McDonalds is calling me.
Darn!
I'm not done with my research. McDonalds will have to wait.
Friday, February 18, 2011
Public Corruption: FBI definition (by Mr. St. Patrick)
I'm going to post what the FBI's own words and definition on public corruption are.
And then I'm going to send them my report to investigate and have my son immediately turned over to his rightful guardian.
Here's the link which they use to claim Public Corruption is their "top priority":
http://www.fbi.gov/about-us/investigate/corruption
Why? Because it affects everything.
Here is the link where they describe how this is a top priority, and why, and gives a brief description:
http://www.fbi.gov/news/stories/2010/march/corruption_032610
I am going to cut and paste some of it right here so people don't even have to look it up:Home • News • Stories • 2010 • March • Public Corruption: Our Top Criminal Priority
Info
Public Corruption a Top Priority
— filed under: Public Corruption Stories, Public Corruption
Public Corruption
Why It’s Our #1 Criminal Priority
03/26/10
Public corruption is a breach of trust by federal, state, or local officials—often with the help of private sector accomplices. It’s also the FBI’s top criminal investigative priority. To explain why the Bureau takes public corruption so seriously and how we investigate, we talked with Special Agent Patrick Bohrer, assistant section chief of our Public Corruption/Civil Rights program at FBI Headquarters.
Question: Why is public corruption so high on the FBI’s list of investigative priorities?
Answer: Because of its impact. Corrupt public officials undermine our country’s national security, our overall safety, the public trust, and confidence in the U.S. government, wasting billions of dollars along the way. This corruption can tarnish virtually every aspect of society. For example, a border official might take a bribe, knowingly or unknowingly letting in a truck containing weapons of mass destruction. Or corrupt state legislators could cast deciding votes on a bill providing funding or other benefits to a company for the wrong reasons. Or at the local level, a building inspector might be paid to overlook some bad wiring, which could cause a deadly fire down the road.
Special Agent Patrick Bohrer
Q: Can you describe the kinds of public corruption that the FBI investigates?
A: It really runs the gamut. Bribery is the most common. But there’s also extortion, embezzlement, racketeering, kickbacks, and money laundering, as well as wire, mail, bank, and tax fraud. Right now, based on our intelligence on emerging trends, we are focused specifically on several major issues: corruption along our national borders; corrupt officials who take advantage of natural disasters or economic crises to divert some of the government’s aid into their own pockets; and a myriad of officials who may personally benefit from the economic stimulus funding.
Q: Where do you find this corruption?
A: Just about everywhere—at the federal, state, and local levels throughout the country. And I should point out, the vast majority of our country’s public officials are honest and work hard to improve the lives of the American people. But a small number make decisions for the wrong reasons—usually, to line their own pockets or those of friends and family. These people can be found—and have been found—in legislatures, courts, city halls, law enforcement departments, school and zoning boards, government agencies of all kinds (including those that regulate elections and transportation), and even companies that do business with government.
Q: How does the FBI investigate public corruption?
A: We’re in a unique position to investigate allegations of public corruption. Our lawful use of sophisticated investigative tools and methods—like undercover operations, court-authorized electronic surveillance, and informants—often gives us a front-row seat to witness the actual exchange of bribe money or a backroom handshake that seals an illegal deal…and enough evidence to send the culprits to prison. But we have plenty of help. We often work in conjunction with the inspector general offices from various federal agencies, as well as with our state and local partners. And we depend greatly on assistance from the public. So let me end by saying, if anyone out there has any information about potential wrongdoing by a public official, please submit a tip online or contact your local FBI field office. Your help really makes a difference.
Resource:
- Public corruption
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What I find interesting is that this article was written in March of 2010 which is when my rights were terminated on "St. Patricks Day". The agent featured in this article is named Patrick.
Is Patrick a liason to the public or a problem?
To me it's almost a sick joke that while someone named Patrick wrote an article about public corruption being top priority, in MARCH of 2010, I was being handed termination of my rights on St. Patrick's Day, in 2010, at the very same time. It looks like a sick joke to me. And then I was being served with some guy wearing a T-shirt that said "truth" on it with a big cross. Really lovely display.
I was served on March 17th, 2010. "Patrick" wrote his article on March 23, 2010.
And what has happened since? I've been blocked by the FBI, from making my report of public corruption and told to go to a hospital that had people who then sent me to a mental ward to be assaulted.
If the FBI is not guilty of public corruption itself, it will investigate what it says it investigates. And it will make MY son a "top priority".
Patrick Boher is the assistant section chief at the FBI headquarters in D.C., for the "Public Corruption" department.
Something is really starting to stink.
According to Patrick, the FBI can investigate ANY kind of public corruption. Not just bribes. They, according to him, investigate use of monies to profit pockets on an interstate level, and this is RICO. CPS actions fit the definition of RICO. They took federal money and used it to profit themselves financially, and committed crime of obstruction of justice and collusion to set me up for arrest. There were bribes in my case, I just can't prove it. But I can prove a lot of other things.
The FBI in Nashville tried to say, "We don't investigate this kind of thing" and I am looking up all the definitions of what they DO investigate before I make a point of showing Knoxville what's going on and how it needs to be investigated.
If Nashville was being blocked, maybe we can look at Patrick and find out what organizations he belongs to and if the pot is calling the kettle black (so to speak).
CPS committed racketeering and fraud.
CPS committed obstruction of justice: destruction of evidence and omission of evidence.
CPS committed fraud by claiming they had a right to contact Canada about me when they had no right. CPS had no case against me and no new report was made. There was no investigation. CPS had no authority to jump at me after I left the country. They defrauded Canadians by defaming me and claiming they had authority they did not have.
CPS defrauded the public by taking and using public monies to pad their own checks and give them work to do, by claiming they were using federal money for a state case against me. They had no case. They then spent more money on MY case than any other case in the history of CPS. All, to profit the AG and workers involved and using public taxpayer money. I never saw a penny of it and I never saw any of it go to any decent public defense lawyer for me or my son. We were forced to go without if we didn't go along with a lie.
CPS committed racketeering by use of federal money that was sent from the East Coast to the West Coast, to pay for this case, which never should have happened. The money was received by mail or wire and crossed state lines and was used not for the purpose intended but to discriminate against me, harass and abuse me and my son, and to defraud the public and give them work.
CPS deliberately set me up and conspired with certain Canadians, to have me arrested in Canada.
I don't know what the technical or legal word for this is yet.
If it applies to a regular citizen, who decides to stage something and have someone arrested when they didn't do anything wrong, what is it called? What crime is committed?
Is it fraud? because of false claims and allegations? In some cases it's blackmail but they didn't consult me on the matter except to try to intimidate and pressure me to voluntarily leave Canada when I had a right to be there.
When I didn't go voluntarily, when I was legally there, they had me jailed on false charges. In a way, that was almost blackmail or coercion. "If you don't leave on your own, we'll find a way to get you out."
I just talked to someone with the police department and they said if someone tried to set another person up for a crime they didn't commit, they thought it was "Fraud".
This is what I think it falls under as well. So that would mean CPS also committed fraud by colluding with others to lie and claim I did something illegal and the fact that they engaged others is conspiracy or collusion to commit a crime (of fraud). This would also include collusion to commit the crime of kidnapping.
My son was kidnapped from me by fraudulent means.
The only reason the FBI wouldn't want to investigate this is if THEY had something to do with it and in that case, if some of them have something to HIDE, they wouldn't want anyone to investigate what really went down.
Let's see what the FBI definitions for "Fraud" and "Conspiracy" and "Kidnapping" are.
I called the D.C. headquarters and was transfered to the "Public Corruption" voicemail. I left a message with my phone number, asking someone to call me to let me know who the director of this department is. I tried to find it online and can't find it. I know Patrick is some kind of assistant chief but I want to know who the director for this unit is.
My report is going there.
Nashville was talking to, or going to, D.C. anyway, and then they had a part in my defamed to a nuthouse where I was assaulted. So I will send my report to Knoxville and D.C., in writing, and if they choose not to take action, I will then take proof of my mailing to the AG Holder's offices and copy the President of the U.S. and some of Bush's people.
The U.S. has the authority and obligation to demand answers, to investigate, and to return my son, who is a victim of crime. I have a right to have my son returned to me without further delay.
I do not have to go through an appeals process where the criminal aspects are not even looked at or address. There is NO "civil case" against me when crime was committed to get a fraudulent case set up against me to begin with.
It's GARBAGE.
I do not need "services" and govt. workers cannot require services for something they put into place by criminal and fraudulent means to begin with.
Jumping through hoops? on appeals? for WHAT? I am jumping through imaginary hoops that CPS set up to look real.
THEY are the criminals. THEY are the ones in need of services. I believe they should not be employed without services and all of them need psych evals. Actually, scrap that. They just need to be thrown out. I wouldn't give them any chances. They had a ton of chances with me and they blew every single one. They need to be out of there.
I would go through this set up "appeals" process for what? to be told they did something wrong legally on a legal point and that I need to go back and do "services" and THEY have to give ME another "chance?"
THEY are not giving ME the chances. I don't need any "chances" and I don't need ANY of their "services". I was the one giving them CHANCES and they blew it.
THEY took my son illegally and committed fraud. Then they spent millions keeping me down and covering up what they had done, all at taxpayer expense.
THEN, the federal government actually goes in and signs a new treaty on MY BIRTHDAY, about transfer of children from other countries, because they KNEW they screwed up and didn't have it in place and they used MY BIRTHDAY for this.
All the while, the clock is ticking on MY SON's statute of limitations for medical malpractice.
They have colluded to string this out to keep me from being the legal guardian with authority to file a medical malpractice suit on behalf of my son.
This benefits insurance companies and medical professionals who have lied about me from the first day, and their lawyers as well.
My son is almost 5 years old. These people stole 3 1/2 years of my life and his life from me, and paved the way for others to slide into positions they had no right to take.
I was told kids have a statute of limitations of about 7 years but from what I'm reading, it's 3 years unless there are extenuating circumstances and it's tolled from the time of discovery.
These people in Washington deliberately stalled on my timeline and kept my son out of my guardianship.
If I don't sue for medical practice, I will make sure people go to jail for collusion to prevent me from filing a case on behalf of my son, and I have evidence for it.
And if anyone dares to block me further, I am giving only a short amount of time for someone to initiate an investigation and if nothing is done, I will take my documentation to the UN for human rights.
I want my son returned to me AT ONCE.
And then I'm going to send them my report to investigate and have my son immediately turned over to his rightful guardian.
Here's the link which they use to claim Public Corruption is their "top priority":
http://www.fbi.gov/about-us/investigate/corruption
Why? Because it affects everything.
Here is the link where they describe how this is a top priority, and why, and gives a brief description:
http://www.fbi.gov/news/stories/2010/march/corruption_032610
I am going to cut and paste some of it right here so people don't even have to look it up:Home • News • Stories • 2010 • March • Public Corruption: Our Top Criminal Priority
Info
Public Corruption a Top Priority
— filed under: Public Corruption Stories, Public Corruption
Public Corruption
Why It’s Our #1 Criminal Priority
03/26/10
Public corruption is a breach of trust by federal, state, or local officials—often with the help of private sector accomplices. It’s also the FBI’s top criminal investigative priority. To explain why the Bureau takes public corruption so seriously and how we investigate, we talked with Special Agent Patrick Bohrer, assistant section chief of our Public Corruption/Civil Rights program at FBI Headquarters.
Question: Why is public corruption so high on the FBI’s list of investigative priorities?
Answer: Because of its impact. Corrupt public officials undermine our country’s national security, our overall safety, the public trust, and confidence in the U.S. government, wasting billions of dollars along the way. This corruption can tarnish virtually every aspect of society. For example, a border official might take a bribe, knowingly or unknowingly letting in a truck containing weapons of mass destruction. Or corrupt state legislators could cast deciding votes on a bill providing funding or other benefits to a company for the wrong reasons. Or at the local level, a building inspector might be paid to overlook some bad wiring, which could cause a deadly fire down the road.
Special Agent Patrick Bohrer
Q: Can you describe the kinds of public corruption that the FBI investigates?
A: It really runs the gamut. Bribery is the most common. But there’s also extortion, embezzlement, racketeering, kickbacks, and money laundering, as well as wire, mail, bank, and tax fraud. Right now, based on our intelligence on emerging trends, we are focused specifically on several major issues: corruption along our national borders; corrupt officials who take advantage of natural disasters or economic crises to divert some of the government’s aid into their own pockets; and a myriad of officials who may personally benefit from the economic stimulus funding.
Q: Where do you find this corruption?
A: Just about everywhere—at the federal, state, and local levels throughout the country. And I should point out, the vast majority of our country’s public officials are honest and work hard to improve the lives of the American people. But a small number make decisions for the wrong reasons—usually, to line their own pockets or those of friends and family. These people can be found—and have been found—in legislatures, courts, city halls, law enforcement departments, school and zoning boards, government agencies of all kinds (including those that regulate elections and transportation), and even companies that do business with government.
Q: How does the FBI investigate public corruption?
A: We’re in a unique position to investigate allegations of public corruption. Our lawful use of sophisticated investigative tools and methods—like undercover operations, court-authorized electronic surveillance, and informants—often gives us a front-row seat to witness the actual exchange of bribe money or a backroom handshake that seals an illegal deal…and enough evidence to send the culprits to prison. But we have plenty of help. We often work in conjunction with the inspector general offices from various federal agencies, as well as with our state and local partners. And we depend greatly on assistance from the public. So let me end by saying, if anyone out there has any information about potential wrongdoing by a public official, please submit a tip online or contact your local FBI field office. Your help really makes a difference.
Resource:
- Public corruption
****************************
What I find interesting is that this article was written in March of 2010 which is when my rights were terminated on "St. Patricks Day". The agent featured in this article is named Patrick.
Is Patrick a liason to the public or a problem?
To me it's almost a sick joke that while someone named Patrick wrote an article about public corruption being top priority, in MARCH of 2010, I was being handed termination of my rights on St. Patrick's Day, in 2010, at the very same time. It looks like a sick joke to me. And then I was being served with some guy wearing a T-shirt that said "truth" on it with a big cross. Really lovely display.
I was served on March 17th, 2010. "Patrick" wrote his article on March 23, 2010.
And what has happened since? I've been blocked by the FBI, from making my report of public corruption and told to go to a hospital that had people who then sent me to a mental ward to be assaulted.
If the FBI is not guilty of public corruption itself, it will investigate what it says it investigates. And it will make MY son a "top priority".
Patrick Boher is the assistant section chief at the FBI headquarters in D.C., for the "Public Corruption" department.
Something is really starting to stink.
According to Patrick, the FBI can investigate ANY kind of public corruption. Not just bribes. They, according to him, investigate use of monies to profit pockets on an interstate level, and this is RICO. CPS actions fit the definition of RICO. They took federal money and used it to profit themselves financially, and committed crime of obstruction of justice and collusion to set me up for arrest. There were bribes in my case, I just can't prove it. But I can prove a lot of other things.
The FBI in Nashville tried to say, "We don't investigate this kind of thing" and I am looking up all the definitions of what they DO investigate before I make a point of showing Knoxville what's going on and how it needs to be investigated.
If Nashville was being blocked, maybe we can look at Patrick and find out what organizations he belongs to and if the pot is calling the kettle black (so to speak).
CPS committed racketeering and fraud.
CPS committed obstruction of justice: destruction of evidence and omission of evidence.
CPS committed fraud by claiming they had a right to contact Canada about me when they had no right. CPS had no case against me and no new report was made. There was no investigation. CPS had no authority to jump at me after I left the country. They defrauded Canadians by defaming me and claiming they had authority they did not have.
CPS defrauded the public by taking and using public monies to pad their own checks and give them work to do, by claiming they were using federal money for a state case against me. They had no case. They then spent more money on MY case than any other case in the history of CPS. All, to profit the AG and workers involved and using public taxpayer money. I never saw a penny of it and I never saw any of it go to any decent public defense lawyer for me or my son. We were forced to go without if we didn't go along with a lie.
CPS committed racketeering by use of federal money that was sent from the East Coast to the West Coast, to pay for this case, which never should have happened. The money was received by mail or wire and crossed state lines and was used not for the purpose intended but to discriminate against me, harass and abuse me and my son, and to defraud the public and give them work.
CPS deliberately set me up and conspired with certain Canadians, to have me arrested in Canada.
I don't know what the technical or legal word for this is yet.
If it applies to a regular citizen, who decides to stage something and have someone arrested when they didn't do anything wrong, what is it called? What crime is committed?
Is it fraud? because of false claims and allegations? In some cases it's blackmail but they didn't consult me on the matter except to try to intimidate and pressure me to voluntarily leave Canada when I had a right to be there.
When I didn't go voluntarily, when I was legally there, they had me jailed on false charges. In a way, that was almost blackmail or coercion. "If you don't leave on your own, we'll find a way to get you out."
I just talked to someone with the police department and they said if someone tried to set another person up for a crime they didn't commit, they thought it was "Fraud".
This is what I think it falls under as well. So that would mean CPS also committed fraud by colluding with others to lie and claim I did something illegal and the fact that they engaged others is conspiracy or collusion to commit a crime (of fraud). This would also include collusion to commit the crime of kidnapping.
My son was kidnapped from me by fraudulent means.
The only reason the FBI wouldn't want to investigate this is if THEY had something to do with it and in that case, if some of them have something to HIDE, they wouldn't want anyone to investigate what really went down.
Let's see what the FBI definitions for "Fraud" and "Conspiracy" and "Kidnapping" are.
I called the D.C. headquarters and was transfered to the "Public Corruption" voicemail. I left a message with my phone number, asking someone to call me to let me know who the director of this department is. I tried to find it online and can't find it. I know Patrick is some kind of assistant chief but I want to know who the director for this unit is.
My report is going there.
Nashville was talking to, or going to, D.C. anyway, and then they had a part in my defamed to a nuthouse where I was assaulted. So I will send my report to Knoxville and D.C., in writing, and if they choose not to take action, I will then take proof of my mailing to the AG Holder's offices and copy the President of the U.S. and some of Bush's people.
The U.S. has the authority and obligation to demand answers, to investigate, and to return my son, who is a victim of crime. I have a right to have my son returned to me without further delay.
I do not have to go through an appeals process where the criminal aspects are not even looked at or address. There is NO "civil case" against me when crime was committed to get a fraudulent case set up against me to begin with.
It's GARBAGE.
I do not need "services" and govt. workers cannot require services for something they put into place by criminal and fraudulent means to begin with.
Jumping through hoops? on appeals? for WHAT? I am jumping through imaginary hoops that CPS set up to look real.
THEY are the criminals. THEY are the ones in need of services. I believe they should not be employed without services and all of them need psych evals. Actually, scrap that. They just need to be thrown out. I wouldn't give them any chances. They had a ton of chances with me and they blew every single one. They need to be out of there.
I would go through this set up "appeals" process for what? to be told they did something wrong legally on a legal point and that I need to go back and do "services" and THEY have to give ME another "chance?"
THEY are not giving ME the chances. I don't need any "chances" and I don't need ANY of their "services". I was the one giving them CHANCES and they blew it.
THEY took my son illegally and committed fraud. Then they spent millions keeping me down and covering up what they had done, all at taxpayer expense.
THEN, the federal government actually goes in and signs a new treaty on MY BIRTHDAY, about transfer of children from other countries, because they KNEW they screwed up and didn't have it in place and they used MY BIRTHDAY for this.
All the while, the clock is ticking on MY SON's statute of limitations for medical malpractice.
They have colluded to string this out to keep me from being the legal guardian with authority to file a medical malpractice suit on behalf of my son.
This benefits insurance companies and medical professionals who have lied about me from the first day, and their lawyers as well.
My son is almost 5 years old. These people stole 3 1/2 years of my life and his life from me, and paved the way for others to slide into positions they had no right to take.
I was told kids have a statute of limitations of about 7 years but from what I'm reading, it's 3 years unless there are extenuating circumstances and it's tolled from the time of discovery.
These people in Washington deliberately stalled on my timeline and kept my son out of my guardianship.
If I don't sue for medical practice, I will make sure people go to jail for collusion to prevent me from filing a case on behalf of my son, and I have evidence for it.
And if anyone dares to block me further, I am giving only a short amount of time for someone to initiate an investigation and if nothing is done, I will take my documentation to the UN for human rights.
I want my son returned to me AT ONCE.
Invitation to Hackers (pamella coffell cover up)
I enjoyed work last night and then slept well.
Then I got dressed and wore the converse (b&w) with skinny dark blue jeans, a long sleeved black top with a brown tank underneath it and cobalt blue cashmere sweater with my scarf over it.
The scripture I got from the Y basket today was:
"For the Lord hath comforted his people, and will have mercy upon his afflicted." Isaiah 49:13b.
When I turn to my Bible I got Job 21 and then Romans 8:36, "As it is written, for your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered. No, in all these things we are more than conquerors, through him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels or demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
This last one makes me think about the Shakespeare sonnet, of "love is an ever-fixed mark"
I listened to the song about Hallelujah (worship song) and then Jesus Name Above All Names and some maranatha stuff.
Last night at work I had a humorous moment when I walked to a table to roll silverware and instead of having all of my knives in the stand-up carrier, I had them all lying down on a tray (doing things my own way, as my Dad would say). Everyone said, "Why are you doing it like that?" And I had them this way because they drain and are easier to pick up. So I had this whole tray of knives lying down flat and then laid the white napkins (large almost cloth-like napkins) over the mound of knives and carried the tray with both my hands and all of a sudden I thought, "Oh no, I look like I'm the bride in a Russian wedding." Because I suddenly thought about how this woman told me they carry a loaf of break with a white cloth that is embroidered draped over it and that's what it sort of looked like.
And then one of the forks I picked out from the pile had turqoise on it. I did the knives my way but then the guy told me the forks were dirty and if they were upright they would be cleaned better. So instead of just doing it "my way" I listened to him on that and thought it made sense and pulled down a canister that had "the fork". I decided I like the knives lying down on a tray and they can still be cleaned this way or sterilized for a rerun and then I like the forks upright. I don't like pulling out knives from a basket that are standing upright. And it feels faster to take them from a tray. But because the forks have all the prongs, if they have to be rerun, yes, I like them in upright in the basket.
This early morning I woke up and felt good energy. From somewhere, even yesterday though I wondered about the lumps on my head and felt down a little about that. I just put it out of my mind and didn't think about it. I think I could be on my deathbed and work and keep my personal life out of it. I mean, I'm usually pretty good about keeping personal stuff separate and not affecting my work at all, no matter how bad things are.
This morning I woke up and something felt peaceful and full. But it might just be local or something because sometimes I've even felt fine personally and then later found out something is wrong somewhere else.
My Mom and Dad are visting someone named Pee Wee today. Some guy named Steve, a pastor, whose wife's name is Pee Wee. I would like to know how anyone gets the name Pee Wee.
I can't think of anything funny to write about really. At one point something interesting happened at work where I ended up with a white, green, black combination when I was cleaning up and pennies, and then there was a ladybug next to me and I know it wsn't a normal ladybug but a transfered one, but only a few people will understand that. And I probably don't need to explain either.
One thing that I thought was very funny the other day, in the worst and most depressing sense, was that I was going through my email to my parents from when my son and i were really being tortured badly, and I read one byline and cracked up laughing. It was/is so extremely serious and real, but I just read this one line and it was hilarious because I sound like a total nut. The funny part, is knowing how it sounds but then after I laughed so hard, imagining how it sounded to others, I also felt sobered up because I know how intensely painful it was and what kind of torture my son and I went through. But I was reading all of these lines about "I'mm being tortured" and "need help now" and then I lashed out in one with some byline like, ..I'll have to find it.
But no, I wasn't nuts. I was not ever delusional. What happened was real.
I just went back to my email and someone has deleted important email I had saved. I found an email I had sent Pamella Coffell, who was the person to write a perjured and lying account to try to get my son from Canada. I only find one email, from after my son was already taken and I sent her and her coworkers at Wenatchee CPS, a letter before my son was ever taken.
Someone deleted all of my mail from before 2007.
I didn't delete it and it should still be there.
But this would then make sense why Pamella tried to lie and why some of the workers in Wenatchee acted like they didn't have the email I sent Pamella. They didn't want it in the record, probably, because it showed that I was the one who invited them to come visit.
I wasn't under "investigation". I had SENT THEM AN EMAIL, after one matter was "investigated" and thrown out (someone made a complaint that wasn't valid). So after they tried to come into my house on Methow, with Judge Bridge's wife standing outside wanting to be let in, I then had a communication with Coffell and sent a letter to Wenatchee CPS offices, which their AG got because they were already involved, which is why Mary Anne McIntosh said there was a conflict of interest for me to talk to her then.
So I sent this email to Pamella, and to the other woman too, before I left for Canada, which said, in effect, "You are welcome to come visit me and my son at any time, if you like and if you have any concerns, please let me know. My son and I are out in public all the time and you could observe us there or you could come to the house."
So I sent this letter to Wenatchee CPS, which they GOT RID OF or HID. And they kept it from the record because, now that I think about it, it proves that I wasn't running from anything first of all, and secondly, it even proves there wasn't really an investigation at all.
I had been the one to extend the invitation to visit, and then when they said they wanted to visit and my son and I had left to go to Canada, they made a huge deal about it, as if I was on the run, when there was no case and nothing filed, and not even an investigation at all.
Their lawyers knew this letter would be damaging after they defamed me and had me falsely arrested in Canada, so they intentionally kept it out of the record. And I was told Pamella was supposed to submit all communications with me to the AG and other CPS people but she didn't. She left my email out. And that email was in my sent box and it also went to 2 different CPS workers and possibly someone else as well.
Pamella was also the person who wrote up the allegations and all the reports that had been thrown out as unfounded, with no evidence at all, she rounded up all these past things and tried to make them sound as if they were part of an investigation when they weren't. They were concluded. You do not have an "ongoing investigation" with CPS. If there is a report and determination is made that there is nothing there, they CLOSE the whole matter.
CPS tried to make it sound as if everything was some ongoing investigation when there WAS NO investigation.
They decided, on their own, one day, to take me up on MY OFFER to visit us at the house and then when I wasn't there, they lied and claimed I was running from something when there was nothing there. And then she lied about the condition of the house.
Were my son and I being tortured at this time? Yes we were. And taking my son from me didn't help. What helped was when I left the country and got out, by removing myself and my son from the environment and people who were doing these things.
Then my parents asked why I sounded "normal" whenever I was out of Wenatchee. Because, mainly, the illegal use of military and medical technology was not being used on me and my son.
This whole case was so corrupt it's not even funny. I should have had my son returned to me within days and they covered up their perjury and my son never should have been taken to begin with.
I am sure that a computer person could dig up the email I sent to Pamella or her coworker.
Yep. And Pamella lied to my parents right from the start too. She talked to Russ Radi as well and lied. And when I saw her report, I saw she had dug herself into a hole. She told my parents that I was kicked out of Canada for being obnoxious in a hearing when I wasn't and when this wasn't what happened. She lied to keep my family alienated from me and to persuade them not to help me.
She needs to lose her job.
Her email is cofp300@dshs.wa.gov.
Pamella is a liar. She is also a liar who testifies to courts and she is willing to perjure herself just like Michelle Erickson and the other social workers. And then Pamella tried to keep out my letter that I sent her and her coworker, because someone told her it wouldn't be good for them.
Guess who this was?
The AG.
The same AG that doesn't want citizens of Washigton state to be able to sue them. Pamella had my email and letter to her and made fun of me over it. But she and her coworker had my letter, inviting them to come to my house or observe us at other places.
When we left for Canada, who got involved? the AG. So they would have looked at all of the documents CPS had and helped instruct them on what to keep or "leave out" of the record.
The AG would have read this letter and known that if Canada or anyone else saw it, it made it sound like I wasn't on the run from anything. Maybe on the run from torture and not getting medical care, but not on the run because there was any kind of investigation.
There wasn't. There wasn't even a new report of any kind.
OH ARE THEY IN BIG TROUBLE NOW.
There had been a couple of reports in the past but everything was CLOSED because with this kind of thing, someone can call in and say, "Mr and Mrs Jones are hitting their kids" and CPS would be obligated to investigate but if there is no evidence or it's proven untrue, they then CLOSE this complaint. It's like opening and closing a bank account. It's opened, and then it's CLOSED.
You don't string along CLOSED accounts and then claim you have a case.
And when they said they wanted to come out to see the house, they were taking ME up on MY OFFER, plain and simple, which means they HAD NO OPEN cause or complaint against me. They did not open a new account at all.
They simply said "We would like to take you up on your offer" that I had extended for a DIFFERENT account when it was CLOSED. There had been a complaint and then it was ruled unfounded but I still wrote a letter saying "If you ever have concerns, anytime you would like to visit and see how I parent or see the house, please let me know."
THESE PEOPLE HAD NOTHING.
NUTHING.
Which means they had more motive to cover their butts than the Gengis Khan.
They kept me so traumatized that I wasn't even in a position to look at my own case because I was so emotionally distraught bc of what they had done.
Pamella needs to lose her job. Russ needs to lose his job. The AG needs their butts sued to High Heaven. The State of Washington is liable and had motive to work against me however they could, to keep me out of employment and work.
They had no open case or report against me.
They then lied and claimed they did and then colluded to set me up to be arrested. there was no other way to get my son back. Or me back. So they deliberately staged an immigration "violation" that didn't exist to create falsified grounds for arrest, for the sole purpose of hastily writing up a report and claiming there was an ongoing investigation against me when there wasn't even an investigation AT
ALL.
Which is why they "lost" my letter which I sent by email.
Someone needs to hack Coffells email.
I find it strange that hotmail, which is through Microsoft, had a "loss" of all this data, which was reported in the news, from their hard drives. What kinds of things were lost and why did they have this sudden computer "glitch"?
Anyone could easily go back and find the letter I sent, most especially by going to the Microsoft servers.
My case is one of public corruption and nothing else.
I do not need ANY of their so-called "services". I need an investigation into crime committed by govt. workers.
Obstruction of justice is a crime. It is not just a civil matter, it's crime.
And those people committed way too many crimes and probably used other connections to keep me down as well. Through torture, through false imprisonments, defamation of my character--you name it.
Karen was the other employee. Her first name is Karen. I don't know yet what her last name is but I'm looking at other email (which hasn't been deleted bc it's not important).
I think it was maybe Karen Oyler. I talked to both of them.
They and the AG obstructed justice and destroyed or hid evidence and then defamed me to Canada. After this, major parties were interested in covering up what they'd done because they knew there were in this much trouble if they didn't.
Which makes me wonder again, how well Bill Gates knows the political people--AG or governor's offices, in Seattle. Unless they are going to help and pull the needle out of the haystack. That might show some independent thinking.
Yes, I am almost 99% positive it was Karen Oyler. oyka300@dshs.wa.gov.
It was Karen Oyler and Pamella Coffell who came out on one of the "reports" and the report was CLOSED. After it was closed, I sent them an email, extending an open invitation to visit or observe me and my son at any time.
So before we went to Canada, this is what they did. They took ME up on MY invitiation.
If I didn't want to be there, I had a frickin' right not to be there and there was no NEW report and even if there HAD been, I still had the right, as legal guardian, to go wherever I wanted to go with my son.
Even though there was no new report or case, I still called Olympia CPS, which records all their calls, and asked if it was okay to leave if CPS was saying they wanted to come for a visit.
I was told "Yes."
She said, "Is there a case?" and I said I don't know what you mean because there have been reports but all were closed. She said, "Is there a Protective Order?" and I said, "What's that?" And she said, "You would know what that is if you had one. It's a paper filed that takes your guardianship away temporarily. If you had one of those, you couldn't leave but if CPS is just saying they want to stop by for a visit, and there is no protective order, you can legally leave."
I said, "To another state and even to another country?" and she said "Yes, wherever. It doesn't matter. There is no Protective Order so you have the right to take your child wherever you want to go."
There was NO case. NO new report.
There was NOTHING.
And then, when they decided they didn't like the idea of my son and I being in
Canada, where he was about to get medical care, they LIED and wrote up this horrible report of allegations, making it sound like I was deranged and there had been an "ongoing investigation" for months.
This was an outright lie.
They also lied and suggested I was on the "run from a paternal interest" and they already this this was also untrue.
They went out to the house and they didn't even have evidence of a "dirty house". Someone took photos and the AG said leave them out. Why? Because there was nothing there.
If they had "evidence" of neglect or bad conditions, they would put it in the file, because all they did was lie about what they supposedly "found" but they didn't even put their photos into the record to back themselves up.
They had NOTHING.
Having NOTHING, they then set about discussing with certain Canadians, on how to SET ME UP, on purpose, to force me and my son back to Washington, where people could control things.
I found out about "the photos" at the Termination Trial. I was told, "Yes, we took photos." I said, "Why didn't you use them?" and they said, "Our AG thought they were inadmissable."
Inadmissable? Really? Or was it just that it HURT their case to include those photos?
YOU ARE IN BIG TROUBLE WASHINGTON.
YOUR AG OFFICES HAD BETTER BE SQUIRMING.
then all they did was claim I was nuts, which helped who? THEM. And then when I tried to get the psych eval, THEY stalled for almost a YEAR and forced me to not have a lawyer and then terminated my rights. They knew my son was suffering needlessly. And all they cared about were themselves.
If the "photos" that had been taken had been INCLUDED in the report, it would have made Pamella Coffell's report weak. She could write, "There was garbage 4 ft high in the backyard" and then anyone could look at the photos and see what this meant was that there were a couple of tied up trash bags that stood 2 feet tall which were leaning up away from the house and next to a burning barrel.
"Inadmissable" my foot.
The AG deliberately kept photos out of the record because it proved they were all criminals. They had kidnapped my son under auspices of legality when there was nothing there.
Then all my public defenders did NOTHING to help but only tried to cover up for their buddies, because THEY were all scared to death of being caught and outed, and losing their houses and jobs because of what they had done.
It was in all of their best interests to lie and say I was mentally ill. That helped THEM.
They strung this case out to expire deadlines and give them time to get their gangsters and corporate criminals to destroy evidence. Then they tortured and intimidated people to keep people down and from talking. I was kept out of housing and out of work, and jailed whenever it looked like I might be getting work. I was kept out of my right to unemployment monies, and had people dropping the ball all over the place, for the sole purpose of using me and my son, and covering up for the criminal actions of others.
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I tried listening to this one Russian song that was recommended to me, about the rain played by strings of the wind but I don't know if I got the right one. This one is "Moon and Stars" (Luna i Zvezdy). http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXoRrDzVtA0
It got stopped at the part where it says "focused and happy eyes" but I am waiting to hear the rest of it.
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Got a new mail from my mom and she says she accidentally put Steve but it's Denise and pee wee and Pee Wee is some 4'10 mexican woman who "held her own with gangs" until she became a christian...did really well with everyone or something. And then they're visiting my grandma Rosella and John (rosella is my mexican-american grandmother on my Dad's side, by marriage, and then dolores is my caucasian-american grandmother, biologically, on my dad's side), (they're in New Mexico, having a good time I think). I think they went into Mexico already, to some Alga place by the border.
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This cnn article about the news reporter with the migraine cracks me up. She looks so wide eyed and polished in the photo they put up of her and then to imagine what happened, and what people might have been thinking. Migraines are serious!
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This russian song doesn't say anything about rain on strings so I can tell it's diffeent. Would like to find the other one. But I like this one too. I think he said the rain on strings one is pop.
I am wondering if it's this Ukrainian song "letters" so I'm trying to play it. But maybe it's a different moon song. Will look up later. The children's one made me smile. Anyway, I think someone who is Russian is saying nyet! and grumbling in Russian that I am not remembering which song it is. I don't think it's this one. Oh well, I'm having problems with the youtube playing right now.
The other day I had a vague impression of English (british) men talking and then right after this, I ran into someone from the UK but it was like these guys were at a distance. I think it was when I was at the Y and ran into someone or when I was on the way to the chapel and someone English was there last for the icon shop. She had an english accent...I can't remember. Just sort of a couple of guys talking together.
Then I got dressed and wore the converse (b&w) with skinny dark blue jeans, a long sleeved black top with a brown tank underneath it and cobalt blue cashmere sweater with my scarf over it.
The scripture I got from the Y basket today was:
"For the Lord hath comforted his people, and will have mercy upon his afflicted." Isaiah 49:13b.
When I turn to my Bible I got Job 21 and then Romans 8:36, "As it is written, for your sake we face death all day long; we are considered as sheep to be slaughtered. No, in all these things we are more than conquerors, through him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels or demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord."
This last one makes me think about the Shakespeare sonnet, of "love is an ever-fixed mark"
I listened to the song about Hallelujah (worship song) and then Jesus Name Above All Names and some maranatha stuff.
Last night at work I had a humorous moment when I walked to a table to roll silverware and instead of having all of my knives in the stand-up carrier, I had them all lying down on a tray (doing things my own way, as my Dad would say). Everyone said, "Why are you doing it like that?" And I had them this way because they drain and are easier to pick up. So I had this whole tray of knives lying down flat and then laid the white napkins (large almost cloth-like napkins) over the mound of knives and carried the tray with both my hands and all of a sudden I thought, "Oh no, I look like I'm the bride in a Russian wedding." Because I suddenly thought about how this woman told me they carry a loaf of break with a white cloth that is embroidered draped over it and that's what it sort of looked like.
And then one of the forks I picked out from the pile had turqoise on it. I did the knives my way but then the guy told me the forks were dirty and if they were upright they would be cleaned better. So instead of just doing it "my way" I listened to him on that and thought it made sense and pulled down a canister that had "the fork". I decided I like the knives lying down on a tray and they can still be cleaned this way or sterilized for a rerun and then I like the forks upright. I don't like pulling out knives from a basket that are standing upright. And it feels faster to take them from a tray. But because the forks have all the prongs, if they have to be rerun, yes, I like them in upright in the basket.
This early morning I woke up and felt good energy. From somewhere, even yesterday though I wondered about the lumps on my head and felt down a little about that. I just put it out of my mind and didn't think about it. I think I could be on my deathbed and work and keep my personal life out of it. I mean, I'm usually pretty good about keeping personal stuff separate and not affecting my work at all, no matter how bad things are.
This morning I woke up and something felt peaceful and full. But it might just be local or something because sometimes I've even felt fine personally and then later found out something is wrong somewhere else.
My Mom and Dad are visting someone named Pee Wee today. Some guy named Steve, a pastor, whose wife's name is Pee Wee. I would like to know how anyone gets the name Pee Wee.
I can't think of anything funny to write about really. At one point something interesting happened at work where I ended up with a white, green, black combination when I was cleaning up and pennies, and then there was a ladybug next to me and I know it wsn't a normal ladybug but a transfered one, but only a few people will understand that. And I probably don't need to explain either.
One thing that I thought was very funny the other day, in the worst and most depressing sense, was that I was going through my email to my parents from when my son and i were really being tortured badly, and I read one byline and cracked up laughing. It was/is so extremely serious and real, but I just read this one line and it was hilarious because I sound like a total nut. The funny part, is knowing how it sounds but then after I laughed so hard, imagining how it sounded to others, I also felt sobered up because I know how intensely painful it was and what kind of torture my son and I went through. But I was reading all of these lines about "I'mm being tortured" and "need help now" and then I lashed out in one with some byline like, ..I'll have to find it.
But no, I wasn't nuts. I was not ever delusional. What happened was real.
I just went back to my email and someone has deleted important email I had saved. I found an email I had sent Pamella Coffell, who was the person to write a perjured and lying account to try to get my son from Canada. I only find one email, from after my son was already taken and I sent her and her coworkers at Wenatchee CPS, a letter before my son was ever taken.
Someone deleted all of my mail from before 2007.
I didn't delete it and it should still be there.
But this would then make sense why Pamella tried to lie and why some of the workers in Wenatchee acted like they didn't have the email I sent Pamella. They didn't want it in the record, probably, because it showed that I was the one who invited them to come visit.
I wasn't under "investigation". I had SENT THEM AN EMAIL, after one matter was "investigated" and thrown out (someone made a complaint that wasn't valid). So after they tried to come into my house on Methow, with Judge Bridge's wife standing outside wanting to be let in, I then had a communication with Coffell and sent a letter to Wenatchee CPS offices, which their AG got because they were already involved, which is why Mary Anne McIntosh said there was a conflict of interest for me to talk to her then.
So I sent this email to Pamella, and to the other woman too, before I left for Canada, which said, in effect, "You are welcome to come visit me and my son at any time, if you like and if you have any concerns, please let me know. My son and I are out in public all the time and you could observe us there or you could come to the house."
So I sent this letter to Wenatchee CPS, which they GOT RID OF or HID. And they kept it from the record because, now that I think about it, it proves that I wasn't running from anything first of all, and secondly, it even proves there wasn't really an investigation at all.
I had been the one to extend the invitation to visit, and then when they said they wanted to visit and my son and I had left to go to Canada, they made a huge deal about it, as if I was on the run, when there was no case and nothing filed, and not even an investigation at all.
Their lawyers knew this letter would be damaging after they defamed me and had me falsely arrested in Canada, so they intentionally kept it out of the record. And I was told Pamella was supposed to submit all communications with me to the AG and other CPS people but she didn't. She left my email out. And that email was in my sent box and it also went to 2 different CPS workers and possibly someone else as well.
Pamella was also the person who wrote up the allegations and all the reports that had been thrown out as unfounded, with no evidence at all, she rounded up all these past things and tried to make them sound as if they were part of an investigation when they weren't. They were concluded. You do not have an "ongoing investigation" with CPS. If there is a report and determination is made that there is nothing there, they CLOSE the whole matter.
CPS tried to make it sound as if everything was some ongoing investigation when there WAS NO investigation.
They decided, on their own, one day, to take me up on MY OFFER to visit us at the house and then when I wasn't there, they lied and claimed I was running from something when there was nothing there. And then she lied about the condition of the house.
Were my son and I being tortured at this time? Yes we were. And taking my son from me didn't help. What helped was when I left the country and got out, by removing myself and my son from the environment and people who were doing these things.
Then my parents asked why I sounded "normal" whenever I was out of Wenatchee. Because, mainly, the illegal use of military and medical technology was not being used on me and my son.
This whole case was so corrupt it's not even funny. I should have had my son returned to me within days and they covered up their perjury and my son never should have been taken to begin with.
I am sure that a computer person could dig up the email I sent to Pamella or her coworker.
Yep. And Pamella lied to my parents right from the start too. She talked to Russ Radi as well and lied. And when I saw her report, I saw she had dug herself into a hole. She told my parents that I was kicked out of Canada for being obnoxious in a hearing when I wasn't and when this wasn't what happened. She lied to keep my family alienated from me and to persuade them not to help me.
She needs to lose her job.
Her email is cofp300@dshs.wa.gov.
Pamella is a liar. She is also a liar who testifies to courts and she is willing to perjure herself just like Michelle Erickson and the other social workers. And then Pamella tried to keep out my letter that I sent her and her coworker, because someone told her it wouldn't be good for them.
Guess who this was?
The AG.
The same AG that doesn't want citizens of Washigton state to be able to sue them. Pamella had my email and letter to her and made fun of me over it. But she and her coworker had my letter, inviting them to come to my house or observe us at other places.
When we left for Canada, who got involved? the AG. So they would have looked at all of the documents CPS had and helped instruct them on what to keep or "leave out" of the record.
The AG would have read this letter and known that if Canada or anyone else saw it, it made it sound like I wasn't on the run from anything. Maybe on the run from torture and not getting medical care, but not on the run because there was any kind of investigation.
There wasn't. There wasn't even a new report of any kind.
OH ARE THEY IN BIG TROUBLE NOW.
There had been a couple of reports in the past but everything was CLOSED because with this kind of thing, someone can call in and say, "Mr and Mrs Jones are hitting their kids" and CPS would be obligated to investigate but if there is no evidence or it's proven untrue, they then CLOSE this complaint. It's like opening and closing a bank account. It's opened, and then it's CLOSED.
You don't string along CLOSED accounts and then claim you have a case.
And when they said they wanted to come out to see the house, they were taking ME up on MY OFFER, plain and simple, which means they HAD NO OPEN cause or complaint against me. They did not open a new account at all.
They simply said "We would like to take you up on your offer" that I had extended for a DIFFERENT account when it was CLOSED. There had been a complaint and then it was ruled unfounded but I still wrote a letter saying "If you ever have concerns, anytime you would like to visit and see how I parent or see the house, please let me know."
THESE PEOPLE HAD NOTHING.
NUTHING.
Which means they had more motive to cover their butts than the Gengis Khan.
They kept me so traumatized that I wasn't even in a position to look at my own case because I was so emotionally distraught bc of what they had done.
Pamella needs to lose her job. Russ needs to lose his job. The AG needs their butts sued to High Heaven. The State of Washington is liable and had motive to work against me however they could, to keep me out of employment and work.
They had no open case or report against me.
They then lied and claimed they did and then colluded to set me up to be arrested. there was no other way to get my son back. Or me back. So they deliberately staged an immigration "violation" that didn't exist to create falsified grounds for arrest, for the sole purpose of hastily writing up a report and claiming there was an ongoing investigation against me when there wasn't even an investigation AT
ALL.
Which is why they "lost" my letter which I sent by email.
Someone needs to hack Coffells email.
I find it strange that hotmail, which is through Microsoft, had a "loss" of all this data, which was reported in the news, from their hard drives. What kinds of things were lost and why did they have this sudden computer "glitch"?
Anyone could easily go back and find the letter I sent, most especially by going to the Microsoft servers.
My case is one of public corruption and nothing else.
I do not need ANY of their so-called "services". I need an investigation into crime committed by govt. workers.
Obstruction of justice is a crime. It is not just a civil matter, it's crime.
And those people committed way too many crimes and probably used other connections to keep me down as well. Through torture, through false imprisonments, defamation of my character--you name it.
Karen was the other employee. Her first name is Karen. I don't know yet what her last name is but I'm looking at other email (which hasn't been deleted bc it's not important).
I think it was maybe Karen Oyler. I talked to both of them.
They and the AG obstructed justice and destroyed or hid evidence and then defamed me to Canada. After this, major parties were interested in covering up what they'd done because they knew there were in this much trouble if they didn't.
Which makes me wonder again, how well Bill Gates knows the political people--AG or governor's offices, in Seattle. Unless they are going to help and pull the needle out of the haystack. That might show some independent thinking.
Yes, I am almost 99% positive it was Karen Oyler. oyka300@dshs.wa.gov.
It was Karen Oyler and Pamella Coffell who came out on one of the "reports" and the report was CLOSED. After it was closed, I sent them an email, extending an open invitation to visit or observe me and my son at any time.
So before we went to Canada, this is what they did. They took ME up on MY invitiation.
If I didn't want to be there, I had a frickin' right not to be there and there was no NEW report and even if there HAD been, I still had the right, as legal guardian, to go wherever I wanted to go with my son.
Even though there was no new report or case, I still called Olympia CPS, which records all their calls, and asked if it was okay to leave if CPS was saying they wanted to come for a visit.
I was told "Yes."
She said, "Is there a case?" and I said I don't know what you mean because there have been reports but all were closed. She said, "Is there a Protective Order?" and I said, "What's that?" And she said, "You would know what that is if you had one. It's a paper filed that takes your guardianship away temporarily. If you had one of those, you couldn't leave but if CPS is just saying they want to stop by for a visit, and there is no protective order, you can legally leave."
I said, "To another state and even to another country?" and she said "Yes, wherever. It doesn't matter. There is no Protective Order so you have the right to take your child wherever you want to go."
There was NO case. NO new report.
There was NOTHING.
And then, when they decided they didn't like the idea of my son and I being in
Canada, where he was about to get medical care, they LIED and wrote up this horrible report of allegations, making it sound like I was deranged and there had been an "ongoing investigation" for months.
This was an outright lie.
They also lied and suggested I was on the "run from a paternal interest" and they already this this was also untrue.
They went out to the house and they didn't even have evidence of a "dirty house". Someone took photos and the AG said leave them out. Why? Because there was nothing there.
If they had "evidence" of neglect or bad conditions, they would put it in the file, because all they did was lie about what they supposedly "found" but they didn't even put their photos into the record to back themselves up.
They had NOTHING.
Having NOTHING, they then set about discussing with certain Canadians, on how to SET ME UP, on purpose, to force me and my son back to Washington, where people could control things.
I found out about "the photos" at the Termination Trial. I was told, "Yes, we took photos." I said, "Why didn't you use them?" and they said, "Our AG thought they were inadmissable."
Inadmissable? Really? Or was it just that it HURT their case to include those photos?
YOU ARE IN BIG TROUBLE WASHINGTON.
YOUR AG OFFICES HAD BETTER BE SQUIRMING.
then all they did was claim I was nuts, which helped who? THEM. And then when I tried to get the psych eval, THEY stalled for almost a YEAR and forced me to not have a lawyer and then terminated my rights. They knew my son was suffering needlessly. And all they cared about were themselves.
If the "photos" that had been taken had been INCLUDED in the report, it would have made Pamella Coffell's report weak. She could write, "There was garbage 4 ft high in the backyard" and then anyone could look at the photos and see what this meant was that there were a couple of tied up trash bags that stood 2 feet tall which were leaning up away from the house and next to a burning barrel.
"Inadmissable" my foot.
The AG deliberately kept photos out of the record because it proved they were all criminals. They had kidnapped my son under auspices of legality when there was nothing there.
Then all my public defenders did NOTHING to help but only tried to cover up for their buddies, because THEY were all scared to death of being caught and outed, and losing their houses and jobs because of what they had done.
It was in all of their best interests to lie and say I was mentally ill. That helped THEM.
They strung this case out to expire deadlines and give them time to get their gangsters and corporate criminals to destroy evidence. Then they tortured and intimidated people to keep people down and from talking. I was kept out of housing and out of work, and jailed whenever it looked like I might be getting work. I was kept out of my right to unemployment monies, and had people dropping the ball all over the place, for the sole purpose of using me and my son, and covering up for the criminal actions of others.
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I tried listening to this one Russian song that was recommended to me, about the rain played by strings of the wind but I don't know if I got the right one. This one is "Moon and Stars" (Luna i Zvezdy). http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tXoRrDzVtA0
It got stopped at the part where it says "focused and happy eyes" but I am waiting to hear the rest of it.
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Got a new mail from my mom and she says she accidentally put Steve but it's Denise and pee wee and Pee Wee is some 4'10 mexican woman who "held her own with gangs" until she became a christian...did really well with everyone or something. And then they're visiting my grandma Rosella and John (rosella is my mexican-american grandmother on my Dad's side, by marriage, and then dolores is my caucasian-american grandmother, biologically, on my dad's side), (they're in New Mexico, having a good time I think). I think they went into Mexico already, to some Alga place by the border.
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This cnn article about the news reporter with the migraine cracks me up. She looks so wide eyed and polished in the photo they put up of her and then to imagine what happened, and what people might have been thinking. Migraines are serious!
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This russian song doesn't say anything about rain on strings so I can tell it's diffeent. Would like to find the other one. But I like this one too. I think he said the rain on strings one is pop.
I am wondering if it's this Ukrainian song "letters" so I'm trying to play it. But maybe it's a different moon song. Will look up later. The children's one made me smile. Anyway, I think someone who is Russian is saying nyet! and grumbling in Russian that I am not remembering which song it is. I don't think it's this one. Oh well, I'm having problems with the youtube playing right now.
The other day I had a vague impression of English (british) men talking and then right after this, I ran into someone from the UK but it was like these guys were at a distance. I think it was when I was at the Y and ran into someone or when I was on the way to the chapel and someone English was there last for the icon shop. She had an english accent...I can't remember. Just sort of a couple of guys talking together.
Thursday, February 17, 2011
Lumps On Head (thank you very much)
I discovered lumps on my head this morning. Not normal ones. And since they only appeared in the last few days, it is not really normal at all.
I was going to go to the hospital but figured someone already expected me to do that and instead went to the Y as usual and looked up some great things with music and the Shaws.
If it's not a big deal, then it will go away but I think it's a big deal because I have not hit my head at any time.
So if I end up with tumors on my head because of something someone gave me or did to me, when I've been complaining about being targeted, I won't be very happy, nor will I be happy to have the idea that all of a sudden people are expediting my son's case maybe just figuring I might die anyway.
I get a job and encouraged to take out medical insurance so...what? I can pay for my deathbed stuff that occured from the U.S. agenda or negligence?
I am not panicked right now because it might go away.
But what is concerning to me is that I had the impression, before I found this, that something was going on with the State of Washington wanting my MRI of my head to be taken to begin with.
It was just a few days ago, that I thought, "They had the MRI done so they had a marker to check against the CT I had in Oregon and because they want to examine my head again after they torture me". And what happened after they did the MRI? More torture and I was given medications without my consent too.
So I had this idea, about how medical people wanted to do another MRI of my head, just a few days ago and THEN TODAY I found the lumps which have grown in the last couple of days.
I wouldn't have even discovered it if I had not decided to do a different kind of fast. If I had not fasted or if I were not doing my own kind of fast right now, I wouldn't have discovered this at all.
I have felt my head over many times because of the kind of migraines I get. I know what my head feels like and where all the normal bumps are.
But the combination of having the impression that someone wanted to MRI my head, along with then, just a few days later finding new lumps, says to me that medical people and government people are involved. And most likely these people are enemies to me and my son and have covered up their own animosity with claims that their research is "important".
But no, I'm not going to the hospital today.
I'm noting the fact that I knew, ahead of time, that what has been going on with me and my son is illegal, dirty, and against all humanitarian protocol.
I would like to know what is being found on my son now, at this time. Or what was already discovered, that made people nervous about what they'd done over there.
I want my son back and if Eric Holders' offices doesn't get involved and investigate crime, I am leaving the U.S. before they try one more dirty thing against me or my son. I went to the FBI for help and they harmed me and my son further by allowing bad agents to block my claims and then defaming me, not just domestically, but internationally.
And D.C. knows they screwed up.
I think someone got caught. I know something happened.
And I hope that people will go forward with their reports, to wikileaks, for my son's best interests and mine.
Thank You.
I'm not going to have any MRIs done in the U.S.
I was thinking about going to the hospital later, but no, I think what this means is that if the lumps do not go away, I am leaving the country. The U.S. forced me to have the MRI done in Washington and I knew it wasn't to see if there was "mental illness" or damage to my head. They wanted a marker. And I knew it then and I know it now.
They also spread the information to everyone when I told my lawyer I did not want him to have the results as I had fired him. He took it anyway, in violation of HIPPA.
They arrested me on false charges again after this and then I was accused of harassing Michelle Erickson, which never happened, after Tony Block stole my son's necklace from him and lied to me.
I never harrassed Michelle Erickson. This was a lie and she won a case because of a corrupt Judge, Alicia Nakata.
I don't trust any of the Judges over there. None of them are good and none of them are honest and above corruption.
It would have never been possible for Erickson to make any claim against me at all if Nakata had not been corrupt. Nakata refused to give me an extension to allow me to obtain a transcript so I could prove Erickson lied under oath about me.
And then I found out my lawyers weren't honest and that it damages my ability to work with children.
I tried to apply for jobs here that work with kids and was refused work because of Erickons' lies, which affect my "record".
My lawyer Justin Titus, was corrupt. He intentionally blocked me from entering evidence that proved my innocence, into the court record.
I can say all of these things because I am not having to live there.
I didn't have any good lawyers there and not one of the Judges was honest.
I had people stealing from me and not one law enforcement person doing their job to hold anyone accountable, EVER.
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The Nashville FBI contributed to harming me by defaming me, again, to the Vanderbilt people and then having me sent to a mental ward when I didn't need to go. They also never got back with me about the lines in my nails or any of the symptoms I presented with, which I told them was probably from arsenic.
After I was let out of the mental health place, and even before, I was having pin prick sensations in my feet as well, which is also a symptom of arsenic.
Now, all of a sudden, within a couple of days, I have lumps growing on my head and I haven't hit my head on anything. There is nothing that I know of that allows this to happen this fast unless there is some abnormal swelling that will just go away on its own later.
Which is why I'm noting this, but I'm not going to run to the hospital over it.
Would have been too convenient, too, to have just had the Baptist church people visit last night to do the chapel and then have me running out to the Baptist hospital the next morning.
But yes, it's very distinct and noticeable, and I didn't have them before and I do now. There is no history of anything in my family so it's either the result of the technology complaints I made earlier or it is from a medication or substance that I was given.
If Vanderbilt hopes they get to coordinate an MRI with Baptist or any other medical group, they are going to be disappointed.
I was going to go to the hospital but figured someone already expected me to do that and instead went to the Y as usual and looked up some great things with music and the Shaws.
If it's not a big deal, then it will go away but I think it's a big deal because I have not hit my head at any time.
So if I end up with tumors on my head because of something someone gave me or did to me, when I've been complaining about being targeted, I won't be very happy, nor will I be happy to have the idea that all of a sudden people are expediting my son's case maybe just figuring I might die anyway.
I get a job and encouraged to take out medical insurance so...what? I can pay for my deathbed stuff that occured from the U.S. agenda or negligence?
I am not panicked right now because it might go away.
But what is concerning to me is that I had the impression, before I found this, that something was going on with the State of Washington wanting my MRI of my head to be taken to begin with.
It was just a few days ago, that I thought, "They had the MRI done so they had a marker to check against the CT I had in Oregon and because they want to examine my head again after they torture me". And what happened after they did the MRI? More torture and I was given medications without my consent too.
So I had this idea, about how medical people wanted to do another MRI of my head, just a few days ago and THEN TODAY I found the lumps which have grown in the last couple of days.
I wouldn't have even discovered it if I had not decided to do a different kind of fast. If I had not fasted or if I were not doing my own kind of fast right now, I wouldn't have discovered this at all.
I have felt my head over many times because of the kind of migraines I get. I know what my head feels like and where all the normal bumps are.
But the combination of having the impression that someone wanted to MRI my head, along with then, just a few days later finding new lumps, says to me that medical people and government people are involved. And most likely these people are enemies to me and my son and have covered up their own animosity with claims that their research is "important".
But no, I'm not going to the hospital today.
I'm noting the fact that I knew, ahead of time, that what has been going on with me and my son is illegal, dirty, and against all humanitarian protocol.
I would like to know what is being found on my son now, at this time. Or what was already discovered, that made people nervous about what they'd done over there.
I want my son back and if Eric Holders' offices doesn't get involved and investigate crime, I am leaving the U.S. before they try one more dirty thing against me or my son. I went to the FBI for help and they harmed me and my son further by allowing bad agents to block my claims and then defaming me, not just domestically, but internationally.
And D.C. knows they screwed up.
I think someone got caught. I know something happened.
And I hope that people will go forward with their reports, to wikileaks, for my son's best interests and mine.
Thank You.
I'm not going to have any MRIs done in the U.S.
I was thinking about going to the hospital later, but no, I think what this means is that if the lumps do not go away, I am leaving the country. The U.S. forced me to have the MRI done in Washington and I knew it wasn't to see if there was "mental illness" or damage to my head. They wanted a marker. And I knew it then and I know it now.
They also spread the information to everyone when I told my lawyer I did not want him to have the results as I had fired him. He took it anyway, in violation of HIPPA.
They arrested me on false charges again after this and then I was accused of harassing Michelle Erickson, which never happened, after Tony Block stole my son's necklace from him and lied to me.
I never harrassed Michelle Erickson. This was a lie and she won a case because of a corrupt Judge, Alicia Nakata.
I don't trust any of the Judges over there. None of them are good and none of them are honest and above corruption.
It would have never been possible for Erickson to make any claim against me at all if Nakata had not been corrupt. Nakata refused to give me an extension to allow me to obtain a transcript so I could prove Erickson lied under oath about me.
And then I found out my lawyers weren't honest and that it damages my ability to work with children.
I tried to apply for jobs here that work with kids and was refused work because of Erickons' lies, which affect my "record".
My lawyer Justin Titus, was corrupt. He intentionally blocked me from entering evidence that proved my innocence, into the court record.
I can say all of these things because I am not having to live there.
I didn't have any good lawyers there and not one of the Judges was honest.
I had people stealing from me and not one law enforcement person doing their job to hold anyone accountable, EVER.
******************************8
The Nashville FBI contributed to harming me by defaming me, again, to the Vanderbilt people and then having me sent to a mental ward when I didn't need to go. They also never got back with me about the lines in my nails or any of the symptoms I presented with, which I told them was probably from arsenic.
After I was let out of the mental health place, and even before, I was having pin prick sensations in my feet as well, which is also a symptom of arsenic.
Now, all of a sudden, within a couple of days, I have lumps growing on my head and I haven't hit my head on anything. There is nothing that I know of that allows this to happen this fast unless there is some abnormal swelling that will just go away on its own later.
Which is why I'm noting this, but I'm not going to run to the hospital over it.
Would have been too convenient, too, to have just had the Baptist church people visit last night to do the chapel and then have me running out to the Baptist hospital the next morning.
But yes, it's very distinct and noticeable, and I didn't have them before and I do now. There is no history of anything in my family so it's either the result of the technology complaints I made earlier or it is from a medication or substance that I was given.
If Vanderbilt hopes they get to coordinate an MRI with Baptist or any other medical group, they are going to be disappointed.
A Few Things
I had to pick up a few things and went to a clothing closet place. I really don't have money to spend on new things at this time and if I did, I would spend on my son first.
Underwear is not something I would take used (personally), but if things are cleaned up, and sanitized, clothing and shoes are. Depending upon things.
I don't imagine myself looking very good in blue. But I found out today, or was reminded that I do. My friend Monica always told me I should wear it more but I was drawn to warmer colors, although when I held up navy blue or powder blue, I was shocked to remember it looks good. I guess of course, with red hair, but I forget.
So I needed a dress, not having even one, or a skirt and the only one my size was the cobalt blue color. I sort of thought of the kate engagement color and then just now thought monica lewinsky but who cares. I don't have to associate any color with any person. There was even a cape lying around (I passed on the black cape with the blue dress ensemble idea). I just took the dress. And then I was trying to decide on black or white shoes with it and went with white although I gravitate to black.
The thing is, it's not fitted at the waist, which isn't as flattering for me. It had more of a baby doll fit with a shirred top and a draped cowl neck and then flowing skirt. I put it on and thought, "This is a good dress for pregnancy"--it looked sort of like a prego dress. The most fun thing to find out was that my legs looked halfway okay for my short stature. I didn't look very good in the dress until I put on the tall white leather heels with a fat strap around the ankle. All of a sudden, it looked good. Or, passable. Not what I might pick out at a store, but from what was there, I made it work. To me it looked very Greek. My happy moment was to, for a split second, feel shocked to see that the colors worked for me and it looked good.
The other thing I loved was the straight grey wool skirt with plain jane black heels. The waist fit and was fitted. I was going to pair it with a simple silk top (like the fushia one I have in Wenatchee but the silk tops were slightly too big and the cream one I liked I didn't have an undershirt for). So I just got it to pair with something in the future. I really like the classic knee-length, or just below the knee wool skirt. Always have.
Then I was going to pass on the patterned indian bohemian dress but I liked the design and then tried it on and it's another "good-for-being-pregnant" dress and not as flattering but I still liked the pattern and with shoes, it's a good summer and spring dress. I got a few pairs of shoes to figure out what to work with.
Then I also took a cobalt blue cashmere sweater along with a brown-wine cashmere sweater and just a couple of other things including an "O for Oliver" white tee with black and grey O's on it.
I also grabbed a pair of converse shoes because from the side they worked with the skinny jeans I have. I would have picked out a few different shoes if I had found a pair of loose, wide legged jeans, but there weren't any so I just worked with the ones I had.
I got converse, a few flats, mary janes, and heels.
It was sort of fun and I'm glad to have a few new (to me) things to sort from. There were more things I liked but I didn't want to take more than one small shopping sack out. I somehow managed to fit in about 6 prs of shoes (including sneakers and heels) and 2 dresses, a skirt, 3 sweaters, a long thick cotton scarf, and some shirts and socks into the bag. I mean, like a small plastic grocery shopping bag. I carried some flip flops I was given at the nuthouse in my other hand, with a cotton sweater over them. I have no clue how I managed to fit all of this into a tiny bag. I wasn't even rolling things up and stuffing it hard or placing items in strategically.
I figured a few things I can add to or just give away until I have working outfits. But I had wanted a skirt for church (when I'm able to go or for other things that are professional) and I like the wool one for this and then I got a fun dress (the cobalt blue one) to maybe just wear sometime when I'm bored of being dressed down.
And I'm ready to be pregnant again, apparently, as 2 of the 3 dresses/skirts have empire waistlines.
I didn't really pick it out this way, it's what was there, and I took it.
The other dresses were too large or very matronly.
I wanted a red sweater or something with the grey skirt, or black, cream or white, but I'll find it later. I think I have other options for now.
Anyway, I think I might have to check out one other pr. of shoes later if the others aren't comfortable for work.
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Oh! and I found out this guy Troy Shaw, well I was talking to my mother and I said I didn't know he was into British stuff, or I thought this and then my mother said to me, before I voiced this, that his brother Mark Shaw had started up all of these churches in Europe as a pastor. I said "Where? like England?" and she said "A lot of churches in Germany and Ukraine." And other places too. She said Troy was the music side (of the brothers) and Mark was the pastor side.
I said, "Ukraine? I don't really think of that as Europe". I do, but I always think "Eastern Europe" in my mind, or designate it like this.
At any rate, I'm wondering why I thought greek with the cobalt blue dress and white shoes so I have to look up flag for greece now.
Oh thank goodness. The flag is that same color of blue and white so I wasn't off base with my memory. Their motto, I just checked, is: Liberty or Death!
Give me liberty or give me death. This is a very serious proclamation when you think about it.
I then saw the day's features for wikipedia, which are on colombia, maya's, lighthouses, nasa, and lantern festivals. I should check in the future to see what the day's topics are bc it's kind of interesting. I need to get more things done right now though.
Underwear is not something I would take used (personally), but if things are cleaned up, and sanitized, clothing and shoes are. Depending upon things.
I don't imagine myself looking very good in blue. But I found out today, or was reminded that I do. My friend Monica always told me I should wear it more but I was drawn to warmer colors, although when I held up navy blue or powder blue, I was shocked to remember it looks good. I guess of course, with red hair, but I forget.
So I needed a dress, not having even one, or a skirt and the only one my size was the cobalt blue color. I sort of thought of the kate engagement color and then just now thought monica lewinsky but who cares. I don't have to associate any color with any person. There was even a cape lying around (I passed on the black cape with the blue dress ensemble idea). I just took the dress. And then I was trying to decide on black or white shoes with it and went with white although I gravitate to black.
The thing is, it's not fitted at the waist, which isn't as flattering for me. It had more of a baby doll fit with a shirred top and a draped cowl neck and then flowing skirt. I put it on and thought, "This is a good dress for pregnancy"--it looked sort of like a prego dress. The most fun thing to find out was that my legs looked halfway okay for my short stature. I didn't look very good in the dress until I put on the tall white leather heels with a fat strap around the ankle. All of a sudden, it looked good. Or, passable. Not what I might pick out at a store, but from what was there, I made it work. To me it looked very Greek. My happy moment was to, for a split second, feel shocked to see that the colors worked for me and it looked good.
The other thing I loved was the straight grey wool skirt with plain jane black heels. The waist fit and was fitted. I was going to pair it with a simple silk top (like the fushia one I have in Wenatchee but the silk tops were slightly too big and the cream one I liked I didn't have an undershirt for). So I just got it to pair with something in the future. I really like the classic knee-length, or just below the knee wool skirt. Always have.
Then I was going to pass on the patterned indian bohemian dress but I liked the design and then tried it on and it's another "good-for-being-pregnant" dress and not as flattering but I still liked the pattern and with shoes, it's a good summer and spring dress. I got a few pairs of shoes to figure out what to work with.
Then I also took a cobalt blue cashmere sweater along with a brown-wine cashmere sweater and just a couple of other things including an "O for Oliver" white tee with black and grey O's on it.
I also grabbed a pair of converse shoes because from the side they worked with the skinny jeans I have. I would have picked out a few different shoes if I had found a pair of loose, wide legged jeans, but there weren't any so I just worked with the ones I had.
I got converse, a few flats, mary janes, and heels.
It was sort of fun and I'm glad to have a few new (to me) things to sort from. There were more things I liked but I didn't want to take more than one small shopping sack out. I somehow managed to fit in about 6 prs of shoes (including sneakers and heels) and 2 dresses, a skirt, 3 sweaters, a long thick cotton scarf, and some shirts and socks into the bag. I mean, like a small plastic grocery shopping bag. I carried some flip flops I was given at the nuthouse in my other hand, with a cotton sweater over them. I have no clue how I managed to fit all of this into a tiny bag. I wasn't even rolling things up and stuffing it hard or placing items in strategically.
I figured a few things I can add to or just give away until I have working outfits. But I had wanted a skirt for church (when I'm able to go or for other things that are professional) and I like the wool one for this and then I got a fun dress (the cobalt blue one) to maybe just wear sometime when I'm bored of being dressed down.
And I'm ready to be pregnant again, apparently, as 2 of the 3 dresses/skirts have empire waistlines.
I didn't really pick it out this way, it's what was there, and I took it.
The other dresses were too large or very matronly.
I wanted a red sweater or something with the grey skirt, or black, cream or white, but I'll find it later. I think I have other options for now.
Anyway, I think I might have to check out one other pr. of shoes later if the others aren't comfortable for work.
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Oh! and I found out this guy Troy Shaw, well I was talking to my mother and I said I didn't know he was into British stuff, or I thought this and then my mother said to me, before I voiced this, that his brother Mark Shaw had started up all of these churches in Europe as a pastor. I said "Where? like England?" and she said "A lot of churches in Germany and Ukraine." And other places too. She said Troy was the music side (of the brothers) and Mark was the pastor side.
I said, "Ukraine? I don't really think of that as Europe". I do, but I always think "Eastern Europe" in my mind, or designate it like this.
At any rate, I'm wondering why I thought greek with the cobalt blue dress and white shoes so I have to look up flag for greece now.
Oh thank goodness. The flag is that same color of blue and white so I wasn't off base with my memory. Their motto, I just checked, is: Liberty or Death!
Give me liberty or give me death. This is a very serious proclamation when you think about it.
I then saw the day's features for wikipedia, which are on colombia, maya's, lighthouses, nasa, and lantern festivals. I should check in the future to see what the day's topics are bc it's kind of interesting. I need to get more things done right now though.
This Morning
This morning the verse I got was Psalm 18:2: The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower." It is a Psalm David made to God when he was delivered from Saul and his enemies and it goes on with several references about God being his rock. I looked up the verse in my own Bible and it is, from v.1-2, "I love you Oh Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold."
I guess the song that came to mind was an old hymn that stuck with me last night after chapel, 'Tis So Sweet To Trust In Jesus'. I tried to play it this morning and ended up on someone playing guitar and singing these lyrics to the tune of Dave Matthews' Crash Into Me:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oRonWZsSW_A
I looked up the hymn on wiki and this woman wrote the lyrics Louisa Stead, with music by William Kirkpatrick, after watching her husband die by drowning. Which is incredible because part of the lyrics talks about being plunged under the healing, cleansing blood of Jesus.
Good thing they didn't have insurance adjusters back then. (Bad quip). "Ms. Stead, could you tell us how you came to write such a song after your husband's death?" I guess she went on to write a collection on songs entitled "Songs of Triumph".
I can see the Scooby Doo "huh?" following this idea. A turn to the head, ears up, quizzical "HuuuUH?"
It is a good energy with this song I think. I looked at who posted it and found a small arrow on the side of friends for the poster and thought, "there is a small arrow I guess". I have still been wondering about what God giving me arrows is really supposed to mean. I have thought about the arrow pin I later saw in Queen E.'s hat and what it might symbolize, and arrows in the Bible, in U.S. eagle's fists, and in symbolism throughout cultures and I don't know exactly, yet, maybe. This is something else that I am positive no one "sent" to me. It came to me too quick, and I just know somehow, but I don't know what it means yet. I guess I question it more than the Obama femur thing bc no one could have played a photo of his femur at that moment, with the way it happened...no. If I am praying and ask God a question and get a kind of answer and it's quick, I question it a little more. What if I was praying and someone just caught it (received) and then sent something back quickly and it's not even from God exactly but someone just "sending"? But in general, I think I'm getting better clarification and discernment on these things, which is important. The first step for me was realizing and believing what is possible and then sorting through these possibilities. I guess I wondered what the arrow pin in E's hat meant bc it was the first thing I saw after I had this answer, was her arrow pin in the hat, so I thought it was coincidental and wouldn't have otherwise noticed if I hadn't been thinking about arrows. But I don't know that whatever meaning she has is the same as what the meaning God has for me is. But I still wondered bc I saw this arrow next. I once did a graphic design with an arrow and the word "truth" for a class in college, but just keeping all things in mind. I almost wonder if someone else will know what it means before I do, and it will be revealed to me later down the road. My first thoughts were war (winning the battle) or deciding factors (something to cut through or pin-point the matter) or children.
I read cnn news and clicked on the story about what happened with the CPS case first. Also looked at the line about revolution in the middle east and want to read more articles about what's going on over there. It must have a kind of exciting feel to be over there, but slightly dangerous too. In general, it seems to be mainly peaceful...considering the number of people who are involved. I also looked at the article by bbc about skulls used for drinking from, randomly, because I happened to wear a t-shirt this morning with a big skull (pirate style) head on it. So I was just curious about the article.
It's a candy cotton pink shirt. Not hot pink, more bubblegum/candy cotton pink and I hadn't wanted to wear it after one day seeing something at an FBI office in Nashville with a photo of someone with a blacked out tooth, and then thinking about how my own son got a blacked out tooth unnecessarily. But I put aside this connotation this morning and just wore it bc it's actually a decent color on me (soft pink, and fushias, not cool hot pinks--I'm a spring or fall on the color wheel chart (warm colors)). It says "Treasure Hunter" on it. I also didn't wear it thinking "Does this translate to 'Gold Digger'?" It's just a shirt, that I got from used clothes closet (shelter stuff) when I ended up here without anything but one change of clothes. I usually just like wearing things with no symbols or sayings on it but if it has something on it I always wonder what kind of msg it's sending out. Not obsessively, but in general. And then I think, oh, it's a decent design and just fun and who cares.
I also looked up Russia news this morning and something about power problems in an Archangel town. I think it translates to Archangel but I saw the Russian word for it and how they are getting power to it because it's been down. Last night in chapel the speaker talked about visiting Cuba and how the power gets shut off in churches randomly and people keep singing in the dark without missing a beat. It is to save money so sometimes there are power outages and churches have this happen first (for their priorities). Which I felt sad to hear but sort of neutral about. On one hand, it's not good, and for churches and worship of God, and then on the other hand, if a country is struggling and trying to be independent then maybe sometimes different measures are taken. I would hope it's not as a rule, or in times of prosperity, but only for emergency, is my feeling. But I don't know, bc I am not very politically minded and venturing thoughts on this isn't wise for me, in general, bc without knowing more about politics or circumstances, I probably don't have well-informed opinions.
Oh yeah, and by the way, I saw the spot of turquoise on the floor yesterday at the frame shop. And the astronaut photo. So tell me--will I be healthy, wealthy and wise?
Here is the next song I played from "Tis So Sweet To Trust In Jesus":
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5OULSMCKgA&NR=1
(by poster "sword66" and band "casting crowns")
I clicked on it and then right after I did, I made this connection that the colors on this screen, of yellow, red, blue, were just sent to me by my Mom. She sent me something warning about computer viruses and it was sent yesterday and she passed it on, from an old friend of my parents, and at the bottom there were 3 links in yellow, red, and blue. I wrote back asking "What is the british beats?" because one link had his name (in red, he's a musician and worship leader) and then the next link said "british beats" (in yellow) and then his myspace page (in blue) and then at the bottom his number in black. And his signature at the very top of this color scheme in gray. Oh my gosh, all the colors of the image on the screen for this song I'm playing now.
How WEIRD. I clicked on the link for british beats to answer my own question and here it is:
http://troyshawmusic.com/Troy_Shaw/The_British_Beats.html
The guys are wearing the same shirt as the man who was playing the first version of "Tis So Sweet To Trust In Jesus".
I guess it's not a secret then, to share his name, as he's a musician. It's Troy Shaw. He's been a family friend since before I was born and I remember visiting them as a little girl. I had no idea his current band was British or British influence. It's his band that is the British Beats.
I wish you could see the email I got and the color line up with what music video's I was playing at the moment.
Troy Shaw
TroyShawMusic.com
TheBritishBeats.com
MySpace-TroyShawMusic
425-373-6449
I just posted it but the color doesn't come through. However, the name was in gray, the second line in red, then yellow, then blue and then black for the number.
No wonder I felt good energy. For some weird reason.
It was a warning made by some guy, a brother of David, who is an advanced programmer at Microsoft.
I went back to reread Psalm 18 again. This is a powerful psalm. I sort of want to type out the whole thing again. It talks about arrows too.
Oh, the other weird thing is that the first video I clicked on this morning, with the man in black shirt playing, mentioned the movie Troy and the friend who sent this is named Troy.
And NO I am not schitzo. My whole family is and the rest of the world are though. I am the only sane person left on the planet (jk).
I guess the song that came to mind was an old hymn that stuck with me last night after chapel, 'Tis So Sweet To Trust In Jesus'. I tried to play it this morning and ended up on someone playing guitar and singing these lyrics to the tune of Dave Matthews' Crash Into Me:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oRonWZsSW_A
I looked up the hymn on wiki and this woman wrote the lyrics Louisa Stead, with music by William Kirkpatrick, after watching her husband die by drowning. Which is incredible because part of the lyrics talks about being plunged under the healing, cleansing blood of Jesus.
Good thing they didn't have insurance adjusters back then. (Bad quip). "Ms. Stead, could you tell us how you came to write such a song after your husband's death?" I guess she went on to write a collection on songs entitled "Songs of Triumph".
I can see the Scooby Doo "huh?" following this idea. A turn to the head, ears up, quizzical "HuuuUH?"
It is a good energy with this song I think. I looked at who posted it and found a small arrow on the side of friends for the poster and thought, "there is a small arrow I guess". I have still been wondering about what God giving me arrows is really supposed to mean. I have thought about the arrow pin I later saw in Queen E.'s hat and what it might symbolize, and arrows in the Bible, in U.S. eagle's fists, and in symbolism throughout cultures and I don't know exactly, yet, maybe. This is something else that I am positive no one "sent" to me. It came to me too quick, and I just know somehow, but I don't know what it means yet. I guess I question it more than the Obama femur thing bc no one could have played a photo of his femur at that moment, with the way it happened...no. If I am praying and ask God a question and get a kind of answer and it's quick, I question it a little more. What if I was praying and someone just caught it (received) and then sent something back quickly and it's not even from God exactly but someone just "sending"? But in general, I think I'm getting better clarification and discernment on these things, which is important. The first step for me was realizing and believing what is possible and then sorting through these possibilities. I guess I wondered what the arrow pin in E's hat meant bc it was the first thing I saw after I had this answer, was her arrow pin in the hat, so I thought it was coincidental and wouldn't have otherwise noticed if I hadn't been thinking about arrows. But I don't know that whatever meaning she has is the same as what the meaning God has for me is. But I still wondered bc I saw this arrow next. I once did a graphic design with an arrow and the word "truth" for a class in college, but just keeping all things in mind. I almost wonder if someone else will know what it means before I do, and it will be revealed to me later down the road. My first thoughts were war (winning the battle) or deciding factors (something to cut through or pin-point the matter) or children.
I read cnn news and clicked on the story about what happened with the CPS case first. Also looked at the line about revolution in the middle east and want to read more articles about what's going on over there. It must have a kind of exciting feel to be over there, but slightly dangerous too. In general, it seems to be mainly peaceful...considering the number of people who are involved. I also looked at the article by bbc about skulls used for drinking from, randomly, because I happened to wear a t-shirt this morning with a big skull (pirate style) head on it. So I was just curious about the article.
It's a candy cotton pink shirt. Not hot pink, more bubblegum/candy cotton pink and I hadn't wanted to wear it after one day seeing something at an FBI office in Nashville with a photo of someone with a blacked out tooth, and then thinking about how my own son got a blacked out tooth unnecessarily. But I put aside this connotation this morning and just wore it bc it's actually a decent color on me (soft pink, and fushias, not cool hot pinks--I'm a spring or fall on the color wheel chart (warm colors)). It says "Treasure Hunter" on it. I also didn't wear it thinking "Does this translate to 'Gold Digger'?" It's just a shirt, that I got from used clothes closet (shelter stuff) when I ended up here without anything but one change of clothes. I usually just like wearing things with no symbols or sayings on it but if it has something on it I always wonder what kind of msg it's sending out. Not obsessively, but in general. And then I think, oh, it's a decent design and just fun and who cares.
I also looked up Russia news this morning and something about power problems in an Archangel town. I think it translates to Archangel but I saw the Russian word for it and how they are getting power to it because it's been down. Last night in chapel the speaker talked about visiting Cuba and how the power gets shut off in churches randomly and people keep singing in the dark without missing a beat. It is to save money so sometimes there are power outages and churches have this happen first (for their priorities). Which I felt sad to hear but sort of neutral about. On one hand, it's not good, and for churches and worship of God, and then on the other hand, if a country is struggling and trying to be independent then maybe sometimes different measures are taken. I would hope it's not as a rule, or in times of prosperity, but only for emergency, is my feeling. But I don't know, bc I am not very politically minded and venturing thoughts on this isn't wise for me, in general, bc without knowing more about politics or circumstances, I probably don't have well-informed opinions.
Oh yeah, and by the way, I saw the spot of turquoise on the floor yesterday at the frame shop. And the astronaut photo. So tell me--will I be healthy, wealthy and wise?
Here is the next song I played from "Tis So Sweet To Trust In Jesus":
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y5OULSMCKgA&NR=1
(by poster "sword66" and band "casting crowns")
I clicked on it and then right after I did, I made this connection that the colors on this screen, of yellow, red, blue, were just sent to me by my Mom. She sent me something warning about computer viruses and it was sent yesterday and she passed it on, from an old friend of my parents, and at the bottom there were 3 links in yellow, red, and blue. I wrote back asking "What is the british beats?" because one link had his name (in red, he's a musician and worship leader) and then the next link said "british beats" (in yellow) and then his myspace page (in blue) and then at the bottom his number in black. And his signature at the very top of this color scheme in gray. Oh my gosh, all the colors of the image on the screen for this song I'm playing now.
How WEIRD. I clicked on the link for british beats to answer my own question and here it is:
http://troyshawmusic.com/Troy_Shaw/The_British_Beats.html
The guys are wearing the same shirt as the man who was playing the first version of "Tis So Sweet To Trust In Jesus".
I guess it's not a secret then, to share his name, as he's a musician. It's Troy Shaw. He's been a family friend since before I was born and I remember visiting them as a little girl. I had no idea his current band was British or British influence. It's his band that is the British Beats.
I wish you could see the email I got and the color line up with what music video's I was playing at the moment.
Troy Shaw
TroyShawMusic.com
TheBritishBeats.com
MySpace-TroyShawMusic
425-373-6449
I just posted it but the color doesn't come through. However, the name was in gray, the second line in red, then yellow, then blue and then black for the number.
No wonder I felt good energy. For some weird reason.
It was a warning made by some guy, a brother of David, who is an advanced programmer at Microsoft.
I went back to reread Psalm 18 again. This is a powerful psalm. I sort of want to type out the whole thing again. It talks about arrows too.
Oh, the other weird thing is that the first video I clicked on this morning, with the man in black shirt playing, mentioned the movie Troy and the friend who sent this is named Troy.
And NO I am not schitzo. My whole family is and the rest of the world are though. I am the only sane person left on the planet (jk).
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
This Morning & the Kidnapping of My Son & Obstruction by FBI
I guess I will look up the common prayers for today. Yesterday I read about Hezekiah (?) opening up the letter and setting it before the Lord to ask for advisement.
This made me think about how real the presence of God must have been, or the kind of rituals some perform, in addressing or communicating with God. It made me think about how I used to write letters to God when I was a little girl and then burned them so the ashes would rise to the sky, knowing of course, they were just going to the sky, but in a symbolic gesture. I never told anyone about it then, or until I was in my 30s and had a blog.
But it made me think about how the eyes of God were viewed to be right there, as if God was looking down or sitting next to him, and he was showing God something (when of course God already knows and doesn't have to be shown anything). But sort of laid it out for God to see, and then asking God what to do.
Then I came across the passage about freeing slaves after 7 years and that when those did this, they were blessed but when they went back against freeing them, they were cursed, and this from God to even his "chosen people" when they refused to follow through on the right decisions they had made.
This morning the verse I pulled from the Y basket was Deuteronomy 6:5, "And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, all thy soul, and all thy mind."
I looked up news and saw the other day how protests had broken out across the Middle East. Someone said the U.S. might have something similiar but we are too accustomed to stability. If it gets bad enough, I'm sure it will happen.
I just went to wikileaks and need to start looking at some of the items. I find it so ironic, the quote at the top, about how wiki is as important as the "Freedom of Information Act".
Ironic, because I made HOW MANY requests to the FBI for FOIA, and how often did they comply with the law?
Not once.
I was first making my FOIA requests in 2004, before I had even had my son, and before I and my son were then targeted and tortured.
I made over 10 requests, by U.S. mail, in writing. I did not get the infomration I was supposed to get, by law, EVER.
And then the FBI proceeded to defame me to Canada and then even in Nashville, directly had a part of my being sent to a mental ward and assaulted there.
I was tortured the most in Wenatchee, Wa. It was Washington state, and they covered it up. They almost killed me and my son, who was then a baby. And now I have an appeals lawyer who is no different from any of the other ones that get paid by Washington state.
The FBI should have protected me and my son. Instead, they allowed others to harm us and did the same, and covered up for themselves and others, and if there were good FBI, those GOOD agents were blocked right from the start.
My son will never be the same. I am not the same. And I expect someone to investigate CRIME and if the FBI is going to be considered as a criminal organization itself, it can allow those in charge and those who try to get ahead of my case, to keep the control to themselves.
I am making my report, in writing to the FBI, and I am copying some others about it. I expect a criminal investigation to follow and if it does not follow, the FBI will be investigated by higher authorities for being a criminal organization and obstructing justice and allowing assault and crime to occur against me and my son. I expect to have my son back, not because of some appeals case that has no evidence in the record, to support me, for the public to see.
I expect to have my son returned to me because he was KIDNAPPED from me by the U.S. government who took charge of his guardianship into their own corrupt hands, and blocked me from getting my son back while they allowed others to USE both of us.
I expect those who colluded to have me SET UP to be falsely arrested so my son could appear to be legally taken, charged with crime and that includes FBI and anyone else who was involved.
You are not above the law.
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I then took a bus to a cafe I go to and they had the wifi shut off. It's a cafe where it is always on, and not shut off ever. I had to ask several of the employees, one right after the other, to just turn it on. I was very polite the first couple of times and then after having to go to the 5th person when all they had to do was flip a switch and instead made me wait for over 30-45 minutes, I said to the manager, when he said he had a business to run: "part of what your business offers is wifi." Not only did I know it was off and not a problem with not working, I knew someone had known or expected me to go in and it was off on purpose. Why I was forced to go to so many different people to just have it turned on, is beyond me, unless someone was deliberately trying to provoke me to get a reaction or wanted me to leave so I could be followed all over again, to some other place that has wifi. I mean followed all over again, because I'm not exactly anonymous anymore. I have people following me no matter where I go. Hopefully some to make sure I'm just safe. I didn't get angry, I was just terse and made the comment about what the business is supposed to offer, after I had to go to the 5th person and up to a number of registers. This one guy started saying, "Maybe it's just down right now." I said, "It's not down and I know it's not down. It's OFF and it just needs to be turned on." It's not that big of a deal, except that it was unnecessary and deliberate, and anything that is deliberate becomes a bigger deal.
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I have not had any impressions lately (I take that back, not a lot, or of the same genre, at least intentionally). I have not tried to focus or think about what someone is wearing for months. I thought it was interesting at first and it sort of freaked me out, but I'm not getting paid to make guesses and why do I need to know what someone is wearing? I sort of satisfied my own curiosity about possibilities I guess. Some things, I believe, are grasped by receiving projections and then I know for sure that some things I got, there is no possible way any human being could have given me the information. No one was reading my thoughts and sending me the information. It happens, but I discovered this was not the case all the time. One of the biggest ones was Obama's femur. Seriously. I knew without any shadow of doubt that no one read me and then tried to project this to me. A couple of days ago, I wondered briefly about someone in Wenatchee and thought he was wearing a yellow shirt. I don't think I've seen him in yellow before but that is what I sort of thought but I was too disinterested to focus or think about it.
I had a dream about a coworker and I feel some of my dreams are projections and others are just subconscious nonsense and then even others are important messages. It's hard to discern all the time but with the important ones I sort of sense more of a significance.
I can't remember the last time I laughed while reading the Bible, except that I get a kick out of Job now and then, from an empathetic standpoint. But a few nights ago, right after my Mom had been talking about Joseph and his brothers, I randomly turned to this while in bed and right at the part where he is telling his brothers about his dreams and I laughed right out loud and didn't even expect to. I don't know why, but it struck me as so funny this last time, this idea of Joseph saying, wide-eyed and unthinking, "Hey GUYS, guess what?! I had this dream that we all had sheaves of wheat and your sheaves all bowed down to MY sheaf!" And then the other one, I laughed at that dream too.
The other thing I saw, in connection with someone royal, or flashing through briefly when I thought about something to do with someone royal, was of some kind of piece of green glass. But I have absolutely no clue what it was about. I don't know if it is something one of them owns, or was given, or saw, or if, randomly, some other idea just happened to flash up to me when I barely thought something. I wasn't thinking of anything important. I just saw what looked like clear green glass. I felt, in that moment, it had to do with them bc that's when I saw it, but I might be wrong. It wasn't super pale green, it was about medium to darker in hue, and clear, not opaque glass. I was walking and I wasn't talking to anyone, it just sort of flashed in front of me. My idea, after seeing it, was that it was given to someone as a gift, but I might be wrong. I thought it had something to do with Valentines Day bc I'm pretty sure that's the day I saw this. Maybe it was just in the surroundings, or maybe someone projected it--I don't know. I only know for sure that it was clear green glass of some kind.
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While sitting I met a man who asked if I was Russian. I haven't heard that in a really long time. I said no and he said I had the same features. He said his wife was Ukrainian. I then heard him speak Russian and it sounded perfect even though I don't know how I would know, bc I don't hear it very much. But then he said it was interesting I said so bc her father, who is Russian, heard him and thought the same thing. He told me about some famous Russian music, that is pop oriented, and has the metaphor of rain being played by strings of the wind. I asked him how he had met his wife and he said they wrote letters.
After he left I turned to the Bible, not trying to get anything, but just reading bc I was waiting for wifi to come back up again and I turned to Psalm 107 and then I opened up to a passage about brothers and letters.
I Thessalonians 5:25-28: "Brothers, pray for us. Greet all the brothers with a holy kiss. I charge you before the Lord to have this letter read to all the brothers. The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you."
Then I met a man who was having problems with his internet connection who sold Bibles for a time and I tried to help him with the internet but didn't know how to fix it (it wasn't just a simple task, at least not for me) and then he gave me the website 3ABN which is a broadcasting channel for pastors and missionaries. He had gone to med school but had a calling for ministry he said. So I typed it in and it has Russian stuff too.
Which, I suppose, makes me think about these Ukraine/Russian brothers, one who is going to missions I guess. I mean, naturally, I think of this.
I had started to feel a sad or bad vibe about 1 or 1:30, for some reason and called to find out how my son was doing. I just sensed a shift in something and it worried me because I didn't know who was affected by what. I think I didn't feel any better after I had just dropped a knife I used for my cherry pastry right at the foot of the guy with the Russian accent. I thought, "Not good" (it was still red with cherry stuff on it probably) and then called about my son and he was "listening to music". I said what and was told, "3 blind mice (see how they run, they all ran after the farmer's wife who cut off their tails with a carving knife...)...
I am not making a lot about nothing and I'm not superstitious but I felt disconcerted to drop a knife and think about it and then find out my son was listening to a song about knives. I don't want my son to hear that song! I don't care if it's a nursery rhyme
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The green glass, might have had facets but I don't know. I am only sure of the color and that it was clear. I don't think it was a piece of jewelry bc it seemed larger, like the size of a cup or small bowl or item but I really do not know. It was just a flash and knowing of green, and glass, and clear.
No, I can't look.
I went to the English monarchy website page for the first time in almost a month (?) and saw Q. Elizabeth's turquoise dress (same color as the flecks of paint I cleaned the other day)and pin, and then saw a line about Prince William being appointed a guard of irish something or other and I just had to click out.
I am almost afraid of finding out something is right again.
It could have been something with someone else though. That's the thing. Okay, okay, it came to mind when I thought about William. But it was a very quick passing general thought and I was thinking about all of them, literally. The minute that I saw the green glass impression was with him though, but it could have been mixed up with time.
I'm too weirded out to know. I read this line now about him and something Irish and this makes me think green and I just can't know.
I don't want to be tortured again, by the way, or targeted by the voodoo people.
I am not trying to see anything. Maybe it was someone else though, and it just coincided, the picture flash, with something I picked up from someone else.
At first I thought maybe it was green carnival glass, an antique or vintage kind of glass that was being used and then I wondered if it was some kind of gift made of green glass that William gave Kate for V day because I saw it on V day and it happened to coincide with a passing thought about this family and when I got to him. I'm 100% positive it was glass and not plastic and not opaque. My mother collects a green kind of vintage glass that is opaque and sort of a cream-green color and this was not it at all.
It was some kind of variant of this level of hue:
http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.imageabstraction.com/gallery/photos/14/med_20081118-green-glass-pattern.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.imageabstraction.com/gallery/pic.php%3Fid%3D223&usg=__iMzX-w-KFsBKC4hpaXCON5ZCT30=&h=420&w=560&sz=51&hl=en&start=0&zoom=1&tbnid=Efl3oTKmPoZreM:&tbnh=165&tbnw=220&ei=Sz5cTdxRwveAB6u11L0M&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dgreen%2Bglass%2Bimages%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26sa%3DX%26rlz%3D1T4ACAW_enUS404US404%26biw%3D739%26bih%3D310%26tbs%3Disch:10%2C25&um=1&itbs=1&iact=hc&vpx=379&vpy=70&dur=62&hovh=194&hovw=259&tx=67&ty=190&oei=4D1cTe35DIGclgf9-9DlCQ&page=1&ndsp=3&ved=1t:429,r:1,s:0&biw=739&bih=310.
Could have been slightly different shade but this is the level of hue (is that correct...hue? for light, medium, dark?) and could have been darker but it was clear glass as this is clear. When I saw it in connection with William, it made me think, "Why did I see this green glass?" I thought of him first and then the glass came up. So since it was Valentine's Day, I thought, "maybe he gave something to Kate that was made out of green glass?" or thought he had been around something green.
I was attempting to have any impressions or images at all. I didn't pray about it, or think very hard at all. It was idle musings while I walked back, I think Valentines Day, at night, after I got off work. Which was between 11 and 12 p.m. my time, CST. This was what time I was walking.
I thought about my son, my family, the current events, and a whole bunch of things but I got the impression when I drifted to William, but I'm trying to figure it out as much as anyone else, because it's possible I got it from someone else, who is connected I guess. I don't know why I got it at all.
But then when I went to a byline about how William was named Colonel of Irish Guard, which makes me think green, I just do not even want to know.
It's where, I am picking out menus and don't know why and then realize, I am freaking myself out and I don't care to notice if I am wrong or right about what I get.
I don't know if anyone ever feels this way...curious to a point and then when struck by the idea of getting close, freaks out? Hmm, what's around the corner???...OH...MY...GOSH....
I DON"T KNOW IF I WANT TO KNOW!
I don't even want to know, right now, when he became this colonel and how long ago or how recent it was. Some other day (when I work up the nerve).
This made me think about how real the presence of God must have been, or the kind of rituals some perform, in addressing or communicating with God. It made me think about how I used to write letters to God when I was a little girl and then burned them so the ashes would rise to the sky, knowing of course, they were just going to the sky, but in a symbolic gesture. I never told anyone about it then, or until I was in my 30s and had a blog.
But it made me think about how the eyes of God were viewed to be right there, as if God was looking down or sitting next to him, and he was showing God something (when of course God already knows and doesn't have to be shown anything). But sort of laid it out for God to see, and then asking God what to do.
Then I came across the passage about freeing slaves after 7 years and that when those did this, they were blessed but when they went back against freeing them, they were cursed, and this from God to even his "chosen people" when they refused to follow through on the right decisions they had made.
This morning the verse I pulled from the Y basket was Deuteronomy 6:5, "And thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thine heart, all thy soul, and all thy mind."
I looked up news and saw the other day how protests had broken out across the Middle East. Someone said the U.S. might have something similiar but we are too accustomed to stability. If it gets bad enough, I'm sure it will happen.
I just went to wikileaks and need to start looking at some of the items. I find it so ironic, the quote at the top, about how wiki is as important as the "Freedom of Information Act".
Ironic, because I made HOW MANY requests to the FBI for FOIA, and how often did they comply with the law?
Not once.
I was first making my FOIA requests in 2004, before I had even had my son, and before I and my son were then targeted and tortured.
I made over 10 requests, by U.S. mail, in writing. I did not get the infomration I was supposed to get, by law, EVER.
And then the FBI proceeded to defame me to Canada and then even in Nashville, directly had a part of my being sent to a mental ward and assaulted there.
I was tortured the most in Wenatchee, Wa. It was Washington state, and they covered it up. They almost killed me and my son, who was then a baby. And now I have an appeals lawyer who is no different from any of the other ones that get paid by Washington state.
The FBI should have protected me and my son. Instead, they allowed others to harm us and did the same, and covered up for themselves and others, and if there were good FBI, those GOOD agents were blocked right from the start.
My son will never be the same. I am not the same. And I expect someone to investigate CRIME and if the FBI is going to be considered as a criminal organization itself, it can allow those in charge and those who try to get ahead of my case, to keep the control to themselves.
I am making my report, in writing to the FBI, and I am copying some others about it. I expect a criminal investigation to follow and if it does not follow, the FBI will be investigated by higher authorities for being a criminal organization and obstructing justice and allowing assault and crime to occur against me and my son. I expect to have my son back, not because of some appeals case that has no evidence in the record, to support me, for the public to see.
I expect to have my son returned to me because he was KIDNAPPED from me by the U.S. government who took charge of his guardianship into their own corrupt hands, and blocked me from getting my son back while they allowed others to USE both of us.
I expect those who colluded to have me SET UP to be falsely arrested so my son could appear to be legally taken, charged with crime and that includes FBI and anyone else who was involved.
You are not above the law.
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I then took a bus to a cafe I go to and they had the wifi shut off. It's a cafe where it is always on, and not shut off ever. I had to ask several of the employees, one right after the other, to just turn it on. I was very polite the first couple of times and then after having to go to the 5th person when all they had to do was flip a switch and instead made me wait for over 30-45 minutes, I said to the manager, when he said he had a business to run: "part of what your business offers is wifi." Not only did I know it was off and not a problem with not working, I knew someone had known or expected me to go in and it was off on purpose. Why I was forced to go to so many different people to just have it turned on, is beyond me, unless someone was deliberately trying to provoke me to get a reaction or wanted me to leave so I could be followed all over again, to some other place that has wifi. I mean followed all over again, because I'm not exactly anonymous anymore. I have people following me no matter where I go. Hopefully some to make sure I'm just safe. I didn't get angry, I was just terse and made the comment about what the business is supposed to offer, after I had to go to the 5th person and up to a number of registers. This one guy started saying, "Maybe it's just down right now." I said, "It's not down and I know it's not down. It's OFF and it just needs to be turned on." It's not that big of a deal, except that it was unnecessary and deliberate, and anything that is deliberate becomes a bigger deal.
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I have not had any impressions lately (I take that back, not a lot, or of the same genre, at least intentionally). I have not tried to focus or think about what someone is wearing for months. I thought it was interesting at first and it sort of freaked me out, but I'm not getting paid to make guesses and why do I need to know what someone is wearing? I sort of satisfied my own curiosity about possibilities I guess. Some things, I believe, are grasped by receiving projections and then I know for sure that some things I got, there is no possible way any human being could have given me the information. No one was reading my thoughts and sending me the information. It happens, but I discovered this was not the case all the time. One of the biggest ones was Obama's femur. Seriously. I knew without any shadow of doubt that no one read me and then tried to project this to me. A couple of days ago, I wondered briefly about someone in Wenatchee and thought he was wearing a yellow shirt. I don't think I've seen him in yellow before but that is what I sort of thought but I was too disinterested to focus or think about it.
I had a dream about a coworker and I feel some of my dreams are projections and others are just subconscious nonsense and then even others are important messages. It's hard to discern all the time but with the important ones I sort of sense more of a significance.
I can't remember the last time I laughed while reading the Bible, except that I get a kick out of Job now and then, from an empathetic standpoint. But a few nights ago, right after my Mom had been talking about Joseph and his brothers, I randomly turned to this while in bed and right at the part where he is telling his brothers about his dreams and I laughed right out loud and didn't even expect to. I don't know why, but it struck me as so funny this last time, this idea of Joseph saying, wide-eyed and unthinking, "Hey GUYS, guess what?! I had this dream that we all had sheaves of wheat and your sheaves all bowed down to MY sheaf!" And then the other one, I laughed at that dream too.
The other thing I saw, in connection with someone royal, or flashing through briefly when I thought about something to do with someone royal, was of some kind of piece of green glass. But I have absolutely no clue what it was about. I don't know if it is something one of them owns, or was given, or saw, or if, randomly, some other idea just happened to flash up to me when I barely thought something. I wasn't thinking of anything important. I just saw what looked like clear green glass. I felt, in that moment, it had to do with them bc that's when I saw it, but I might be wrong. It wasn't super pale green, it was about medium to darker in hue, and clear, not opaque glass. I was walking and I wasn't talking to anyone, it just sort of flashed in front of me. My idea, after seeing it, was that it was given to someone as a gift, but I might be wrong. I thought it had something to do with Valentines Day bc I'm pretty sure that's the day I saw this. Maybe it was just in the surroundings, or maybe someone projected it--I don't know. I only know for sure that it was clear green glass of some kind.
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While sitting I met a man who asked if I was Russian. I haven't heard that in a really long time. I said no and he said I had the same features. He said his wife was Ukrainian. I then heard him speak Russian and it sounded perfect even though I don't know how I would know, bc I don't hear it very much. But then he said it was interesting I said so bc her father, who is Russian, heard him and thought the same thing. He told me about some famous Russian music, that is pop oriented, and has the metaphor of rain being played by strings of the wind. I asked him how he had met his wife and he said they wrote letters.
After he left I turned to the Bible, not trying to get anything, but just reading bc I was waiting for wifi to come back up again and I turned to Psalm 107 and then I opened up to a passage about brothers and letters.
I Thessalonians 5:25-28: "Brothers, pray for us. Greet all the brothers with a holy kiss. I charge you before the Lord to have this letter read to all the brothers. The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you."
Then I met a man who was having problems with his internet connection who sold Bibles for a time and I tried to help him with the internet but didn't know how to fix it (it wasn't just a simple task, at least not for me) and then he gave me the website 3ABN which is a broadcasting channel for pastors and missionaries. He had gone to med school but had a calling for ministry he said. So I typed it in and it has Russian stuff too.
Which, I suppose, makes me think about these Ukraine/Russian brothers, one who is going to missions I guess. I mean, naturally, I think of this.
I had started to feel a sad or bad vibe about 1 or 1:30, for some reason and called to find out how my son was doing. I just sensed a shift in something and it worried me because I didn't know who was affected by what. I think I didn't feel any better after I had just dropped a knife I used for my cherry pastry right at the foot of the guy with the Russian accent. I thought, "Not good" (it was still red with cherry stuff on it probably) and then called about my son and he was "listening to music". I said what and was told, "3 blind mice (see how they run, they all ran after the farmer's wife who cut off their tails with a carving knife...)...
I am not making a lot about nothing and I'm not superstitious but I felt disconcerted to drop a knife and think about it and then find out my son was listening to a song about knives. I don't want my son to hear that song! I don't care if it's a nursery rhyme
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The green glass, might have had facets but I don't know. I am only sure of the color and that it was clear. I don't think it was a piece of jewelry bc it seemed larger, like the size of a cup or small bowl or item but I really do not know. It was just a flash and knowing of green, and glass, and clear.
No, I can't look.
I went to the English monarchy website page for the first time in almost a month (?) and saw Q. Elizabeth's turquoise dress (same color as the flecks of paint I cleaned the other day)and pin, and then saw a line about Prince William being appointed a guard of irish something or other and I just had to click out.
I am almost afraid of finding out something is right again.
It could have been something with someone else though. That's the thing. Okay, okay, it came to mind when I thought about William. But it was a very quick passing general thought and I was thinking about all of them, literally. The minute that I saw the green glass impression was with him though, but it could have been mixed up with time.
I'm too weirded out to know. I read this line now about him and something Irish and this makes me think green and I just can't know.
I don't want to be tortured again, by the way, or targeted by the voodoo people.
I am not trying to see anything. Maybe it was someone else though, and it just coincided, the picture flash, with something I picked up from someone else.
At first I thought maybe it was green carnival glass, an antique or vintage kind of glass that was being used and then I wondered if it was some kind of gift made of green glass that William gave Kate for V day because I saw it on V day and it happened to coincide with a passing thought about this family and when I got to him. I'm 100% positive it was glass and not plastic and not opaque. My mother collects a green kind of vintage glass that is opaque and sort of a cream-green color and this was not it at all.
It was some kind of variant of this level of hue:
http://www.google.com/imgres?imgurl=http://www.imageabstraction.com/gallery/photos/14/med_20081118-green-glass-pattern.jpg&imgrefurl=http://www.imageabstraction.com/gallery/pic.php%3Fid%3D223&usg=__iMzX-w-KFsBKC4hpaXCON5ZCT30=&h=420&w=560&sz=51&hl=en&start=0&zoom=1&tbnid=Efl3oTKmPoZreM:&tbnh=165&tbnw=220&ei=Sz5cTdxRwveAB6u11L0M&prev=/images%3Fq%3Dgreen%2Bglass%2Bimages%26um%3D1%26hl%3Den%26sa%3DX%26rlz%3D1T4ACAW_enUS404US404%26biw%3D739%26bih%3D310%26tbs%3Disch:10%2C25&um=1&itbs=1&iact=hc&vpx=379&vpy=70&dur=62&hovh=194&hovw=259&tx=67&ty=190&oei=4D1cTe35DIGclgf9-9DlCQ&page=1&ndsp=3&ved=1t:429,r:1,s:0&biw=739&bih=310.
Could have been slightly different shade but this is the level of hue (is that correct...hue? for light, medium, dark?) and could have been darker but it was clear glass as this is clear. When I saw it in connection with William, it made me think, "Why did I see this green glass?" I thought of him first and then the glass came up. So since it was Valentine's Day, I thought, "maybe he gave something to Kate that was made out of green glass?" or thought he had been around something green.
I was attempting to have any impressions or images at all. I didn't pray about it, or think very hard at all. It was idle musings while I walked back, I think Valentines Day, at night, after I got off work. Which was between 11 and 12 p.m. my time, CST. This was what time I was walking.
I thought about my son, my family, the current events, and a whole bunch of things but I got the impression when I drifted to William, but I'm trying to figure it out as much as anyone else, because it's possible I got it from someone else, who is connected I guess. I don't know why I got it at all.
But then when I went to a byline about how William was named Colonel of Irish Guard, which makes me think green, I just do not even want to know.
It's where, I am picking out menus and don't know why and then realize, I am freaking myself out and I don't care to notice if I am wrong or right about what I get.
I don't know if anyone ever feels this way...curious to a point and then when struck by the idea of getting close, freaks out? Hmm, what's around the corner???...OH...MY...GOSH....
I DON"T KNOW IF I WANT TO KNOW!
I don't even want to know, right now, when he became this colonel and how long ago or how recent it was. Some other day (when I work up the nerve).
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