Thursday, August 26, 2010

cooking and song "on christ the solid rock i stand"

sleepless in wenatchee last two days or 3 but i think i'll sleep tonight.****
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The song that came to mind tonight on the way to church for a bible study (mainly i wanted to go for prayer too) was this refrain: "...my hope is built on nothing less, than jesus and his righteousness" and then the other part was "how precious is that flow that makes me white as snow".

I didn't realize I was combining two different hymns, but I sang this quietly to myself and had it in mind the whole way. the tune which was first in mind was "my hope is built on nothing less" nand this is from "on christ the solid rock i stand, all other ground is sinking sand, all other ground is sinking sand."

I figured someone probably sang this today in a church service or in their personal devotions.
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then, i had this song, my own little combo, the whole way and then i got to church and there was a slide show of siberia with a baptism in the snow, sort of fit the song actually.

i felt fine and then a gradual sadness and then deep sadness or depth and then it all lifted. i figured maybe it was my son's bedtime and he missed me.
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i did a lot of cooking today. i did a lot of cleaning and cooking. i was first going to sautee some mushrooms and onions and i ended up cutting up the zuchinni too and then even getting into slicing up the banana squash.

i had very good results today with my impromtu dash-this-and-that cooking. i used garlic powder, a very minute amount of cumin, melted margarine, freshly ground pepper, (no salt needed with melted marg), and then i had no vinegar anywhere so i used just a few tablespoons of pickle juice and then just a tablespoon about of apple juice for a natural sweetener and then some parmesean. that was for the onions, green pepper, shrooms, and zuch.

for the squash...amazing...big surprise for me and housemates. it was so so good. i mean, yummy. i put in a lot of apple juice for the squash sautee. a little bit of pickle juice. then a touch of garlic but heavy on the cumin. the cumin with black pepper with the apple juice...it was SOO GOOD. of course i didn't tell anyone about the apple juice and pickle juice until after they ate it, bc i thought it might scare them off.

then i found cherries in the fridge and they were slightly hard but not bad and i made a cherry sauce. just cherries, water, and sugar actually, and boiled until the pits came out and I mashed and strained for vanilla ice cream topping.

then i saw these tomatoes getting ripe and decided to make a fresh spaghetti sauce. i had already made rice to go with the sauteed stuff. so i threw these really good, fresh, garden ripened beefsteak tomatoes and cut out any small slighted spots, and then threw them in the pot with a little water. then a ton of garlic powder, and oh! i forgot, i added a couple of red chili peppers to the sautee but then removed them and used them for the spaghetti. then i added pickle juice and apple juice and freshly ground pepper, and then celery salt. i had a tiny bit too much celery salt and when i added the apple juice, it mellowed it out. i first sauteed onions, and green peppers and then added them to the fresh tomatoes and then i took out the peeling when it was coming off the tomatoes. it turned out to be reeally, really good and then i added a can of hunts meat tomatoe sauce just for a little bulk or as a thickener and it was okay, as it was only a third of the volume. then housemates added ground beef later but i liked it even veggie.

and i made spaghetti noodles until they were sticking on the fridge.

so i made a lot of things and cleaned and organized cupboards and threw stuff out and also cut some branches and flowers for a small bouquet.

they wanted me to stop and walk for a latte but i said, "i can't. i have a bee in my bonnet." funny thing is, there was a yellow jacket at the window and then this other housemate later uncovered a whole roost of bees nearby buzzing.
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wondered about the egyptian drawings and hiros and deities or mummies or artifacts today. who was looking at this stuff? i saw them as pages turned almost or someone walking through a room, first the drawings and then the other stuff which i have never personally seen in any house or building.
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no big images today because so preoccupied, however i thought someone could maybe now what i was doing, but i wasn't doing the two-way CB. i was pretty much blanking out as i cooked and cleaned and listened to music on the radio. i did think about a certain scripture that i'd read the day before a few times.
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thought about my son and sent messages to him of love and how much i love him, while i was at church. and i prayed for him to know some things.

and then i prayed too for the speaker to be able to deliver a message that was outstanding and maybe not even what he or anyone planned, but that the words would flow for him. and then...that was about it. just focused on this and on the holy spirit blessing people there to receive what was said. all good things.

the egyptian cat image & no porn, sorry

I had an image of an egyptian or some kind of golden cat art. It was last night beforre it was dark and I am sure someone sent it to me or was an impression on purpose.

Then I was hanging out with real cats, that night, but no different from usual because I was outside reading and they were all there.

I was in the shower, not thinking about anything at all really, and this picture came into focus and I wasn't even trying to ge an image or picture. I wasn't in prayer or asking God to show me anything,, just idly thinking.

I did think about how people must think I have looked through this one porn magazine that belonged to someone and was lying around bc of some of the odd behavior I saw yesterday, but I never did and never have. I feel it would mess with my chi, although I briefly considered it, wondering if my impression would throw some remote viewer, esp. male, off-balance. I sort of asked God and God said no, so I didn't look, not even to maybe experiment by throwing someone else off. I was informed not to do it by God and I am not going to mess with that if I get an order. The reason I think this is because this woman has a dinstinct blush and make-up thing on the cover (just saw cover) and then all these women came in like that, and then so many odd gestures, I just figured there must be something in the magazine that someone is trying to imitate, thinking I have looked at it, and then wanting to psych me out. Expressions like men and women doing really weird things with their tongues, in a sensual way, with these provocative looks, and for absolutely no reason other than, obviously, someone thinks they can psych me out and they don't.

But no, I have never looked at it. Ever. So your time has been wasted.

As for the eyptian cat thing, it wasn't like something I couldn't control at all. It was more like I was being allowed to see what someone was hoping to manipulate themselves, whether they wanted me to see it or not I don't know, but I saw what someone else was going to.

It looked like a mummy almost, with the gold and the dark outlined cat eyes and then I realized it's art.

It actually crossed my mind that possibly it's something that the Egyptian art museum, where the Van Gogh was taken, might house. I don't know.

Or it could have been something from a book, or even a mask, or someone invoking some kind of cat spell and hoping that this would work and I happened to see it.

But it was fuzzy at first or sort of cloudy and just colors of gold and black and other Eygyptian motif and I sort of scanned different things first. I saw different things andthen my gaze, or mind's eye, settled on one object. It made me think about Eygpt, cats, and Cleopatra. Almost looked like different drawings or hiroglyphics (sp?) and then I saw something in almost a full-dimensional way, like I was standing in front of it and it was the face of a mummy or some kind of cat thing and was gold with very thick black lines around it and that's when I got cat and then immediately thought maybe someone was trying to do something and I saw this.

Just like when I had to go through purple or what I later thought was maybe purple quartz.

But, if it wasn't intentional, I might have a mind's eye into a museum, or the eyes of another sometimes.

I could have shut it out and shut it off, it was my choice to either see it or not.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

impressions: vladdie miss and rock climbing hit

1 impression.

i felt like getting a hamburger at mcds. then i thought, "oh, i'll be vladdie laddie is there." but he might not be. i think he's more of a night shift person. i still have this feeling he's at mcdonalds right now.

i just called mcdonalds to check and no he's not! i am wrong. it's 4:10 p.m. and i am wrong. good to know for deciphering why he would come to mind then, if he's not there.

i guessed something right about the man whose cell phone i used though. i don't know hiim and asked to borrow it and he handed it to me and then i said, "do you do rock climbing?" and he said yes and acted weird and said, "how did you know?"and i said, "your arms."

how would i know just by arms though? i don't know. plenty of people have strong arms. that doesn't mean they do any rock climbing. he didn't have anything on that suggested rock climbing either. but i got that right.

the other day i met a man for the very first time and i got "music" and he wanted to know how i knew. i didn't. it just came to mind strongly, right away. music. so then i was told he's heavily into music. i didn't ask any further bc i felt it was right and didn't need to clarify more.

so i'm wondering about vladdie. did he just come to mind bc i thought about hamburger? bc i was thinking about going to mcdonalds? or is he, was he getting ready to go to mcd's? or should i try harder for a better impression?

i just tried briefly, to find out and he must have a very good psychic shield up right now. i get nothing. yeah. i tried for just a few minutes, and nothing. i get various things which means it's all just my imagination and that "mental noise". stuff about him jogging or on a treadmill which i don't really see him on a treadmill ever, and reading comic books, and thinking about rocket science stuff and being in a car with friends joking around laughing. all of it, just normal stuff someone would imagine, with normal imagination. something about pulling a thread maybe or string. like pulling something taught just fidgeting. and what is a cherry bomb?

i think cherry bomb is something that came to my mind that has nothing to do with vladdie-laddie. probably, cherry bomb is from way back when bc i think they were outlawed and yet maybe i saw this kind of firecracker anyway, when i was a kid. oh! it's also a movie, a film, and the name of a popular wrestler.

i've met some wrestlers who are into wwf so that's probably it.

okay. that's it.

the "Cherrybomb" movie is from the UK and is being released on DVD August 23, 2010, so that was 2 days ago. Between "Cherrybomb" and "the barbie" I am thinking there are englishmun or uk-ers or aussies afoot. If this is from afar, i'm even more pissed. I should be informed. This requires informed consent man.

anyway, i am just joking around.

oh, but i was thinking, that probably, my guess is that the leaning back into an x shape was maybe just someone stretching from their chair, and putting their arms out to the sides in a stretch.

The Ear Pulling & Other Eccentricities of Wenatchee

Ever since I posted on my blog, something about human behavior and psychology and non-verbal communication, some of these idiots over here, have been practically masturbating, stroking their own ears ad naseum, as if I would think they are signaling an attraction to me.

I sometimes really wonder about the people here. I mean, scale of 1-10, how mentally ill and sadistic are they?

Someone, for example, told Michelle Erickson to do this while she was on the stand, and she sat up there, stroking and pulling on her ear almost all fucking day.

As if I'm such an idiot and not psychic at all, and cannot tell the real thing from a fucking fake.

You can pull whatever kind of tricks you like, and I am still not fooled or misled, ever. I may lead you to believe you have misled me or misdirected me, but that does not mean that I am not clued into exactly what you are thinking and why you are doing what you're doing.

So my tip and word of advice is to not make fools of yourselves. No one, not even a flaming lesbian, tugs on and strokes their ear, several days in a row, for hours. Or even for a few minutes, actually, without my knowing exactly what is going on.

I am not sure what the point is. Distraction? to make me think someone is gay when they're not or attracted to me so that is...what? supposed to...cause me to make either a false call on something or just try to conceal the real personality in general?

It's stupid.

Whoever told you to do it got my attention, and the attention was that this person is foolish and making me think the town is run by RugRats.

WA B36077

i think this is one, if this is a truck. harasser. dark haired man. something stood out about him, but that's if i got that plate right and it ends up being a regular sized truck.

impressions (quickly) & "not alone" reconciliation (god)

I was making my report and then pulled out a Bible for a passage randomly first, before I started. I got II Corin. 5:18-21 which is about reconciliation.

So I added it to my report and then started off and little did i know, at the same time, this woman was unwrapping a magazine for this month, which came in today's mail, and it had a poem in it about reconciliation which perfectly fits.

I wrote about reconciliation with my child.

This poem is about reconciliation of a child with the heavenly father.

The passage in the bible is about reconciliation of the new person to God.

I'm not kidding. I got this scripture and included it in my report to the President, the AG of the U.S. and the OPR, and then wrote about reconciliation of a child with their mother. I only took the first verse that I got and I didn't know why I got it but that's how I made it fit. Then I got back from break and this woman showed me the magazine, which is Christian Science Sentinel, september 6, 2010 edition and the poem is on pg. 19, called "Hand in Hand" by Caroline Martin.

Super uncanny.

What's even stranger is that she was literally unwrapping this magazine when I randomly got this verse.

I guess, because it's so strange, I'll write it out quickly:

First the scripture I got and then my short saying in my report and then the poem she showed me.

Well, I guess I'll just include what I wrote in my complaint before I left to take a break bc of anxiety and then this poem next, which is next to an article about, of all things, stress.

"Before I began writing, I turned to the Bible and asked God for wisdom in making this complaint, and I opened at random to this passage, II Corin. 5:18-20, which is how I would like to begin my complaint:

"...And all things are of God , who hath reconciled us to himself by Jesus Christ, and hath given to us the ministry of reconciliation; to wit, that God was in Christ, reconciling the world unto himself, not imputing their trespasses unto them; and hath committed unto us the word of reconciliation. Now then we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God did beseech you by us: we pray you in Christ's stead, be ye reconciled to God."

"My petition is for the reconciliation of a mother and child who should not have been separated to begin with, least of all through criminal means. I also pray for reconciliation of those who have acted as my adversary, and for a reconciliation with God to the calling he gave others, not for their own good alone, but in service of others by truth, regardless of the sacrifice."

So this is what I wrote in my complaint, regarding reconciliation and then this is the poem:

Hand in Hand
My Father softly called to me
As I was rushing out the door,
"Won't you stay beside Me
For just a minute more?
You have grown so weary
Amidst life's push and pull,
I long to put My hand in yours,
But yours are always full."

I stood quite still and felt within
A warmth of long ago,
A quiet voice reminding me
That I am not alone.
I dropped my burdens one by one
And closed my tear-filled eyes.
Then hand in hand we stood
once more,
My father and His child.

--Caroline Martin
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So I thought this was sort of incredible. I wouldn't start out any report with a verse, either, unless I felt there was a reason for it, and I did, so I included it, because I believe what has been done to me and my son is contrary to the Will of God and that I should do as I feel led to do in making my report.
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Then, I had bought truffles for the first time ever in this town and knew I wanted to give one to this woman and let her choose and I thought which one she should take after she said she didn't care and then she said that one which I thought she might have.
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then, i randly got something about "the barbie"
I thought, "what's a barbie? like slang for what again? something to do with the barbie"
and then found it's a BBQ
It was about 2:35 or 2:40 p.m. when I got something about "the barbie"
must be an englishmun or australian in town, or a cockney american. or SOMETHING.

Attorney General Rob McKenna's Asinine and Self-Protective Idea

How convenient.

As I am preparing to report the Washington State Attorney General's office to the D.C. Office of Professional Responsibility for gross abuses, the man in charge, Rob McKenna, hastily tries to change the law before his offices are slammed with not just allegations of criminal conduct, but a civil lawsuit upwards of many millions as well.

This state is CORRUPT and partly, because of Rob McKenna and those in charge of supervising the direction of this state. They do NOT deserve to win immunity for their actions when I have heard from so many people about what kind of abuse they have endured by State officials, who should be held accountable.

This State has had a record number of incidents involving their employees and corruption and it has mainly affected the poor and vulnerable, however, it doesn't only affect them but also affects the middle class as well. When the middle class is having to pay out of pocket to try to assist their poorer relatives or friends, and protect them against abuses the State has created, it creates a "deficit" in the pockets of the normal citizen. The State partially creates the problem to begin with, in order to keep their jobs and give an excuse for their lack of income and then, they want to be immune from abusing their authority?

NO WAY.

The State has far more power than any citizen who is attempting to hold them accountable and then McKenna whines about "abusive lawsuits" as if it's the poor and middle class that are abusing THEM and not the other way around. This State has been incredibly irresponsible with the power their officials and employees hold already, and then they want to be protected from being sued for these abuses.

I think Mr. McKenna and the AG offices may have figured out that not only do they have a massive problem with me alone and the allegations I can bring against the State, but that there are grounds for a massive

CLASS ACTION lawsuit

and I would say there are grounds for more than ONE.

The State officials of Washington are directly connected to by persons who have illicit businesses and they have gotten away with being sponsored by those who have the most money and most clout for intimidation.

The elected State officials of Washington state are not representative of the Washington public either. Which would explain why a disproportionate number of persons are targeted who do not have those immediate and necessary ties.

Giving the State of Washington more immunity and protection, as they continue to abuse their authority, is not in the best interests of the public and how DARE the Attorney General's offices, who are supposed to be keeping the PUBLIC INTERESTS in mind, even suggest such an idea?

Right there, the fact that the AG is trying to act in its own interests and in the interests of the most monied who put them into their positions of power, is a demonstration and evidence of how corrupt they are.

It does not serve the PUBLIC interest and this is the OFFICE that is supposed to care MOST about the whole public interest, and which is supposed to promote equality among all, and not just the elected officials and their own jobs and the jobs of their friends.

This is quickly becoming one of the most plutocratic states in The United States of America. Washington has, over and over, passed laws which benefit the RICH and not the middle class or poor. Repeatedly.

McKenna claims that Washington state is "unique" because it doesn't have "sovereign immunity" and acts as though Washington employees and rich are victims when in actuality, this state has consistently passed more laws that protect the rich, than I can even count.

Where was the AG when lobbyists decided to "reform" Bankruptcy laws?

Guess what? those reforms benefited insurance companies. The reforms were not in the best interest of the public. Not one reform was made that greatly affected any of the corporations, who file for bankrtupcy, when they do, under other bankruptcy codes. The "reforms" targeted poor and middle class, and made it more difficult for those people to get out of debt. Where was the AG, in protecting the best interests of the public? when insurance companies and medical facilities were being protected, and large lenders and banks were being protected, the poor and middle class got screwed.

Where was the AG when the state of Washington allowed lobbyists to bully a law into place which made it impossible to sue doctors, medical facilities , and insurance companies, for "punitive damages" when the negligence was bad enough? The State of Washington took the power of the hands of the jury, the common people, to make awards to victims that were to serve as a cautionary tale others in medical practice, to not abuse the trust of the vulnerable, or the patient. Punitive damages were not won for no reason, a jury had to determine there was a very serious incident which usually also involved a great cover-up, and therefore, a large sum should be awarded, to act as a "punishment" for how bad the conduct was. It was protective of the public interest because doctors and medical facilities were on notice that if they did something wrong, they would pay for it. Canceling this right of the jury, was protective of insurance companies and medical persons, who in this state would comprise some of the upper class. It did not benefit and protect the general public. So where was the AG?

These are just 2 examples of laws which Washington state's powerful officials and lobbyists, put into place, which did not serve the public good and only protected themselves, those who put them in their positions and paid all the election fees, and then those fringe rich or some upper class.

I only glanced at the headline and read the first two lines of McKenna's obituary before "immunity" came to mind, and then halfway through my post here, I went back and read the actual commentary. He referred to the elimination of "sovereign immunity" that was done away with in 1961.

It's because we're not in the 50s anymore, Washington--i.e, McKenna and AG, and Gregoire, and maybe Bill Gates. People have rights now. The Civil Rights era was en force in 1961 and thank God some good people rallied for the rights of the people and not the corporate and state assholes.

But now, after being the Goliath and gaining power through sheer authority and numbers and from certain benefactors, you want to take all of Washington state back to Beaver Cleaver and put the woman in the kitchen, and the niggars and beaners and white trash (see end note) in the kitchen, and make the State "sovereign" as if it's a middle-ages King of all. It's bad enough that some Judges get a special "immunity".

Did I ever mention I want my kid back?

You don't get fucking "immunity" for illegally kidnapping a child from his mother and colluding with others to do so and then allowing for his trauma and distress for a couple of years as you deprive a mother of her right to even fucking due process.

Touch NOT the fucking cat.
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I just went to the AG site with Rob McKenna. I like how he reworded his "idea" (promoted by not just him but a group of colleagues), to make it sound as though his idea is to protect the "taxpayers" against abusive lawsuits.

Nice switcharoo.

Now he wants Washington taxpayers to think that THEY would be the ones being sued, not those who might be ABUSING them. And THIS is the Attorney General??? this is the person who is supposed to represent the whole of Washington state.

He is claiming taxpayers will have something to worry about, just to stir up support by taxpayers, so that they will agree with some law which would cover HIS fancy ass. And I like the way "fancy" and "ass" go together, in sound.

Seriously, I look at "ads" like that, which are on his website and I think this is so self-promulgating and so NOT in Washington's best interests, why in the HELL is this man in his position? It's a fucking ad, and he is abusing his own authority to spread fraudulent advertising. And THIS is the man who is heading up the Attorney General's offices in Washington state.

No wonder everyone on the East Coast and internationally, said I was totally screwed.

This is the kind of man who is going to reward and encourage Michelle Erickson's and Jennifer Godfrey's and AGs who lie and try to cover up wrongdoing. And I didn't even think about him, not at all, until he posted his asinine propoganda in the Seattle Times and on his own website, which, Mr. McKenna, is NOT your personal BLOG.

Sign up for a blogger account McKenna.

I think it's even more bizarre that he just pops out with this stuff day or two after I start making phone calls and send emails to the right place and he realizes his ASS and his AG's ASSes are on the line.

He doesn't even write a clear obituary, or I guess it's called an editorial. It's like he came up with this grand idea REAL fast, better start slapping some publicity around even if it doesn't make sense, because SHIT, the dam might fucking break.

If you read it, in today's Seattle Times, he goes from talking about some forged $13 check to a car accident and expects everyone to draw the corrollary.

Then he claims he wants to save taxpayers money and find ways to cut down on the "deficit" when he then abuses the State forum and website to post fraudulent ads about how not suing the State is going to save the citizens money. Explain that one please.

From what I have been told, what happened with my son didn't just involve the local law enforcement. It involved the Seattle FBI, the Department of State (who were later all over me when I broke up with my Ex and scouting the situation out), and the AGs offices. And that's not including the other offices who have government employees who are just corrupt.