at the bottom of each hymn: Used with permission.

No one in MY family is being "used with permission" and I'm not fucking singing to your shitty songs when we have no cause to sing, no cause to "be happy!", and NONE of us consent to being used by anyone for this treatment. So for me symbolically, I refused to sing along to even one song that had "used with permission" written at the bottom because I do not agree with my voice to this. My consent is not on any of it.

This man kept saying God's people are "happy". Right. Try being happy with a knife through your back. Or in your butt. Real happy.

I can have a kind of peace in my heart or understanding with God that He knows my suffering and what I'm going through, but for me to stand and sing and "be happy!" while you have someone directing ultrasound at my back and are painting my blogged ideas and everything....ummm...nah. Why be fake? I am me and that is why God likes me just the way I am. If I feel happy, it comes from my heart. If I feel sad, it is reflected in my eyes.

You can go buy your fake girl any day of the week. I'm not the fake one.

Was I howling out in pain? or grimacing? no. I stood composed and reserved, as someone who is tortured publicly around a bunch of hyenas might do. So I might maintain a stolid face, in contrast to extreme pain, but that's because I already know none of you are there to do anything to really help me.

Instead, I watched all these people "calling out" illnesses anyone might have any day of the week. And hoping I might stand up which I would never do. I might WRITE about this stuff, but that's because I'm trying to get help for being tortured, not because that is how I compose myself or because this is my natural state.

What do you people think I AM anyway?!

This one woman with brown hair even fell down on her knees leaning forward, like she was praying. I thought to myself, "Yeah, it's not you that I see praying on her knees." The woman I have seen was nowhere in that room. I mean, the woman I've seen worshiping God, dancing, praying, everything. She wasn't there. It's not Katie, Waitie Katie either. She is older (40s maybe), pretty, and shorter, and weighs a little more, and has very thick dark brown to black hair that is shoulder-length. I have never seen her in person. But I have seen her many times in impressions or sometimes when praying to God myself (not in awhile though). I think she's from a different country but I don't know where.

But anyway, they just had one thing after the other, to prompt memories of the past, of New Song Church, and there were Catholics and some Jews there too. I mainly felt it was invasive. And I felt, dangerous, because they tortured me while I was there and I'm sure they tortured my parents. At least 2 of the men had British accents but they were different varieties (none of them being the Kiera Knightly variety). I am sure there were a few very nice people there but the fact remains, I sat there and I was tortured and I did NOT feel my parents were safe and now they are going to that church tomorrow.

Then, I went to the bathroom and it was little nods of Tanzer this and Sterling that and Joy this and Gel-that. And since Mike Tanzer's family is from Northern California somewhere, it made me wonder what kind of angle they were trying to work. I mean, who are these people connected to? Tim Henderson and Kari Sue? Uggh. Kari Sue. Or Bechtolds? or Tanzers? or just plain old "Supernatural!" CIA.

What a bunch of hooey.

My parents are kind, thoughtful, patient and considerate people who generally try to do good, are sometimes a little self-seeking like anyone, but who have also been extraordinarily humble my entire life and never exalted even their own kids.

They have made sacrifices no one understands.

At any time, they could have easily said certain things to win something or prove a point, and they have been humble and subjected to ill-treatment instead.

I don't appreciate being used or experimented on myself, but I also know they do not choose everything for themselves. This country thinks they own us and they exploit us for profit and give back very little in return.

Torture is such a great return.

I feel sorry that I did not get my complaint to the UN out sooner but I am still working on it. Maybe tonight. I tried the other night, and was tortured too badly. So I think I can send it out tonight, and then follow it up.

"Matt's Son Street."

Give me a break.

Nope. We never lived on Cherry St.

"What do you mean we never lived on Cherry Street?"

It was Matt's-son Street.

"No, I remember, when I was younger, you told me we lived on Cherry Street in Moses Lake and we did. I remember."

(silence)

Hey! Mom and Dad, are we being tortured?

"No. And we lived on Matt's-son Street."

Okay. Right. Time to call the United Nations.

"We are NOT being tortured. We are not forced to work. We are not blackmailed. And we do not have hands, feet, and heads."

Okay, tell me this mom and dad, do you believe I'm being tortured?

"No." (tear sliding down face).

No. No. No.

So yeah, we're really "safe" here in the U.S. where they are trying to rewrite our entire lives.

"What happened to the knife scar on your cheek Mom?"

I don't have one.

"Well you did. And I reported it to the UN. Then Patty took you away and your face looked like you were using 100% alpha-hydroxy acid for about 3 weeks. So is that how you got rid of the scar?"

Judging by our dog's reaction, the perp who wielded the knife against my mother had a British accent.

My mother went from having a knife scar on her face to NOT having one after several weeks of appying acid solutions to her face. I saw it. Her face was tight, red, and shiny like crazy for weeks after I reported it and then it was gone.

No one wanted the UN to know exactly HOW bad it is.

It was about 2 inches long, all the way down my mother's cheek. Sort of faint and not extremely deep, one you COULD get rid of through huge application of alpha-hydroxy. It was new since I saw her 7 years ago.

These people are torturing my parents.

That chopping knife has a UK label on it (the one our dog was afraid of).

I've seen cuts to my Dad's neck and throat as well. He had one recently, in the last couple of days and there is a photo with one on his neck from last Christmas with my son.

They are torturing my parents and the FBI is in on it.

Prayer & Direction (small thing) and Torture by U.S. Military

2012-02-11T19:15:00.001-08:00

I do not advocate superstition. Of course not. I am slightly into symbolic though, on occasion. You know, religious or spiritual through prayer or interesting things. I'm not austere in that way but I also feel very practical and don't put trust in every coincidence or "sign".

You understand.

Well anyway, maybe sometimes God does use signs.

Because he showed me my son again.

I had been thinking about my son actually, about how this country has done all these things to us and I had opened this mail which gives me more time to file for discretiionary review but with what money?

There is no reason why I shouldn't have a normal income. I have always been capable and had the ability and instead, this country and the FBI interfered. Had the FBI done their job, I would never have suffered so many years. It could have never gotten as bad.

So I had a huge stack of different papers on my table and some under a shelf I haven't look at for months.

I had just made beets and sliced them, and had quinoa with sunflower seed puree earlier (and sprouts) for dinner. I made the beets for tomorrow.

So I had the idea to press one beet down onto a paper because a little beet juice got onto this note I had made, next to music, for Paris Conservetoire.

Instead of doing something random, I prayed first. "God, please let my hand find the paper, out of all these papers, that you want me to stamp with this round beet."

Strange prayer, but I do have a small amount of faith even if I know I am occasionally irritable and foul-mouthed feeling.

So I chose insteead of the table, this big stack under a shelf that I haven't touched for a long time and I don't even remember what all is there, right?

So I reached in and didn't look and pulled something out and guess what it was?

Of all things.

My social security number request.

A form from the Social Security Administration.

It was a note confirming I had gone there on October 21, 2011 to request a card with my name and number on it.

So I already had the beet and I pressed it down onto it. And then again, and again, and again, until I was almost out of beet juice.

Oliver.

My son.

This country is responsible for abducting a child from his legal guardian and I never wanted him to be assigned a social security number. Now they are forcing me to take SSI disability.

I finished and looked at it and it looked very much like some of the artwork my son and I did with paints, when he was only 1-1 1/2, before we left for Canada.

To me, it is a sign that out of all these papers, God remembers everything and he is keeping score.

He knows what happened to me and my son.

And by the way, all day someone has targeted the metal in my neck. Not severely, but enough to feel, and then I was tired and tried to go to sleep early at about 7 p.m. and I couldn't sleep because the U.S. focused technology over my legs and body that caused all my muscles to twitch and move beneath the skin.

My feet have been cramping and curling at night because this is being done every single night again. It from potassium deficiency and loss of hydration because of the U.S. targeting me with technology.

They have injected me with radioactive contrast for purposes of U.S. military, not for legitimate medical reasons.

We have to leave.

There is no option to stay. We have to leave and must leave at the earliest possible moment.

I have tried to leave, and been trapped and forced to stay here. I have literally been held hostage in this country. I do not want to leave without my parents, and feel we should all be leaving but they don't want to leave (so they say).

I think it's a lie that they don't want to leave.

Of course we would like to live here and have normal lives.

But this country refuses us that. They torture us. They tortured us long enough, and even forced us to STAY here and endure MORE torture.

What kind of country DOES this?

They hauled me and my son back from Canada to be tortured.

No just country in the world does this kind of thing. Then they forced me to be used for research to cover up for their religious hate crimes and kept my passport from me, or alternately kept me from having any money.

My transcript still isn't paid for. It was supposed to be last week, after I agreed to file for SSI disability and gave my word. It's still not done. Apparently the woman from Portland State University who got a message from my mother to call, has not returned her phone call. It's been a week, and this woman from PSU doesn't have the decency to call my mother back. It's just a call for confirming the amount they already confirmed and sending out a check. And the PSU woman has not called back and my mother has been trying to reach her for one full week.

All these people do, is stall to keep me out of college and from entering by deadlines for admission.

This is one reason I am not going back to Portland State University. If I did, I could save time and money, and streamline things more easily, because that's where I went before and they have online programs as well.

But I do not believe in rewarding bad behavior even if it is technically a higher quality college than some of the others (at least, as they are ranked).

So anyway, the same thing I was telling the Iranian man in Maryland about, when I told him how my son and I twitched all night and there was constant movement under our skin and then my son's arms flailing up straight into the air, and how his toenails and my nails became warped and curled and then our kittens skeletal structure became warped to the point the kitten grew up deformed and hunched up with a kinked tail...that man said it sounded like MRI satellite technology. And he said, stunned, "I, I can't believe the United States would do that. Other countries, we hear about it but I didn't think they did that here."

They do.

He was a sincere person. He believed me enough and was sincere enough in his educated opinion that it scared him to the point of not wanting to be around me or see me again. Can you blame him? anyone would think the same thing--if the United States military is doing this to HER and her baby, they might go after me.

This country has incurred a horrendous debt. A horrendous debt and a horrendous reputation and I am writing this and it's not enough. Then they do something to affect my left ear. And yes, I can tell it's technology.

They are criminals.

I was suing them.

I was suing their friends and they cut me out of the lawsuits, used the FBI illegally to HELP them and then initiated a torture regime and program.

What a clever way to get out of being sued when you deserve to be sued.

That is what this country has come to. Torture in the place of free and fair competition. Which is exactly why no other nation should be trading with the U.S.

Did Steve Jobs die of natural causes? or do we just think it was natural because it "looked" natural?

Great way to eliminate competition. Torture people.

Infect them with AIDS.

Inject them with radioactive materials and pray they get cancer.

They are not torturing me for national security.

Raping me and refusing to take a report on rape is not "national security".

Torturing me out of lawsuits is not a "national security" issue.

These are U.S. officials getting away with plain crime.

Nurse Stephanie Steals $20 From My Bag @ Coos Bay Hospital

2012-02-11T15:18:00.001-08:00

This nurse stole $20 out of my bag and now it explains why she pushed me out of the hospital instead of calling a doctor when I asked for one for seizure.

I have not gone anywhere since that trip to the hospital. Nowhere, and my bag was with me the entire time.

I had over $30 on me, zipped up in the pocket of my bag and the only time it was not with me was when I was in the ER.

At all times in the ambulance and elsewhere, I had my bag on my lap in front of me and any ambulance attendent knows this. Actually, the first time, to the Coquille one, it was always in front of me. The second time, someone had it for a moment in the ambulance on the way to Coos Bay. There were 2 men there.

However, I never heard it being unzipped once.

The only other time it was not with me was when they wheeled me from the ER room in Coos Bay to the CT room. My bag was left behind in the ER room and someone got into the front pocket that was zipped and stole $20 from me. They left me with $9 and stole $20.

I believe it was that nurse Stephanie, because she was the only one going to that room. It was a room closed off where someone oould do this too. And SHE was the one who was acted suspicious when she wanted me to sign a paper but I was sick and said I needed to use the bathroom first.

I was nauseous and drooled all over the sink and then pulled the emergency cord to that restroom and SHE had called POLICE/Security guard and a hispanic nurse to force me into a wheelchair and she wheeled me right outside of the hospital in the middle of my drooling and while I was saying, "I'm having seizure symptoms and I need to see a doctor."

This money was not stolen from me at my house because I've been here the entire time and I locked the door each time, and had a chair over the door as well, in the middle of the night.

The woman who stole my money was this pregnant nurse Stephanie.

She was the one who acted strange and now I know why she shoved me out. She was worried I had found out I was missing money so she wanted to use some of her friends to push me out. We hadn't had any disagreement or anything. I just had my bag with me and said I was sick and I would be right back but needed to use the bathroom. It wasn't a big deal.

It would only be a big deal to a thief who was worried I had found out she stole from me and that I might be going to the bathroom to make a call to police to report theft.

That was why she called a police/security guard over there.

I had no clue why they were treating me this way but now that I know they stole money from me, it makes more sense.

It was the same $20 that is marked with a 21 in the middle and a circle around it. It's a marked bill and she stole it.

I had it missing from my pants pocket and it was stolen from my house but I had my doors unlocked and then left them unlocked again so someone had a "chance" to decently return it from where they stole it the first time and they did.

The first time they stole from me when I had not locked doors or barricaded my doors or anything.

It's not "Air Force". That bitch nurse stole it out of my bag when I was wheeled into another room for a CT scan.

Then she acted totally bizarre when I needed help from the bathroom from seizure and the only explanation is that she got self-defensive and worried that I was calling police about the theft or something. Why else call all those people and keep me from seeing a doctor? and stare at my bag while I was taking it with me to the restroom first?

It was her.

Since then, I have not left the house and not only that, I barricaded my doors.

The thing is, I don't think it's going to "show up" again and there are people that knew I only had so much money for paying my safety deposit box with. I had already figured out if I spent ALL of my foodstamp money on bottled water, for the next 2 months, just to get 5 cents per bottle, that's $48 a month which makes close to $100 and then I had close to $30 with me. My deposit box fee is $130.

So Stephanie's theft of my $20 brings me up short.

And I asked for a loan on paying for the box and repaying, while I don't have work and my parent's refused because the FBI apparently thinks they can get into my box.

So I was going to have enough money to pay off my safety deposit box and also have money for legal papers for my case with my son and now I don't.

These fuckers knew.

I had already stated out loud, to my parents, and in the house as well, that I was going to have to go to food banks then for a couple of months and get food that way and spend ALL of my money on bottled water. Anyone could figure out how much I would obtain from doing this.

So they stole from me to cut me short, because #1 they have tried to freeze me out of money to fight for my Appeal to my son Oliver, and #2, they are worried about my paying for that box and don't want me to be able to pay for the annual fee. Why? Because I have some SHIT against them and they know it and they want their fucking hands on it and don't want me to have it.

They were telling my parents to ask Wells Fargo if they would "mail" me the contents of my box. I said, "I don't trust them to handle my box and the contents and they're just going to go through my stuff and mail it to me? They don't do that."

Who wants to go through my personal papers?

How about legal bitches that never sent me the records they were required to send me, or OIG bitches that know I have proof that I made requests to the OIG for investigation and saved copies to show the UN, and FBI requests, and notes from the shit they pulled on me at the psych ward?

I would like to know what religion that nurse Stephanie is. It's one or the other.

Catholic or Jewish.

Does she know Anne Crane?

So now, if I spend all of my money on water bottles, which is pathetic in the first place and proof that this country is FUCKED, I will have $96 if I buy the cheapest ones (which they already figured out) and then I have $9 left to my name at my house. Grand total of $105. My safety deposit box fee is due April 28th, they told me.

What a nice date. April 28th. First they said it's actually the 24th and then they made it the 28th. Just for fun.

Before Stephanie stole the $20, I would have had $125, which is just $5 short of the amount needed to pay for another year, and I have that much in bottles sitting around the house.

So I was barely able to pay for my safety deposit box and possibly pay for some copies for legal things for my case that I have to mail.

So when this BITCH stole my money, she wasn't doing it for a thrill.

She was doing it knowing it kept me from paying off my safety deposit box on April 28th.

And she pushed me out of the hospital while I was in the middle of seizure symptoms too.

I get foodstamps disbursed on the 2nd. So on March 2nd, and April 2nd, I had $400 total in those 2 months, to buy water bottles with. I didn't spend a lot on water this month bc I still knew and planned for the next two months.

I wonder if that bitch was jewish. That would be even more interesting.

It wasn't Air Force. Yes, they've done some things, but I am 100% positive and I locked my door at all times and also barricaded it here. Also, when I went to the bathroom with my bag, Stephanie had her eyes on my bag, when she didn't want me to go in there. Why did she care about my bag?

There was no altercation at all. No argument or disagreement. Nothing. She came around and I had not complained about one single thing and she said can you sign this ? and I said yes, but I need to use your bathroom first (because I was totally sick). She then watched me go in and eyed my bag. She also said, "Can you sign this?" and I said, "Let me use the bathroom first."

No yelling, no problem. I mean, calm, all the way around. No big deal at all except for my being nauseous and her eyeing my bag the whole way in. So I sat, and seriously used the bathroom and then stood up and felt sicker and just drooled and drooled and then pulled on the emergency cord bc of seizure symptoms.

I was "greeted" by a security guard/police, a Catholic hispanic nurse, and Stephanie, staring at me coldly from a distance and I said, "Can you please get a doctor? I'm having seizure symptoms?" They said, "You're leaving right now." They PUSHED me into the wheelchair and wheeled me outside of the hospital.

Literally.

It is one of the craziest, most unprofessional moments I have ever had in a hospital. After that, my mother picked me up and my bag on my lap the whole time and then in my house with me and I locked and barricaded my door.

That nurse is the one who stole my money and that is why she acted so weird. I think she was worried I knew or found out and that I was going to use time in the bathroom to call police or something.

So yeah. Coos Bay Hospital stole $20 out of my bag when I was out of my room and then they pushed me out of their hospital while I was asking for a doctor because of NEW seizure symptoms that started because of interactions with the medications they gave me (all of them are contraindicated for seizure prone, or to be used with caution). They had given me 40 mg total of dilaudid and CT medium-contrast. And I'd had ginko tea about 2 hours before showing up. The whole combo triggered seizure stuff for me.

I got home and had another wave of the same, and just stood at my sink, drooling and drooling.

I really, really, hate this country.

This country has used me and treated me worse than a piece of shit and they are doing the SAME thing to my son Oliver. They sucked him into a mind control program that I did NOT consent to.

So that's how rich I am, in this "great" country where you can "have the American dream!"

FUCK this country and God damn it to HEll.

The American Dream is having every single thing stolen from me, including my only child, AND being tortured and robbed blind and forced and pushed to marry a Catholic man for the FBI, and used as an experiment by your own parents, and deprived of college education and validation that I'm being tortured and then having a bitch nurse steal $20 out of my bag so I can't pay for my $130 security box to prove these legal firms are liars?

All that they have done is use me and torture me and torture my son.

That's the American Dream.

Buying bottled water to scrape together 5 cents per bottle because I refuse to fuck the military men or FBI men and refuse to work for these assholes without full disclosure of what and who I'm working for.

Like I said, I'd love to know what religion Stephanie is. Catholic or Jewish. It's one or the other. On the slight, slight chance she's neither I would then have to throw in the outlier of simple FBI or government scrub.

Harper Seven (who is the original?) & More Middletons

2012-02-11T13:05:00.001-08:00

She's not the first Harper.

I don't know who decided to name that baby girl of the "Beckhams" "Harper Seven" but she didn't have the name first.

I thought of it and it was in my mind and the next thing I knew, I am reading they fucking named their KID this.

So basically, either Kate Middleton or her mother, or the Panetta Catholic fanatics, or someone else, knew what I was thinking and took that and used it.

I didn't think of it AFTER they named the baby. I thought of it before.

So it's kind of like, you have 2 kids and one has the essence of something and the other has the name and which one does it really belong to? The older one? or the one that came later, after the original?

You can have pure and then you can have a name that means pure. Which one is the pure one? 7 or 8 years apart.

There is always someone who is the firstborn, the Jacob. And then there are always people trying to take away something from the original.

My family is The Original.

The Middletons are the Second-Best imposters. Theives.

I am tired of the CATHOLIC SHIT.

They steal my ideas, steal my song lyrics, my melodies, my voice, my clothes, and then, ha, they even try to steal names and ideas for baby names. It's fucking unbelievable.

I was discreet before and I'm not being discreet now.

I know exactly where I was and who I was looking at when I thought "She reminds me of Harper" and she is 7 years old.

Then a baby was born.

They named their baby Harper Seven, after I thought this about a totally different girl who was 7 years older than the newborn.

So is that what happened with Kate? I was born and Diana somehow knew my family and then the Niddletons tried to push their way in and claim a name for themselves?

She is this blond girl who is 7 years old and she was walking around at this outdoor party and I thought, "She reminds me of Harper" (from the classic book).

All of a sudden, the Catholic Beckhams are naming their kid, the one that came 9 months after Will proposed to Kate, Harper Seven.

In my opinion, it's odd that Will proposed to Kate and 9 months later they are visiting their friends in California for a baby to be born. What's the deal? proof of fertility or embryo transfer success required before marriage proposal?

Fuck all of them because they steeal.

They FUCKING STEAL EVERYTHING and don't have ONE fucking original idea to hold onto themselves.

What the FUCK?

So it's the Catholic Beckhams and by the way, our dog is terrified over here of British accents. Like, uh, Beckham accents, and Middleton and Hay accents and we have a fucking Susan Hay right next door. And they are there with William of Wales and Kate Middleton and whose idea was it?

Who wanted to name the kid that?

So don't fucking tell me that I am unimportant and that I'm not being TORTURED and used by Catholics who try to read me just to get to me and wrangle their own plans.

They are criminals.

Do you want me to write a song for you next honey?

Maybe I could start writing a few poems and you could copy down my original poetry too and then publish it in your own name and call yourself a genious. Or original.

Kind of like, uh, wearing my MOTHER's skirt and wanting to call it your own idea?

There is a CAT. And then there is a COPYCAT.

Copycats torture the real cats and steal from them and get friends to steal from them.

BITCH

I can name the date of the day I thought what I thought, and how it was before the birth and naming, and I can also show that I refered to it discreetly in my blog.

I am tired of fucking copy cats.

Come up with your OWN fucking shit.

The Middletons raped my family to put bread on their own fucking table. I hope they get what they deserve. It is really too bad when divorce affects children.

That family is full of criminals who initiated crimes against my family.

Stealing my clothing and taking items to California, trying to ruin my life, torturing my mother and father, Carol Middleton making a skirt for her daughter that matched the one I wore in high school, that was my mother's in the 70s.

My parents have met some of them. The Middletons. I just don't know which one. I would love to know, if Diana were alive, what would she be thinking?

So let's get something straight. Someone over there is stealing my ideas but I have also seen things about you. Its not like it's one way, and you are just stealing things from me. I saw your colors when I asked. I saw your descent into a tunnel and maybe the fucking "hole" is Kate.

Chris Dabney is connected to Beckhams. So is Alvaro Pardo and I cannot wait to see all of you in jail. I mean all of you dears. Beckhams, Hay, Dabney, Pardo, Middletons, ALL of you.

Can you see your kid through bars?

Because um, as far as I know, it's illegal to hold people hostage in the U.S., and to drug them and medicate them and then try to entrap them to go to jail to keep your own family free to do what you want.

So, is England supposed to think Kate or the Middletons are not with the CIA now?

Right.

Your fucking gangsters have TORTURED my family and my son.

I want you in fucking PRISON Middleton.

My Mom and Dad are blackmailed into DENYING anyone tortures us. Who gets blackmailed to that extreme? They are tortured. I have been brutally tortured. My son has been. And my parents can't talk about it?

HELL IF I WON'T!

I know Mike fucking Middleton heard about what I wrote because I saw and you'd better control yourself fucker. You've done enough damage Uzi slugger. No, I didn't try to see him. Maybe it wasn't him. It looked like him or close to the guy that took my fucking handprints in Knoxville, TN. But I had the impression it was her Dad.

You people are criminals. You need to be In JAIL.

If my parents won't put you there, I WILL.

Let's see, my parents dog is freaking out over English/British accents and we just had some British speaking assholes from Redding, CA over here and the dog recently terrorized again. Any, ya know, connection between your Redding people and the Beckhams in CA? Then we've got Lorraine, the British Jew and most significantly Susan Hay. Susan Hay I have a bad feeler on.

My mother is forced to do things for people here just to even sell a house through the banker Hay.

I WANT YOU IN FUCKING JAIL BITCH

Do you have ANY idea what my son has been through because of you fuck-ups? We have all nearly died and have been barely hanging on at all at some points. Our children brutally tortured. This Kate is a bloody fucking Mary.

I was so mad, I left this computer for a minute after writing about the copy cats. The fucking COPY CATS that TORTURE people. That's when I had this sudden impression of Kate's Dad looking mad and like he wanted to "do something". Pissed. I said, in my mind, you'd better stand down fucker. Then I was in the bathroom and I prayed for something about Kate, and saw her bent over her stomach, like stomach cramps.

Attack of Holy See or Muslim Extermination

2012-02-11T12:29:00.000-08:00

See my last post.

The Catholic church has been waging war through their members in the U.S. in the highest levels of government and through other countries as well.

They need to be taken out and their central hub is the Holy See.

Almost every single perpetrator of torture against citizens is a Roman Catholic member whose allegiance is to the Holy See first.

The entire U.S. is infiltrated with this church and they are the ones leading every single major deparmtment and intelligence community.

I am tired of being tortured and I'm tired of their helping eachother to advance their own agenda.

Ultimately, their directives come from the Holy See.

The Holy See is a country.

It is not a "peace zone".

It is a country that has been sponsoring torture of people in various countries. They have RUINED the U.S.

This country is fair game for being hit and needs to be hit NOW sooner than later.

TAKE OUT the HOLY SEE.

You decentralize the hub that is sponsoring this torture, and you scramble their programs. Maybe you can't take out every single Roman Catholic that took the top position in every single U.S. department, but you get RID of the head of the BEAST and then work on voting out and ridding this country of the religious hate criminals.

If some of the torturers are Jewish, yeah, get rid of them.

But the most difference would be made by taking out the Holy See.

WHY is this country getting away with all these things?

They steal, murder, destroy, sponsor religious hate crimes, and spread it through to multiple countries throughout the world, and no one thinks to give them what they deserve?

TAKE THEM OUT.

TAKE THIS MOTHER FUCKER OUT

The Holy See has tried to seduce some parts of the Middle East. They know they need someone on their side so Panetta worked the ropes with India and worked the ropes with the Middle East, trading arms and deals and trying to sugarcoat what they're really about.

They are the terrorists.

They are the ones who killed Osama bin Ladin after first calling him friend and using him.

It wasn't Protestants. It was the Catholics. The Protestants respected the fact that they had history and had worked together. Not the Catholics. They kill for relligious revenge and don't care about having any other excuse.

They will engage the Middle East and trade and exchange arms and then before you know it, kill you.

Do NOT trust the Catholic church. Look at history. They still believe in Crusades against "Islam" and they won't confess to it. They'll use the Muslims first, and then switch it on them after they get close and get what they want. You saw what Panetta did? He fought a Crusade for his CHURCH, for the Holy SEE, NOT for the United States.

These mother fuckers have RUINED our country.

If you trust them, and beat people up, and fight your "revolutions" by trusting the Holy See and Panetta and these Catholics that have infiltrated almost every single U.S. agency, your countries will ultimately lose.

It was not the Protestant former Pentagon leader that went after Al Quaeda and Osama. Panetta got in. Right?

Think about it.

He took over, got in and replaced the Protestant guy who was more fair and knew about Muslim history, and he went out and put a HIT on every single Muslim leader that any country has ever had, and defamed them and caused all the people to believe their problems were all about these leaders.

Why did he do this?

It's a religious crusade.

The United States has no religious crusade against Islam. The Catholic Church DOES.

Which is why they will use you, and trade arms through the IRA and FBI with you, and set you up to fall with beautiful Catholic hookers, because eventually, they are going to TAKE YOU OUT.

Their "dogma" about killing Muslims and getting rid of Islam never changed.

No one was waging a revenge war and putting hits on all the Taliban when they targeted U.S. military. Did they? think about it.

They WENT after the Taliban ONLY after a hit was made on a Roman Catholic church.

They killed Taliban in revenge for the Catholic church. Period.

These leaders start wars for the Roman Catholic religion and the Holy See.

Do you know where these CIA directors are coming from? The Jesuit branch of Catholicism. Check me on it. If you don't believe me, have your Islamic or Muslim scholars check me on this.

Almost every single CIA director in the last decades have had education from Georgetown, which is a Jesuit college. Jesuits have one motto. You know how Islamists have jiihad? That's what the Jesuits have, but no one in this country holds them accountable for their terrorism of others because we are infiltrated by these people.

The goal of Jesuits is this: "Defend the Faith". This has historically meant: KILL. Torture. Mutilate Children. They will do whatever they can to "defend the faith" of the Catholic church. This is exactly what they've done.

You need to start looking at the Holy See, not as a little church mountain, or Holy Papacy "mecca".

It is NOT MECCA. It is not a Catholic mecca. It is the political hub for all of the religious hate crime that they carry out through their members who take positions in various countries.

They are running the U.S. and almost every department. Even many of the Protestants for the CIA have been educated at Georgetown, the Jesuit University.

Look at our Supreme Court.

ALL of our Judges there are Catholics or Jews?

Holy See or Israel.

Who do you think is controlling the torture in the U.S.?

Most of the Protestants here now, are weaker Protestants. They don't know the Bible, they don't read scripture, they don't have one single clue about why the U.S. was founded, why we should NOT agree with "summary judgment" rather than jury trial, why we do NOT have communism, or believe in dictatorships, and why we created laws prohibiting Catholics from political office.

We now have Catholics running almost every single political office and they are torturing Protestants, like my family, just as the Catholics did in Germany with the Nazis.

Hitler was a Catholic.

The Nazi party was composed primarily of Roman Catholics. Did you KNOW that?

They had a few monasteries and nunneries that shielded little Jewish kids so they could "adopt" them to turn them into Catholics. So they figured that was justified and "God's will". For most of them though, it was experimentation and gas chambers.

Why?

Because the Catholic church position is that THEY are the ONE TRUE CHURCH. Their commandments and oaths are to kill anyone who challenges this.

This is why they killed Jews. Hitler didn't go after Muslims there because there were hardly any Muslims there, in that location to begin with.

The Nazi party was led by a Roman Catholic and The Holy See.

Do you GET this? The HOLY SEE. THAT country is the Nazi-land. Not "Germany". It wasn't "Germany's" fault. Germany doesn't have the bad name. It is the HOLY SEE and I am really tired of how the Holy See carries out all kinds of crimes through their agents in other countries and gets away, reputation unscathed.

The Holy See must cease to exist.

It is the Holy See that committed the Nazi crimes and it is the Holy See that has promoted the torture through their Archdiocese in the U.S., their lawyers, and political agents.

Christine Gregoire, Governor of Washington, is Jesuit. Is it any wonder my son and I were tortured?

My family has personally had problems with Jewish and Catholic. The Catholic stuff, is easily pointed to because of the Jesuit influence. The Jewish problem is, I believe, more political and has to do with UK and Middletons. I do not believe the Jewish problem for me, is strictly religious though it's mixed in there. I feel it is a political issue, involving political musical chairs. With the Catholic church, it is religious hate and their Jesuit promotion of their beliefs.

The Jews worked with the Catholic because they didn't want me in any position that they had reserved for someone else of their choosing. For the Catholics, they didn't care about that--they were interested in 'defending the faith" and smearing me when I wasn't even attacking their faith.

I was NOT against the Holy See before. I wasn't. And I was NOT agains the Catholic church.

But NOW, after all this torture, yes, I feel the centralized operation center is the Holy See and that therefore by targeting this hub, you might possibly decentralize the fucking wheel.

Invasion of Holy See and of U.S.--Call To War

2012-02-11T12:03:00.000-08:00

I am hearing news about political elections in the U.S.

It just falls like tin.

Hearing these journalists excitedly talk about political elections, with vigor, and life, is surreal.

They talk about elections as if nothing is wrong with this country. All we need is "Mitt Romney" or this guy or that guy. It's like this superficial cloud of delusion is hanging over the U.S.

The U.S. needs to be invaded by another country.

There is no political process that is going to make one bit of difference when this country is already polluted and corrupt.

Hearing political election crap while my family has been tortured through 2 separate administrations, is like tin falling onto that fake angel hair stuff people spread around at Christmas which is filled with little bits of glass.

Nothing will help this country. They are torturing their own people and then they robustly get on the radio to talk about other things, as if it's not even occuring.

This country needs to be invaded.

The U.S. has gone out and invaded plenty of other countries, and distracted people from the internal issues and at this point, nothing is going to distract them from torturing their own citizens except for war.

We need war and the U.S. needs to lose for once.

I am not kidding.

They quit torturing me for a few hours while they had to refocus attention to the hacked down CIA website?

This country needs more than a hacked down CIA website. They must be invaded.

The only people who do not want war are those who live here in the U.S. and control the torture of others. Those who are getting fat off of our suffering.

Why should I care if there is war in the United States? It would not make my situation any worse. In fact, it would most likely improve my situation.

If another nation invaded the U.S., those torturing their own U.S. citizens could focus on defending themselves instead of turning innocent people here into martyrs and profiting off of them.

I pray to God that I see this country fall in my lifetime. And I pray to God that another nation invades this country quickly rather than wait.

If they are torturing us here, now, you are next. Your entire countries and people are next to be tortured in this same way, and worse. So if you do not invade the U.S. now, you can expect to have the U.S. honing their torture techniques to use against you later.

You can either get ahead now, or wait and have all of your people suffer later when the greed motivates the U.S. to strike out again, against Iran or any country of their choosing, for any falsified excuse.

Please make your plans to strike.

It needs to be worse than 9-11.

Twin Towers was nothing. It needs to be of a greater magnitude and worse. Nothing else is ever going to change this country.

I heard some man from Syria say "The UN can't help us, it's war."

War is what needs to happen on U.S. soil.

These people are so spoiled, they say nothing about torturing their neighbor, or torture OF their neighbors.

They do not deserve to have this land any longer and I hope that someone strikes before there is ever another "election".

Elections and "the vote" have zero effect.

This country is lost.

What can one vote do? Votes of all? nothing. The corruption is too bad.

The Holy See and the U.S. should both be hit at the same time.

They are so intertwined, it would be pointless to attack the U.S. without also attacking the country of the Holy See.

It's fascinating, because the Holy See gets away with this "neutral" image of not fighting while they use all of their members in other countries to start wars and torture in their name.

They need to be taken out entirely.

I would even try taking out the Holy See and then see what effect it has with the U.S., but my opinion is that the greatest difference, positive difference, would be made through a dual attack on both The Holy See and the U.S.

Take out the Holy See and you are getting rid of their central operation station.

Alvaro Pardo Drugged Me

2012-02-11T10:31:00.000-08:00

Alvaro Pardo was a big mistake. I wasn't tortured when I was with him but what was that? a perk for being medicated without my consent and set up?

I don't care who he's connected to, whether it's William of Wales through Colombia connections, or that guy from El Salvador, he was not a good person and my son and I were tortured.

I have no respect for him or his group because they tried to entrap me while pretending to be something they were not. They know who is responsible for the torture of me and my son and do nothing about it so that is a clear warning sign.

Like I said, it would not matter to me if I found out William of Wales was involved. Or the El Salvador man. It really makes zero difference, because what I know, is that he drugged me without my consent, worked with U.S. government and mafia, and he knows exactly who is responsible for torturing me and my son. When was he brave enough to stand for the truth?

Never.

Then they tried to write to write me off on the "shame" ticket and left me to be practically mutilated alive.

God damn him and his entire group for that. God damn them.

This country literally attempted to force me back to him by every form of illegal "sanctions" one could come up with. They froze me out of all money, work, healthcare, and put me in jail a number of times. They forced me into the dirt, to sleep in alleys, like an animal while they used local Wenatchee police to follow me around and watch me being tortured alive.

God damn them and God damn this country.

This country needs to be invaded. First, all nations must sanction this country and refuse to trade. And then someone needs to invade and take it over.

Alvaro Pardo drugged me and the Post Pub people drugged me. That includes Chris Dabney. I was given birth control against my consent and will while I worked at The Post Pub and took a free meal from them (part of working for them). They doped up my food.

I do not believe this black guy Will doped me up. I'm not going to say I know all about him, or that he was good or bad, but I do not believe he doped me ever. He flirted with me and he did nothing inappropriate. He never doped me, to my knowledge. So to this black man's credit, he did not sexually assault me, dope me, or try anything illegal. That is to his credit. Again, do I know if he's a good person? I didn't know him long enough, but that much I know. And guess what?

HE WAS NOT CATHOLIC.

Which sort of maybe makes all the difference in the world. Will, the black guy, was Baptist. Sort of nominal Baptist, maybe, but just Baptist and not super religious. I've met criminal "Baptists" like the Army's Russ Strong in Wenatchee, but Will was not criminal. Out of all the people I met on the East Coast, probably the one who I am most certain did not dope me up would be this black guy Will. He had a hoopah or whatever, one of those smoking things from a vase, but only smoked tobacco or flavored stuff. He had liquor and I had a drink but never got drunk and he never encouraged me to get drunk or tried to take advantage of me either. So when I say I am telling the truth, believe me. I am telling the truth.

Because it's odd when I look back and the only man who didn't drug me or assault me is the non-Catholic. And non-Jewish.

My problems are not "political". They are religious hate crimes.

When I later worked at The Post Pub, I was doped. I was also given doped up food by military men staying at the house where Chris Dabney stayed, on Euclid Street. I was being medicated with birth control without my consent and possibly something else. Birth control I know for sure, and then also my rash from the tinea went away and that only goes away with meds. I know, because I've had it since 2006 and the only thing that makes it go away is medication.

So The Post Pub people were mainly Catholic and Jewish. And I was drugged there. They gave me birth control, something for the tinea or systemic thrush, and possibly something else. When I got pregnant and they had to quit doping me, then they put on this shitty act of hostility and harassment so it appeared as though I became "paranoid" and antisocial without their medical crap cover.

They are criminals.

Alvaro Pardo also drugged me. I went from The Post Pub, being medicated without my consent there, to being medicated with Alvaro Pardo. I think the U.S. wanted me to stay with him for 2 years just so they could control their experiment and get a green card for the man they wanted to legally employ to work for the U.S. FBI instead of FBI contract work in Colombia. All of these people were also connected to U.S. military.

My problems are not political. They are from religious hate crimes. I had no problems with Protestants in D.C. at all. In fact, they were the only ones NOT drugging me, or lying and trying to medicate me and then claim if I wasn't medicated I was nuts.

The Catholics and Jews were the criminals. Not the Protestants, and it was the criminals who went out of their way to try to give me work in their territory to attempt to control me so they could create their own version of events.

Mark, this truck driver from Boston, who gave me a ride to the East Coast from New Mexico, was Catholic, military, and a criminal. He was Roman Catholic and he was not on my side even though he pretended to be. He knew Chris Dabney and Chris gave me a job at the Post Pub but he sought me out for it and he was also Catholic. Basically, I got away from the Roman Catholic military truck driver Mark and found a decent guy Will, who gave me a place without harassing me, doping me up, and no intimate relations. He said, "You had better be careful because most people are not nice like I am." He was right. Everyone else tried to dope me up, get me drunk, or use me for sex and lie about me to the United States government. And God damn them.

I was safe with Will and that was probably the only one in the entire D.C. area that I was ever safe with. And incidentally, everyone else who was NOT safe, happened to be Catholic and Jewish.

I got away from Mark and found Will and was safe. Then I got work and that was good but people came in on purpose to make me look bad, at this coffee shop I worked at. Some of the people were even British and I couldn't figure out why they were interested in me. But people tried to bump me out of work there. I worked for a middle eastern man. Then I was at a coffee place in downtown D.C. and Chris Dabney picked me out and told me to come work at his place. As it turned out, I did not know this, but he knew the truck driver Mark.

Of all things, right? Mark the Roman Catholic military guy who hates my guts and picks me up from New Mexico...to Chris, the Roman Catholic who calls me a "hole" and drugs and medicates me after selecting me to work at his joint? Chris Dabney nodded off to Mark the driver, and I saw then, clearly, they knew eachother. I think Dabney was also Irish. I believe there is a connection to Dempsey actually.

So Mark was making jokes about "aliens" in his vehicle and knew I'd been tortured. He backed off only because he was interested in me physically. So like I said, if the Catholics think they can use you, they don't torture you. WHich is exactly what happened. Chris Dabney acquired, at some point, a Jewish girlfriend, but that was after he was saying I was his girlfriend. Which was after I had met The Chief Strategist.

While I was at The Post Pub, they medicated me. I started to get an idea that this was happening and began eating off-site and I noticed some of them didn't like this. I bought my food across the street at a store, a bakery, a deli, anywhere. And when I quit taking as much of their "free meals" they, the Jews and Catholics, turned on me. They had people coming in harassing me, saying I wasn't doing a good job, mixing up orders, and Kathy, this Catholic supervisor, began mixing up my orders on purpose and accusing me falsely of stealing from the till or not adding things up right or giving away free drinks. I never did, and they had cameras running with the info playing upstairs the entire time. Anyone could check. They started lying about me.

Basically, I got away with Will. Also, at Cherry Point, in Blaine, those guys knew I wasn't nuts. So I think some of the Jews and Catholics got nervous about their liabilities in torturing me, calling me crazy falsely, and abducting my son.

So they coralled me to work for THEM, under their control, and then if they couldn't medicate me to their advantage, they wanted to create false records to benefit them by saying I was mentally ill.

Mark and Chris knew eachother and both were Irish Roman Catholic. They even had an Irish priest come into the pub and he was nice until I quit eating the free meals and then all of them jointly started to put on hostility. The entire objective, I believe, was to illicitly drug me and claim it "worked" while they adjusted their behavior and then if I wasn't drugged, they reverted to being assholes and then wanted to say my perception changed because I wasn't medicated.

It was all self-protective legal religious bullshit.

Out of all of them, the only man that did not sexually take advantage of me or drug me was the Protestant.

I wonder how many decent Protestant black men are in prison because of corrupt Catholics and Jews that tried to frame them and set them up.

Jews hated me and slipped in their Jewish woman for Chris Dabney and Catholics hated me. That's just the way it was. At Cherry Point oil refinery in Blaine, there were more Protestants there than Catholics or Jews.

I'm sorry, but those are the facts.

Where the Protestants outnumber Catholics and Jews, I have not had problems. The bad apples in my life are 100% Catholic and Jews and then some of them just created problems or tried to provoke reactions from me to show Protestants in an attempt to make me look bad. But literally, the criminals and hate groups are Catholic and Jewish.

So anyway, I stayed with Chris Dabney at this house on Euclid with other Jews and U.S. Catholic military. They medicated me through food. One guy there was with the U.S. Marines and he wanted me to eat these balls of some kind that had a drug in them. I stupidly ate them. They also did weed, and they worked for the U.S. at the same time, so anyone doing weed with hookuhs or whatever, and working for the U.S. government starts sounding more like CIA than anything else. Am I right? or am I right. One studious Jewish guy living at that house couldn't stand me. He was studying to be a doctor and then guess what? he showed up in Knoxville, TN at the psych ward to observe my being toxed up with Haldol. It was the same man.

The same man I housed with in D.C. then saw me overdosed on Haldol for government research and punishment shit. His eyes were as wide as saucers and I just stared at him. I think his name was Ben but I can't remember. It was the same guy so I guess he graduated from his studies in D.C. and had moved on.

Fascinating how the U.S. has tried to humiliate me isn't it?

Chris Dabney was tied in with a bunch of Jews and Israeli Jews too. He had me set up with one of his Jew friends and then I was taken to this house where there was a framed photo of someone that looked like Chris, skating while being pulled behind a car, in the snow near Dartmouth or something.

He had a friend in town named Alan. And then another who was a diplomat's kid from Turkey.

Dr. Crane, in Wenatchee, his mother is connected to the Turkish embassy in D.C. and she was good friends with Christine Gregoire before she passed away.

So these people are interconnected and motivated to blackmail others.

Then I was with Alvaro Pardo after I almost died from miscarriage. In one phone conversation, Chris Dabney was on the other end. They played a lot of mind games. When I was hacked in the back by the Nigerian woman, Alvaro was doing a favor for someone by letting another guy know where I'd be to try to stop me, obstruct me from correcting the matter, and then that same man attempted to set me up to be entrapped in federal marriage fraud.

He was connected to Alvaro and Chris who is connected to Mark who I met in New Mexico where the FBI SAC is "Carol Knock Out" or something. Clever.

The Catholics first use illegal contacts to try to knock me out of lawsuits and work by military induced migraine and then they torture me, steal my son, medicate me and try to entrap me to go to jail.

I was at this birthday party dance for Alvaro's birthday in D.C. and went and his other girlfriend Jenny showed up and he kissed her right in front of me. I mean, actually my back was turned, and I turned around and saw it. Right after that, I made a text about "true blue" Chris Dabney and the Jewish people there found out and thought it was hilarious because none of them were "true" and nothing was real. It was all fake. They mocked me. They slipped in another woman and then wanted Alvaro to dump me off. So first he tried to set me up to go to federal prison, after he and his friends medicated me. Then he tried to dump me while I was bleeding in the hospital and then next he was holding me hostage unless I married him and I was required to stay with him for 2 years at least.

Which is maybe how long the U.S. wanted to use me for illegal medication research.

He worked with the FBI in Colombia and I figure the FBI here in the U.S., or CIA, wanted him to work here in the U.S. Also, Alvaro wanted his daughter here and I believe he has sons that are already here being raised by others. So the U.S. didn't care about me. Maybe they cared about William of Wales, or Charles, or El Salvador, or their own cover and their own interests, but no, they never cared about me or my son Oliver.

They tortured me and my son Oliver.

The U.S. and FBI knew all along what was done to me and my son and they attempted to use torture to force me to do favors for THEM.

I resisted.

Look.

I'm still not married.

I have been tortured, and lost my singing voice, and lost everything.

But I still have more dignity than sell outs like the Middletons.

I sold some of my property but I didn't fucking sell my values or my soul.

When this was several years ago, and I was younger, prettier, and still talented, I believe some of these assholes wanted me married off to Alvaro to make me unavailable and "off-the-market" so I was less of a threat.

No worries now, I'm sure. But then, I think they were concerned and they wanted me out of the way and married to be out of the way. If I married Alvaro, it made it impossible for me to be available. And as long as I was looking down and out, and didn't have my own son, and looked impoverished and nuts and like I couldn't support myself, I was no threat.

So it was either that I be impoverished, tortured, and without my son and falsely accused of multiple counts of harassment and crime, OR I alleviate their concerns by marrying myself off to someone who they felt would either screw me over or control me and keep me out of the way.

I chose my independence and look at what this country did to my family to punish me.

They forced me into the gutter and stole everything I had, married off the people they wanted to have married, successfully tortured and drugged me to the point of provoking undesirable reactions which would prejudice me, and now they want me to go on disability.

This is America?

Did I care about Alvaro? sure. Did I love him? In a sense, yes. Did he medicate me without my consent and lie to me?

Yes. He medicated me without my consent and he lied to me.

Did the U.S. formally engage in human trafficking? Yes. The United States of America tortured me and my son and then formally engaged in human trafficking of me and my son. Did the U.S. blackmail my parents to lie and say we are not tortured and that I am nuts? Yes. My parents are blackmailed to lie and say we are not tortured and that I am nuts.

This is the truth.

Did Alvaro or Henry torture me in Maryland? Yes. On the one occasion where I wanted to sleep on the couch instead of in the bed with Alvaro they tortured me by ultrasound to my back to create such severe pain I had to go to ER with Alvaro acting and lying as the concerned "savior" when he was party to the crime.

This is what the Catholic church and Jews like to do. Torture you and then try to pretend like they're the ones helping you. Stockholm Syndrome all the way.

I hate the United States.

They are guilty of high crimes and treason against the laws of the land, my son and my family. The United States is corrupt and should be sanctioned with economic sanctions from every other nation.

Alvaro came over here to work for the U.S. so this is a federal liability.

The U.S. tortured and punished me even worse when I decided to wait rather than marry him.

I don't care if the UK is involved, or any member of the royal family.

I don't care if Mr. El Salvador is involved because people sometimes bring that up too.

I care about the fact that I have met a lot of lousy cowards.

Cowards.

My true husband probably got killed. Most likely, the best man is not even here anymore because he was the one with courage and was killed for it. I have no husband and there is not one single man who is worthy of me or my son. I have never met him. Ever. If he was around and died, then he died.

What was he? A Urriah? sent out into the front line to be murdered so some pansy who saw me "bathing in the moonlight" could take a stab at me and then back out like the coward he is?

Shame on you and your family. My son's blood is on your head.

Slay Those Who Persecute: Economic Sanctions Against U.S.

2012-02-11T09:15:00.018-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/user/Frojox?feature=watch

This is the first thing I chose to play this morning after praying on my knees and it won't play.

Slay Those Who Persecute

My prayer this morning was lead me to the things I should write no matter how brutal it is and guard my mouth against anything I should not say or make me forget so I will not say it.

Then I stood in front of my laptop and knew I was to go to a song before I wrote anything and I typed in "german persecution songs" and then chose this one from the offerings.

"Slay Those Who Persecute".

Angel of the Lord, Angel of Death, go before me.

Now it's playing. Someone had removed all tabs to prevent me from playing anything.

Slay Those Who Persecute. Amen.

I've never heard of it before. It is by Mortal Infinity. I will look up the lyrics.

Imagine Being Persecuted For Doing This:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&feature=endscreen&v=sDlWh1DEbm4
Persecution in China.

The United States military is targeting metal in my neck since this morning and last night I did not sleep because of technology that forced my feet to curl and cramp.

It is the United States that needs to have economic sanctions from the rest of the world. No country should be trading with this one, or accepting any goods from the U.S. until the U.S. improves its own civil rights record and international relations.

If other citizens in the U.S. refuse to stand up for the basic rights of their fellow citizens, and do not share in upholding the laws and freedoms, then they should then suffer the consequences of economic sanctions.

The U.S. should not be the world dictator to other countries, and the UN, as to which country should be sanctioned. They are guilty of crimes enough to merit sanctions against them. Not one country should be engaging in trade with the U.S.

The other nations and countries should jointly form a pact to refuse trade of imports and exports to and from the U.S. and should be strengthening trade between other countries. They should be freezing the U.S. out entirely until the U.S. makes the changes that are required for a healthy global economy.

Trading with a corrupt country only makes the corruption worse and the money is going into corrupt hands that have ruined things for everyone else. It is also not the sole responsibility of bureacrats to be involved in trade and responsible diplomacy, but the fault of the citizens for allowing corruption and torture of their own citizens.

They should bear the consequences of allowing a justice system to fail.

The United States should not be dictating to other nations, about how Iran will be sanctioned, and Syria may be sanctioned, and who to put economic sanctions on.

If the other nations froze out the U.S. entirely, until they change and comply with their obligations which they signed for voluntarily in the Geneva Convention, then maybe they should be allowed to import and export again. Until they change, no nation should engage in any kind of trade with this one.

Find other countries to trade with.

Freeze out the U.S., just as they have chosen to freeze out their own citizens, and fair competition, and justice, and commit torture--freeze them out for their crimes and superiority complex.

I do not believe in a pipeline agreement between Canada and the U.S. either. Both countries have engaged in corruption and we do not need a pipeline for further corruption. When they choose to change, and quit telling innocent victims to "change" and be corrupt as they are, they should be rewarded for better behavior and choices.

The United States needs to receive a worldwide economic sanction and when this happens, they need to then focus their attention on their own internal domestic problems.

Look at that beautiful lotus at the end of the clip. Both times, seeing that in the hands of the child, brought tears to my eyes. I didn't know they come in that color and are so transparent. It's a beautiful photo with the music.

Maybe I am imbibing Chinese things early morning. I had some new hair samples and used the ones from China. I took a photo because it has Chinese characters on it and I don't know what it means but I'll try to find it and if not, I'll find the link to the website so you can read the characters. I used the Chinese shampoo and conditioner, and then a bunch of other things, body wash, scrub, lotion, face scrub, and facial moisterizer and hair gloss. The works, in 5 minutes because that's as much water as there is in this little hot water tank. I worked fast this morning, thinking of the Angel of Death.

It's Giovanni's Wellness shampoo and conditioner that I used:
http://www.baskmagazine.com/blog/?p=4
(I took a photo of me next to just the shampoo but it wouldn't come up so I am posting a link bc I'm curious about what it says in Chinese)

I don't know what these Chinese characters stand for though, and then I was looking at the 3 characters at the beginning of the link for the persecution in China.

It's like I'm Chinese. I may as well be a persecuted Chinese person, I'm American instead, persecuted and using Chinese hair trial samples. God knows I am not lying. We are tortured and persecuted as badly as anyone in any other country.

I do not believe any nation should be engaging in trade with the U.S. for any reason.

On one hand, it is true that sometimes discontent and crime proliferates in hard times. So yes, there has been more turmoil and some are more easily induced to commit crimes for the rich, because they are strapped economically. However, the U.S. is way overdue to be punished. You can give a bully a candy bar and hope they'll be nicer for awhile, and you can notice that if they are deprived of some things they might be intolerable and crankier. However, at some point, you no longer tolerate their bad behavior. If you do, and if you continue to reward the U.S. for bullying other citizens and encouraging this, you create a monster. The only way to correct a spoiled and corrupt country from turning into a worse monster than it is already, is to punish it.

It is the U.S. that needs to be sanctioned.

How dare the U.S. try to "freeze" Iran, or Syria, or ANY country when the U.S. is THE country that is out of control.

Try it.

Has anyone ever tried to sanction the United States?

Bring a sudden halt to all imports and exports of the U.S. and make demands.

See what happens.

Maybe the U.S. will quit kidnapping and abducting and torturing their own children. Who knows.

I don't believe the United States has learned how to live within its means yet either. That is another lesson they have not mastered. They want pipelines and oil and there is no reason why most of them cannot use public transportation, walk, or bike to work. They're dependent on foreign products and allow their rich friends to exploit poor countries when they could be creating jobs in the U.S. for U.S. citizens instead. What they buy is cheap labor and bribes from poor countries to benefit the greed of the masses in the U.S.

The United States needs to know what a full blown sanctions is like.

THEY need to "change". Stop telling victims to change and reform yourselves.

Middletons & Hay (potential malignant cysts?)

2012-02-10T23:40:00.000-08:00

I just read that these "cysts" I now have, since I was given an illegal injection in Knoxville, TN, can be malignant. It says they are usually 'benign' but can be malignant and this doctor last time wanted to inject me with radioactive materials for a 2nd CT saying, "We want to see if there have been any changes?" Since 2 weeks ago?

Why should there be any fucking changes since 2 weeks ago?

Guess what. There is. Now I have two cysts apparently, instead of just one. In two weeks time.

These assholes knew. They knew something was coming down the line or they wouldn't have started trying to push me to take health insurance or SSI.

They have tortured me day and night and they injected me with something in Knoxville.

Out of all my FOIA requests to the FBI, the only one that ignored me (or wasn't received somehow) was the one from Knoxville, TN.

I sent one request to Memphis FBI but I also sent one to Knoxville. I heard back from all of them except Knoxville.

I HATE the Middletons and especially Kate Middleton and if you look back on my blog posts you'll see why. She was already anticipating something happening to me, my brother, and my son. I hope she doesn't start having bone marrow problems. It would be a shame to lose a lovely long leg to some kind of problem with bone structure. And no, for the record, I've not read anything and I'm not aware of any kind of health problem for her. I just know her family is criminal and have used people over here to commit crimes against us. (why else is our dog afraid of british accents?)

Kate was "paying it forward for kids with cancer" not too long ago. In fact, right after I was injected with a foreign substance in Knoxville. And I know my son has been subjected to things. The Middletons would know what would be get to my parents and how they would "get" it. Most people wouldn't, but they would know how to make a nasty point to my Mom and Dad. I know they are bad people. I did NOT know that before bc I tried to never think of her and decided I'd rather find out bad things after she was married so it didn't look like I was trying to intercept a marriage. So that's what I did. After all of the horrible things done to me leading up to that wedding, and all of the fear I saw from enemies who were worried I might "ruin" it, I should not have been modest or worried about what anyone thought. But my pride did not want to have me appearing like some jealous person attempting to break up an engagment. Once married, pshaw, who cares. He married her. He made his choice. So she's either bad enough to divorce or he's sticking with her, to the bad of a nation.

But yes, all of a sudden, this sudden interest in my having insurance because someone probably already knew what was going on.

Let's think. From point of injecting someone with radioactive materials, how long until a cyst might form? If I was injected with something in Knoxville, that was in July?

And I didn't see any doctor here locally, receive an injection, or go for CT scan until 2 weeks ago. So there was no other form of administered toxin.

I had the first CT 2 weeks ago and they gave me radioactive (or non-so-they-said) contrast when I wanted just a plain x-ray. There was one cyst. Now, 2 weeks later, there are 2 cysts.

And no, my neck pain is not from cysts. It is from the metal in my neck and being tortured.

Someone started pushing for me to have insurance before Christmas.

Let me find out when Kate Middleton did her little charity drop for "kids with cancer".

Oh very interesting. Google search people don't want to pull up the right information. I guess that's because they have no connections to the steel industry or anything, like Roes. They're giving old dates and unimportant info but I just read about it within the last several months and that was just in passing bc I wasn't looking them up at all. But it was last several months.

They knew.

Oh my gosh. September 2011 she and William started a new "children's cancer" ward. This is around the time people were mocking the fact of whether my son had good water to drink or not, when I arrived here in Coquille. The same "friends" that use my parents and have leaked info to Kate Middleton's group were saying this kind of thing. I remember because they kept going on about how important it was to have good water free of radioactive elements and for kids and they looked at my parents and I intuited someone had been giving my son something that wasn't good for him and they let my parents know.

Not only that, Kate's Mossad friend fractured my hand in Knoxville and then injected me with a substance. They were not doctors or nurses and it was at a federal site just an hour away from a nuclear place. This is where they did UK a favor by fingerprinting both of my hands, wrist-up which is European style. It's what they do in Europe, not the U.S. If one is fingerprinted in England for example, it's a handprint, not just fingerprints.

They have done a lot of thing for Kate here in the U.S. which is why I know she and her family are connected to the CIA. She's the "Walker". Catherine Walker. If I had enough money, I would put all of it on a bet that she is a double and works for the U.S. There is nothing else that can possibly explain all of the coverage and support she's received, and torture my family has incurred because of THEM. I am not kidding. It's not like citizens here care, it's been some official and political humping and dumping work. Their travel to and from the U.S. is going to be an ongoing thing. I know someone gave her my FBI files and why they gave HER my files and don't even give them to ME is a serious concern.

Not only that, some others who are Jewish have shared some of my personal family photos with her as well, including photos of me with my Ex from Colombia and photos of me that I have in storage in Seattle.

So let's see. I'm getting my hands fractured and hand-printed UK English-style in July of 2011 and injected with a foreign substance next to a uranium plant. Next, I'm in Coquille, Oregon, showing my parents the evidence of injection site and my x-rays that prove my hand was fractured. Just 2 months after I was injected with a toxic substance, Kate Middleton is opening up a cancer ward, in September 2011.

Funny how many of her mobster supporters got cancer after God decided to afflict them with cancer of his own accord. They weren't injected sweetie pie and they didn't have their food poisoned either. They were damned and now, God damn you.

God damn you Kate Middleton, and your family, in the name of God the Father, Jesus Christ, and The Holy Spirit and on behalf of my son Oliver Garrett. God damn you. God damn your friend Susan Hay who moved over here to harass my family as well. You will never be anything more than a mock pin-up. I don't ever imagine anything for myself other than what is mine, but I hope William finds someone besides you and frees himself of your family if he ever has a chance to meet an actual Protestant with morals and spontaneity because I guess that's something you lack. God damn you for what God knows to be mockery of children with cancer while you propose to support such institutions. God damn your CIA connections and support and may you fail. I hope someone in your own country routs you out and starts exposing your family's religious and political origins and leanings. God damn your friends who planted themselves around my family to live as "neighbors" while torturing us. In the name of God, may your family and supporters be undone.

It was in late November or December that my mother told me "someone" had said I should apply for disability.

I guess so people like the Middletons don't have to worry as much when I'm bringing up Susan Hay, the British woman who is very easily related to Kate Middleton's former housemate and/or the Hay from Washington State Catholic Archdiocese offices.

I was forced to take down that name. Hay.

Susan Hay.

Why is it so important? Unless it points to Ms. Middleton who is, was, and will always be nothing more than Middleton.

Susan Hay is involved with banking over here. Wells Fargo banking. She is born and raised in the UK, in England and she somehow decided to plant herself into my mother's workplace. She does all the banking transactions for houses my mother sells.

Lorrain Rose is also English born and knows Patty Otterbach, the bitch who comes over here to harass my mother all the time. One Brit who knows another Brit, I suspect, Ms. Susan Hay. Lorraine Rose is Jewish and British. I was raped by a Jewish man from this area, where my parents live and where this British Susan Hay lives. Susan is also in the real estate business, like Lorraine Rose. Both in real estate, both British, and both in close proximity to my mother.

We've been tortured and it is no accident. Kate Middleton knows about it. In fact, my parents have met some of the Middletons. They refused to admit it when I asked, just as they have refused to admit they are tortured. But I did ask, and I mentioned names, and it was clear that yes, they have met one or more of "the" Middletons.

Our DOG is terrified of British accents. He infers extreme violence with this accent. This accent and Irish. So what we really want to know, is why the Hoodlum Middleton is involved with my family at all and why none of them are behind bars.

Is this why I am to take "mental health disability"? For the benefit of some religious hate Catholics and a Jew Crew that raped me and tried to set me up because for years they've been preening Kate? This church group coming from Redding, CA, tortured me in their service. Most of their people were from California and this is where Kate wanted to make her stop to see the Beckhams.

Victoria Beckham, and possibly her husband, is Catholic.

Did William father an illegitimate baby through a Catholic Colombian woman? Did he and Kate arrange to have Victoria Beckham carry their child as a surrogate so they could have one in the U.S.?

Why the Catholics?

Why the peace in Northern Ireland "to-do" and sudden invites of IRA people to their wedding, why the lovely "tartan" for the POPE, and why the sudden "ban" against Catholics lifted from UK monarchy?

She is a bloody Mary and she is not even on the throne. Her family is trash. They have pulled out all stops to conceal the truth about history, and spent billions trashing MY family when we had done nothing wrong.

FUCK YOU KATE.

The people who supported her family got close to me and my family, raped us, and stole everything we had and then tried to blackmail us. Now they want me to agree to be mentally ill and not have my own child either.

She never wanted me to have my son and be independent because it looked "too normal" and made me "too available" (then, not saying any chance now, after I've been tortured and said all kinds of things they hoped I'd say).

She was thrilled to have me drugged and posting photos of myself and my feet even. I'm sure, thrilled.

FUCK YOU. FUCK YOUR scheming conniving, criminal and immoral family.

God help England because you are the stumblingstone, not a cornerstone. They are better off abolishing the monarchy altogether than to have Middletons in power.

If the Middletons are in, after the "changes" they brought with them, just abolish the entire institution. It should end with Elizabeth and Philip. Period.

God forbid any Half-assed Middleton Monarchy.

I could even slightly see Charles maybe, or his sister Anne, maybe, but really, the lack of judgment in choosing Kate Middleton cannot be overcome. It's like, all caution to the wind. She conforms and regulates and nothing else. Anyone who is not tortured could do as much as she. She has not one outstanding quality. Harry commented on her legs.

Sorry, but one does not rule with a "great set of pins".

Everything surrounding her entrance and engagement was smeared with the lipstick of a Catholic. Let's have peace day with the Queen prancing in Ireland and bowing to the IRA! Let's make a tartan for the Pope who has ordered the torture of millions and celebrates the day the Nazi's killed Jews! They fucking gave the POPE his own TARTAN??! WhAT the FUCK. Not only that, they gave him one in colors I used for a poem I wrote, about "Punishing the Peacock". Believe me, he is no humble "peacock". It was wrong. It was wrong to stoop to making a tartan for the Pope. Why not Hitler himself? Does England make special tartans for Hitler or the prison guards of concentration camps? And then 9 months after this horrid "engagment" of Kate and Will, they prace over to the Catholic Beckhams where a new baby is born and it's anyone's guess who the baby really belongs to.

She's a CIA bitch.

Do you know what the CIA would want their agent to do? Make peace with Northern Ireland, and bow to them, make a nice tartan for the Pope who runs the CIA, and make a baby with a Catholic babysitter.

Sorry, but there is nothing "English" about that.

Very Valerie.

And she's not English. No, I believe she is Catholic first and Russian second.

Which is maybe why I had a dream about someone that looked like Kate speaking Russian.

The monarchy took this huge nosedive when they became a "blended" family. It's like mixing lemons with dried carnation non-dairy creamer. Keep squeezing the lemons and try to stir it with the creamer and it's just disgusting clumps of tart chalky glop.

THEN! This Catholic Beckham group names their kid "Harper?" in the same day, or actually, AFTER I was thinking this girl I was watching was like Harper from a book? What? Panettas CIA reach goes to Hollywood and the "Rood" as well? Since when are Catholic kids that are being held by royals being named the same name I am thinking of before it came into their minds? Oh yeah, and she is 7 years old, and I was thinking of her as like "Harper" and then the fucking Catholic Beckhams decide to name their (or Kates'?) kid this.

I tried to be discreet before, but sorry, this is just beyond normal. I don't appreciate the hump and dump. And I don't appreciate the Holy See attempting to take over The British Throne or Mossad torturing our family through their British connections either.

He married into a horrible affair.

I think it is very sad that they have pandered to Roman Catholic interests when the Roman Catholics are a great reason for the torture of my family in this country. It is a shame and an indication that this monarchy is being set up to go downhill.

Let's hope it goes downhill and ends before it begins the slimy ascent to the Mountain of the Holy See.

It was wrong.

Everything is wrong. It's deceitful to the English, it's wrong in every way. And it's fucking wrong to torture my family and allow this.

I don't get to see my own FBI files but Kate Middleton does.

Real "English".

They want to have children in other countries raised by Catholics, no doubt, rather than in their own country perhaps, as well. Who knows.

Stop fucking using ME.

Find your own fucking original names for your kids and keep your fucking Catholic PAWS off of my family.

Good Job Hacking! CIA Site DOWN--Satellite Next

2012-02-10T23:02:00.001-08:00

I just heard news that the CIA website was hacked and down. Good job hackers. I was thinking take down the satellites, but maybe you could try that next time.

I was actually torture-free for a little while today too, this afternoon mainly and then it got pretty bad about the same time the CIA site was functional again.

I just heard the news at about 11 p.m. I didn't know it was down at all. But honestly, I had hardly any torture at all for awhile this afternoon until these fuckers quit working on their website problems and refocused on torture of me and my family again.

I think the CIA needs to have more things occupying their time.

If they have time to torture citizens, they have too much free time. I think they need to be working on fixing their websites more.

Seriously, can you guys do a satellite?

Can you guys hack a satellite out of commission?

I mean, satellites are in space but can't you do something digitally to control them? I mean, there must be some kind of computer controls that run those things. They're not free-standing right?

I want to see you guys hack down a satellite. There's your challenge.

Just...shhh...don't get caught.

Maybe hack down the CIA site AND do a satellite because that would really freak them out and keep the military occupied too. You know, might have to think about national security and important things like that instead of torturing kids and my family and things.

I know one of the guys who did it is tall, white, and male. Saw him cheering or laughing. Anyway, don't come around me if you're anyone in intel because I will probably sniff you out and "out" you accidentally no matter who you are.

You can't come near me. The U.S. has tried to read me in order to use me around others and read them through me. Know what I mean?

And then in the downtime I'm just tortured.

I think they wanted to try to use me for spying without my consent basically, and think if they tap me now, if I leave, they can follow who I'm around later, if I'm in another country. If that fails, they just want to anticipate legal moves for the Holy See.

It's pretty sick.

So since the CIA has not been worried about their little shitty website, they have had their people torturing me again. The heart suction stuff, the infrared and burning, the tapping into my metal in my neck, everything.

I wonder if anyone ever thought to plant a few crocus around their fucking igloo.

This is totally out of order from my other post, but I tried looking Coldplay and throat stuff but nothing showing. Guess it's private. Lots about "adele" but it's not about her. It's about Coldplay. Some throat issue. Maybe it's not known yet.

Parents Forced To Torture Their Own Children

2012-02-10T22:59:00.001-08:00

My parents have to lie to me about everything. They lie to MY FACE about "not being tortured" when the evidence is right there. When I feel it myself and have evidence myself. It's on their faces. I see them being tortured and they look me in the eye and lie. If they have to lie about being tortured, you know they have to lie about a lot of things they know about.

I would bet they have even had someone say, "You either let us film you torturing your own kids, for our security, or you're all dead (or in jail or psych wards)." It is this bad. It is bad enough that I would absolutely believe my parents would torture their own kids and be filmed, knowing someone will use it for blackmail, because they are trapped and are not given other options. This is how the CIA is working.

I am positive. I am 100% positive either the U.S. military or CIA has forced them to torture their own kids or grandkids and then filmed it, having them know it was filmed, in order to have blackmail.

I'm positive.

Angel Of Death: Praying For Invastion From New Country

2012-02-10T22:05:00.000-08:00

I explained what I mean about the Angel of Death in my last several posts, but from this night forward, I am keeping a constant vigil and prayer for The Angel of Death to sweep across the United States.

Probably stupid to write, but since I've never prayed for this before, and since it's all in God's hands anyway, and nothing I can control unless it's God's will, there shouldn't be a problem.

I am going to pray for the firsborn to begin to die. Protection for my family, even though we've been poisoned and tortured, and for others to see that my prayer has nothing to do with me.

I really hope that someone sees something dramatic that they haven't seen before.

I hope the firstborn died, just as they killed my parent's firstborn and tried to kill my son and abducted him from me. Until they return my son, I pray those responsible contract cancers, illnesses, blindness, and lose their firstborn. And their pets. May their pets die off.

Not because I don't care about animals either, but because I think something extremely bad needs to happen to this country.

They can't figure it out.

They can't.

They refuse to change.

They tell ME to change..???!!!

I AM to change?

They refuse to budge or move and they torture us.

I want another country to plan and prepare to invade the United States. I will gladly help any way that I can.

These people and this government is corrupt. They are torturing their citizens. We are dying, and we are being injected with radioactive materials, our children are kidnapped in front of our eyes and held hostage, we are cut with knives and told not to say anything and it involves local police to highest levels of government.

Every single law they hold up to protect THEMSELVES with, are lies. They hold up papers to shield themselves, claiming they are good, and better. They are not.

They are criminals and they are torturing innocent woman and children in THIS country, under "laws" they no longer follow.

This country is far far worse than anyone even imagines it is.

No ONE, WHAT intelligence, KNOWS how bad of shape this country is in? They are corrupt. There is no possible way for the slow others to gather and revolt.

They don't have the guts. They are the middle class, poor, and rich who are complacent and play games and think nothing is that bad if it's not them--if their kids are not the ones being tortured, everything is fine.

People are frozen in their ignorance and stupidity. They will not revolt because they have not been tortured as my family is tortured. They do not have the foresight to even think that if this is allowed to US, down the road, it's worse for MORE people. They're blinded and consoling themselves with T.V. and shopping and jobs and not thinking about the fact that there are no civil rights.

INVADE THE UNITED STATES.

PREPARE TO INVADE this COUNTRY.

TAKE OUT the U.S. Satellites. What are you waiting for? Are you waiting for something? TAKE OUT their satellites.

I can't say anything like "bomb" or be descriptive without having ATF using excuses to say there is something wrong. But I do have a right to free speech and the fact is, WE ARE TORTURED.

This COUNTRY IS WORSE than Iraq. THIS country is WORSE than Afghanistan. The U.S. is torturing more citizens per capita than Saddam Hussein ever tortured. Saddam tortured people in obvious ways, by throwing acid on them, because he wasn't as sophisticated as the U.S.

The U.S. is doing WORSE.

They are basically forcing people to drink their poison and conceal the evidence. The U.S. is torturing people through sophisticated technology that they hide evidence of. This is what they do. It is the same as throwing acid on our faces, but they don't want that evidence, so they torture us day and night in other ways.

What is worse? throwing acid on faces one time?

Or torturing babies, children, men and women all day and all night, for years?

The United States is committing crimes against their own citizens and they are using official means to conceal these crimes. The FBI is supposed to investigate and they don't, they have colluded to encourage and protect those who commit these crimes.

Again. What is worse? Throwing acid on faces one time?

Or torturing people all day and night, for YEARS?

Which one? Which is worse?

We need to see Joe Biden in his underpants.

The entire world was shown photos of Saddam Hussein in his underwear when the worse criminals are Biden, Mueller, Panetta, and Hayden.

Where are the underwear shots of the U.S. men in their white underpants?

Do you know who will be cheering?? if we have an effigy of Biden hanging in Washington D.C., and of Hayden, and Panetta, and Mueller?

I will be cheering. And I will not be alone.

How do you know it's just me?

Maybe others are tortured too, and can't talk about it. They are intimidated and tortured to be silent, just like my mother and father and brother. We have military assaulting us on our heads, so they swell up and they can laugh internationally about it.

Compare. Please. Saddam was NOT right to torture people, including his own family. But like I said, the U.S. INVADING with the entire justification that the Iraqi's were suffering. Meanwhile, on our OWN territory, the U.S. is allowing religious hate crimes.

It's not just here and there.

EVERY SINGLE DAY.

The CIA is fucked up with a bunch of Holy See ass-kissers. The FBI is almost worse. They are also predominantly Roman Catholic IRA supporting ass-kissers who can't even acknowledge the fact that the Holy See is a country. Do you know why the CIA wants to say the Holy See is a "neutral" country? Because more than half of THEM give their primary allegiance TO the Holy See.

So basically, for them it doesn't look so bad if they're Catholic and working for the CIA if they try to claim the holy See is "neutral" and not politically active. It helps to minimize the important fact that there is a conflict of interest in being dual agent for two different countries; one is the Holy See and the other is the U.S. and the Holy See is #1 but oh, they want to minimize this by lying and saying it's a politically "Neutral" country.

And yes, I'm being tortured while I write this. What else do you expect?

Washington D.C. is full of Catholics. It's corrupt. All of the Catholics are in suburbs of Virginia, D.C. and Maryland. It's all right there and most of them are Catholic and they running the country as the hub. Did you see how many CIA directors come straight out of Georgetown University? If you check, almost every single CIA director went to Georgetown. It's a JESUIT University. Run by the Holy See. And that is where we're getting the CIA directors.

So the FBI is proven to be actively recruiting most of their people from Roman Catholic colleges. It's a proven fact. They already have about 70% Catholics in the FBI, or Episcopal, which is the exact same thing. Episcopal is not "protestant", it's in "communion with the Roman Catholic church" which means, it acknowledges Roman Catholic alliance. So saying Mueller is Episcopal and "protestant" is a falsehood. He is more Catholic than protestant. It is impossible to be "in communion with the Catholic church" and be Protestant at the same time. You are either Catholic. Period. or you are Protestant. Period. You cannot be "in communion with the Catholic church" and be "Protestant" at the same time. So as long as Mueller claims to be protestant, call him a liar. Protestants are NOT "in communion with the Catholic church." So Mueller is not Protestant. Episcopal used to be protestant but it's changed and it's not protestant anymore. It's Catholic.

So basically, every single leader of intelligence and CIA and FBI, are Catholic.

FUCK THEM. Why? because they are the ones condoning torture of Protestants.

They are not Protestant. They are ALL Catholic. Pick one. Catholic. Pick another. Catholic. Oh, well, try that department. Catholic. Uh, how about this one? Catholic.

Fucker, fucker, fucker, fucker, all of them. Fuckers and criminals.

Why are ALL of the CIA directors coming out of Georgetown, a Jesuit University? and then the FBI is doing all the recruiting from Catholic colleges? and now Panetta is in charge of the Pentagon? That is total and absolute infiltration of our country by God damn criminal Catholics who work for the Holy See. When you have Jesuits running the CIA is it any wonder that criminal politicians like Gregoire, another Jesuit, is running Washington state into the ground? Department of Education leader? Catholic. Office of the Inspector General? Catholic (former CIA). The Supreme Court? 100% Catholic and Jews. Directorate of Intelligence. Catholic. Right now, there is ONE non-Catholic person in charge of a major agency and it's an Army guy. That is IT. Every single Washington D.C. agency has crammed in Catholic shoes to fill the slots. And they've got their mafias with Northern Irish, Italians, and Mexican/hispanics. Then throw in some Jewish mobsters.

My case with my son, is ALL Catholics. There were maybe 2 people out of 60 who were Protestants. They are ALL Catholic mother-fuckers and child abusers. There were actually Jewish on the outskirts that didn't want to be noticed. But in the fore, all Catholics.

Holt, Chris Rozollo, Titus, all Jewish. I was stalked by Jewish and Catholics in Wenatchee and by a ton of Jewish in D.C. as well. The Jewish stalked me at the coffee houses and attempted to frame me in D.C. as well. They wanted me out of the way. One guy was a cop and tried to pull a sting, another couple were Jewish guys who just wanted to try to swap me around and pretend to want to sleep with me while stealing samples of my hair for DNA (I am NOT kidding).

My parents have been oppressed by Jewish mother fucking mobsters as much as Catholics. Think about it. Do they want my mom or dad to expose the jewish rapist and who he's connected to? I would bet money, my parents know who he is connected to. My parents have to lie to me about everything. They lie to MY FACE about "not being tortured" when the evidence is right there. When I feel it myself and have evidence myself. It's on their faces. I see them being tortured and they look me in the eye and lie. If they have to lie about being tortured, you know they have to lie about a lot of things they know about.

I would bet they have even had someone say, "You either let us film you torturing your own kids, for our security, or you're all dead (or in jail or psych wards)." It is this bad. It is bad enough that I would absolutely believe my parents would torture their own kids and be filmed, knowing someone will use it for blackmail, because they are trapped and are not given other options. This is how the CIA is working.

There are a lot of "Koch"s here.

Koch. The Jewish name Koch, like the Koch mayor in NY, the multiple Koch's in CA and WA and OR. Living right next door to Gatov.

CT Contrast Induces Seizures (Coos Bay Hospital)

2012-02-10T21:56:00.000-08:00

Not only is there evidence that Dilaudid induces seizure, but CT contrast does as well.

http://www.ajronline.org/content/140/4/787.full.pdf

So basically, I am PRONE to seizure and have drooling related to it, and I was given 2 different chemicals at the hospital in Coos Bay, that triggered seizure effects.

I pulled on the emergency cord to get help and they pushed me out of the hospital and threatened me instead, and refused to let me see a doctor or point out all the drool in the sink to a doctor.

FUCK THEM.

FUCK COOS BAY hospital.

I had ginko tea, which wouldn't have done anything, but it can cause some seizure symptoms in combination with other things.

THEN they gave me seizure inducing media contrast for CT.

THEN they also gave me high doses (intravenous, 40 mg) of dilaudid which is contraindicated with seizure.

So, I HAD seizure symptoms and those people forced me into a chair, refused to let me see a doctor, and left me outside of the hospital.

FUCK THEM. I hope they lose medical funding for that hospital and that the nurses in charge are fired.

I had severe nausea, not really dizziness, but nausea, and then excessive drooling. Then it was a little bit better but I was still nauseous. In the car, I had the window rolled down because I felt sick and needed fresh air and then back at my house I had another wave come over me and stood drooling at the sink again for about 10 minutes.

By drooling, I mean, as much as throwing up but all clear saliva just pouring out of my mouth. And nausea.

So those assholes at that hospital refused treatment of my seizure symptoms and didn't even listen to me and I had not done one single thing that was loud, or insulting, or obstructive, or anything. I was polite the whole time and they just ganged up on me when I rang the cord for the emergency in the bathroom.

If this country doesn't return my son, they are in serious serious trouble.

I will be praying, every single day from this day forward, for the Angel of Death to sweep across this country.

Dilaudid NOT For Seizure Prone & Cysts

2012-02-10T21:10:00.001-08:00

I am correct.

Dilaudid is contraindicated for seizure prone people.

Dilaudid can cause seizures when taken in
high doses and, if you have a seizure disorder, can make the seizures worse.
Be sure to tell the doctor if you're sensitive to sulfites (preservatives
commonly found in red wine), since Dilaudid contains this substance.
http://www.drstahlmanonline.com/uploads/PDFDrugFAQs_-_Dilaudid.pdf

I had a seizure reaction last night. I had only one cup of ginko tea maybe 2 hours before I went to the ER so it wasn't that. But then I was given dilaudid and also radioactive contrast for a CT.

That whole combo did me in.

I was drooling in the bathroom over the sink and for the very first time in my entire life I had to pull on the emergency cord in the restroom.

It was the first time in my LIFE that I had to do this.

Instead of getting help, I was accosted by Catholic nurses and a police guard that pushed me into a wheelchair, refused me a doctor when I told them I was having seizure symptoms, and they fucking wheeled me OUT of the hospital.

I am NOT kidding you. I told my parents the exact same thing today.

I wasn't being forced to leave the ER, there was no upset or problem, nothing at all. I was just nauseous and I said I needed to use the restroom so I went in and then I peed and was so sick and started drooling into the sink. They could SEE it. The sink was FULL of drool by the time I had pulled on the emergency cord.

Instead of giving me a doctor, they treated me like a criminal.

I fucking hate them and hope they lose their licenses and are on unemployment indefinitely. I am never going back there. Ever. I mean, NEVER.

Also, I had TOLD them I just had a CT with contrast only 2 weeks ago and they could have sent for it. They could have done a plain x-ray or MRI or asked for my CT and instead, they jacked me up with MORE radioactive contrast???!!!! and did another one and then said now I have MORE "cysts".

But they did nothing about it. No MRI. Nothing.

So what's the point? Inject me with radioactive materials and watch it grow? Like I'm a walking Petri Dish?

FUCK YOU.

I'm going on disability because I'm forced to, but that doesn't mean I have to get medical care here. I refuse.

Everything I find about Dilaudid states it is to be used with caution for anyone with seizures or who is seizure-prone. I was given 20 mgs and then another 20 mgs. I had a very bad reaction and had it again at my house, hours later. I don't know about the contrast, if it contributes to seizure. But I am allergic to Dilaudid. So I can't have it anymore.

I will have a good life when I am no longer living in this country. I would fully support some other country invading and taking over. Let me help! You need some more land or somethin'? Do you like our resources? Are you tired of the shitty people and hypocrites you have to deal with? Well let me be your own personal tour guide to taking the U.S. by surprise.

They torture citizens here so ummm, yeah, I fully support an invasion.

I mean, I think that's the big justification the U.S. gave for invading Iraq and Afghanistan right? "The people are pleading, asking us to save them and rescue them!"

So please, invade. Just don't be connected to the Middletons. I think they're happy enough with a piece of CIA pie and a chunk of castle rock to plant bombs around. Kate The Fraggle-Rock. Rock on Fraggle! You ROCK! Love the dark-haired men you keep around for your envoys. Ok, now I have to look up the definition of "fraggle". Oh my word. It's a London phrase. A fraggle is a nutter.

2. fraggle rock 23 up, 13 down
london slang term for the medical wing in prison people who are there are offen given powerful medication which turns them into zombies, they are then refferd to as fraggles
yeah Tom hes a nutter, hes in Fraggle rock, hes well fraggled now.

(Is God hooking me UP or WHAT!?! that is hilarious. Here's another definition)
3. Fraggle Rock 2 up, 1 down
When a girl is so drunk/coked up that her appearance has declined significantly from earlier in the evening, usually used in a bar/club setting. Refers to hair being messed up to the point of looking like "Fraggle Rock".
"Dude look at Brittany, shes a mess, looking like Fraggle Rock"

Whoa. Or it's a drug!

7. Fraggle Rock 9 up, 14 down
A form of intense, uberl33t marajuana, most commonly found priced at $20-$35 at your local street pharmacy.
Man, that fuckin fraggle rock kicked my fuckin ass, i'm still blitzed. I ... Oooooh cookies!

Well that is funny. Frag is also fragment. Kinda like a piece of a party. You know, see above (point 7)

I guess I'm having a good time ripping on Kate Middleton tonight. First of all, she really is evil or I wouldn't. Secondly, I really did "see" her Dad toting an Uzi and using it and my own Dad was shocked and surprised about that and HE IS psychic. Also, you fit into the evil category when you harass people across the ocean and use others to torture them even, and then make fun of what you know is going on, by "paying it forward for kids with cancer" when you know exactly what your thugs are up to. I am absolutely justified. She even came to California for coke. I would bet. I know she does in UK, and I seriously wondered about CA as well. I just don't know who her Daddy was working for. I mean, my Dad has some gifts, but he pack an Uzi around sweetie. Just not his style. So I am wondering who he was working for.

This song just came on by Coldplay "Paradise" and it's so wrong. I hear it differently now. I hear it as "Perez-dies". By the way Coldplay, one of you is going to have a problem, or already has some kind of vocal problem, but I don't know what it is. I just had an intuitive flash that someone has a vocal issue or will have one but I don't know who or why. So I might look it up tonight to see if there is any news to that effect.

(hmm. doesn't even deserve honorable mention so I deleted it)

So, dilaudid and seizures--it's listed on every single site about the drug.

Dilaudid Side Effects, Overuse

Serious Dilaudid side effects that require immediate medical attention:

•Cold, clammy skin
•Confusion
•Feeling light-headed
•Fainting
•Seizure (convulsions)
•Severe dizziness
•Severe weakness
•Shallow breathing
•Slow heartbeat
Seek emergency care for other conditions of opiate poisoning and overuse, as Dilaudid side effects that may persist:

•Chest pain
•Clay-colored stools
•Coma, unconsciousness
•Dark urine
•Fever
•Irregular, slow heartbeat
•Lack of responsiveness
•Muscle stiffness or tremor
•Pinpointed pupils
•Seizures
•Severe sleepiness
•Tightness in chest
•Vomiting
Allergic reactions that require urgent medical attention:

•Airway constriction or obstruction
◦Sometimes indicated by wheezing
•Breathing difficulties
•Hives, itching, or allergic rash
•Swelling of the face
◦Lips
◦Mouth
◦Tongue
◦Throat
•Seizure, convulsions
•Shallow breathing
•Slow heartbeat
•Stomach pain
•Unusual thoughts or behavior
•Yellowing of the skin or eyes

Doctors will advise against Dilaudid use if patients have a history of:

•Asthma and respiratory disorders
•Bowel or diarrhea disorders
•Brain tumor, head trauma or pressure
•Constricted airways
•Chronic obstructive pulmonary disease (COPD)
•Cor pulmonale heart disease
•Irregular breathing during sleep
•Other breathing disorders
•Taking sodium oxybate (GHB)
•Or during labor.
Adverse Dilaudid side effect symptoms need to be conferred with a doctor in patients with a history of:

•Addison's disease
•Adrenal gland or thyroid disorders
•Alcohol or drug addiction
•Enlarged prostate
•Epilepsy or seizures
•Liver or kidney disease
•Low blood pressure
•Mental illness, suicidal thoughts
•Pancreas disorder
•Stomach, intestinal disorders
•Under-active thyroid
•Urination difficulties

Middletons & Corrupt Coos Bay Hospital: Epilepsy & Angel of Death

2012-02-10T12:03:00.011-08:00

I had an epilepsy attack after I was drugged up at Coos Bay hospital and I went to the bathroom and was leaning over the sink drooling and pulled the emergency cord.

Instead of getting help from a nurse or doctor, this one nurse who was a bitch the entire time, named "Stephanie" (pregnant) and 3 police officers came over to tell me to leave or they'll kick me out.

I said, "I need a doctor--I'm having an epilepsy attack."

They refused to get a doctor.

I was standing right there in front of them, bent over the sink drooling and the sink was filled with clear and bubbly saliva because it wasnt the toilet and wouldn't all go down.

I could not believe it. I have no idea what their problem was but I was about to be discharged and sign papers and then I stood and and needed to use the restroom and felt extremely nauseous and started to have an attack and was drooling.

They refused treatment and evaulation for epilepsy. They forced me into a wheelchair with 3 guards and out the door.

I am not kidding.

And then even when I was eventually home at my own house, I was drooling more into the sink again, having another attack and nauseous.

They gave me more radioactive chemicals when I was there.

That was all they did--was to jack me up a second time with radioactive chemicals. I am not lying.

I went there because the pain from my neck was not any better so they drove me there. I've already HAD a CT with radioactive chemicals, and it showed a "cyst" or some other object in my thyroid.

Then last night, I TOLD that doctor, and they all KNEW, I had already had a CT only 2 weeks earler, with contrast. Instead of doing a plain x-ray or MRI, they filled up my entire body with radioactive material again.

They also gave me heavy doses of Dilaudid which I believe I am allergic to because it does't help the way the other painkillers do and only made me sick.

The combination of being injected with radioactive materials twice in 2 weeks, plus the dilaudid, triggered an epilepsy attack and they were all standing right there to witness it and they shoved me out the door like I'd done something wrong.

I am not going to any of these local doctors ever again.

EVER.

I don't care if I have to die first. Let me die, because these doctors are filling me up with harmful chemicals and doing their own sick research and nothing to help.

FUCK them and God damn that nurse Stephanie and her child. She has no right to be a nurse or in the position she's in if she is defaming me to police to have me thrown out when I am making an emergency call from the bathroom because of a seizure.

I even told them I had history of seizure on my chart.

FUCK THEM.

I will never, EVER, go to any of these local doctors again, for any reason. EVER.

The next time I go to a doctor, will be when I live in another country and I'm naming the ones over here as criminals.

So they supposedly took this second radioactive CT of my neck again, to see if there were "any changes" when they should have done the MRI or x-ray instead. I told the doctor I wanted to see the results and he refused and said he'd give me a page with 4 pictures on it. I said thanks, and where is the photo of the cyst in my thyroid?

He said he'd look for it.

Then he told me he couldn't find it.

That's one of the major new presentations, is a CYST in my thyroid and this fucking doctor gave me photos of my tooth fillings, (seriously) and NOT of the cyst.

Like I said, I am never going to any of these local doctors again unless it is only to be evaluated for disability so I have money to leave this God damned country with.

When I get out of here, I am listing every single one of the Nazi's and criminals I've had to be around.

This is OVER.

Not only that, KNOWING I have some kind of cyst in my thyroid, they gave me a DOUBLE dose of MORE radioactive chemicals?

They want to kill me. They did not treat me for seizure and kicked me out in the middle of an attack. That means criminal.

Any doctor or nurse kicking someone out in the middle of a seizure attack is a criminal.

No wonder my parents don't go to any of the doctors here. They didn't even want to take me, or drive by, so I called an ambulance. Now I know why they didn't want to take me at all--the doctors here are corrupt and criminal.

I would put all my money on a bet that that nurse "Stephanie" from ER (dark brown hair and pregnant) is Catholic. There was no other reason for her to treat me the way she did unless it's religious hate crime.

No Protestant would do that because they don't have an agenda against me from the start. Catholics would, because that is the kind of treatment I get, every single time. So I'm about 95% positive she is Roman Catholic.

No one else would try to make me look bad, or call 3 police when I was in the bathroom drooling from seizure. And those guards and officers can have their place next to her in a lake of burning fire. There was a hispanic nurse that was involed and who came over to have this done to me and he is Catholic.

He forced me into the wheelchair while he was laughing.

It was him, this hispanic or Mexican Roman Catholic, who was a nurse there, and her, "Stephanie" and then 1-2 other police or guards.

But the man forcing me into the chair was Roman Catholic, and he was directing the guards just as the nurse Stephanie was. I asked to talk to a doctor and they refused.

God Damn them and their families. May their children see and know suffering by the consquence of their own actions.

Roman Catholic hate crime.

I have more than enough evidence to prove it. I think the doctor who saw me was also Catholic as was the radiologist nurse but I am not sure. I know the radiologist nurse was happy to be injecting me with more radioactive materials and the doctor was the one who ordered it, and AFTER I told him I already had a CT with "constrast".

You don't keep filling someone up with contrast when there is a cyst in the thyroid. You use MRI fuckers.

Where did you go to med school? The Vatican?

FUCK YOU.

I have a cyst, and they said it might not be a cyst but something else instead.

That's fine. Based on the treatment I've received, I will never show up at their medical facilities again,no matter how much Panetta tries to do them a favor by aksing military to assault me with technology to drive me to the hospital. It will not happen again.

The next doctors who will look me over will be from another country and they will confirm the U.S. has harbored criminals.

I asked for 2 simple things: to see a photo of the cyst and they "couldn't find it" which is why I was even there to start with. Then I asked what the name was of the contrast they were using and they refused to tell me.

So FUCK YOU and God damn you, truly. I pray God puts his angels over your households until you see what the Angel of Death can do to those who are criminals and persecute innocent people. I pray the Angel of Death over your doors. Amen.

Usually, I can't imagine getting a "good vibe" from pronouncing or praying something like this, but I got very good energy when I prayed this so I do believe it is within God's will. God saw for himself what you did to you and He will repay you back for what you have sown.

Do you believe in the Angel of Death?

You might want to think about it and do some research--read your Bible and ask around. There is an Angel, a holy Angel and it is the Angel of Death. You can go on and on about Michael and Gabreille and the names of other angels who are commissioned to do other things but how much have you given credit to the Angel of Death? Is the Angel of Death "evil"? It's not a demon of death. It's a holy Angel of the Lord who will go after and take out those who put themselves in God's way.

I'm surprised your doctors and nurses claim to have no knowledge about the Angel of Death. You see death all the time. However, you see with natural eyes and do not see past the natural to the spiritual. Yes, most people die of natural causes, and God lets chance happen to them all (ecclessiastes). Time and chance, death, happen to everyone.

But I don't believe I've yet introduced you to my good friend: The Angel of Death.
The Angel of Death stood beside me while many other died around me and I was left unharmed or barely injured. The Angel of Death knows my face and saw it and passed over me because he saw God's mark on me.

The Angel of Death is real, and the Angel of Death can carry out any request any person of God makes, if it also in line with God's will and desires. It doesn't carry out orders on behalf of others just because they call on it, it carries out the will of God. But if I pray, in faith, knowing God knows what has been done to me and my son, that you are visited by the Angel of Death, I have faith that it will be done.

I've prayed for cancers for others and it happened. I've prayed for other injuries when someone is extremely wicked and hurts others, and it has happened. It hasn't always happened how I wanted, but it happened. And most times, I never told anyone and gave my prayer to God alone. Sometimes, after they got cancer, I felt sorry about it. Sometimes I didn't. Some recovered. I only prayed they'd get cancer, not die from it.

But it has happened, and I therefore know and believe in the Angel of the Lord who can bring about sickness and death with not single human being being involved.

No one has to spike a drink or food, or put out a biochemical, or be a wicked person who lays out elaborate spells. No one has to hire a hit man.

My hit man is not for hire.

He doesn't take bribes to carry out his hits. He belongs to God.

So you can think whatever you want: that I'm crazy or that I'm not a christian, but throughout history, God has shown his power through the Angel of the Lord and the Angel of Death. Some Irish called it The Banshee but that's not necessarily from God. It's a spirit that takes life, but not in the name of the Lord.

The Angel of Death takes life and is yet holy. The Angel of Death strikes down women with cancer who did wrong to others, and yet is holy.

Again, does being sick or afflicted mean you're being punished from God? no. AIDS is from the government, not God. And many very good people have horrific things happen and it is not from God and not God's will.

But the beautiful and fearful figure of the Angel of Death is alive and well. The Angel of Death looked me straight in the eyes and said, "No, not this one." God said no, not that one.

But as for you, do you have the blood of the lamb covering YOU? for your wicked and deceitful ways? You don't even believe in the Angel of Death or in the power this angel has from God so how can you begin to protect yourself.

You pushed me down into that wheelchair while I was drooling from seizure, after I was injected again with radioactive materials and the Angel of Death was over you and watched and you are marked now.

Is the United States treating my family like crap over this? Because of God's favor which they want to manipulate into soemthing else? Then you are damned. Any one of you that attempts to steal from us or take gifts of God is damned. God does the giving and taking, not you.

Am I terrorist? when I've never harmed a person my entire life? I have never once laid a hand on anyone. I have never physically assautled anyone in any way, or even lied about them mercilessly to cause them to suffer as a false witness.

How do you put the Angel of Death on your fucking terrorist list?

#1 Enemy of the State: Wanted: The Angel of the Lord. Aliases: Angel of Death.

Go ahead, you just GO after the Angel of Death. The Angel of Death struck down every single firstborn child of the Egyptians for their stubborness in holding others hostage. Every single one. The Angel of Death struck down the man whose arm faltered in carrying the ark or who accidnetally touched it and he died instantly. "God WHY did you do this to that poor man who was trying to carry your sacred ark?"

God doesn't have to give reasons.

He sends out the Angel of Death and sometimes, it gets right up to you and sees you and smells you and knows you and passes by. Other times, it comes right over and touches you and you never feel it and you were just hit with cancer that will begin to fester from that moment on.

The Angel of Death sneers at voodoo. Sneers at military black operations and biochemicals. Sneers at wiccan work and kaballah, and secret agents with special vials. The Angel of Death sneers at the efforts of the Pentagon and CIA and any other country. Sneers at the Holy See and the Pope and his indulgences and proclamations.

The Angel of Death is watching "the invisible man" with amusment.

The Angel of Death can take any one of you OUT in an instant, just as you fucking threaten my family with instantanous gunshot wounds or incapacitation from technology.

Don't be surprised, after mistreating us, if you get paid an unwanted visit. Amen.

And don't blame me for anything either, because this Angel can only do what God orders and agrees for it to do. I don't lay spells or wish for bad thigns. I have rarely prayed for retributation because "vengeance is mine sayeth the Lord". That vengeance sometimes comes through a visit from the Angel of the Lord. I can't control it, and I can't control what God chooses to do.

So if you get HIT by God's hit man, the #1 Enemy of the State, then don't go crying to me.
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I had ginko tea before I went to the hospital and was then injected with radioactive materials and high levels of dilaudid. My reaction was to have seizure symptoms and while I was in the bathroom over the sink drooling, and pulling on the emergency cord that was inside there, I was then accosted by police, denied seeing a doctor, and shoved into a wheelchair and pushed outside of the hospital and left there.

God damn all of you. I hope you lose your licenses to practice.
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I just turned to my Bible and since it fell on 2 Kings 2:23, I thought I would list it here. Just last night my parents asked me about forgiveness and cursing and I said "I have never cursed God". I have cursed others, as in, God take revenge, but swearing (f you, shit,) is not cursing. Swearing is using language to insult. Cursing is when you pray to God or imply to God that you want another to receive retribution from God. That's holy cursing.

There is bad and wicked cursing, done by voodoo or charms or witchcraft, trying to lay out harm to a person through chant or evil will. Then there is righteous "cursing" which is what prophets of God used. And non-prophets as well. If God agrees, he will do it. So I mentioned to my parents, about Elisha being made fun of and he sics a bunch of bears on kids to maul them. My parents said, "That's the old testament" and I said, "Jesus cursed the pharisees and scribes." They said, "Jesus was on the cross and he said, 'forgive them for they know not what they do." I said, "That was for the soldiers who were acting as grunts for others. Jesus looked at them, and he knew they DIDN"T know what they were doing because they were just following orders. Even if they mocked him and were cruel, Jesus knew their thoughts and knew somehow that they didn't know. Jesus knew there were others behind this, the Pharisees and Saduccess, who DID know what was going on. He did not forgive THEM." They said, "Jesus forgave everyone." I said, "How do you know who he was addressing?" Jesus himself cursed the Pharisees and Sadducees, calling them hypocrites and brood of vipers. When he was on the cross, the only people around him were not those WHO KNEW. Those who were ultimately responsible were not standing there at the cross. Instead, it was Roman soldiers who mocked him and made fun and tortured him by prodding himm worse, and Jesus said to THEM, "Father forgive them, for they know not what they do." And they didn't. They were bad people, but did they really know what was going on? probably not, and Jesus knew that. Those who KNEW what was going, were letting the soldiers carry out the beatings and crucifixion while they hung back protected and didn't want people to notice them. Did Jesus forgive those who KNEW what they were doing?

I don't think so.

Nor do I forgive those who know what is happening to my family, who call out the orders and are too cowardly to do anything themselves. They are not forgiven. Which is why I say if there are some who mock and do things because they're forced to or don't know or understand, they are not as liable, or held to the same standard as those who DO know and who are ultimately responsible.

The religious hypocrites who put Jesus in prison, and hauled him into a mock court and bribed Potipher and who defamed Jesus and stirred up trouble against him, THEY were the ones who were ultimately responsible and I don't believe even one of them actually bloodied their hands.

History repeats itself.

When the Angel of Death, however, looks over the group, it just does as God commands. The Angel of Death does not work slow-mo. If God commissioned the Angel of Death to kill all the firstborn sons in a night, do you think this was a slow Angel? If God had to say, "But don't kill any child where there is blood on the doorpost" why do you think God said this? would he need to say this if the Angel stopped by at every house and looked into the windows and bassinets? This Angel was sent out that night to SWEEP through the town, spreading out death to the left and the right and only hesitating or passing by a house with blood on the door. Maybe if it saw blood, it stopped there. If there was no blood, it swept through into the house and sent death to the child.

God loves children.

He killed children too.

GOD killed kids who were the children of wicked parents. Not because it was the child's fault, but because these parents were ignoring what He said and holding others hostages and using them and they refused to quit.

You refuse to quit? You want to trust in Dempsey, Mueller, and Panetta? and the others who make orders to torture us? Be my fucking guest. And let the Angel of Death know what your excuse is when your kid dies.

So this Angel of Death is not one of your walzing angels. This Angel does NOT fucking "dance".

There are Angels of all kinds, from all 4 winds and directions, and with different orders and directions and attributes. And the Angel of Death is not a dancing angel and it is not a slow angel either. It is a ruthless and righteous Angel that does not hesitate to carry out orders from a Holy God and who will never violate an order and kill an innocent that God marks out to protect.

I believe this same Angel of Death is possibly also the Angel that will distribute disease, like cancer, but maybe I'm wrong--maybe that's a different one, and how should I know. They must be the only ones that sit at the same table while the other Angels keep to themselves. Let's invite "Death" to the party. Right. The other Angels probably think, "You do what you have to do, but please don't rain on our parade."

In fact, the Angel of Death is possibly one of the lonliest Angels. I don't mean, feels lonely, but acts as an independent and lone mover. I don't see the Angel of Death hovering above the stable with the other angels upon the birth of Jesus in the manger.

The Angel of the Lord goes before battles into war:
(do you hear the sound of the branches and leaves rustling, the sound of marching in the trees? that is the Spirit of the Lord and then move, he will go before you)
The Angel of the Lord kills without thinking twice:
(I command you to kill all of the firstborn sons of the people of Egypt for refusing to let MY firstborn be released. Do not stop by any house with blood on it because that is a house of the Israelites)
The Angel of the Lord kills holy men who make innocent mistakes when handling holy things:
(A man carrying the ark was strucken down to instant death for stumbling while carrying the ark of the Lord. David was angry with God and yelled at God. Was God offended that David yelled at him? Is God a coward or not able to "take" being yelled at? Was David "unholy" for yelling at God? or does God know all things and say "fuck you" to the people who claim they know so much and are so righteous and that someone who swears now and then can't be "of God" but "from Satan." The Angel of God protects God's sacred) I Chronicles 13:9. Uzzah reached out his hand steady the ark, because the oxen stumbled. The Lord's angr burned against Uzzah, and he struck him down because he had put his hand on the ark. So he died there before God. Then David was angry because the Lord's wrath had broken out against Uzzah and to this day that place is call PEREZ Uzzah. (is Perez next? will he or she be next to go?). David was afraid of God that day and asked, "How can i ever bring the ark of God to me?" He did not take the ark to be with him in the City of David. Instead, he took it aside to the house of Obed-Edom the Gittite. The ark of God remained with the family of Obed-Edom in his house for three months, and the Lord blessed his household and everything he had).

Angel of Death to Sons of Moses:
Leviticus 16:1-2.
The Lord spoke to Moses after the death of the two sons of Aaron who died when they approached the Lord. The Lord said to Moses: "Tell your brother Aaron not to come whenever he hooses into the Mose holy Place behind the curtain in front of the atonement cover on the ark, or else he will die, because I appear in the cloud over the atonement cover."

Leviticus 10:1-7:
Death of Aarons sons by Angel of the Lord.
"Aaron's sons Nadab and Abihu took their censors, put fire in them and added incense,; and they offered UNAUTHORIZED FIRE before the Lord, contrary to his command. So fire came out from the presence of the Lord and consumed them, and they died before the Lord. Moses then said to Aaron, "This is what the Lord spoke of when he said: "Among those who approach me I will show myself holy; in the sight of all the people I will be honored." Aaron remained silent....your relatives, all the house of Israeal, may mourn for those the Lord has destroyed by fire. Do not leave the entrance to the Tent of the Meeting or you will die, because the Lord's anointing oil is on you." So they did as Moses said."

Division by Angel of The Lord. Exodus 14:19
"Then the angel of God, who had been traveling in front of Israel's army, withdrew and went behind them. The pillar of cloud also moved from in front and stood behind them, coming between the armies of Egypt and Israel." (then the armies of Egypt because confused and said since the wheels were all falling off the axles of their chariots, the God of Israel is fighting against us--let's get out of here. May this same thing happen to those who have harmed my family and son).

At Midnight The Fairytale Ends--Death To The Firstborn by The Angel of the Lord.
Exodus 11:4, So Moses said, "This is what the Lord says: "About midnight I will go throughout Egypt. Every firsborn son in Egypt will die, from the firstborn son of Pharoah, who sits on the throne, to the firstborn son of the slave girl, who is at her hand mill, and all the firstborn of the cattle as well."
(why? because these people abducted The Firstborn of the Lord and held him hostage. So do not think you can steal my son Oliver and not incur his wrath because I do not care if you think he is only one child, I have more faith than you and more fear of the Lord as well that he will do this).

I have never prayed for death from the Angel of the Lord before, but I have prayed for cancers and later found out it happened even though I told no one about it. So I do know God listens and he can carry out horrific plans of his own that you will never prosecute me for. Will you prosecute GOD? Put GOD on the stand please.

God will not carry out a request unless He agrees with it. If he doesn't agree with it, it won't happen. No human gets involved in the business. It's God's doing and not something you hire someone else to do. When it is God's will and decision, he will do it. If it's not, he won't. Once done, it cannot be taken back. Some of the people have lived. They didn't die. They just got cancer and lived. You can mitigate for it, by asking God to lessen the effects. "Oh God, I see what suffering is incurred and I repent from my severe anger, just as you too have sometimes repented and turned from your anger at the Israelites, and I ask that you remove this curse or mitigate for it."

God himself is sometimes moved to "repent" (which means to turn) from things he decides. He may see the pitiful suffering and feel it in his heart, to turn from his original order. And I have also felt some regret upon discovery that the very person I prayed would get cancer, turned out to get full-blown cancer.

Maybe some people even get cancer before I know they should get it. Like Mykal Holt. She supposedly had cancer and then when I saw what she did to me, I know now, God knows everything and knew what her actions to me would be before time had even occured. She got her cancer paid in full before we ever met and God knew exactly what He was doing. May she die from it. She will, indeed, die from it. Not only did she sleep with my boyfriend, she lied about me and defamed me to ruin my court case which harmed my son, and she stole my hope chest. She then proceeded to file a false claim about me and then defamed me to people who ran women's shelters so I could not even stay there. She invited police to go through my belongings. She stole my silk blouse and other items. She will die from her own sin. She will not be healed. Hmm. Interesting. At that, one of my candles just extinguished itself.

She is cursed from holding onto my Hope Chest. Cursed. She stole it from me, lied about me in ways that harmed a little boy, and is a wretch. And the candle literally extinguished itself as soon as I wrote, she invited police to go through my belongings and stole my silk blouse, and "She will die from her own sin". Right as I writing this, I heard a crackling because I had brought in 2 candles from outside a little bit ago.

There is no draft in my house, no vent or windows open. They were both burning and then I wrote this and crackle crackle crackle and I looked, and thought, "Oh my gosh, is it going to go out?" and I wasn't leaning over it, just looked and sure enough, it extinguished itself and a plume of smoke went up. Mykal is going to die. It started crackling through "she will die from her own sin" and the plume of smoke went up with "she will not be healed."

She did all the things to me that I've mentioned and then she even tried to steal my hair pins to my hairsetter when I went there to get some of my things. She didn't want me to be able to curl my hair. She gave me all these boxes of things and I didn't go through all of them and looked at her and said, "My hair pins." She said I don't know what you're talking about and I said, "Yes you do. They're in a dish in your bathroom. I want my hair pins." She then gave them to me, thinking she could get away with stealing more than she already had. She stole my silk blouse and other clothing just like her cop friend Chris Rozollo stole my white jacket. Stealing my cedar hope chest is like stealing an ark. She is a messianic Jew who goes to Brazil and has a bed in Hell. She did a number of illegal things when I lived with her and when she illegally kicked me out without notice. She tried to even keep me from having housing anywhere in the town at all.

So at least it's nice to see something symbolic, like a flame being extinguished and not even by my own hand or doing. That was quite interesting, but I DO have faith because I know that GOD knows and since I have nothing to hide from HIM, I trust he is on my side.

She was the one who lied and said I was psychotic and held a knife up when I never did and I just found a comment from her to my blog, which I didn't get but I guess the FBI read. Or others read. It went to my comments box and she went off, claiming I was crazy and that I stole from HER and right after she sent this, I was then put into a psych ward in TN. Why? Because she and Chris Rozollo know eachother. They know the same cops and same DEA and others and have used people to try to portray me as mentally ill for their own agenda.

I just picked up this candle that extinguished itself to see where it's from.

It says: Thailand.

Which is why Josh Gatov, the rapist, tried to flee to. Wonder if he knows bitches like Mykal Holt. Fuck you bitch. You are going to die by your own sin, from the hand of God himself.

Its a maroon candle with oak leaves, acorns, and moose in the center and it burned out right in the middle. All it says on the bottom is "Made in Thailand."

FUCK Joshua Gatov and may the Angel of Death receive him into the grave as well. They were all working together: The Jew Crew.

I just looked inside the candle that extinguished itself, out of curiosity, wondering if maybe the wick fell into the wax or got stuck but no. It is free standing and just went out, without any explanation at all. Very odd. I'm not going to relight it. My other one is still burning just fine.

Exodus 12:29 Midnight Fairytale Over
"At midnight the Lord struck down all the firstborn in Egypt, from the firstborn of Pharoah, who sat on the throne, to the firstborn of the prisoner, who was in the dungeon, and the firstborn of all the livestock as well."

Genesis 37:31 Then they got Joseph's robe, slaughtered a goat and dipped the robe in the blood.

2 Corinthians 2:14-16 Fragrance of Death.
"But thanks be to God, who always leads us in triumphal procession in Christ and through us spreads everywhere the fragrance of the knowledge of him. For we are to God the aroma of Christ among those who are being saved and those who are perishing. To the one we are the smell of death; to the other, the fragrance of life. And who is equal to such a task? Unlike so many, we do not peddle the word of God for profit."

If you want more than Old Testament Angels of Death, turn to Revelations for the one wearing a crown and holding a sickle, who reaps vengeance upon the Earth on behalf of the Lord. Revelations: 14:14-20. 2 men with sharp sickles, one harvesting the earth and the other trampling figurative "grapes" in the winepress of God, to fill the earth with blood. After reading about the men holding sickles who are instructed by Angels of the Lord, then read about the 7 Angels who spill out great bowls of wrath upon the earth. Revelations 16.

Are they wicked?

Are they demon-possessed because they kill and pray for cancer, and initiate death and disease and affictions against the wicked?

Or are they servants of the living God.

Those who choose to follow Satan, will have a portion of his reward. Rev. 20:10.

Isaiah 14:9-17, the grave awaits you.

Isaiah 11. A branch shall spring forth.

Psalms 9:13-17..."lift me up from the gates of death....the wicked return to the grave."

2 Sam. 22:18. He reached into the depths and rescued me from those who were too powerful for me.

You want a piece of me? how many pieces was the woman sawed into, to be sent out to the tribes of Israel for robbing one of the tribes? 11 pieces? How about reading Judges 20 and listen to Britney Spears' "You Want A Piece of Me" at the same time you mother fuckers. May God deal with you as severely as you have dealt with my family and double the interest on your heads. Was the Jewish boy cut into pieces? Is that what Shem did? as a sign to the others? Maybe think very carefully, act very slowly, and do not assume the Angel of Death will not invade your own home and take your own children. God damn you for your sins.

Numbers 3:4. Nadab and Abihu, however, fell dead before the Lord when they made an offering with unauthorized fire before him in the Desert of Sinai.

May the Angel of Death strike dead each person who orders unauthorized "fire" or torture of any kind against citizens of the U.S. May you be stricken with cancers, diseases that cannot be cured, and die.

Psalm 60: Lily of the Covenant
3. you have shown your people desperate times; you have given us wine that makes us stagger. But for those who fear you, you have raised a banner to be unfurled against the bow. ave us and help us withyour right hand that those you love may be delivered...with God we will gain the victory, and he will trample down our enemies."

The Lawless One To Be Overthrown By Angel of Death.
2 Thessalonians 2:7
For the secret power of lawslessness is already at work; but the one who now hold it back will continue to do so till he is taken out of the way. And then the lawless one will be revealed, whom the Lord Jesus will overthrow by the breath of his mouth and destroy by the slendor of his coming. The coming of the lawless one will be in accordance with the work of Satan displayed in all kinds of counterfeit miracles, signs and wonders, and in every sort of evil that deceives those who are perishing. They perish because they refused to love the truth and so be saved. For this reason God sends them a powerful delusion so that they will believe the lie and so that all will be condemned who have not believed the truth but have delighted in wickedness."

"...will be overcome by the breath of his mouth." Imagine that kind of breath sweeping through the country like the Angel of the Lord, the Angel of Death, which moved so swiftly as to afflict every single household except those with a sign on the doorpost."

The New Testament is about life, yes. And it is still about the same God and Angel of Death. The Angel of Death did not retire. It is ready and willing to advance for God at any moment.

(other references and mentions below)
Old Testament: 2 kings 19:35 angel of death killed thousands in the night
New Testament: Acts 12:23. king herod does not praise god and is stricken by angel of death instantly.
Old Testament: 2 Sam. 24:16. when God "repents" of orders he initiates (I mentioned this earlier in this post)...he ordered all Jerusalem slaughtered by when he saw the greiving he was sorry and withheld his hand from further destruction, while the angel of death stood at the threshing floor of auraunah the jebusite.

The Angel of the Lord and Angel of Death are synonymous in many places. Possibly, the highest ranking angel is then the Angel of Death. A very fast moving angel. Maybe not higher, just equal, as an angel of life or healing would be powerful and do as God commands in its own capacity and another does something else and this one is God's hit man and the #1 Public Enemy of the State. Go gittim FBI! Where's the Angel of Death on your wanted ads?

You can't talk about psi or admit to illegal programs of the U.S., involving commission of crimes against kids and it's too bad you can't go after the Angel of Death that just might think to come after you for not doing your job.

Here's the one whose candle went out all on its own:

http://www.myspace.com/directory/people/Mykal-Holt

I didn't touch it and I didn't blow it out. It extinguished itself. So be it. Let it be remembered and be a sign to all those who read this and later read her obituary. She not messianic Jewish. She's a Jewish bitch who knows Chris Rozollo, who also stole from me. God damn her and curse her and her "friends". Her own next door neighbors told me she was corrupt and that she'd invited 3 different police officers to her house to go through my belongings when I still lived there after I split from Alvaro. She is Jewish. Her ties are to Brazil, which is interesting. She was doing favors for the Middletons. Her Jew Crew is responsible for some of our own persecution and blackmail. She passes herself off as a christian but she IS NOT a christian. I swear to God, with my Bibles to my chest--she is Jewish and nothing besides Jewish, and corrupt Jewish. She does some work for christian groups just to sideline and cover for her Jewishness. She is a criminal, she is sleazy and loose, and she is a liar. Her "friend" from the "Methodist" church was the woman who ran a shelter where I was mocked, just out of care for Mykal. Mykal and Chris Rozollo know eachother and they are tied in with corrupt cops. Anyone going to the bar (Mintz's) where her brother works or co-owns, should just automatically expect to be under police surveillance. She has a nice clean superficial cover, of working in "medical ministries" and being this nice "messianic jewish" woman when she is Jewish, period. Her cover is claiming to be christian at all, and she did some of the most illegal things while I knew her, breaking all kinds of laws, and then is friends with police at the same time. She is fake flowers on the inside and on the outside. She's as plastic as it gets, and if she really works for anyone, it's either CIA with the Brazilian travel, or Mossad.

She is a criminal. She stole my Hope Chest and she will die for it. I don't have anything to do with how she dies, I just know she's already dying and she is not going to get better. Chris Rozollo is next, for torturing my son. I find it really interesting that the candle that was extinguished while I wrote she is going to die, says it's made in Thailand. Thailand is where the Jewish man who raped me was fleeing to. That's what his housemates said. Mykal Holt is Jewish. So, the candle with Thailand written on it extinguishes itself while I'm writing about her?

Like I said, God knows everything. Try outsmarting Him, bitch.

I should take a photo of this, just for a keepsake. There's nothing wrong with the wick either. I photographed it and you can't tell, but it's not sunk into the wax and it is standing up tall enough, and straight, out from the wax. There was no reason for it to burn out and no heater was on, no draft, I wasn't close to it, nothing. So I photographed the bottom where it says made in thailand too. What does thailand, copper colored mooses, oak leaves, acorns, self-extinguishing lights, and mykal holt have in common? Hmmm. I wouldn't make such a big deal of it if I didn't know what horrible things she did to me and my son Oliver. What she did to ME she did to my son. And the fact is, the plume of smoke went up right at "she will not be cured" (or healed). I mean, the timing was great. It was one of those, "and yes, thank you. I already know God agrees with me because he saw everything she did."

Here's something for Rabbi Rose.

You know how you don't want to pay my taxes? Well you sort of got what you deserved.

Because when you treated me horribly and refused to return my calls or pay my taxes back in 1997-98, and after I found out you were blacklisting me, I prayed Lorraine would get cancer.

Guess what happened?

I found out years later, after making this prayer to God, the SAME God YOU pray to, that Lorraine came down with breast cancer. I found out through Halea Vice.

So God answered my prayer and it's not the only one he's answered either.

So ahead and try to THUG your way through things, because the Angel of Death paid a visit to YOUR HOUSE and didn't kill any of you but at least left a mark which is exactly what I prayed he would do.

Why?

Because you trampled on me, disrespected me and my family, and I don't know yet that you are even sorry about it.

I did not tell one single person about that prayer, but I remembered it, because it was the first time I prayed something like this, and it was after I got raped by one of your Jew friends.

So you can thank the Russian Jew Josh Gatov for inciting the Lord to inflict your WIFE with cancer you fucker.

I told NO ONE about that prayer until now. And the only reason I bring it up now is because when I say Mykal Holt is going to die I mean she is going to die and she is going to die in her sins against my son Oliver Garrett.

If God had not agreed with my prayer, He wouldn't have listened to me. Lorraine didn't have to come down with breast cancer at all. I prayed this with my heart and crying and with God knowing what was going on and then I left it there. I forgot about it and moved on and then about 1 year later I was on the phone with Halea Vice and she said, "Did you know Lorraine has breast cancer?" It was discovered something like 1 year from the time I prayed for cancer for her. I didn't specify to God what kind. I said to Halea, "Are you serious? what happened?" and she said she went in and was diagnosed with breast cancer and had been treated and all this.

This is NOT the only time God has answered my prayer.

Are you going to arrest me? Do you think you could maybe defame me a little more through your newspaper friends or something? because you can't arrest GOD.

I can't remember if I made the prayer after I was raped by Josh Gatov or after the Willamette Week article came out and you refused to answer any calls from me at your synogogue. I really don't recall. I just know that when I found out, it was through Halea and it had been discovered about a year after I had prayed for this, or less. And no, I didn't "foresee" it happening. I PRAYED for it to happen. I foresaw nothing. I said, "GOD, give her CANCER for what they've done to me!" and that is exactly what happened.

Like I said, it's not the first time God has answered my prayer either. So the Angel of the Lord is REAL and don't FUCKING MESS WITH MY FAMILY unless you want to see an ONCOLOGIST for the rest of your fucking lives.

Here's another thing--you so much as try, any of you, to retaliate further, after all of this torture and poisonings, more than you have, by injecting any of us with harm or trying to give it to us in any form, may the Curse of the Angel of Death be upon your heads and your families.

That goes for the two female guards from Knoxville, TN who injected me in the federal detention site.

Here's another one you fuckers...

Christopher Hitchens.

I can't remember what it was that he did that upset me or pissed me off--Middleton alliancing or something...I was still in Washington D.C. and he was trying to do something for Kate Middleton, by ruining me, and I prayed he would then get cancer. Several months later, he had cancer. That was one I felt sorry for and asked God to cure but it was too late.

But yes, I prayed for it to happen before it ever occured or germinated in his body and then I found out it was there, after several months later, like a year later.

DO NOT FUCK WITH ME.

Do you FUCKING HEAR ME?

I have a SON being TORTURED in this God-damn country and what are YOU doing about it?

It is a wake up call to YOU, to realize that your silence is complicity and that it doesn't matter if you are Jewish or Catholic or Protestant, if you are going along with this, you are consenting to torture in this country and I DO NOT believe this makes God very "happy".

This Jew Crew shit of defaming me through the Willamette Week, didn't make God love you anymore you Special People. It was a shame. And the religious Catholic hate crime is not making the Roman Catholic church any "healthier" either.

If God hears even ONE of my prayers, it is only because while I am a horrible person sometimes, or imperfect like everyone else, God DOES KNOW that I fear Him and love hiim and that I have been an innocent victim along with my son.

YOU people stood by doing NOTHING. How many of you have been speaking up against torture?

Well if any of you ever have, I have also asked that God would bless those who try and I have no way of knowing how that works out and probably sometimes, it's hard to find a blessing.

But no, I don't have people doing "hits" or harming others, and I wouldn't touch a hair on anyone's head. I have done nothing to hurt anyone. I have only wanted my life back and my son back and since you people are too stubborn to do this, God has answered my prayers and so far, given every single person I prayed to have cancer, well, they got cancer. Sometimes I prayed for something else and they got that. It's been 10 for 10.

Go ahead and try to arrest me for having God answer my prayers you fuckers.

While leaders in South America wonder if the CIA is innoculating people over there with cancer, I'm just praying for it to happen to certain individuals and it's worked out great.

You want more cancer?

Keep FUCKING torturing me and my son. Maybe next time I'll be praying you have down's syndrome children too, and lose your children halfway through carrying.

I think a few of these people maybe figured it out at some point,, about what I'd prayed in the past and tried to get even. Maybe that's why they're injecting me repeatedly with radioactive contrast for CTs. I don't know. But let it be said that whatever man does to me, is wicked and out of man's doing. Whatever I have prayed, I didn't put my hand on at all and neither did any other person. So if it happened, it was God's doing.

HE is to be feared. HE is to be praised. The fear of the Lord is the beginning of all wisdom and understanding. Fear God. He holds Life and Death.

Who will say "man is my helper". Better to say the God of Jacob is my helper. And if you find yourself shocked to be in a jacobite camp affilted with the prayers of a "gentile" woman then you should not question God and how He knows all things and is the ultimate Judge. he knows you've been wicked.

I've seen my prayers answered to have someone come down with cancer and health problems and I've also seen healing when I prayed for it.

Not all the time but often.

Here's another one.

This man I stayed with in Wenatchee, I wasn't happy with how he was mocking me. He mocked me and they were using me--it was the place with all the cats. And he had either been laughing while choked on a fishbone or had stolen money from me and I usually cooked for him and tried to help him with dietary needs. One day, he crossed the line with me. I cried, tears, and said God, put him in pain.
That same day I was told, "_________'s in the hospital." I said, "What?!" And sure enough, he had gone to the EMERGENCY room and they didn't even know if he was going to LIVE. I said what's wrong? and they said his liver was so ruined or clogged that it wasn't functioning at all and he was hooked up to all kinds of tubes and things. He was there for a whole week and I prayed he'd get better and he did.

But when I prayed he would be put into pain, it happened within hours.

SNAP.

Snap of my fingers and My GOD, JEHOVAH, put that mocking man in pain. Sent him straight to the ER. I softened a little and said, "Well don't let him die" and he recovered enough to come home and I kept cooking his fucking cabbage for him while he and his housemates continued to use me for non-consensual experimentation.

Need a nurse?

Better be fucking nice to me.

In every single case, I prayed for these things while I was sobbing, devastated because of what was being done to me and my son. SO it's not like I just arbitrarily prayed things for people here and there. It had to be bad, and also, God had to be in agreement with me.

I didn't tell anyone at all about praying this about that man, the ER one. All that was said to me was he suddenly had this extremely severe pain and went to the hospital and they found something was obstructed internally and had to clear it out.

He was diabetic but missing a lot of a kidney or liver or something. But it was this sudden problem and happened just hours after I cried and asked God to punish him for treating me badly.

Maybe I'm never getting married because my husband might be too scared of making me mad. Just kidding.

The thing is, I don't turn on people, and I'm not hasty with my prayers at all. It takes a LOT, a LOT for me to even dare making a prayer like that to God and then I always say, "God you know all things so it's your call." I have never prayed this for a family member or for a friend or even just because someone insulted me or mocked me. It has to be an ongoing thing or something I know is more serious and has affected my life.

How did I know Christopher Hitchens did something against me? I don't know how I knew, but I intuited it, in D.C. I have no idea how I knew. I DID feel sorry later, and I DID pray for him to be healed later. But it was "too late".

I never prayed for Lorraine's healing. I didn't pray she'd die, but I felt she should get cancer and that if she did, it was a sign from God to all that He disapproved of what she and her friends had done to me. I was very loyal to her. All kinds of people said horrible things or tried to get information and even her own kids seemed iffy sometimes, and I was loyal. But doing all that and then being trashed, was really not okay. "Most disappointed with times" and then no call return from the Rabbi as their friends trashed me through Willamette Week?

NOT okay.

I've never prayed for harm to my parents. I've prayed financial things which came to pass. Once in Sherwood, spent time praying for prosperity and then all of a sudden it happened. Small things here and there.

I haven't prayed for anything for myself really. Never seriously. I've prayed for basic things, like my son, and just normal stuff. I prayed for a miracle once. I haven't done that ever since. I prayed to live and not die when I broke my neck. For me, I don't even pray "God I want to be married" or "not married". I don't care. I want my children, my son and to have more and not really thriving on an idea of having to have perfect romance. I am not a typcial American that just has to saddle up with someone. I can ride on my own, and faster without someone putting their arms around my waist and holding me back. I like working hard. I felt no lack when I did legal research without any time for a boyfriend. I enjoyed using my mind. So I am not a needy person and I really don't pray for anything for myself aside from not being tortured and to have my son returned, because he was abducted.

I've prayed for some illnesses but never told anyone or encouraged it.

You have to believe what you pray for.

You can pray for something bad for someone and it's not necessarily wrong. You can't pray evil and be thought a christian, but when Hagar was crying in the wilderness because she was cruelly kicked out to die with her son, God heard HER. He didn't swoop an angel down to speak to Sarah and comb her hair and pat her on the back. He told Hagar, "You were not loved as you should have been and for that, through your son you will become mother of one of the greatest nations in the world." And God put Hagar's hand at enmity with Sarah. God did this. Not Satan. God said, "I love you Hagar" just as much as he loved Sarah.

So God does things that don't "seem" correct but are. He despises injustice of all kinds. It was cruel and degrading treatment to throw Hagar out into the cold.

Oh, this ad about childhood cancer came on which reminds me about Kate Middleton. She's a bitch. I mean, truly, she is a bitch and I intuitively know this. When I found out she had "paid it forward for kids with cancer" I knew it was in reference to things her mafias have done to my son. So she was letting my parents know, through her mobster Mother Carol and mobster Father Michael, that they knew about what was done to my son and what he was forced to drink. "Paying it forward for kids with cancer." She also knew what I was injected with in Knoxville, TN.

So FUCK and GOD DAMN Kate Middleton.

I wrote a post about her "paying it forward for kids with cancer" thing and knew, instinctively, what it was about, even then.

She is a cold-hearted and twisted woman and it is very bad news she got her boost through cocaine dealers.

I was injected with a toxic substance by 2 female guards in Knoxville, TN at the federal detention center.

It was after this that Kate wanted to have publicity about "paying it forward for kids with cancer."

Since I was injected, I have cysts appearing in my thyroid which were not there before.

God Damn her and her supporters.

Guess what? 2 weeks ago it was one cyst and now it's 2 cysts in my thyroid. All of this, after the Knoxville injection. I showed up at my parents' house with a bump still raised on my arm which proved where the injection site was.

Not only that, I heard my son was forced to drink radioactive materials. And last night, they injected me with radioactive materials for the 2nd time, without needing to. It was unnecessary. And that's what they did.

Middletons are CRIMINALS.

They have people over here that have tormented my family for decades. I am not kidding. They are criminals. And they have people resorting to illegal drugging.

Chris Rozollo, Mykal Holt, all Middleton supporters. The Rose family. Edward Israel and Carla. It's Jewish, Northern Ireland, and some CIA. They even had people from Commonwealth trying to do things to me in TN and trying to read me and get close to me.

William never should have married her but I was too modest and STUPID to say anything. I thought, "If I say something it will look like I'm trying to breeak them up. If they're married, it won't be as bad."

"Paying it forward for children with cancer" like, yeah, paying ahead of time for the kids who are getting cancer down the road, another way of "paying it forward." She knew exactly what message she was sending to my parents, who I see are tortured. And THEY know about this bitch. They know Kate Middleon is bad news. They have never said this, too afraid, but I have seen it in their eyes and they know Carol is a big problem.

It's like they were all part of the same CIA group and then there was a split and someone tortured my family to pieces and started extorting them to support the other side. It's just bizarre. Diana was not on their side then. Who knows where she'd be now, but before 1997 she was never siding with the Middletons. She probably had their connections on her dossier list that was burned in a fire.

We have all kinds of Jews and Catholic british speakers over here. The dog is petrified of the Irish and British accents.

The female guard who was freaking out about the pads I had inside of my bra (the color of William of Wales' engagment photo tie), was, I thought, Mossad. She said she was Catholic or something but instantly, when I saw her, I thought Jewish, and she already knows who I am, and Mossad.

I was naked, I mean, fully naked with only my panties on (no bra, because I'd handed it over) when this female guard and another guard (also female), forced me onto my knees, while I was naked, handcuffed me and twisted up my arms and wrists, fracturing one of my hands in the process. I knew they were injecting me because when the turned me away from them I knew this was why. I could tell, a premonition (rare), I saw in the mind's eye that they were going to inject me with something.

They were not doctors and they were not nurses. This was in a U.S. federal facility 1 hour away from a uranium producing facility. They had no legal authority to inject me with anything. They took me away, out of the sight of the other guards and men, where I was to undress and then they lied and claimed I wasn't giving them my money when I had it held out to them. The Mossad woman looked like she was both going to burst into tears and slap me across the face for Kate when she saw my bra pads. She was livid. It was like tears and then extreme rage. Then they forced me on my knees and in my minds eye I knew one of them was getting ready to inject me with something and while they fractured my hand, they did. There were just 2 women there, both in uniforms.

Then they dragged me past all these men and other people (they know, thank you, bc I know at least 1 of them there was a good person--I don't know how I know this. I just knew, God put maybe ONE person in this entire place that is a good person or will be subversive knowing the U.S. is a piece of shit. I don't know who, I just "felt" one person there might be a double or be willing to go double for another country and GOD BLESS YOU whoever you are.) I had this weird feeling, about that, that someone there at that facility, man or woman I have no idea, but had a feeling, one person is maybe going to tell another country what they saw and verify my account.

So then they dragged me, in half a towel, across the floor to a room where she said, "KNEEL! YOU KNEEL!" and then she wanted me to put my arms out to the side an I said, "I can't or the towel will fall down" (I would have been nude and there was a camera there running actively). So she didn't make me put my arms out. I had a welt with a mark in the middle from the injection. That welt was there for over a MONTH.

My PARENTs saw it. I was there for about 1 week. Then I was in Texas for a little less than 2 weeks and then I was in Coquille. It had been 3 weeks and I still had the welt from the injection on my arm. I showed my parents.

It stayed there for another 2 weeks.

And now I have cysts showing up in my thyroid and doctors dosing me up more radioactive materials.

I know people give to charity. Yeah, I know. I know some things are coincidental too. I know. I know. But when I saw this thing about Kate Middleton "paying it forward for kids with cancer" I knew it was sending a message, an inside message, mocking what has happened to me and my son, and directed to my parents.

That bitch can pay it forward for whomever she wants and her family still can't buy their way into heaven's pearly gates. Hold onto the ones you have here on this earth, because you can't take it with you.

Kate Middleton is evil. And the fruit does not fall far from the tree. I promise. I did NOT know before, or I would have said something. Now I know.
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I guess to add things I've prayed for that are good and came to pass:
Every single woman I ever prayed for to get married has been married within 1 year. I haven't done this in awhile, but I prayed for young and old, and past their prime and the seemingly impossible and all of them got married within a year of my praying they'd get married. Other things...I've prayed for a few healings and seen it happen. Or known ahead of time it would happen. Pretty rare though. Now and then I pray for God to help me find something fast so I don't have to spend a lot of time and, for example, I was getting candles the other day and knew this one woman had one which she said she didn't have and then gave me. I knew she had one. Then I went to a store and didn't find anything but the next one I went to the back and got one for 10 c. and then she had said they were all on that side but I knew some were to the other side so I got them. Then I was going to get a lt blue one at this store but didn't have time, I thought, and later found out it was earlier than I had thought but I had planned to get this other one as well. But I found things quickly. So sometimes, I can find things by praying for it. "God show me a free parking space", "Show me where this is", "Show me where the exit is", "show me..."
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Alvaro Pardo was working for the Middletons.

They wanted to eliminate competition to their daughter so they worked with Pardo and his people to basically try to use me and then try to have me arrested. Seriously. That um, English speaking man who married the Colombian in the same courthouse where I got the license with Alvaro? Middleton's man. That's my opinion but I don't know. I do know that Middletons have been involved and that the stick about paying it foward for kids with cancer was a deliberate dig by Middleton. And I know my family thinks they are evil and since my parents are psychic and have known a few things and can read some minds, I believe them. I believe the Middletons are evil. I know my Dad was shocked when I said I "saw" Michael Middleton with an Uzi. It was like I had seriously hit on something and my Dad was stunned I had seen this. The man falling backward from being shot by an Uzi.

I mean, it's bad enough to have it leaked to the public that Kate's Uncle, who is not a distant friend, but someone she houses with, is a cocaine dealer and snorter (like her). It's one thing for Kate to be portrayed as a cokehead with a drug dealing close relative. I mean, this woman is getting her "start" by baring her belly button on a runway. I am on the other end of the spectrum, having to partially show my belly button because I'm tortured by HER supporting thugs. So, it's bad enough that she is a cokehead. She sues over being photographed in a tennis match but can't really do anything about the fact that SHE is the criminal, not me. One thing to be a cokehead with cokehead dealing brother, er, uncle. Totally different thing to have an Uzi toting daddy. "My Dad doesn't do that anymore." I mean, does her Dad HAVE an Uzi or own one? because that's not what I got...I was getting more of the idea that he just used one to kill someone.

Gary's project or something? So let me guess. Gary wanted to get me out of the way when some were noticing me, so he puts in a man who will set me up to go to federal prison? Some people are just regular people. Some are agents. Some are double agents. And do you know WHAT? There are even triple agents.

I've never heard of a quadruple agent though. I mean, that would take some finesse. I don't know if ever, in the entire history of the world, there has ever been a quadruple agent. I've heard of triples. Like, U.S. guy goes to Russia and then redoubles back to U.S. Sort of in a triangle. But what about quadruple agents? One would think that is not a real agent but a "I'll take any kind of money no matter what country prints it" informant. More like just a plain old rat. I mean, agents for 4 different countries? on a regular, serious, professional level?

9 ibuprofen, 6 vicodin and 5 valium later--Severe Pain

2012-02-09T02:28:00.000-08:00

I have had 9 ibuprofen, 6 vicodin and 5 valium and I am not used to high levels bc I haven't been on medications and I am still in severe pain to where I cannot sleep.

So that's the U.S.

That is my pain level which has been constant day and night for the last few days and before that, as much. I just couldn't take it anymore so I went in for something and it's not even touching the pain.

So this is the level of pain that I'm being tortured at, which makes it possible for me to ramble about pain but not focus on anything I really need to focus on.

I didn't gobble them up at once. I took a few at a time and it didn't help.

So yeah, when I say God damn this country, it's not without having a seriously good reason for saying this.

If I don't feel better after this last valium I have set aside, I am calling the ambulance again to be treated for PAIN again that is worse than what I was given medication for.

Imagine suffering like this every day and mostly, I use no painkillers. I can still feel extreme pain even with this stuff.

Plea To China & Russia & Other Countries (Please Invade U.S.)

2012-02-09T00:22:00.000-08:00

Please invade the United States. Please.

I am begging some of you other countries to please, in the name of God, please prepare to invade this country that I live in.

IN the name of God, please.

I am being tortured in the name of religion, which is a false one and has over-run this country. They are corrupt. They lie and tell all the other nations they are superior and they used to be, maybe, one time. Not anymore.

I am begging you to please invade and take control of this country.

I am not being sarcastic and I am in the middle of severe pain.

I just went to the U.S. emergency room when they all already know they are torturing me and my family.

What is the point of my going there to get treatment when THEY are the direct cause.

I am begging you in the name of God to invade and take this country over. It is finished. This country is corrupt. It is like holding a void check that says so many hundreds of billions of dollars and yet it's void. It's worthless. All of the laws and constitution, bill of rights, everything is being violated. Children are being tortured, and this is while THEY claim to be religiously superior and more "moral" than other countries.

They are hypocrites.

They have been torturing me, first in secret and then outright, openly, for almost 1 full decade. My life is ruined, because of this country. This is supposed to be the land of promise and good and it has nothing left to offer anyone but the corrupt.

They are torturing me right now, at this moment, and this is after I went to the Emergency room for the pain because I have been taking 6 pills at a time, knowing it will do nothing because it's pain from technology that isn't cured by pills.

You have to know what I mean. There are some kinds of severe pain that no pill will help or cure.

PLEASE DO SOMETHING. Don't tell me that with all of your people and all of your training and armies, that you cannot join together and take this country over.

If they want a remnant of the land or what it is, give them Hawaii. Give them an island and nothing more. There, the corrupt can gather and continue their practices.

We cannot take this and it is ruining the entire world's economy as well. Why? because the idea was bad? No, because the people are bad and have lost any respect for the idea and laws of this country.

They lie and say all the other nations are terrible while they TORTURE us. Other countries even know about it.

They have gone from practicing this in secret to mocking me and my son, my family, to our faces, and laughing, while parading around with their games at our expense. We are not being "stalked" and "used"--we are being viciously and severely tortured.

The FBI is completely corrupt and tied into religious gangs who do nothing but favors for themselves. They don't know God. I believe God is done with this country. This is going to be the Babylon that the U.S. submits to or loses their lives. Jeremiah said, "Do you want to hear the truth or not?" and the King didn't really want the truth but said okay and Jeremiah said, "Don't kill me if I tell you the truth, promise?" and the King said, "I promise. Just tell me what is going to happen." Jeremiah said, "You will be captured by the Babylonians. You need to surrender and submit to them and you will keep your lives. If you resist, you will die."

That was God, telling the country he had even favored, that there time was up. I believe the time is up. It's too late for the U.S. to fix themselves. They have ruined too many lives, and not been willing to correct themselves. They can't do it. They refuse to do it and the ones doing the worst are making money and getting ahead while the rest of us suffer.

The justice system does not exist. It is 100% corrupt.

It is not as if the U.S. needs to have sanctions made on it. It needs to be conquered.

Maybe sometime in the future, after they are forced to read and remember history and consequences of ill management and torturing ones own citizens, they can try to assemble and re-establish themselves.

There is NO reason why China could not take this country over in one fell swoop. There is no reason why Russia should not be a contender. Some of these larger populations with lots of soldiers and people, they could do it and I am begging you to do it.

My son and I have been brutally tortured here.

At first, it was in secret. Then, it was flaunted out in the open. So many people in the community knew about it: protestants, mormons, catholics, jewish...and they did nothing.

They are cowards and corrupt. All they care about it is that it's not happening to them and they have mocked us like we're martyrs in the colleseum, for sport. It's been an open colleseum for me.

My son was just a tiny baby and everyone in the town witnessed what happened to him. That town of Wenatchee is full of so many hypocrites and liars coming from Seattle too, that it should be wiped off of the map. It should no longer have a name for itself at all.

I have tried everything. I have tried and done everything any human can possibly do. I have been tortured here, on THIS soil, as a CITIZEN, and innocent, for over 10 years. I have prayed for them. I forgave them and tried to be peaceful for years. I tried to work with them. I tried to be tolerant. I tried to COMPROMISE to the point of degrading myself just to have them return something they knew was mine to begin with--my son. I have also tried threats and tried to sue and should have won and not been tortured and blocked.

There is nothing left. There is NOTHING left that can be done about this country.

I have done everything humanely possible to avoid being TORTURED. Something I should not have to even ask for. How is it I am an American citizen begging my country not to torture me? my son?

They tortured my son in front of my eyes and kidnapped him. There is NO justice system. The justice system is functioning now only for the richest businesses and corporations and no one else.

I have tried to pray and forgive, for YEARS while being tortured. I have tried using verbal threats to take action and sue. I have sued and been pushed out by illegal methods which the FBI took part in. It wasn't just citizens pushing me out of court, it was the federal government.

I was the one willing to say, as an innocent mother, "Call me mentally ill then! okay, you win! call me mentally ill, and I will agree if only you will then increase my visits with my son."

They had no right to take him to start. I reduced myself to their level, to the point of saying, Please, take everything then. TAKE EVERYTHING BUT GIVE ME MY SON. Give me more time with my son.

They didn't respect compromise or even my willingness to let them elevate themselves and protect their own interests.

They maliciously took everything and then blocked me from even seeing my son. When I DID see him, they paraded him around me, with cuts and slashes, mutilated genitals, bruises from harm, not talking normally, out of it, showing signs of hypnosis.

God DAMN this country. In the name of God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit, this country is damned. I beg another country to please invade.

It was not just people in the community who witnessed torture of my son. They shared all of the information about us to everyone but kept records from me. They used my family as a circus for their own amusement.

God DAMN them.

Every single law anyone could possibly break, I have witnessed being broken. The only thing I have not witnessed firsthand is a hands-on murder and I've witnessed everything else.

Tonight I took 9 ibuprofen following other medications (after several hours). It wasn't to overdose but to desperately attempt to treat pain from being tortured by the U.S. FBI and military. They were 200 mgs each. I have had prescription strength of 800 mgs before and told to take 2 rarely. So after I took a few and they didn't work, I took a few more. Then a few more to see if it helped. It didn't touch a thing. I went to the ER and they gave me 6 vicodin and 6 valium. I was only planning to take 1 of them and tried to work on my UN complaint.

I am still in extreme pain and I gradually added one and then another. I have taken 5 of them in the last 2 hours. I have 1 left and I feel no difference in the level of pain. These Vicodin are 5 mg. each and 500 mg tylenol. I know I shouldn't have this much tylenol but I am in extreme pain. I feel almost no relief. I took a half of a valium but that's it because I can't sleep when I'm being tortured and trying to make a UN complaint.

I am being brutally tortured and the only reason I am still writing is because with what strength I have, I am begging another country to take this one over.

I don't care what the UN does, aside from hoping they influence the U.S. to quit tortutre. Why is it requiring UN intervention at all, on something like this? The only other complaints to UN from the U.S. are coming from male prisoners or convicts who allege excessive police brutality.

I am one woman with a child.

This country has ruined my life and then tortured me systematically and tortured my son. It's not just men who are criminals getting beat up worse than they should.

The U.S. is torturing women and children and then Hillary has the gall to preach to the Middle East about their treatment of women. What a fucking bitch and hypocrite. Where is Hillary on the "village" that watched my SON suffer as he and I were tortured? Where is anyone, on our suffering? Are we the only ones treeated THIS badly? My parents can't even be honest and speak about it. My Dad's eyes are totally dark grey and sunken in and depressed into his face. It looks like he had a metal clamp on his nose for hours and was electrocuted in the eyes.

I am almost ready to get a pair of pliers and tear out my entire molar with this filling myself. I put my finger on it and it's radiating. The dentist who did this filling was military and worked at a federally funded clinic in Wenatchee. I have never seen my dental x-rays since he did this filling because someone repeatedlly steals them and I have never viewed them. Something is wrong with it. I do not believe it is a normal filling. There is something else going on.

I have never heard of a vibrating filling before.

I just took 2 more valium which means I have 3 valium now and 5 vicodin along with 9 ibuprofen in my system and I am still in excruciating pain. If it does not improve, it is bad enough where I will call the ambulance again.

I cannot live like this.

It is not a matter of my leaving this country either. I don't WANT to leave. Why should I be forced out of my own country where it should be easier for me to get work and where I have been TRYING to go to college for almost 2 decades and if someone isn't discouraging me, who is jealous, it's a man raping me and then it's the CIA torturing me through military hits.

Am I Edward Howard's daughter?

Did the FBI break his neck and then set out to kill me? Are they just bent on destroying my entire family? Did the CIA set me up for their shitty program when I was a kid and then decide to side with Middletons later? All these MK-ultra freaks that use my family are connected--UK, Canada, and US--they all work together on the same programs and share informationn on the same kids who then become adults they hump and dump or promote if they're pliable and brown-nosing enough.

What did this country think? they think they can keep MK-Ultra crap a secret when they've been torturing and using generations of adults and their children? THIS is why my parents can't say anything about me. It has nothing to do with anything else. It has to do with blackmail about secretive programs that are FLAT-OUT ILLEGAL.

I've gone through almost 5 bags of chocolate from being tortured and feel like it's all a joke about how much they can torture me and will I eat through all the chocolate I just bought. These people in charge are mother fuckers. They are mother rapists.

I am not getting my son back.

There is no point in even trying anymore because I already have enough evidence to prove I have no chance, no matter what I do. I can prove already that the lawyers and Judges colluded and lied. That's not something you "appeal". It's crime that the FBI is supposed to investigate and THEY are in on it.

The FBI is the reason I am not getting my son back.

God damn Raul Bujanda and his mafia, inside the FBI and out. God damn Julia Thornton. God damn Laurie Laughlin, who is a worst mobster than some of the men. God damn Armando Garza. God damn Edward Israel. God damn Rabbi Rose and Lorraine and his family. God damn Josh Gatov their friend. God damn Mueller and his family and God damn the person that broke into my house to cut my finger with a knife after I said he was nothing more than a papercut sufferer. God damn Mary Ann McIntosh and her cold scientific fascination with games and psi. God damn and crucify Anne Crain for cruelly treating my son and disrespecting him. God damn Judge Wasson and Koch firm and Gregoire for attempting to intimidate and threaten my mother not to help me file things to appeal for my son. God DAMN you. I sincerely hope Bill O'Reilly ends up in a car crash. God damn Dempsey and God damn the Italian lawyer mobster for Washington D.C. CPS. God damn Leon Panetta. God damn Biden for taking part in a number of horrific cover ups including Ruby Ridge. God damn Judge Hotchkiss for using his bike gang connections to terrorize me in Wenatchee. God damn every single "Jennifer" (all 3) who slid in records to work against ME, taking advantage of my being tortured. God DAMN them all. Every one of them, and their illegal connections in TN. God damn Brad Uhl and his wife from the TN DEA and God damn every single FBI local office that closed their doors to lock me out so I could be poisoned and tortured and given death threats by their non-FBI friends. God DAMN you. God damn Gregory Fowler for coming over here like some kind of D.C. and NY joke for Alvaro, his buddy. Both of you are fuck-offs and I resent your presence when your very name is used to make a point about what happened to me and my son by being assaulted and dragged back into this HOLE of a country, with "refoulment". What a fucking joke. God damn your mafia-military presence to collude with other illegal military ventures against my family and God damn the FBI that is surrounding this property. And yeah, I started getting tortured worse when I mentioned Fowler. Why? because he's connected to the Koch mayor who knows Koch's over here that have been part of terrorizing my family along with the "goodmans" and Rozollos. God damn your NY connections to the FBI in NY that Karen knows, after she paraded herself around in an ensemble to match me and mock me at Stephanie Myers shower. God damn Stephanie for having airs and jealousy when I visited her Dad in the hospital. What did they think I was doing? trying to get something out of their Dad? God damn Joy for assuming too much. They were blinded and sideswept by a bunch of Catholic assholes after I stupidly said too much about their family and then they think they're better than I am. God damn them for having me sit next to their social worker friend from Seattle when I had my son with me. God DAMN you for your false friendship. All my life I was nothing but supportive and not once using them but appreciating the fun and friendship and they just took off on the track of noveau riche and putting on airs. I am SO sorry I was such an embarrassment. Making fun of me for gaining weight through pregnancy, putting on airs around others who hid their purses from me as if I'd pilfer through them at a shower, bringing in all these Catholic brown-nosers who showed up to marry Pamp and seduce Stacey and get as close as they could to money, after I stupidly mentioned the money. Giving everyone the best wine, the blush, at the shower to toast, but telling me to settle for a cheaper variety. FUCK YOU Stephanie, for making yourself out to be a real grown up snobbish disappointment after being a halfway decent kid most of your life. FUCK YOU. Not even stopping at withholding the best wine from me, but then looking down her nose and recommending I get a plain bagel with plain cream chees because I must not like things as sophisticated as "garlic onion bagels with sundried tomato cream cheese." Like sun-dried tomatoes are saffron or something exotic. And then smirking and asking if I've ever had risotto before. WHAT a fucking delicacy. RISOTTO. No, I'm just a poor girl with no taste who can't appreciate or understand risotto when actually I had more intuition with cooking than even she did but I encouraged it anyway because it was her passion and didn't want to steal any of the glory. Her thing. Let HER own it. I was humble and respectful even as a kid, while I was mocked. I got back from that horrific wedding shower and sobbed at how I was treated. I sobbed. "Here, sit next to the Catholic social worker Cameo." Because that's where welfare mothers should be seated. At the opposite end of the table of their former best friend, with the social worker prying and asking questions. Well, if we must be honest, while Stephanie was smirking at my thick oversize fat thighs from having given birth to a healthy baby, your boobs really do not look like the towers of gibralter they once were honey. But at least I didn't make a snide gesture or comment about how you should invest in a support bra these days while you were picking on me for being fat. Who is this "Campbell" Australian guy anyway? another fucking Catholic? The inclusion of Catholics into the Maiers family did not improve them, let's just say. and yes, they all glommed around them after I dumbly revealed their money and holdings. Not bc that's why I had been friends with them--I was too young to think about those things and just had friends for friendships'sake, that's it. But Karen was Catholic and became Steph's best friend, and Pamp was suddenly around this Catholic woman who seduced him and married him, and Stacey was approached by a Catholic man in D.C., and Christina was with a Catholic boyfriend...just a little strange, since Catholic Christa Schneider knew Karen. I guess it was the Catholics-in-the-Department-of-justice-and-FBI connection. I tell Christa what I'm going to wear and how I'll do my hair and why else would Karen wear the exact same thing and hair and make up and shoes as I said I'd wear? and I said to Christa if I could get Stephanie anything for the shower it would be a large clear crystal vase from Tiffanys. Well what do you know. That's what Karen gave her. A large clear crystal vase from...blue card included! Tiffanys. It was just a bunch of mean and bitchy mind games. And while I was feeling sorry for the Maiers for clearly being taken by the Catholic squad on clear financial motive, I was sobbing my heart at for being made to feel second-class trash. I told my parents how it went and broke down into tears. And not one of them ever contacted or called me after that shower. Not once. Why? mabye because the whole Karen twinning thing was a little odd or maybe because the social worker was trying to pry me apart because I was already being defamed in Wenatchee by CPS. I don't "God damn them" because I still care about them. But I say fuck you, as an aside, for the treatment.

Oh, got a raise in my level of being tortured now. Must be thanks to the Canadians who work in FBI offices in NY on behalf of Middletons worldwide. The french Canadians moved into town and we moved OUT.

Catholic Church Harassment Through Torture

2012-02-08T22:08:00.000-08:00

Now they're using the research program as excuse for harassment and not just cover.

First they used torture to cover up and excuse crimes and defamation. Now they are using torture to win their "psychic" games with U.S. military programs.

I am still being tortured and it's severe. I rated my pain at 8 but it's worse. At times it's been far worse and this has been going on a long time. They tortured me today just to push me to do, say, and act out what they wanted.

They deliberately provoked me to such pain and frustration of sleep that I had to call 911 and "lost it", swearing and saying God damn this country and on and on, and screaming. Real nice.

It's exactly what they wanted.

The sickest part is that the only way to get this, was to torture me for weeks and at varying levels and to prevent me from sleeping on top of everything. In addition to making the torture worse every time I tried to lie down, to frustrate me, they kept me from even reading my email today. They changed the times of the food bank too, which is at the Catholic church.

Every single thing they could do, to have me go in the wrong direction or waste my time, or provoke me, they did, and it's not like I blew up and freaking lost it over a little "pain".

They are blasting the eyes out of my Mom and Dad and they are brutally and horrificly torturing me.

I am putting out my torture report now. I'm not waiting. I will submit more to the UN but I need them to address this now, and put in for the interim cease-fire they can facilitate because we are already in danger.

The reason the UN does this is because they know the moment a country (or corrupt persons in a country) make a UN claim of torture or violence, the hostilities and violence is likely to get worse.

It did.

I am not joking.

I say things got bad when I asked for FBI FOIA, but actually, my entire family experienced retaliation by the U.S. and hate groups, right after I filed an inquiry to the UN asking them to please help us.

Right after this my parents were assaulted, I lost all good grace with everyone in town that wanted to use me (maybe some wanted to help), and we were all immediately punished.

It is exactly what happened.

So the UN knows retaliation can be expected and that torture will be continued so they can iniate a "block" to this, by contacting the state in question, while the complaint processes for a year.

I do not believe my parents should be going to Arizona because I think it's more CIA and that they are endangered as it is.

I just went to the hospital and the torture was there too. No matter where I went and even now, I am being tortured. I took a vicodin after the 1800 mgs of ibuprofen I took and I am still being tortured. It doesn't help.

All this, not even to fight me on things as much as to win predictive games, which is all it is now. The hate groups hate me. They hate my guts or they wouldn't go to all this trouble. But they are so beyond being worried about me, that now it's just games to them on top of the violence.

Before, it was sheer hatred. Now, they mock me while they torture me. The sentiment and feeling has shifted. They feel assured that they have the upper hand. And they do. They have the upper hand because their friends have the power and are using technology to assault us and are getting away with it.

So tonight is the night.

I am filing a 1 page report tonight or so, to have it immediately considered for emergency reasons and then am letting them know I have supplementary timeline and documentation and evidence to give them and that my family has been retaliated against since I made the initial inquiry last spring. I have not even been able to work on my complaint, because they've tortured me ever since I filed an inquiry.

It has made the process extremely slow and almost impossible.

Am I proud of my reaction? no. But only God knows and can Judge because only He knows the severity of pain and the harassment and use of my family, the degrading treatment...God is not mad at me. He is not looking down on me with shame or in anger. He is for me and is not shocked by my response. I do not feel shame and as I write that, the moon has appeared from beneath the thick clouds, shining very bright white and round.

I didn't think there was a moon tonight, the clouds were so heavy and thick, but then as I wrote this, it came out and was revealed. God is with us. I just know it.

Here's a prediction:

If a man is standing next to a river and a bunch of people outnumber him and take hold of him and throw him over the edge, he will end up in the river.

Oh, here's another one:

If a woman is told to apply for a license or die, she will apply for the license or die.

Here's another prediction and I bet I'll win this one:

If a child is yelled at, humiliated, and beat up and deprived of sleep for several days, if you desert them, they will cry.

Here's another one:

If you torture people, you will win anything, no matter how stupid you are, how cruel, how far from God, and how untalented.

I'm not impressed with petty people who attempt to prove they can make accurate predictions when they use torture as a convenient crutch.

I'm not impressed with those who get ahead when it is inevitable they will by use of torture. It doesn't mean you have favor with God or that you're the better person--in fact, it means the opposite.

Torture and Obstructing Reporting: Landmines

2012-02-08T19:05:00.001-08:00

They have been obstructing my blog all day.

The U.S. military used technology to torture me the entire night last night after I put up my art post. I did not sleep one minute. Then the ENTIRE day they targeted me and followed me around, from my house, to walking dowtown and then all the way back to my house.

So either the military zoned in on me the entire time, using CT radioactive fluid to tell me apart from other civilians, or some other thing was done to activate or tap into the metal in my neck that is showing up as an undetermined circular spot.

I'm the one with landmines. I have landmines in my body.

I have what is appearing to be a microchip in my neck and it shows up on a CT and the only time they could have done this was when I broke my neck and they did a surgery and had access to my neck. So it would be really interesting to find out that I, the one they were going to put a "halo" on, is carrying around a landmine because the U.S. put it there on purpose, to track me after knowing what they could use my parents for.

Halo Trust and landmines may as well be me. I am the one who they were going to put a halo on, and yeah, I have something like a landmine in my neck. A small round metal object they implanted which they used to maybe follow me with and not harm, and now they're harming me with it.

It is on my CT so it is not my imagination. "Undetermined incidental significance" of some signal density which they wrote was maybe a "cyst" but was showing up as giving off some kind of flare of some kind, I mean, they put something in my neck because I can feel this.

Diana did the landmine publicity in 1997, just 2 years after my surgery. Maybe even less than 2 years depending upon dates.

They're using the radioactivity to find me while I am walking I am sure. It's everything on the left side of my head and neck and I cannot function like this. If I push on one part it gets a little better but I've taken tons of medications all day and nothing is helping.

I could not sleep or function all night last night, and then all day today I was in extreme and severe pain including now and then I was so exhausted from all of the pain that when this FUCKING GOVERNMENT quit torturing me for about a 1/2 hour, I was wiped out and went to bed. That was at 6:30 p.m. or so. Then a 1/2 hour later, they started it up again. I had all electricity in my house turned off, including heaters, and they are doing this to me. I cannot sleep, and I am in severe pain.

They have also targeted my head with headaches again too and then everything else is the left side of my body.

Does this not make any sense to anyone? How is the U.S. and all these steel companies who are popping up as supporting Middletons, all over the place, and showing up as party to my defamation in even huge newspapers, why steel?

Why the military?

It puts the bad people with regard to what happened to Diana on the steel side and the good people outside of that camp because she was challenging military which profits steel and she was also possibly alluding to something else.

My parents are psi gifted. They're psychic. Diana was totally into that stuff. She would have enough resources to potentially know about them. And she might also have enough connections to have heard that something was done to me after my car wreck.

I know I've been stalked ever since.

The U.S. wouldn't want anyone to know if they had done this to me. It sounds too horrific and I was a nice, pretty, and talented girl who was a virgin. They would have had horrendous problems. And here they believed I was traveling to Middleton, TN so they were possibly worried about something. Worried someone might mix me up with another group they were favoring and had used to push me down so long.

After they killed Diana I know my family suffered.

So aside from wondering if I have a virtual landmine in my neck, and basically already knowing this is the case, I am wondering which country is going to take it out for me in a surgery because all the U.S. would do is hide the evidence.

I have not even been allowed to see the results of my own CT yet. I don't have a CD drive and the library one doesn't work with downloads for programs to view, and my mother had someone telling her not to let me see. So SHE has seen it, and I haven't.

Which still makes me wonder how long the military and CIA used my parents to coordinate research and illegal experimentation of human beings without their consent.

My babysitters were trying to hypnotize me, just as I witnessed my son being hypnotized in CPS visits.

The CIA has used me since I was a kid. FUCK THEM.

Not only did I see bugs on my wall one night which was exactly like coming off of an LSD drug, I remember having babysitters over that tried to hypnotize me.

I don't think that's typical, and this is exactly what I witnessed this God damned country doing to my son.

Then all day my internet was obstructed and turned off and froze up and I could not do one single thing for my legal case.

I had a couple of days before yesterday, of not being tortured very much, and not hardly at night and then they just came back for no reason and tortured the living daylights out of me.

Maybe because I wrote in my blog I might leave the U.S. in a "few years" so these fuckers thought they could show that to the UN and say I'm not really being tortured. Oh, she wrote that she's leaving the U.S., but not for a couple of years, so how is she being held hostage and how is the torture so bad?

I know exactly what these assholes were thinking. They thought that when I blogged this, just recently, they could use this as an alibi.

WHAT ELSE SHOULD I SAY?

If I say I'm going to use my financial aid money to get the hell out of this country because they're trapping me here and holding me hostage, do you think I'll get my transcript paid off?

Is it that bad? Yes, it is that bad. It is bad enough to where I know this country is damned and has lost its blessing from God. I have never cursed God, but I've cursed this country, because this country already brought a curse upon itself.

Someone broke into my house at night again recently and cut my finger, after I wrote something about Mueller, and moved things around including hand towels in my bathroom on a night I didn't secure my place very well. How I slept through a cut I don't know, but they did this to me at the women's shelter in TN. Someone sliced my finger while I slept in a bunk with tons of other around so for me to not walk up it had to be a very sharp knife that you don't feel when it's slicing. Some cuts are like that. I didn't give myself a papercut and it's not a papercut. It's from a knife.

I don't think all the people are bad in this country and don't curse them but this country tortures me and my son, and others, and yes, it has cursed itself by this.

They used ME as a kid and hoped I'd never know and then left me alone and tried to use me again later. Just oppressed me and then one day, full blown torture and then they were trying to USE me to work for THEM.

I do not want this for my son. My son deserves better. He is better than this country and too good for this country. He is not an American. Oliver was not given a social security number for a reason--because THIS country tortured him and me before he was even born.

Oliver is too good for the U.S. I feel the U.S. is beneath him. They are the terrorists. They are the abusers and they allowed this in their official name just as they used ME as a kid in their official name.

So no, I do not have Stockholm Syndrome and I am not lying about torture.

I am also not exaggerating how bad it is, because if it sounds like it can't be that bad if I say I might stay here and leave in 2 years or so, and not instantly, what else do you expect a torture victim to say who is trying to either NOT be tortured and left alone to get their kid and go to college, or, if torture continues, to take this money and leave this country at first available chance.

It IS as bad as I've said it is. And yes! I am being held hostage because it is NOT my choice to live here and be tortured. I would escape if I could and instead they kicked me out of all housing, my vehicles, my driver's license, college, work, and then they defamed me as mentally ill while they continued to torture me worse.

I have not been able to work on my case for my son AT ALL because of this. I left the house today and was tortured all day and you know what, God DAMN the Jews respsonsible too because they're the ones with the intel who DO know what is going on. So GOD DAMN those who are responsible for this and for being silent. And no, the Jew is not blessed above other when they lose their blessing and sell their bowl of soup with acts of torture against others. So it doesn't matter if they're Catholic, Protestant, or Jewish, if they torture others, they lost their blessing.

I am not a violent person and I've never done one single violent thing to anyone in my life. Ever. They attacked me and my son, innocent civilians, with torture.

They damned themselves, I just repeated the truth--That they are cursed.

I don't know why, but the U.S. backed off a lot on torturing me for about 1 week or less than a week. I would say 3-4 days, they backed off a lot. It was still always present, but I actually slept a couple of nights. Then, they brought everything back, as bad as before.

So God Damn them.

Whatever they are hoping to acheive through torture and use of little children for their research, did you know who the millstone goes to? Them.

It would be better for them to have a millstone around their necks than to have abused and used ME as a kid, and my son as a child. And as for torture, there is no forgiveness for torturing someone. That's crossing the line, to torture innocent people, even in their own country, who were made vulnerable in order to be tortured at all.

God damn Alvaro Pardo for not speaking up about the truth too. He had to know who did this to me and my son or they never would have quit on his account. So he knows. And God damn whoever was behind Alvaro, who knew what kind of crimes they concealed about me and my son which they could have shared.

How am I supposed to prove torture?

I've put up evidence of photos of laser burns and proof that medical doctors have been lying about everything.

Do you trust ME or THEM?

I might not have very much evidence to show, but that much, combined with the fact that it matches the testimony I've had all along, proves I am more trustworthy than they.

I just took 1800 mg of ibuprofen because I've been taking 900 or more all day and it's not touching the pain from what this country is doing. They ARE going to be caught.

Sorry, but I remember being hynotized, or having someone come into my house to use babysitting as an excuse to use me, just as my son's daycare is an excuse to use him.

FUCK YOU MILITARY and FUCK YOU CIA. YOU can all go to fucking HELL.

This is why and how my parents are being blackmailed. They were either forced to let the U.S. use me as a kid (and maybe my brother) or they voluntarily agreed it. So over the years, that adds up to a lot of material to blackmail with. Which is why my parent's can't validate me and agree this is what is happening. They are being threatened with jail most likely, or a psych ward.

It's the classic pattern of how the military and CIA blackmail people for these programs. My parents were victimized first, by the government and then they sought to use them and find grounds to then use their kids. Then, they couldn't use me to get to my son, so they tortured.

But all of this torture and turn of events was not research. Religious hate crime used the history as an excuse for covering up what they were doing.

It's why the Jews have wanted to control my parents too. They always want to be the #1 psychics who are supposedly right about everything. If they know about abilities of others or want to oppress them, or if someone is ahead or getting ahead of what they all agree they want, that's THEIR motive for working with Catholic hate crime.

Torture Last Night & This Morning (for Alvaro)

2012-02-08T10:59:00.000-08:00

The entire night last night I was targeted with technology, which caused pain to the metal in my neck, on the left side only, my left ear, and my left side of my jaw where my mercury fillings are.

I have taken over 8 pills of ibuprofen and tylenol in the last 6 hours and 2 ibuprofen before that.

It does not matter where I go in my house or outside bc I left in the middle of the night to tell my parents and ask them if they could take me to ER because I shouldn't have to deal with this.

The U.S. military and CIA are responsible.

I told my parents I think they imagine that if they could force me into having to apply for SSI to get my transcript paid, they think they can torture me and hope it will push me to call or try to contact Alvaro to eliminate their liability.

That is not going to happen.

If I already went all this time being tortured and not trying to get back together with him, why would I make any attempt now when I know he's a rat and a cheater and frankly, FBI and CIA, I don't believe in human trafficking of myself. I don't believe in calling up someone who sold me and my son to torture and research and who tortured me when I wouldn't sleep in his bed. Who tried to keep me from taking care of an assault and false charge for restraining order in Maryland. Who tried to obtain information about me to use against me, who took photos of my personal photos with his cell phone and shared them with others. Who tried to get me to talk about sex over the phone to him so clergy and their lawyers could try to say I used explicit language when I never have in my life and had never written any letters to their monks as they lied. He wanted me to degrade myself by allowing someone else to capture me talking this way to him after I'd already broken up with him. It wasn't for him, and he wasn't into that--he wanted the information for a group that wanted to use it against me to mock me with. He tried to gain information on who the father of my child was to use against me and to degrade me with, if possible and allow criminals to use for harming my family.

All this and a nice bow on the package with FBI and CIA written across it too. Wow. Who needs the mafia?

Who walked past U of Washington medical professionals in a striped shirt that matched the curtains of the hospital in Coquille where staff and Jose Agosto have tortured my parents?

Who has friends keeping me out of getting a copy of the marriage license and steal everything from me to try to erase the fact we were even together. Who spoke in a court hearing on the record, making it impossible to deny what relationship was there, which I can then use against the U.S. for illegally coercing me to marry him and knowingly torturing me.

Who wanted to dump me while I was bleeding in the hospital but otherwise hold me hostage and otherwise use me for his convenience.

Who tried to see if I would pay him back or he could get me to GIVE HIM MONEY for gifts of clothing he gave me which were part of gift giving. And then he is trying to find out if he could put a fucking mafia repayment plan on me and see how much he could get out of me, like I am a "soldier" for his FBI Fowler fucks. You know, like paying "dues" to the mafia while over here, I see my family being tortured.

Who degraded me in public by sleeping with women and propositioning them even in Wenatchee with everyone knowing while I was trying to protect my SON.

Child nurturer? Fuck his daughter. He cares as much for his own "daughter" and "sons" as he did my son. He followed his lusts rather than the best interests of a child.

Who seems to have been set up and put up by the Middletons who work for the CIA. Which is why they defend them by torturing me and did this before and after Alvaro because Alvaro was their ticket to getting me out of the way and serving their own interests.

Then punishing me for not marrying him as they tried to force me into through illegal human trafficking courtesy of the government of the United States of America.

Why? because apparently the CIA thinks I shouldn't have my son Oliver unless I am with a man. They're too chicken-shit to give protection when they know it's needed so they torture to force people into the positions they want--on their back, fucking their men.

And maybe this CIA involvment with Middletons is why they wanted to start torturing me against last night through military connections (Dempsey). Maybe it's because Dempsey and O'Reilly are in with the IRA and N. Ireland which wanted to support the Middletons because they hate my guts.

Why else would they get a group of Iranians to mob the English embassy? They heard me admit I went to an Iranian embassy and then decided they wanted to try to find dirt on me or my family. They figured maybe since I'd sent emails to the English embassys in Iran, there might be something there right? Since the English and Iran have in the past had better relations than Iran and the U.S.?

I had nothing to do with Iran or talking to them about anything besides what I've talked to anyone and everyone about. I cried and and asked them about political asylum in their country and didn't have anything "to offer" and they never asked me to offer anything either. I just went in and they said well send them a report with details of what happened to me and they'd review it and then I never sent it. So that was the extent of everything.

But I'm sure some Irish Catholics and others who hated me and were guilty of religious hate crimes through FBI and other connections wanted to make access of Muslim friends they dealt arms to on the blackmarket to try to get something on me to have a cover for themselves.

Dempsey is IRA connected. So WHY is he in the position he's in? He supports a terrorist organization.

Then here comes the Italian Catholics, circling wagons for the hispanic and Irish Catholics that were repsonsible for assaulting me and my son and torturing my family and colluding with Jewish to do it. A little reward, we'll pick up some Iranians as a thank you for the break-in on behalf of the Holy See.

Can we talk about something? how is THIS in U.S. interests? Are the Catholics in office really serving U.S. interests or just themselves and trying to use their positions for the country they really have allegiance to? Get a little discovery for the Vatican lawyers to make sure they can keep down anyone they are worried is a potential legal threat to their criminal enterprise. They have used so many of their own members in official and non-official positions, to torture and harass my family and collude with a Jewish group that had motives of their own, they will go so far as to support an embassy break-in to see if it will help THEIR lawyers.

Not U.S. lawyers. Holy See lawyers and Catholic church members.

Is it standard for the U.S. to help and assist Iranians to conduct their business after being captured by pirates while putting sanctions on them at the exact same time? "We're going to freeze you out of money but oh hey, we'll save a boat of your people for doing us a favor with that break-in for the Holy See. No one will know. It will look like good old U.S. goodwill."

? Economic sanctions for the entire country but they're saving one boat of Iranians? Which ones? the ones who get funding from the IRA? Isn't, like, Michael Middleton a Northern Ireland supporter? which is how he got his daughter a nod from them?
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I took another 2 aspirin an hour ago (now it's 1 p.m.) and just took another 600 mg. ibuprofen and 800 mg. tylenol. Why? because I'm being tortured by the United States.

They have had this going ever since my art post from last night. Maybe someone felt threatened by it. Like I've said, whenever I write something good, beautiful, or normal, these people who abuse their positions in government feel "threatened" and torture me more to provoke a response that will not gain favor from anyone.

That's how it's been.

I asked my parents if they would take me to the ER because I am not going to live with this kind of torture and they refused, saying they were both called up by the Coquille Valley Hospital.

Apparently, the Chilean doctor who smugly sat through my parent's worship service, wanted to defame me. So without any authorization to this hospital, by me, to call up my parents, they did, and said they had felt "threatened" by me and almost called police.

Which is basically attempting to intimidate my parents.

They had no authorization or consent from me to contact my parents about me or my medical care. It was not any kind of emergency. It was something that John Kaempf's Catholics have routinely attempted, to create false documentation that I am harassing people or threatening and then use this to intimidate my family.

I didn't do anything threatening there at all. I didn't use even one swear word, I didn't insult anyone or call them names, I didn't raise my voice or yell, I wasn't crying or upset or angry, and I didn't get up off of the examining table. The only thing I did which she didn't like was ask questions, politely, and then answer back "That's a psychotic" when she suggested thorazine.

So if it's threatening to have a woman stare at you and know what you're trying to pull, the doctor is an issue. She then asked me to leave the hospital when I said why would she give me an anti-inflammatory when I just took a ton of Ibuprofen. I said okay and didn't protest and said I would just like to take a copy of the chart notes with me from that visit. So this was brought, and I signed the papers, and I left peacefully.

I did not do or say one single "threatening" thing.

When I got HOME, I wrote more about her. But I didn't do anything threatening.

So they called up my parents, unauthorized and threatened and intimidated my mother and father by lying and claiming they almost called police.

They had called a police officer to greet me when I first arrived, before I even walked in the door, and she stood at the top of the hill and watched me walk up. I have been to that hospital one other time and there was NO incident.

So basically, the Roman Catholic Chilean who mocks my family's worship services and targeted my back while sitting behind me, wanted to create a problem and be intimidating from the very start. They even had the ER door locked and that entrance is not supposed to be locked to the public. It wasn't a door for the employees, it was the main ER door for the public.

So today and last night I'm being tortured and I'm in extreme pain and we're forced out of even painkillers for the pain, because this Catholic medical professional and her nurse called up to intimidate and threaten my parents.

CIA & U.S. Army (their response to phone call)

2012-02-08T01:05:00.000-08:00

I just called a CIA toll free number to ask them to take responsibility for themselves or suffer consequences with the United Nation and they sent this msg back:

"This phone number has been disconnected; no further information is available, zero two seven P"

This is the site where I got the number: http://usgovinfo.about.com/bl1800.htm

I want to know if any woman has ever come forward to report Dempsey. How has he gotten as far as he has, with not one single woman ever reporting date rape or sexual harassment from him? or pedophilia? I am positive. I looked at his photo just tonight, the one from the Department of Defense website, and I'm positive. He is some kind of sexual predator. I've thought it before and just never said anything and never wrote it down. Even though I accused him of things or guessed a couple of things about his daughters, I never once wrote down what impression I got from him and it's that he has gotten away with some kind of sexual misconduct or predator crimes. So I am just wondering, ladies, why you are not coming forward about him and why you let him get as far as he has in the Army. Your refusal to take a stand is allowing a criminal person to be in a high position where he writes the check for other crimes that are even worse. For some reason, stuff about kids comes to mind which isn't really typical for someone so into Catholicism or a straight appearing lifestyle. But there is some kind of deviant and predator sex crimes from his past. I want to know what it is. I want him OUT of his job. Why is it all these women who were molested or whose kids were molested, step forward about politicians and often Protestant ones or minority ones, but never about military? These are dangerous people, in charge of giving consent to any number of heinuos orders and establishing that they have a criminal past should be something women are willing to stand up against. From what I hear, rape and sex crimes in the military are HUGE and uncontrolled and out of order. As long as women keep letting men beat them down and intimidate them into silence, nothing will change. This happens with police, law enforcement like FBI and military. They think they are ABOVE the law and that their positions entitle them to sexually assault women and children and these men all back eachother up because many of them have crossed the line in their lives, with at least one woman and they know and remember and hope they will never be caught.

"Renee Hudson", an African-American woman with U.S. Army answered the phone when I called the Army number. I called the same number listed on the site I posted above, with toll free numbers. I'm tired of being TORTURED and this country not punishing those in charge. I said I don't think it's a coincidence that you're answering the phone when you know your Hudson, NJ man Dempsey is responsible for torturing my family tonight.

I didn't swear over the phone or yell at all and she disconnected me or the call was disconnected by someone else. It lasted less than a couple of minutes.

My parents are being forced to go on a "trip" and it's all CIA. They do not want to go. I already know they don't want to go and almost started crying just thinking about it months ago when I first arrived. It's CIA. The CIA regional big house is in Phoenix, AZ, and that's where they held that Iranian scientist hostage and made it appear to everyone like he was completely free. He had a car, a house, looked like he was traveling freely...going to work, buying groceries, little things for himself.

Who would EVER THINK, "This man is being held hostage by the CIA." No one. Who would think, "This man is kidnapped basically." No one. How is his "travel" obstructed even? He appeared to be totally free. He was NOT FREE and neither are my Mom and Dad and they're being forced on a trip lasting "anywhere from a couple of weeks to a month" and they don't even know how long because THEY are not calling the shots.

Not only did the U.S. keep me from getting my money for college to block me from appealing my case with my son and getting him back, they didn't want me to use money to pay for holiday tickets because they didn't want my PARENTS to go anywhere or for me to figure out they are NOT FREE to leave this GOD DAMNED country.

It is CIA and military. The FBI and local police just act as the bouncers and protect the mafia that the CIA uses to do the dirty crap THEY want to mess with.

My parents are being tortured, forced to work, and they are forced to lie about everything and about me, and are being held hostage.

They have had to to AZ in the past too, for another fucking CIA check-in and to do more guinea pig work for others. I know it has been very bad for them in the past bc they cringe at the idea now, and when I already know how horrible things are HERE for them, I wonder to myself what kind of crazy crap are they pulling over in Arizona? They have to be torturing my parents because they wouldn't dread anything else as much. The thing is, they torture my parents HERE, so something has to be even worse over there.

It has to be a big CIA outlet because there is too much crap being generated from that single spot. They've got the Iranian man they dared hold, which is bold enough but now I know they've been doing this to my Mom and Dad for years. Then they kept tabs on that shooter that then went to jail for shooting the woman politician and others, who talks about CIA and military and how he was working for them but they deny everything--the one who talks about experiments they do with "lucid dreaming" or whatever. Mind control crap.

The U.S. has sold my son and put him in virtual chains with padlocks. They are torturing my son and have for a long time and are using him for mind control. They view my son as a piece of government property, not a child. They feel entitled to keeping him from me because they "invested" in him and don't want to start over.

They are criminals. They tortured us and abducted my son to torture him worse and use guardians they can control which is how it is ALWAYS done. They could NOT control ME so they took him from me.

I had talked openly about going to someplace for vacation and then all of a sudden, my parents were instructed not to give me any cash for anything and they controlled all the money and then stalled on processing of my education because they didn't want me to find out, and prove to everyone, that my parents are being held hostage and they also didn't want the public to know my son is being kept from me deliberately so they pulled out all the stops for this.

They are protecting their ownership and kidnapping and torture of my son like HE is an Area 51 all on his own person. They have used him and are criminally responsible for stealing children from every single generation of my family to use for the fucking U.S. government.

I hope another country takes this one over because this one has lost all its moral right to be independent. Who is standing up for US? Is it that bad? Is the U.S. now so corrupt that NO ONE in the FBI is standing up for us? or outside the U.S.?

Panetta is trying to squeeze us along with Dempsey because they are protecting their own church members who are criminals and don't want to get caught.

The U.S. didn't encourage the embassy break-in by a group of Iranians. The Holy See's men did, through other channels. Panetta and Dempsey deal with mafia and IRA. IRA gives arms to Muslim milias so if they wanted to find out about something the UK was doing that was of interest to them, or if they were wanting dirt on ME even (because they HATE my GUTS), they would try to find out who I was contacting by inviting a group to break in and then rewarding them with a special favor.

It wasn't a U.S. gesture of goodwill to the Iranians, it was Panetta and the Holy See and IRA thanking the thugs in Iran for giving them the discovery they wanted.

NSA Violations of Law and Military Torture

2012-02-08T00:52:00.000-08:00

The U.S. DOD is torturing me tonight. As soon as I was posting some art on the last post, they started up and then they continued when I tried to go to bed, forcing me out of bed.

NSA has always been involved, right from the start.

Romanian Song & Cezanne Le Lac Annecy

2012-02-07T20:24:00.000-08:00

I decided to listen to christian music on youtube and listened to kids singing in English and then wanted to find a Romanian christian song so I searched and clicked before the photo appeared. It was this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nWY-7mV8qWc

And then I decided to look up art to go with it and Cezanne came to mind so I clicked on this:
http://ibiblio.org/wm/paint/auth/cezanne/land/lake-annecy.jpg

Both photo and painting are of two mountains and one lake. It took me 3 minutes total to find the match. Also, there is a space in the mountains in the photo just as there is a house in the painting. Same position.

Positon.?

I thought of the Romanian perfume man but I'm not looking him up. He can look me up and find the christian song instead.

I looked up Psalm 18:2 and it is this:

"The Lord is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer,
my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.
He is my shield and the horn of my
salvation, my stronghold."

The Romanian man has "Peace" written across his page at the top and a photo of him and his children 5 times. Made me think of my son, my Oliver, my "peace", who is 5. It sort of made a little sad but nice to find.

I really liked finding the art to go with the photo and suprised at how quickly it was found. It was just click, click, click and that's the one that stood out to me, and I realized it also matched the photo.

Next I clicked on this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SlSjLvqrGHo

Guess what. You won't believe it. I was watching this one above, and liked it and then following the scriptures listed and then turned my hand and realized I had opened to a random section by accident, and looked down at it and it is about the "work of a perfumer".

I am not lying. I fell upon Exodus 37:25 and read to v. 29, "they also made the sacred anointing oil and the pure, fragrant incense--the work of a perfumer."

And then I listened to this from looking up the author just as I looked up the other Romanian author and found another song there.
http://www.youtube.com/user/PaceVoua2010

At the time it finished it was 9:10 p.m. and I sense good energy from somewhere. Prayers somewhere. I am curious to know what the title means for this song--ce mare esti, anca si Madalina.

I think that's it for me tonight but I might browse more. I came to my laptop with my Bible because this morning I read a psalm and then I ended up finding all these songs and had my Bible already in front of me so I could look some things up. I wonder what in the world that romanian perfumer would think of this.

I didn't try to find the section either. I was busy looking up other psalms and then my hand ended up there and when I turned to see if it was something from the music and that's why I had my hand there, it was this section about perfume and I had not asked God to turn there, or tried to, or anything. It just happened, and right after I had written about that perfumer! So, interesting. See what I mean? I told you, it's been happening a lot lately.

Anyway.

I Hung The Moon
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4mOMUHjufVU

ending at 10:37 p.m.
http://www.ibiblio.org/wm/paint/auth/renoir/portraits/lucie-berard.jpg

http://www.wikipaintings.org/en/henri-de-toulouse-lautrec/portrait-of-a-child-1882#supersized-artistPaintings-230546

http://www.1st-art-gallery.com/thumbnail/275425/1/The-Madonna-And-Child.jpg

http://images.arcadja.com/bertrand_solange-ma_tante_hortense__etude_de_cupidon_1~300~10471_20051024_24102005_1.jpg

11:06 p.m Return my son to his mother

psalm 35:5-10

Frozen Assets and FBI Assault

2012-02-07T17:50:00.002-08:00

I believe my Dad is being assaulted and medicated through FBI.

He opened the door and last night when I saw him I thought he looked sort of greenish. Then today I went over and his eyes are just blown out from torture. His face looked greenish as well, and he looked sick and not well.

He kept trying not to cry the entire time and apparently, they didn't tell me this, but the FBI is forcing them to not give me any cash for any reason.

It's not my parents, it all started when I filed asking the FBI for FOIA again. All of a sudden, doing work for my parents to have even $20 or a little money was quit. They were told not to give me even $1. So basically, this is while I am trying to Appeal my case for my son.

The FBI is responsible. I have been refused access to printing anything through my parent's machine. I was held up and stalled on my education transcript until now because NOW, the FBI and military and criminals that brought the case to this, don't care.

The U.S. deliberately froze all money going to me to prevent me from challenging the illegality of the CPS and abduction of my son. They stalled my getting into college to keep me out of money so I wouldn't have anything to appeal with if I tried on my own. Like now. Right now is when I have to appeal on my own, without state-funded lawyers, who were trash anyway. They made my case worse and weaker, they did nothing to improve it and slipped things in and kept evidence out.

The United States is guilty of high crimes because they went so far as to prevent my access into college until NOW. Why NOW? because now it's too late. So now they don't care.

They obstructed justice and access to education to keep me out of money for Appealing.

Now they imagine (I guess) that they will take my son and finalize all legal processes, to make it impossible to challenge them or get my son back.

They are also preventing me from having money bc these corrupt lawyers don't want me to be able to pay for my security deposit box that I have in Tennessee. That's the FBI and corrupt lawyers doing.

They know, and are worried, that I have evidence I can use against them with this bo and it costs $130 to pay for the annual fee. So I found out, this is something my parents would always pay for. They know I am refused work and that there is no way for me to pay for it when people here are all CIA and military.

I can pretty much prove it. This entire town is a black ops town and I'm not joking. You can check on it. They all engage in psi work. So paying for my box fee, and allowing me to pay them BACK, is something that my parents would not keep me from.

It seems like Rabbi Rose is holding a grudge actually. He and the jewish, combined with the Catholics, use FBI to gang up and force us out of things. There is NO way my parents wouldn't do something like allow me to pay them back for the box. I know them and it's not something they would do. This is 100% out of character and keeping with how they have operated, and I know them.

I know, with no shadow of doubt, that they are forced out of paying for it because someone else wants access to that box and the contents.

So basically, since they will not allow me to pay them back, I have hardly any money for filing my Appeal at all--I have less than $10 to spend. I know it's Jewish Jew Crew involvment. They are absolutely involved and are gangsters. The Jewish lawyer I had and the others were just as interested in keeping me out of money as the Catholic hate groups. They had a joint interest becuase they've both been groups that lied and tried to conceal crime to further their own agendas.

So basically, in the next 2 months, I have to buy nothing but bottled water. I am not kidding. I will be spending $200 in food stamps for the next two months, all of it on bottled water.

Just to get 5 cents per bottle to have enough to pay for my security box. Why? Because I have shit I can use against these assholes that are attempting to freeze me out of my son and justice.

Literally. All of my food stamp money has to be spent on bottled water. All because of the FBI. The FBI is motivated to know what I have because they defamed me in TN and anything I have, they want. The lawyers have all been corrupt.

Basically, I have to go to food banks for the next 2 months and stock up on food bank food or FAST on nothing but tea and water, because all of my money has to be used on bottled water.

My Dad's neck was slit and cut today. I knew I had a bad feeling about something this morning. Because this afternoon he showed up with eyes all trashed and a cut mark and abrasions and redness around his neck and under his chin.

Someone was threatening him.

This is not the first time. I have photos of my Dad from Christmas at the Avilas and his neck was slashed and he had a cut mark right there on his neck and I could tell from his expression that things were not okay.

Last night he was talking through the door, reminding me of my son again, by how he talked, and I didn't see him again.

I know Bill O'Reilly is a criminal. I pray to God he is in a car crash. That man is totally corrupt. He has been getting inside access into my family and using his Dempsey contact long enough. In Wenatchee, it's a bunch of Roman Catholic Irish criminals as well. I just, I don't know, tonight I saw a car crash for Bill O'Reilly. And he deserves it, and I know with my heart that God knows he is due.

This woman at a thrift store tonight gave me a candle and acted really sweet when she was a bitch. She gave me a candle I had had with my son in East Wenatchee before he was taken from me and then she told me she was Irish and said "From NORTHERN IRELAND!" I said, "Oh!" and she said, "You know, Northern Ireland is where we wore orange all the time for our parades."

She is a fucking liar. I knew she was lying too.

Northern Ireland is not the Orangemen. They do not wear Orange to celebrate themselves in parades. The other part of Ireland, the Protestants, are the ones who wear Orange, and the Scottish.

Every time I buy a habanero pepper, I think of the Scottish Bonnet. That's another term for habaneros. They call them scottish bonnets and that's what I think of when I buy them and of the safe Irish--the Protestants who have NOT assaulted my family like Bill O'Reilly's gang has. Bill O'Reilly and Dempsey are tied directly to the IRA and Northern Ireland and they have assaulted my family members. The IRA is immediately connected to the U.S. FBI. The FBI gave THAT group a "pass" and kept them off of the "terrorist" list while they bombed and killed all these innocent people. The U.S. put all the Protestant Irish groups on terrorist lists and PROTECTED and FUNDED and supported the IRA.

I used to feel sympathetic but not anymore. I mean, I don't think they should be tortured, but they've worked with hispanic mafia to do horrific things in Wenatchee and over here as well. Even my Dad used to be a sympathizer with their plight, a long time ago, and I don't think so now because they are terrorists and have assaulted us.

They are terrorists and they are directly responsible for a lot of what has been done to me and my son. O'Reilly's show has far too much inside information on my family for it to be accidental. I already knew this a long time ago. Right about the time I was figuring out O'Reilly and his gang and applying for FOIA, and with some Jewish hate, things went down the tubes.

I had an inside feeling about who would break into the English embassy in Iran too. Northern Ireland is the group that has worked with Muslims most in trading black market arms and that's Catholic and Panetta is Catholic. Suprised to see Panetta thanking them for this favor by "rescuing" some Iranians taken by "pirates"?

Here's how it works folks...not that I am the only "analyst" who got a "hunch" about what's going on...

I think it's another example of the Holy See using their connections in U.S. military and government to influence things for themselves and do favors for eachother. The U.S. is supposedly against Iran right? so why then is Catholic Italian Panetta rescuing Iranians? Humanitarian? I don't think so. I think it was Irish Catholics behind the English embassy break-in. I believe they paid and worked with that group of Iranians to go in and get some discovery for themselves.

I think it's an example of the Catholic church using their U.S. influence to do favors for Holy See intelligence.

William of Wales (question)

2012-02-07T17:50:00.001-08:00

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I made this post and just put a period there and then went to write my next post. I put a period there to save the place because if I don't put a character in the box for text, it doesn't save with just the title. So I've used a period if I'm marking out a post to then go back to later. That's my point of putting the period there.

My point of this post is to clarify since I told my parents about an impression I had. It was about William of Wales and I'm being specific because I don't know why I got this and I asked my parents about it. They didn't like hearing about it and my Dad said, "Are you looking things up about them online?" and I said "No! I haven't looked up anything about them for over a month and then it was just a photo here and there and that was it." This is the truth.

I told them because I said, "Why would God show me this? I am not like Daniel where I have the interpretation--I just saw this and I don't know what it means." I wanted to know what they thought or if they had any ideas. My Dad said he thought it meant nothing.

I said, "For some reason, I get stuff about him. I don't ask too, but I do sometimes and why would God show me? and with this, right after I saw this about him, I landed on this section in the Bible about Jeremiah."

I am not gifted like this and so rarely get anything but I told them, the few times I've said anything, even a couple of years ago, I was attacked and punished as if I had insider information about something or was getting it from someone else.

I have never tried to ask or see anything for purposes of benefitting myself but if I get something like this, I must be required to share it because why else would God show me this?

So I told them what I saw. I told them what I prayed and then I had said for both the brothers and then thought, "Show me something about William" and then said, "Well God, anything you want, whatever it is" and I saw him, William, going down the rope in a tunnel into the ground. It was for him but I tried to be more discreet in the other post. However, why would I see this if it's not to share?

So no, if it correlates to anything real going on, I have no idea. I don't know what's going on with that family at all. I have not looked them up ONCE in a month. Before that, it was a few photos on the monarchy site and that was it. And I saw ONE clip of Prince Philip getting a ride out of the hospital, in a black range rover, waving. That is IT. I have not read, searched, looked up, or talked to anyone about anything to do with them.

I said I wondered bc in the past, I had asked to see what color he was wearing to his wedding and I saw it instantly, bright red, and I doubted it, thinking, and saying to God, "red? that's not very wedding-like...is that right?" I didn't know it was a uniform. So I said, the thing that was strange was that then I got this passage from Jeremiah about a rope going into a tunnel and everything and then when they got Jeremiah out, it was by tying rags together to make a rope and they lifted him out.

I said to my parents, "Out of the WHOLE Bible, I just happened to end up on this section about a man going by rope down into a tunnel in the ground?" and I showed my parents how small the circumference was of what I saw and how close to the body and it was a packed tight dirt tunnel I thought.

So I told my parents I had thought why did I get something about Jeremiah? I thought, is William a prophet? is he gifted psychically? is he so gifted that's why someone targeted his head? or since it's about a king and king's son or royalty putting a prophet into a cistern, is it about something someone has done to a prophet?

I didn't know, but that's what I saw. So I said, "Why do you think I would see that?" and they were ho-hum about it and said it means nothing. I said it must mean something.

Anyway, that's why I am sharing it again and more openly. First of all to say, I have not read about anything or heard about anything and I don't even think about them often. It was just random.

I said, "And I saw some of them having a quarrel. It wasn't just one to the other but a small group like 3 or 4 people. Not a large group. And they were shouting at eachother."

They didn't look very pleased or happy to hear about it. Then I was done and they said, "Okay, your 20 minutes is up" and that was it.

And I wondered if some group was punishing my Dad because of what I had written about royals and if someone thought I knew something. Because he had a cut throat or mark and I told them, "I was assaulted and punished about 2 years ago because I was writing things and someone must have thought I knew things or someone was telling me stuff and no, it wasn't that at all." I added, "If that Middleton group is responsible, they're violent and criminal and William should divorce them."

Just because my Dad asked if I'd been looking up things about them I sort of want to look things up...I mean, now I'm curious. But I'll restrain myself. I'm not going to look up anything about them.

And the other thing is that I did know it was about William of Wales but I didn't know what God was going to choose to show me and it was sort of hazy and I didn't see his face, just knew that it was about him. I tried to be more discreet but what's the point.

Bad Vibe (but then silly photos & my color "lot")

2012-02-07T10:12:00.000-08:00

Today I can tell someone is sad. I bet my son is not in school today and at that daycare.

I am wearing grey pants with black pants beneath, a yellow, tan, and grey fleece shirt with a red sweater beneath it and then I am alternating between a cream jacket and a bright navy jacket. I almost wore an orange shirt over red this morning. Might still put that on at some time bc it's cold today. I think black jacket would be best bc I did dark eyes but was wondering about black and red with my red lipstick and very black eyes today. We'll see.

Tennis shoes.

I had a sad vibe while wearing the cream jacket and while putting on my make-up actually, about an hour ago. At about 9 a.m. or so. Which is also about the time my Dad left the house so I wonder what torture is being done to him.

I took some silly photos of myself, to ask, "which jacket today?" and put them up but I started laughing so that was good.

I love this one photo where I put my elbow resting on a canister of salt and then found, I didn't plan it, in the space above, it was framing the canister of "double mocha" I got, and I started laughing because right before that I photographed me next to the list of ingredients on the back of salt ("an anticaking agent").

Well, now the photos are being hidden in an archive so I'm not going to put them up right now until I have all of them. I took some of me in the tan and yellow with cream overjacket and then took off the tan and yellow layer so it was my v neck red sweater I had on beneath and then took photos with a black jacket over the red and then my bright blue jacket with turquoise over the red sweater.

I have something to say about color lots which I thought was sort of interesting. Not yesterday, but the day before, it was a big green and yellow day. Yesterday I went shopping with my torn jeans newly stitched up with green thread because it's what God's "lot" fell on. The night before, I thought, I am going to sew this up, but what color thread? I'd used tan, blue, and white before. So since it was something that didn't matter too much I said to myself, "this is a good time to decide on a lot." So I took all the rolls and I only had a few colors, not all of them, but I closed my eyes and put them in my hand, shook them up and prayed, "God, whichever color you want me to use, let me choose this" and I kept my eyes closed and threw one on my bed and with eyes still closed, said, "and my alternate or one to mix it with?" and then threw one on the bed.

It was green and yellow. The green one was lying down and the yellow one landed standing upright. The green one was a full roll and the yellow one was halfway gone but it was upright. I thought, "That is really interesting." So I used green because I threw it out first and kept yellow with me because I thought I might combine them. But then the bright green was enough to stitch it, just barely so I left it and then put the yellow on my shelf right there. It was interesting to me because the book I had landed on that day (Sunday) while doing a Bible study to find out about Solomon and Adonijah was that green and yellow book "KINGS".

Then today, I did a quick lot on m&ms. I was laughing about the "doubles" and "agent" and photos I took, with "SALT" (I am SALT? uh, THANKS ANNA--they had me confused with yew(and still don't want to admit it)). So I was eating m&ms and impromtu took a photo opening my mouth not knowing what color it was and it was turquoise. Then I "lot" picked the next one and it was yellow. So I took a 4-photo section of me trying not to laugh, then showing turquoise, then yellow, and then cracking up laughing.

I'm settling on wearing my red sweater and blue jacket over it. It's comfy and warm enough for today.

I am still coming off of meds and being tortured, so um, have some compassion.

I am not okay to work on legal stuff. First of all, it's impossible. The U.S. has obstructed my travel for over 7 years, and ruined all of my work opportunities. They have tortured me, literally, non-stop, so no, it's not possible. They have been brutally torturing me, knowing I have legal things to attend to.

I don't have all my medical records and FBI files and documentation that would clear me and prove absolutely that I've been defamed.

Did you see those photos of me with "not thrush?" THIS IS THE LIE that ALL of those doctors got away with. Okay, they ALL colluded to LIE about something like THIS and if they lied about that, don't you know they also lied about everything else. I had to put up humiliating photos of myself with a RASH, after several years, just to PROVE I am not lying and delusional to the public.

They lied and they covered up for themselves. They should all be in jail for criminal conspiracy to collude to obstruct justice and for refusal of treating a BABY and then covering up for torture.

Any doctor, in the entire world, can look at those photos and see what it is and that it matches my claims. I said my son and I had thrush from breastfeeding and then it went systemic and they maliciously refused to treat us.

Well these doctors all lied and said it wasn't that and we didn't even have it anymore. They are LIARS.

Just as these doctors, shocking, colluded to lie about me and a BABY, others have lied about the entire CPS case. The entire thing is a fraud and they blocked me from all records and all money.

Guess what these assholes are doing now? They know I am going to lose the Appeal because I don't have the records and files I need and I'm being tortured to keep me from doing legal research and have no money.

So guess what they have lined up? Mental health disability. This entire time, they refused to provide any counseling because the FBI didn't want records generated about THEM and their inaction and how it was traumatizing me and they didn't want evidence I wasn't nuts either.

So now, all of a sudden, they refused all these things to the line of having me lose my son with finality and then these FUCKERS want me to then be "consoled" by having my transcript paid to go to college.

FUCK YOU and GOD FUCKING DAMN AMERICA.

Guess what else. Oh, all of a sudden, then they want me to file for mental health and *suddenly* the federal employees are saying I can get counseling now. Now that it's too late. They abducted my son, slandered me, tortured us, and used us for fucking research and then they want me to sign up for mental illness and NOW, when it's too late, get "counseling" when there is nothing I can use it for legally to get my son back.

They don't want me to have my son back. They forced me out. They picked the Avilas because they are corrupted by mafia and the CIA fucking likes that because they can work with that. As long as they have something to use against the Avilas they control them and do whatever they want to do with my son with mafia.

Guess what else. The FBI, after sharing my blog and selecting parts of my blog to psychic wards, to defame me and torture me with Haldol, wants ME to pick out my own little sections of my blog to "prove I am crazy" to SSI. They want ME to do this so if I later accuse them of damages from defamation they can say, "Didn't YOU pick out sections of your blog where you thought you sounded crazy to prove mental illness?"

They're forcing me to do this. I'm not choosing this, they're forcing this. Here's the other thing. The woman I talked to was nice but I know she's connected to the FBI because the only time she FUCKING tried to CUT ME off with what I was saying, was when I said, "I was blocked from getting counseling at even federally funded clinics where it's supposed to be free to anyone who applies."

She didn't like that and wanted to run right over me as soon as I said, "I was blocked from getting counseling at even federally funded..(she starts talking over me)...clinics..."

It was the ONLY time she talked over me. Just like FBI Julia Thornton, talking over me when I brought up religious hate crime. Why talk over me unless you're trying to distract me from an important point that shows collusion, corruption, and crime.

She did this, and instantly, at that moment, it was right there. She's connected to FBI. Only a federal employee would try to mow me over on a point that implicates the federal government for obstructing justice.

Why was this important? because SHE knows it helps prove FEDERAL OBSTRUCTION OF JUSTICE. When the State or government employees are blocking someone from accessing the path to JUSTICE, to get their KID back, it proves that U.S. FBI and federal employees were directly involved and responsible as first parties to criminal obstruction of justice.

It means it wasn't just some "clerk" or doctor who had too many patients and couldn't take another one. It proves the U.S. colluded to obstruct justice in the "case" that is a fucking MOUNTAIN OF BULLSHIT. Next time you see a pile of dog crap, think of Panetta crouching there to make his mark.

God damn the U.S., and every single U.S. family that has had any part in what has been done to me and my son. May God kill your firstborn sons, and by that, I mean, just as you have done to my son and I, may this return to your houses and heads. All of you and God return any evil plotted and prayed against us. For every injury or fault you win, may you see it return to you double.

So I asked, "Do I list my blog as evidence then? just list the site? or am I supposed to pick out sections where I think I sound the craziest?" and she said, "Pick out sections where you think it will help because it will be scanned and they can't ignore it then."

(Scanned into an online public file where any federal and state employee can access it and mock me further and try to use this to bolster themselves.)

I said to her, "That is just...that is NOT what crazy people do. Crazy people don't pick out sections of their blog where they think they sound the craziest. Crazy people don't know they're crazy, they don't pick out sections to send people." Then she said I might not get any money and I said, "Okay, so the U.S. uses me and and defames me and takes MY SON away from me and ruins my life, and then I don't qualify for getting $700 in benefits for the same thing? I'm sorry, but $700 is sort of a low-ball offer to be "crazy for the U.S." to begin with." I should be compensated for millions and billions and then if the U.S. can't even fucking give me $700 for the shit they did to me and my son, what is their fucking problem.

This the other thing. I said, "So do I take the application to YOU or who?" and she said, "You know where the Goodwill is?" and I said yes, and she said, "You take it to the Social Security offices next to the Goodwill."

Then I said, "Well this will be really interesting if I find out someone never retracted and destroyed my son's Social Security number as I requested." and then I told her how I'd gone back and told the SS admin I wanted my son's SS# removed because I was threatened, forced and coerced to sign for one for him and that's illegal. So I explained to her they have 2 processes. One is to put the original # in "hiding" until he applies for one himself when he's 16 and then the other is to destroy it and when he applies, he starts all over. So when the SS offices in Wenatchee (what a great acronym for them--nazi symbolism). When they took my kid from him, what did they do? revive his SS#? that they were supposed to destroy?

I told her about this and said, "This is a little strange that the same offices that might have some liability for what they did or didn't do in handling of my legal request, are then going to process a crazy claim for me that they know will work to their own benefit."
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Oh this one. This song. I didn't love the violin concerto I heard last night, but this, I like. Perk, perking. Big eyes. I was sitting there eating twix, calling the fucking crazy-doctor and this song was on. The artist plays well. I don't know what it is but it's 12:35 p.m. and it's being played by Jefferson radio. I caught the last part of one before this but didn't love it. It was from Taming of the Shrew. Sort of ho-hum. This though, I like. It's a little different from the style I usually prefer, sort of baldaveer? a little like some rolling scene from a John Wayne western bar with the piano but the violinist is pretty good.Henryk Wieniawski is the composer and Corey Cerovsek, violin & Katja Cerovsek, piano. Before I looked up the composer I wanted to guess about him while still hearing this and even though it's not sad, maybe it's not him I see, but a man wiping away angry hot tears while writing fast at a desk on paper. And lots of ice-skating in a town ice skating rink. A round one like in NY at Central Park. Women ice-skating in long skirts. I wanted to see about the composer Henryk. Okay, now I'm looking him up for the first time in my life to see if it matches.

I wasn't being tortured today until I wrote about this composer and song. Right after I did, the torture to my neck, teeth and ear very severe to punish me I guess, for probably being right and I don't even know yet. Let me see. There is an inserted song into the program of Tuba by composer James Grants "waltz for betz".

Yes, just looked up preliminary notes on Henryk and I feel confirmation God gave me a good musical ear and taste. He was considered to be a violin genious. The composer was, which is maybe why I was more impressed with the violin portion than the piano section. I stood right up, from where I sat, upon hearing the first minute of his song. It was amazing. And again, the Russian's had him awhile because they know...they just do, like about tchaikovsky, they know, snow beauties. This is what I clicked on:http://www.8notes.com/biographies/Wieniawski.asp

I asked God to show me about the composer when he was writing this song I heard, I asked at the close to end, deciding to apply myself to ask. And I saw these rolling, streaming tears, hot, fast, and furiously fast writing on paper while he was sitting at a desk. Wiping away tears, writing. And then a circular ice skating rink and women in heavy long skirts. Like he either skated or watched it or was near one. I saw from looking into the rink, and the women skating around, with very warm clothes on. Oh! on wiki now, a quirk...he was given medical care it says, by the patroness for Tchaikovsky. She and I would share same musical tastes then.

I took note of Henryk's composition at the beginning, where all of a sudden, it goes sliding down on a minor sort of scale. A dramatic shift, and so beautifully constructed, my eyes got wide. I sat there, idly chewing on a twix, with the psychologist's answering service on the phone to my ear and my eyes bugging out at the splendor of the piece.

So first I saw crying at fast writing at a desk when I asked and then I asked to see more and saw a round ice skating rink and heavy winter long dresses, with some with maybe fur trim? like out of one of those old fashioned christmas cards where the women are skating in skirts or dresses that are very warm, bundled up.

Nights of Fire, Days of Rain by Bob Zoller

2012-02-07T00:38:00.001-08:00

This is a book that was a big deal in my childhood:
http://www.amazon.com/Night-Fire-Days-Rain-Zoller/dp/0830708448
It was published by Regal Books in June 1982.

It was pointed out to me and highlighted when I was a child. Pay attention. It was a significant event when I was given this book and this is the original artwork on the book I was given.

I was 8 years old and it was given to me as soon as it was in the stores. I was already devouring christian books at that age--reading at least one or several in a single day. My highlight was getting a new book. It was my only gift and what made me most happy. No other gift made me happier than getting a new book to read. So my Dad bought a new book for me from the christian bookstore all the time, like once a week, and then I checked out books at the library too.

I remember this one though. Funny, because when I did google search on it a couple of years ago, no one brought it up in my search. It didn't matter how hard I tried to find it, it wouldn't come up. But I remember sitting next to my Dad and being shown this book and it was a big deal.

Lots of Carrots & Images (man down rope)

2012-02-06T20:55:00.001-08:00

I bought 10 lbs of carrots today. They were a good deal so I couldn't pass it up. First they were cheap at one place and I bought 6 lbs and then they were even cheaper at the next place so I thought, "more carrots? okay" and I bought 4 more lbs.

I should buy more beets too. I got a bunch but they are so practical--I mean, every part of them is good...the roots, the stalks, and the greens.

I am still "vegan". I consider myself to be more vegan than vegetarian, however, because of my severe budget constrainsts, and a lot of torture, I bought a lot of chocolates to get me through. Then I accidentally bought emu oil in a product, forgeting where it's from, I mean, how it's obtained. So I am saving it to return. I think the milk in chocolates is very neglible and I bought 8 cartons of Silk soy milk, so I think I am doing my best. Got a soy protein isolate for concocting hot cocoa too.

I got some food from a food pantry and thought maybe not to say I'm vegan and just took it but I think next time if I told them they would be okay with this. There was a ton of pantry so I don't think they would have minded if I let them know. I sort of put it in my pantry but didn't use it. I froze the bread because it had yeast, eggs, and milk, and butter.

While times are hard I might not be as strict and then when things are better, be more fully vegan. I bought quinoa for the first time today. I've had it before in tabbouleh, but I've not made it myself.

I didn't buy any fruit. Nothing against fruit, but still thinking of things to do with diet.

I was separated from my Mom while shopping and she showed up with 6 bottles of international creamer, all with blue caps, after I'd just bought 6 cases of water, 2 large and 4 minis (blue lids--same shade). I also bought 6 Silk soy yogurts and they're pretty good--I already tried them and it's a good way to get vegan acidophilous.

My mother did so many things that were predictive, I can hardly write it all. I would write a lot more if I got a manual typewriter because I don't want to put all of this online or on my computer. I don't want people reading everything I write (believe it or not).

My parents are shocking. I mean, shocking even moreso that never in my life did I have any clue. I wish I'd known, maybe, because I could have been more aware of others motives or what was around me, but on the other hand, it was probably nice to be oblivious so long. It's just that I had no way of knowing or understanding what dangers might be out there or what others were after. I mean, I realize now that others knew, and I never did. What's more incredible is I think some of them thought I knew, but no, any real and honest psi person will tell you it is the truth I was never aware.

Last night I prayed to see a couple of things when I haven't in a very long time and I saw some very hazy things. I seriously never do, but I did for about 5 minutes and the first thing I saw was my parent's new light which this man installed today. Is that bizarre? I don't know that it was actually that light, but from a distance, you can see this VVVVVVVVVVVVVV pattern, if you stand next to this antique wardrobe in the hall and look into the bathroom at the skylight, that pattern and I saw this last night and wondered what it was. The difference was that every line was thin and defined and they were sort of translucent but colorful and moving back and forth. They were not stationary.

I also wondered about my Dad's sawhorse and something about someone in particular and then walked into the house and this thing was set up the way I saw it and wondered.

Here is the most incredible thing. I got more scripture stuff--the coincidences I've been talking about where I am praying about or thinking about something and then I find it in the Bible. It happened again because last night I had closed my eyes and asked God to show me something and it was of a man going down a rope into a tunnel in the ground. The man who I asked about was in mind but maybe it wasn't about him, I didn't see the face. I saw him going down this rope, into a circular tunnel and then right after this I opened up my Bible RANDOMLY and it was right at Jeremiah being lowered into a cistern. I KID YOU NOT. The prophet Jeremiah going down a ROPE into a cistern in the ground.

I thought that was SO WEIRD.

It is happening ALL the time. These parallels. This is the very first time though, that I got something from the Bible after seeing an image. Usually it's been that I just think about something and then turn to the Bible and something correlates and I feel like God read my mind and how did He do that and then have me land on that page? But this image of the man going down the rope, was the first time in my life that I prayed to see something and then right after seeing it, I got something in the Bible that is about the exact same thing.

The only thing is, I don't know that it has ANYTHING to do with the man from the image.

Oh, the first thing I got was not a good thing. It was of my son I thought, or someone else's kid, and it was a boy, little boy, smearing his lips with red lipstick. There was something bad about it, like someone forced him to apply this lipstick to his lips and he was my son's age--5 or 6 or so and I thought, what IS this? and didn't want to see it. I thought why did God show me THAT and then I realized, it's from Hannibal Lector. I THINK. I think there is a scene where he puts red lipstick on himself and in my image it was that someone mean was telling or forcing a little boy to do this to himself.

That was the very first thing I saw and it scared me so I opened my eyes fast and didn't want to see anything else. I had not been thinking about children or Hannibal, or lipstick, or anything like that so I was wondering where it was from. Then I was praying about some royalty and saw a big fight between some. I guess I chose them, just out of curiosity. It was a man shouting at a couple of other people and they were standing and shouting and very upset. I couldn't really tell which ones though. It was hazy. It was just like this hazy figures shouting scene and I saw them about waist-up, from about waist to head, sort of hazy. Very brief and didn't make out anything about what it was about or why or who or any details (which is why I am not "gifted" in this stuff). Then I asked God to show me whatever he wanted and that's when I saw this man going down a rope into a tunnel. I prayed, God please protect me from the "senders" and let me see something you, sincerely only that you, want me to see. And that's what I saw. And then after I saw this, I opened up my Bible, totally randomly, and it fell on Jeremiah the Prophet being lowered into a cistern. How THAT relates to modern day about this person, is what I don't get. Is it just a parallel? a way of God showing me it was an image from him and not someone else? or is it possible someone predicted I'd randomly open to this section so tried to project or send me this image? but how could they do that if I only opened my Bible having followed this image?

Okay, for me personally, I think this was strange. I mean, I have a lot of coincidental things happen, but I mean, what are the odds there? Out of the entire Bible, that passage?

And then what would THAT mean? I don't know what it has to do with Jeremiah.

Here's how it was. I saw the top of this man's head. My view was like one standing above him and looking down or watching him, so my view was on the top of his head and there was this straight rope and he was moving his hands to lower his body down this straight rope and it was inside of a tunnel in the ground, I think earth, like dirt tunnel. So I thought, is this someone rock climbing that ended up in a tunnel in the earth? is this a rescue thing? a recreation thing? And I thought, since I had seen this boy once, a while back, in a circular pit, I wondered why I saw sort of this again. I didn't see any other person in there though, too narrow. It was just about a couple of feet from his body, radious, and his body was pretty straight, not crunched up, while going down. He went sort of slowly, controlled.

(I think I am laughing tonight because I started writing how he was going down and then joked to myself, 'straight into the pit of hell' and then laughed....amusing myself I guess)

I shouldn't joke now because last night it was serious. It was about a royal member person but then I thought, well why this? maybe it's about someone else in the community. Especially when I then fell upon Jeremiah the prophet. I thought "He's a prophet?" I mean, reaaaally now.

Then I thought, maybe I just saw this because it's for me to then pay attention to the Bible scripture I fell on next. I do not know.

I'm trying to find the section. It's where Jeremiah is being thrown in jail actually, or something like that. They lower him by rope into a cistern. After some time a man comes along and says why are you doing this to him? and he is taken out.

So I don't know what that means, because what I saw, was not someone lowering him into this tunnel or cistern or whatever it was...he was lowering himself. Not that I had an impression it was denigrating, I don't know what it was, for good or a bad thing. I have no clue. Seriously. But I swear to you, that is what I saw. It was W. But who knows, maybe I got it confused. Because how does he have anything to do with Jeremiah?

I didn't see the bottom of the tunnel or cistern or if it was a "cistern" but just a tunnel into the earth straight down. I prayed about both of the brothers so maybe it was the other but I sort of thought it was W. However, why? and then who knows, maybe it was just anyone.

And no, for the world, I do NOT usually pray for them. On occasion, to see something, I have for point of interest, or the Pres, but that's it. I'm not focused on them but my own family, son, and life. However, I guess I feel I should write this in case it means something because I seriously do not know why it came to me or what it means. I didn't see the top of the head very clearly either. It wasn't like, "Oh, yeah, looks like _________." No, it was this figure of a man. Vertical tunnel in the earth, man, rope. Nothing else. No one else. I need to clarify, this view of going to the tunnel was not scary or "bad". With other things I saw it was a bad vibe connotation but not with this one which is why I didn't know the meaning and I would hesitate to accept hasty assumptions or eager beavers who want to push their view and interpretation to favor themselves and not God. The impression I first had was of work, or purposed work but I didn't know why it was just this tunnel that went into the ground. And by lowering himself I didn't mean negatively or figuratively but in reality, lowering himself down this rope. I think the rope was white or light. It stood out. It was one thick strand rope and for some reason, white or light colored I think but that's probably not important. But it was just this smooth wall of earth packed all around. It wasn't rough. It was fairly smooth and packed at the walls of the tunnel. From my view, looking down, his hands were one above the other on the rope and clothed but don't know what kind. I could see the hands, and then I would say, the distance from me, was about several feet. It was sort of like I had the perspective of someone at the top watching someone rappeling down into the cavern but it was a straight tunnel. I don't know how to better detail it. That was everything. I could see down a long way but I don't know how far down reeally. Did it have an end? how far to the end? was there a floor at the end? or an opening? I do not know. And let me see, from my angle, I was, okay, if you are looking down at a table, and picture a circle, I would be about the south or bottom side and slightly to the right maybe, from that angle and then looking down as he is turned to the north and sort of diagonal to the left but like 10 o'clock or 11 o'clock. Back to me and then I see straight down from above. So if the clock is laid on the table, he's no, probably, 8-11 approximately, facing somewhere between 8 and 11 and then I have the perspective of from 3 to 6 o'clock or so. Facing toward 8-11 down from the edge from between 3 and 6. And he is further out from 3-6 and also facing 8-11.

I saw another scary thing later, not with this but I wondered what this was from. It was of two men hanging. At first I didn't know if this was a flash from Spielberg's movie, with the windmill and the two boys, but I didn't see relation or whatever and I saw it like a teeter-totter. One man on one side and one man on the other side and both were hanging by the neck, being hung or hung already and one went down and the other went up and then up and down on ends of a teeter-totter. I thought it had to do with someone being tortured somewhere or having already died in a spectacular way. I thought maybe it had to do with a Spielberg flash though and was more doubtful of this and considered it was "noise", what they call mental noise or one's own imagination interfering.

My order of scriptures that I randomly fell across last night:

Esther. I landed on the section where Esther writes letters to instruct Purim.
Then, a section about David's throne forever and righteous branch, if you keep my commandments. Then about Jeremiah, wherever that section is. (found it: Jeremiah 38).

This morning I was looking back and something stood out to me that I never noticed before. I don't know why I never noticed--I'm sure I have, but you know how sometimes parts of a scripture will really pop out and be more outstanding in some way. Well it was about Moses! Moses is such a familiar story to me. And yet this one phrase has not stood out this way for a long time and it just popped out and it is when GOD tells Moses, "Go tell Pharoah, you release my firstborn son." God refers to it as "only firstborn son" or something. I thought, "That's just like Oliver! to me!" I never noticed this before for some reason. And it says, Israel is like an only firstborn son and if you don't release this child, all the firstborn sons of Pharoah will die.

Of course I know the part about the firstborn sons dying. But the part I didn't get before, was that God chose this punishment, as retribution for what was being done to HIS "ONLY firstborn son". Oh, just firstborn. I guess there can only be one only firstborn. Exodus 4:22.

I just don't understand why this particular phrasing never really hit me like this. I mean yeah yeah, the story, heard it, read it, researched it even, how many times have I read it? but this "point" that was being made I never got until this morning.

Um, other things. I liked reading recently, about David faking madness. I've read it before, but imagine King David, drooling all over himself to be called nuts. What happened, is this foreign king knew King Saul was stalking him and trying to do him in, so David was "on the run". He hid in caves, went to foreign countries, and even fought in foreign armies because they were seriously out to do him harm. So this is incredible really, and then he gets favor to take a "political asylum" in this one country and is doing okay but then the King starts to think he's a spy. He starts wondering why David is there and is he trying to take over HIS country? so when he begins to doubt, even though it wasn't true, David knew he was in serious danger and to escape, he feigned insanity. Not just "a small mental health problem" but outright insanity and ACTED this out, by wandering about, torn clothing, and SLOBBERING and drooling everywhere. So then when the king saw him like this, he didn't feel threatened anymore and said, "What is this rubbish doing raving like a lunatic? don't we have enough lunatics in this country already? so why did you bring in another one at taxpayers expense?" (laymen's terms, to modernize, but give the basic summary). Then David gets booted out. And that was how he escaped, by being booted. But I think it's most outstanding how it's not just a mental illness where there is some partial function, but here he is, acting out full-blown insanity. So this is not even your functioning schitzophrenic or bipolar or whatever act, he is putting on scratching at doors, talking to himself in public, and slobbering and who knows. Maybe indecent exposure. I laugh to myself at the thought but I mean, maybe he was scratching himself on the side and showing too much by mistake through his torn clothing. That was a risky thing to do then, but I can't see someone doing that now. Any king or high leader that tried this would get locked up and then who knows when they'd ever get out. I can't remember how many different countries David flees to, but he gets political asylum from more than one, and fights in the army of one, even becoming highly respected. It was as dramatic as someone from Israel fighting in, and for, the Iranian army. I mean, it was that dramatic, but the foreign leaders all knew he was being stalked to be killed and had had assassination attempts. They believed David and actually, David was honest. I really don't think he ever had any plan to turn on anyone but some thought, down the road, well maybe he might so he had to move on, or fake insanity. He was pretty international though. I mean, for that time, the circumstances were really unusual. I know I've written about this passage before but I thought about it again, the dramatics of the drooling and acting completely "INSANE". One thing to be a medicated mentally ill person. Try imagining faking absolute insanity.

Oh, the other unusual thing with scripture or hearing something and then instantly finding it in the Bible...I heard this sermon about God supplying food day by day and then fell across a passage where God told Elijah I think, go hide in the mountains, because people wanted to kill him, and he hid in caves and the ravens brought him bread every day. I thought, "I think this is where some of the old hermits got the idea of living out in the wilderness maybe." So the ravens fed him and kept him alive.

Something apart from scripture that I "felt" or picked up on today was in the afternoon at the Safeway. This song came on and I saw gymnastics. It was this very slow long leg out to the back and then straight and coming up over the head, and a handstand while this one leg arched the back over in a perfect line, like on a balance beam but maybe it was floor. It was really beautiful. It was at the very beginning of this song, "A Little Too Late".
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mEgk2qM7kxU

I just looked up the song. It's by JoJo. I had to look it up bc I didn't know who sang it but right at the start of this song, I saw this incredible, beautiful, move by a woman. I am sure it was sent to me by a powerful sender bc I had no thoughts of gymnastics in my mind at ALL. It was just there, and I saw it, the whole movement, not a still. A moving action and just beautiful. She was incredibly flexible. I don't know the right words for dance and gymnastics but it was like ballet, as sophisticated and graceful but it was gymnastics. No one does this in ballet, well, maybe they do, but I haven't seen it. Maybe modern dance but it was so linear. So it was the ballet move sort of where the torso is forward, head up, arms both out to either side and one leg down and the other going straight back. But then this woman kept going, and kept arching, slowly, controlled, beautifully, and she took this leg straight up to the sky so one leg was skyward and the other planted and then kept going and leading with the skyward leg, arched, and arched and then, it was like a walkover, or whatever, not a back flip, but a very slowly and extremely flexible and gorgeous walkover and then bringing the whole body over, all in a line that was balance beam perfect. I guess in gymnastics, that's not a big deal, but when you see those women on those horses and they do this, some of them are so gifted it's like dancing or poetry and not just jumping around and stuff. I saw this in the first part of the song, before she even opens her mouth to sing. It was at the opening and BOOM. Right there. WOW. I don't mean wow symbolically, but like--HIT and TARGET. I think I saw someone who is Olympics qualified. She was good. Oh you know what is so weird?

I didn't think about it until now, but then I was enjoying the song and sniffing these Glade candles there in the store (one was an orange Hawaiian Breeze and the other a white French Vanilla). I was going to buy a candle and couldn't decide so standing there and trying to decide and then when no one was on either end of the aisle, after seeing this one woman with the walkover, I felt the dance and then put my left foot behind my other one and did a quick turn.

So now that I think about it, she and I were in sync or paralleling. We mirrored eachother, and now that I see this video, it makes sense with the mirror in it. My turn was a 360 turn just as this gymnasts turn was. Who WAS SHE???? Her leg went behind her too, propelling her over just as my foot went behind me propelling my body to turn.

It was the only thing I saw from her. Gorgeous long leg (I am not jealous of beautiful and talented women and I appreciate beauty) and beautiful move. SO I keep going on.

So anyway, I am a victim of mind control and tortured.

But that was a nice move that I saw from her and I don't know who projected it to me or sent it to me. It seemed like a pretty long leg. But some of these petite people seem longer for being leaner and sylph-like. It was a full-grown woman, and I think because she was so streamlined, that she must have been wearing form-fitting clothing. The leg was bare. So leotard or something. Maybe it could have been a girl, but it struck me as a woman. The arching was so impressive. And sort of like what you see on those horses that are up off the ground for gymnastics.

Then I decided I couldn't afford a candle right now and went with my roll of scotch shipping tape to the habaneros and picked out the largest habenero for my salsa.

I make a habanero salsa with pureed organic onion, water, habanero, and organic apple cider vinegar with the mother. I was just noticing today, for the first time, looking down on the top of it, it look like a pumpkin. ha. Maybe Cinderella's golden carriage was from a habanero OR a pumpkin. Not talking about myself but then thought about the fairytale and Disney movie and thought what a great twist. She rides off in a habanero pepper. I guess the Latin version could be either as they are fans of both pumpkins and habaneros. That would be a cool twist to rewrite a fairytale using different items. The mice are actually little groundhogs. They pop up their heads and the fairy godmother zaps 'em to be coachmen. If she's a wicked Cinderella, they're these slick little weasles called wasson. The Wasson. A hoarde of evil varmits that slink about in oily coats, looking furtively to the left and right. Is that not an excellent word for a group of a kind of species. It's like a movie. The Wasson. "Whaw-son". Once upon a time, in a far away land lived a small girl in a little house at the edge of a field where they were forced to live in fear of The Wasson. The sound is perfect for villians. It says Wasson is derived from Wasso, which means "Sharp". Exactly. Sharp as the blade of a knife. Villian.

I cannot wait until her time is up and the time is up for the criminals who have blackmailed and tortured my family.

At any rate, I wasn't being tortured until I mentioned her name and I already knew she was connected to people controlling things in D.C. Tagged and bagged Missus.

So anyway, music I liked tonight. I went for a quick sort of jog but not really bc my knee and back started to hurt. So I turned around and went back walking in to this great worship song on christian radio where I'd left it, to the far left of the dial and it was a song with the chorus "Oh how you love me; oh how you love me more".
I felt dance and drums. I played out the drums and then played it out for my Uncle Howard who passed away and for my son. Danced and played out pretend drums in a dance way. Thought of playing drums with my son and how my Uncle Howard played drums and I never knew this until after he'd passed away. Then I heard a song I loved! on classical station at about 8:30 p.m. Albert Mendal's (?) 4th and last Schubert impromptu #90. First time I've ever heard it and I loved it. The piano was just played to perfection at the end.

Then it was Josef Strauss's "Jockey Polka" which I thought was amusing and foot stomping. Then London Symphony's Yasef's #1 in G minor by Max Brugh but I wasn't absolutely thrown for it. Something not hitting me about it. But Greig, yes. It was Edvard Greig's 1st symphony (only one) and designated: never to be performed in 1867 and then they released it in 1981. There was one specific section that perked me up. If I heard it again I could pinpoint it. Just perking my ears. It was from Copenhagen by the danish neils gahda? and something about ockle kemnal? something like that.

Hmmm. Interesting history about this piece by Max Bruch:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Violin_Concerto_No._1_(Bruch)

It wasn't my favorite but I was curious about it and just looked it up and he was totally cheated out of his money and rights to be compensated for his original material. People were making money off of him. They made money off his original material and owed him royalties. But his family was taken advantage of because of the economic conditions. They owed him money and were using him and using his material and getting rich off of it themselves but didn't give him what he was worth and not even what was agreed on and they owed. Is that not incredible? his works were performed in major music halls and concerts and he ended up destitute because people got away with swindling him out of the money he was owed and deserved, and he didn't have financial means to take it to court.

Sounds a LOT like my own family actually.
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separate note. Commenting on google's cartoons, I have to admit, regardless of who does their cartoons, they actually have some really talented artists. I have been pretty impressed for a few years at what some of them turn out to be, really imaginative and creative. So I just had to say that because there have been a lot of them and some by different artists, but really, good quality of cartoon and artwork.

I sort of think of my Grandpa Garrett and honestly now, I don't even know how much about his own life was his choice at all. I mean, he made cartoons but my Dad has also written in journals not sounding like himself at all, but someone else and what someone else wants. I wonder if that is true of my Grandpa. You know what I think, I believe that he must have been an incredibly gifted psi person. I think he must have carried an enormous weight and burden and been highly and uniquely talented beyond what any of us will ever know. My feeling is that he must have been one of these early shining stars that shocked the daylights out of people with his predictive abilities and psi gifts. So they wanted to use his kids. And kill some of our family and him too, eventually because he knew too much and they were afraid of his power. So I think that when his brother was killed in Seattle--his brother the pilot, when he left the military to find out what happened, I think they were all scared to death because they already knew he was too good. He was good enough to already know and have figured out the crime with his abilities. So they set him up with jail and blackmail. No one in my family ever talked to me or suggested anything to me about govt. or military stuff. Ever. Not even giftedness or psi. I was never taught, trained or introduced--it was never discussed. Ever. The closest was hearing about charismatic gifts of the spirit, of prophecy and miracles and speaking in tongues, and word of knowledge...my family did not believe the spirit was "dead" but was current and through God, the gifts of God were active even in this day. There is nothing in my entire childhood that would ever make me think anything was different. There was nothing weird or unusual, extreme or oppressive or obsessive. Some outside of my family kept me down, I think we all were, but nothing in my family that stands out. The only thing that leads me to think of the CIA or military MK=ultra is when I was a kid in Moses Lake, one night I remember seeing all these bugs or spiders crawling over all of the walls in my room. So now as a kid I wonder if someone (not parents) slipped me something but no one used substances in my family. And I didn't like seeing patterns and shadows on my walls from cars passing by at nighttime because my imagination could think of scary monsters hiding in my closet or under my bed (took flying leaps to bed just in case someone or something was out there about to grab my ankles) and then some patterns on my wall I thought were scary. Like people look for shapes in clouds but at night, in the dark it was scarier. One single night, there were bugs or spiders all over the walls and I never forgot it. Not shadows, but like a drug-induced hallucination. I was conscious but that is what I saw. Yet my parents never did any drugs or substances or anything weird. Everything was pretty normal.

The Level: Karate Kid (me and my Dad)

2012-02-05T21:56:00.001-08:00

Something sparked my memory about a surveyor's tool my Dad used to use. And some Karate Kid stuff.

Just a random design of pills against a piece of trim sparked my memory.

Then I had to get more OTCs and picked some up and dropped them on the counter and it was weird. One of them broke away and went up to the edge, right on the other side of this one lone pill I had left up against the edge. Out of the entire room I had one pill out and up flush against the wall (it's a little closer to the wall than the other one because there was a piece of trim out at an angle and the green one is closer to the wall, even flush against the trim, than the red one). This other one rolled right over against the wall flush and about 1 foot away from the first pill. I know it sounds weird but I don't know. The first one was a round green pill and then the one that rolled over is a red round pill. Sort of brick red or muted. It makes me think of my duo cameras on my laptop, both round with one of them larger than the other. They are about the exact same size. I just looked more closely again and noticed there is one other item competing and it's a grain of wheat and to the far left. Grain, green pill, red pill. They are all the same distance from eachother. Anyway. Maybe I'll take a photo for novelty. The grain is closest to the wall and then the green pill and then the red pill.
I think it fell out when I was sunning my sprouts, the grain.

I guess I'll just put the photo of the pills here:

The green one doesn't look green there but it is. It's an echinachea tablet. The one to the right is an ibuprofen and then further to the left is the grain of wheat (you can't see it, but it's there to the further to the left of the echinacea). The pile of tablets is down on the bottom of the screen and that's where the one ibuprofen rolled out from. I took another photo that shows all three, with the grain, and then the pills, but it's not showing up yet in my files. It shows up but I can't post it yet. It shows how they are all exactly the same distance apart.

And I noticed these scratches on my hand after I put up the photo. They're from cleaning the yard up today--I had to get through the blackberries.

The trim is gold on the top. It sort of makes me think of one of those levelers used for construction with the bubbles inside that tell you if something is level or not. The trim is thinner, but the objects and their distance is the same as this leveler I liked in the 80s. My Dad had it for working around the house and I guess it was one of my favorite tools, liked watching how the bubbles moved for telling how even something was.

I am looking it up. It's called a level tool and sometimes builder's tool. The one he had was shaped like a ruler, but was filled with bubbles that moved to let you know how level something was. It was maybe 2 feet long which is sort of the length of this arrangment here. I think it was separated into sections too, but the bubble would move left or right or middle depending on where it was level. I loved that tool! It was like a Museum store or science store novelty but practical. Anyway, have no idea how I got onto that tangent. He might still have the same one. Will have to find out. I think it was yellow. I can't remember for sure, but I remember something being yellow about it.

I looked up wiki on "Spirit level". It's also called a spirit level. I don't remember him calling it that. It was "level" or surveyor's tool? and it wasn't the carpenter's level with sections going different ways. It was all one long thing and the bubble moved left or right down a rectangular thing. Not tubular, flat but a 1/2 inch to an inch thick. The fluid inside was yellow--the spirit. It had markings on the plexiglass all the way up and down. I can't remember the color of the frame but it was metal. My Dad would remember. I never personally used it, I just looked at it a lot while helping my Dad with projects or just to look at. I learned to use a hammer and screwdrivers when I was a kid. I helped on this one long project, holding plank after plank of wood still while my Dad cut it. Different sized boards and planks. My arms got very buff that summer. I held them still so he could cut through them evenly and straight, cutting through long vertical planks and boards. Then I watched him work, using the level. I did some hammering. He used a chainsaw. So since he was using a chainsaw and holding it, I had to keep the boards from moving around so they didn't move with the force from the chainsaw even though he usually brought the blade straight down onto the wood. We didn't have one of those chain machines where you feed the wood into it. He used a chainsaw for every single plank or stack of planks. It was a TON of wood.

I am telling you...a TON of WOOD. And I can't even remember what it was used for, I just remember it was hours and hours so how could I ever forget it my entire life? I could never forget it, of course not. It was burning hot too, and I sweated like the pig. I somehow don't think that is correct grammar ("I sweated like the pig") but I did. It was blazing hot out and I had streams of sweat coming off of my face and got very tanned and my arms were like steel--all muscle. My back got strong because of holding heavy lumber and then even my legs. It was a huge work-out.

Anyway, I was between 8-11. I think I helped on projects like this from 8-13 maybe. Later he got one of those round blades shaped like a semi circle with teeth that cut and he didn't need my help. I remember this because it was one of my primary chores for years and it was hours of work several times a week. Not every single day, but often. The work was all done out by the shop. I guess I refered to it as "shed" but it was "the shop". So he set up the sawhorse and then laid the planks over it (I think one of them with something balancing the other end) and I held them together. First he taught me to hold one still, perfectly still, while splitting it with the chainsaw. Then, he introduced 2 at a time, one stacked on top of the other one and it took a lot more muscle to hold these still and keep them together. If they slipped, he could get hurt, so it was really important and I remember, physically very strenuous for me.

I know it sounds like a joke to say it was a work-out, but it was. Between my doing this and pushing a very heavy steel electric push lawnmower, my arms and legs and even back and stomach were all lean muscle. I was always a skinny kid, but then I had lean muscle definition from the chores. The boards I remember holding together which were stacked were thicker, about 2 inches or a little less, thick, and as wide as 6 inches. Like a half foot across and then very long. There were other sized pieces too, but it was like wood for frames. Light to medium color. Usually it was in the morning early for several hours until lunch. The summers because we were out of school and had time.

So I pushed a steel electric push lawnmower, helped with a LOT of lumber project, including doing some hammering later but mainly holding it still while my Dad was hammering or splitting lumber. And then I weeded and picked berries and watered the garden. In my free time if I wasn't playing with kids next door, riding my bike with my brother, or walking to this Japanese man's grocery store (Frank's Superette), I was indoors reading books on my bed. We did a lot of swimming actually, every summer. Hours in the pool.

(While I still bought candy from Frank's Superette, I started out buying a little mini box and then thought, why not buy a whole box?! So with allowance money or money from my paper route when I was 11, I bought Whitmans, Queen Anne chocolate covered cherries, and Russel Stover boxes of chocolate for myself later. One box at a time of course--I got into it then, before I was 13 years old. I usually ate them all in one day while reading one book. I liked buttercreams, not the nuts and caramel. I liked Rolos, a caramel chocolate candy, but I never liked the caramels in the box and gave them away or they weren't first. I was so-so about nuts, not crazy about them. I liked toffee and buttercreams and solid chocolate. Then I found belgian chocolates and bought belgian chocolates with buttercream fillings and other kinds. The belgian chocolates I found were not just solid chocolate, though I may have tried that too. I first had a big box of belgian chocolate buttercreams. Much much later as an adult I got into truffles, but not as a kid. We always got red licorice vines for the movies, popcorn, and sometimes good n'plenties or raisonettes. Boxes of licorice vines were big in the 90s, along with popcorn, if we went out to movies. Otherwise, there was usually no candy in the house save lifesavers/breathmints and chocolate chips for cookies. That was it. We didn't always have cookies or cake or dessert. Later we had dessert sometimes but not growing up.)

I remember someone on the East Coast at The Post Pub bringing in a box of caramels with and without nuts and it was like this big deal, or a big inside joke. They assumed I wanted caramels with nuts. I wasn't going to turn it down for sure and just nodded or said yes not to make a big deal about it. I like them now more than I used to, but that wasn't my preference. My preference was always buttercreams, different flavored buttercreams and toffee. Milk chocolate for me, but I didn't turn down dark chocolate. Now, I like dark as well. Also, as an adult(over the age of 21) I liked this polar bear (?) paw chocolate (turtle) from Sees that was white chocolate over caramel nougat with nuts, and then I got buttercreams but I never loved Sees after having had belgian buttercreams as a kid. They were my choice (the belgians). If I'd known about truffles, I would have been thrilled but I don't remember seeing such a thing back then. The belgian buttercreams were lemon, strawberry, orange, fruit kinds, coffee, and then rum flavored and different chocolate liquor flavors. My mother was the one who liked the caramels. To me, as a kid, Rolos were okay but I didn't feel like gnawing on a rock hard square of caramel from the boxed variety and I usually gave them to my Mom. After I moved out of the house, when I was 21 I made popcorn balls or crunch with a kind of caramel/toffee but I never got caramels for myself. My Dad got them all the time and gave us some. And we had whoppers malt chocolate and m&ms.) I just wrote a lot about candy. That was a tangent but at least I wrote something new that the people in D.C. thought they knew but didn't know. I was just talking about it recently with my Mom and she nodded because she remembers. I brought it up, saying these people on the East Coast assumed I liked caramels but I had always prefered buttercreams. She remembers. The only time I was into nuts was for pralines and cream ice cream or almond roca.

I look back on it now and it was definitely like Karate Kid, with the Japanese guy at the grocery where I bought candy (the only international person in the whole town to my way of thinking, besides some hispanics but I didn't think they were international bc my cousins were half-Mexican so I never thought about it). Yeah, splitting wood and building muscle and balance and Japanese grocery store. I bought all kinds of candy but always bought some Japanese candy too, the kind with pectin and then rice paper that was wrapped around it and melted in your mouth. They had stickers in every package. I actually think all of this was going on before the movie Karate Kid was even made. And then it was a big deal when it was out and we all watched it in Moses Lake. And then the next one. I told my mom please don't let Levi see anymore Karate Kid or Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles cartoons.

(First we agreed on the same cartoons and then he wanted to watch He-man and Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles and Transformers all the time and I wanted to watch Smurfs, Alvin & The Chipmunks, and that was about it for me. I didn't care for most of the cartoons. I liked the two I mentioned, and Jetsons a lot because it was imaginative, and Gilligan's Island (imaginative), and then classic cartoons like Tom & Jerry, Warner's Brother's cartoons. I remember I didn't care for the artistry of most cartoons, or content. I was picky about it and we only had one hour each to watch cartoons on Saturday anyway.)

But yes, my Dad split wood with the chainsaw and me holding the boards still. I think he maybe split firewood for camping or the fireplace at our house too but I didn't have to help with that. We had a fireplace in Moses Lake at this time and I loved the fire.

But it was like Karate Kid. Never thought of it that way until tonight, but that's what it was like. We cut all the boards right in the middle, in half. (Go to the middle, get SQUASHED). I think I will make this a separate post bc it has nothing to do with "malicious hacking". My job was to hold the boards straight and keep them from moving. Hold the line in a figurative way. Now I can think of symbolism but I didn't then.

I think he enjoyed my company and having me out there helping but then came the semi-circle saw with teeth. Kind of looked like a swordfish. I didn't help him anymore. I think I did help receive them on the other end. He fed them through and then I was on the other end, picking them up and stacking them.

I know some of the boards were used for our fence around the property and there was acreage, and then he build his own "shed" which was sort of an insulated music studio basically. Inside, all kinds of musical instruments, music, mics, recording systems, everything and he played it very loud. He had a baby grand out there at one point, along with electric keyboard, and mics, speakers, everything.

Photo Evidence of Lasered Hand (2 spots on rt. hand)

2012-02-05T20:14:00.000-08:00

This is of my hand how it is today. The blistering went away and peeling and now it's just red. Also note my eyes because one is droopy which means I'm medicated without my consent and I can tell anyway.

I know my mother has also been medicated because one of her real estate cards has her eye doing the same thing and she's been forced to do things and take things, or been exposed to things, that she didn't want. Just like my Dad.

So this is my cobalt blue jacket but it looks more very dark navy blue there. It's sort of well, it's bright navy actually, not cobalt. Bright medium navy blue and then has a turquoise trim and I wore white and navy and then my red and black plaid pj bottoms neath my jeans bc it is still cold and these are GREAT thermals.

This is the same me and I still have the same dark circles under my eyes, but I used concealer so you can't tell. I look pretty healthy but cameras lie.