Announcement: Not Posting Comments (UPDATE)

This is an announcement that I am not going to be posting comments for awhile. I won't delete them, I will save them in my mailbox and possibly post at a later date. I will also attempt to go through my backlog of comments that need to be posted from the past, which got lost and then I haven't gotten through. If someone has something to post to me or email me about, with regard to evidence about those responsible for torturing me and/or my son, please feel free to email or send a comment and mark it "private". It won't be "private" because people read my mail, but I won't publish it online if you mark it this way. I am preparing for putting up youtube clips to familiarize people with who I am and I am considering streamin cam but might not do this. I am then planning to go on a hunger strike which I will document online. I am taking a break from publishing comments because I am also minimizing how many posts I make and I am trying to put the focus on torture and evidence of this. I am not in the mood to pretend like this has not been serious. This has ruined 10 years of my life, and has resulted in severe and excruciating torture for over 7 years. My son was kidnapped from me. There is no hope in the justice system. There is NO "hope". I do not have mental illness--I have been cut into with a knife, by people who knew people I thought were friends. They were not friends. I have had implants put into my body, and then been forced to work for others who observed me for my reactions to torture, triggered from remote locations. I have been tortured out of everything good and normal in life, including my own son. I have been held hostage in this country and forced to witness the State and federal agents bring my son to me, in visits, tortured and with evidence of torture, while Mormon police officers and other officers lied about it. UPDATED 3/22/2012 I wanted to let you know I haven't looked at the comment made by someone, about DHS. It was porn and I clicked it out right after it came up bc I was surprised by it. I was going to look, thinking maybe there is some message in it, but if you have a message, please send it in non-porn form, if possible. I found out later my son got up early and was watching t.v. and it was something "inappropriate" and I just have to avoid this right now. I do think I get some of the idea though...that DHS is involved in filming me (in past) or is involved with porn in some way. DHS as in Department of Homeland Security? or Department of Health? I'm thinking Dept. of Homeland Security. I thought of this tonight when I saw there is news of P. Harry nude with nude women in Vegas. I thought "Oh no." and I laughed, but I can't look at it, just as I can't look at these porn notes. But it was a good idea for a message.

For Person who commented on deleted videoclip..

There were a couple of comments but I retracted the post and deleted the clip as I didn't like how the focus shifted. I am going to completely delete this reply but in case the person who just wrote me is still awake, the one who explained nearsightedness vs farsightedness, I wanted to clarify. Hello, Yes, I do know. I know the difference between the two, and no, I didn't see the string by my face any of the times it showed up. Anyone who is very gifted psychicly and close to God (or not, just gifted) will tell you this is the truth. Why I didn't see it, I have no idea. Feeling like blind brenda here. It's obvious when looking at me, and on playback and even slightly dangles torward my face. But I didn't see it because I was thinking about what to say as I didn't have a script and felt nervous, and never do anything in front of cameras. And then what I meant by I didn't see it, is what I used to try to see if my face was in the frame or not, was the side viewer thing on the webcam. So I would set the cam down and hope it's pointing at the wall. Then I had to jump over there, and I was looking at the side viewer (which I flipped to face me bc you can do that with this cam) to see if my face was centered in the frame. From that distance, where I was, I could see the outline of my face and eyes and things, but details were all blurry. I am unfortunately, nearsighted. Oh well! No, I did think it was very bizarre what I found when I then played it back and each time, God knows, I never intended it. It's not a big deal, probably but was just weird when I found what stood out. I'm not into manufacturing things or trying for artifice or contrived things. I try or attempt to retain some dignity, but I feel it is dishonoring God to not have faith to let things fall where they may. Of course, I plan and make intentions for my life, and for larger things, but incidentals, are part of God's work I think, not mine. I am not the one who would be interested in outmatching someone in "psychic chess". Also, the clip that was removed from my cam, I saw it and at one point, it actually looked like I was looking at it, which I thought was strange because I never saw it. I had to have been looking out the window and it just looked like my gaze was on the thread, but no, I never saw it, any of the times, and there wasn't any intention or artifice on my part. My make up? Oh yeah, artifice! I mean, have to spare all of you a sorry sight. But anything else, no. Even where I chose to do it, it was the only place I could. The cam doesn't zoom out enough. I had it several feet away, out of the room even, and still my face was too close, but it was the only place in the house which that much space. I had it propped up on a chair on a tall stack of books.

Videoclip of me speaking about torture

http://youtu.be/jX6UQ_Cz3Kc This is the link to the first video of me speaking about being tortured in the U.S. Pardon my dirty nails, I was gardening without gloves, and pardon the crying because I am not yet comfortable about trying to edit and cut out parts of a clip. Thanks. I am real. My son is real. Torture is real. Since I made the last video and started putting it together to upload, I've been tortured. I went over to my parent's house and the same thing is happening there. My chest and ribs has been suctioned in where my heart is and I was wondering if it only happened to me and then I saw my Dad's chest was abnormally concave there too. He had been lying back in a chair with a hand over the area and another hand over his head, on top of his head. When he moved his hand, it was concave. The dog was shaking and being tortured along with my parents. It doesn't matter what I try to do, the U.S. allows a group to ruin all of my efforts. If I am self-studying math, they torture me with military technology. This happened the first time I did this. Then I was in college and there was less torture but the computer problems were atrocious and I got my books late. Then, all of these people knew I was going to self-study to get ahead in math again, and since June 25th, I was brutally tortured. They cut me out of financial aid after making promises and then tortured me to keep me from studying math and testing out of lower math classes. Some of these people want me to take lower math classes, just to waste my money and have low level classes on my transcript. Anything I do that shows what I can really, or actually do, has been obstructed with by use of military technology. Even my garden, and ability to weed and keep up was affected by the extreme torture. This country has been allowing a criminal group of United States authorities and officials, to commit crimes against me for reasons of keeping me down, making me look stupid, trying to rewrite history, and looking for their own justification of false statements. All that they've done, during this time, is lie about me, to discredit me, and call me mentally ill when I'm not. So I am thinking of streaming myself. I tried to do it before they took my son, or terminated parental rights, and police stole my camera and everytime I tried a streaming program, I got shut down. The one I was trying to use, that was "free to anyone" was, I found out, based in the UK, with United Kingdom military. It seems to me that a segment of UK military has colluded with a segment of U.S. military, for purposes of torturing me and my son. I also found links between UK scientists and US scientists, in their sharing of delight over torturing both me and my brother. I am not saying all US military or UK are like that, but there is a high level group that's been working together. What would I have to stream about myself? It would be more of a disgrace, to show where I am and how I never go out. That has nothing to do with "mental illness" however, but has to do with being tired from effects of torture all night, ALL NIGHT sometimes for weeks, and with sometimes not feeling like being stalked by people who just want to plot and predict my every step along the road. I tried streaming myself earlier because I knew it would contradict everything the "professionals" that WA hired. There was no mental illness, and showing this on a day to day basis, proved them liars and proved I was being set up and discredited. Now, it would only prove, still, that I'm not mentally ill and I could at least use this as a basis for sharing how this is how I've always been, and all this time the United States was writing lies about me, and documenting it as if it was the truth when they knew it was a lie. I am therefore thinking about doing it, if only to show I am not mentally ill and that when I am then talking about people I've been forced to work for, it's not delusion. It's not mental illness--it's the truth. When I start bringing up the FBI or Judges and things they did that were illegal, when I'm speaking, it will be clearly coming from someone who has zero signs of mental illness. On one hand, I don't want more of my life documented for the work of people who have tortured me and my son. On the other hand, why should they continue to get away with lies about me, and ruin my life and keep my son from me? So maybe this is what I will do, before I go on a hunger strike. And then if someone wants to know what a hunger strike looks like, look on. Hasn't the Federal Government been looking in on me for too long already, and then twisting it to suit their own agenda? They have watched my being tortured and they watched as my son was tortured. They watched torture of a child as if they were putting ameobas into a petri dish. To them, it's nothing. Who cares is I die either. Does it really matter? If anything, it will be less money for this country to rake in for slave labor of their own citizen, and if I choose not to die (and I can do it if I want to, in this state, because they allow it), out of the idea my son might be returned, at least I will show how much of a "drug addict" I am. People who are food addicts, drug addicts, and any other kind of addict, cannot choose a hunger strike for themselves successfully. To go on a fast or hunger strike, it requires self-control and determination of will. If you don't have a strong will, you can't do it. (do it Kate...I dare ya) You can find people who have a "disorder" of "anorexia" but that's not a self-determined fast nor does it have anything to do with willpower. Anorexia has to do with flawed ideas of self-image and the attempt to improve this flawed perception, or with peer pressure from society, and sometimes it has to do with being a person that needs to feel some sense of control. So then if they want to regain control, they might quit eating, but it's not an actual "plan". It's more of a subconscious thing that happens. Choosing to fast, with a plan and reason, or choosing a hunger strike, is different. It is only about philosophical and willful intent, and a plan, and control for a specific period of time. I already know I look older and less attractive at my current weight, and part of this is weight, but part of it is the effects of torture and having been drugged and medicated various times. I don't think or imagine a hunger strike will make me prettier or more appealing. Usually, no one cares either. How many people go on hunger strikes, and how many people care? Unless it is a group of people, usually no one cares at all. Maybe if someone sees me, gaunt as an Auschwitz survivor, telling the streaming camera that actually, "I feel better now at 70 lbs than I ever did when I was 120 lbs and tortured by the U.S. government" will make someone think twice. Then again, this country could torture me at 70 lbs or 80 or 90 lbs, and hope to kill me and blame heart failure. They've already been working at it. At least, if you think about it...who usually goes on a hunger strike? Prisoners do. Prisoners who are tortured or beaten go on hunger strikes. Prisoners who are innocent go on hunger strikes. And mothers whose babies have been held hostage go on hunger strikes. No one goes on a hunger strike without a very good reason. A hunger strike is a conscious act, not a mental disorder. How about those who have had control over torturing me...When is the last time you demonstrated any self-control and went on a hunger strike? You never will, because you are cowards who use anonymity to get away with crimes of torture.

Herod and the Star (song idea) & Drained Batteries

It's not very good. First draft, and too slow, and no background guitar. Also, my ennunciation of "star" is too twangy a couple of times. But it's more of an expression song. I have another one which I came up with in the garden while listening to jazz and then recorded a short part to a different jazz song playing in the background and it worked for an idea. But then my voice recorder, which I had just opened up, ran out of battery charge. It takes a AA or AAA battery and it was a little RCA handheld with a battery that should have lasted several weeks and it quit after 30 minutes. I think it was less than that possibly. It was sort of like the battery was drained before it was even really used at all. Which is what used to happen to my cars all the time. It's sort of Billy Holiday style. I'll upload it when I can. My voice recorder, which is only battery operated, was drained of battery power in less than 30 minutes. My webcam battery, which is supposed to last a half hour at least, has been drained many times in 5 minutes or less, shutting down and forcing me to plug into an outlet. When this was being done to 3 of my vehicles (all different vehicles owned at different times) I was nearly killed while driving. It was being done for about 1 year, but mostly from 2003-2005, inbetween the time when a hit-and-run collision failed to kill me, and before the FBI and police colluded with a Judge to block me from commuting from WA to OR for college by falsely suspending my license. While I was commuting it didn't occur. It always happened in Portland, Tigard, Tualatin area. So the draining of my car battery was always done locally, which is when I still had both of my lawsuits pending.

Char's Husband "Mike" (Aerodefense) & Torture

I've been tortured and punished by my cousin's husband, "Mike", who works not only for a space-aerodefense industry (Goodyear), but is most likely an FBI employee. I got the FBI part from someone else, that he is FBI or worked/works for them. Ever since I visited him one time, the U.S. defense industry (aerodefense) started using a specific form of torture on me, to punish me. How would they even know, unless Mike told them. I sat on the floor with my parents as everyone else was taking the seating, and I had one of my legs elevated with my foot outward facing him, Mike. Ever since this, I've been targeted and tortured to one specific leg, and it started only after he left town. It started within the amount of time he needed to get out of town and then tell someone and have his friends then target me. He has a daughter named "Lily" that is 7 years old and he's been part of helping Katie Middleton get married to William of Wales. I was targeted to the one specific leg for almost 1 entire week after he left. Then, it was off and on for another week, whenever I was outside on my porch. After this there was a break until today, when it started again this afternoon. I asked my Dad what he had done today and he said he got tires. Exactly. My cousin's husband is a Middleton and U.S. defense rat that has used his connections to infiltrate my family, and use his older friends (in Spokane) to torture us. This most likely has something to do with either contact he's recently made with my family or the fact that he doesn't like how I'm doing research and figuring more things out. Because afterall, some of what he does is connected to aerodefense industry. I had researched Goodyear when my son and I were being tortured in 2006 because I found out a former owner was acting very strange and making references about my family and I didn't know why. I didn't even know my cousin was dating someone who worked for them. So I just checked on Goodyear and they're headquartered (originally) in Columbus, Ohio, where the Knights of Columbus is headquartered and I had an odd response. When I told Mike, before knowing he worked for Goodyear, that my computer had fried when I was looking up Knights of Columbus, he thought this was hilarious and I could tell he was secretely glad about it. I thought it strange. Then later I asked him who he worked for. At any rate, nothing was happening to me, that was different from what has always been done (and Mike sat there to observe) until he left. After he was gone, I was targeted for weeks, for having my bare foot face him. I was several feet away. But he looked bothered by it after awhile, and then he was cramming green and blue toothbrushes down his kids mouths. He made a point to talk about "she was jumping from couch to couch" to making a big deal about brushing teeth, ...anything he thought would make anyone listening in smirk and laugh with him. He showed up over 7 years ago. From Spokane. He's Catholic. He showed up after Christa Schneider has pin-pointed who all my relatives were and where they lived. Department of Defense. They do favors for Middletons. My mother showed up at the house looking sick and like her face was puffed up on one side only, over one cheek and then I noticed, her two front teeth were scraped somehow on the surface and then dyed orange. She had two solid lines down the front of her teeth, her two main teeth, and the enamel was scraped off, and then the scraped off part was tinted orange from a dye. She was wearing a shirt that said: MEXICO

No Longer Taking Military Psychic Brat Posts (UPDATED)

I will no longer be publishing any comment sent to me by someone as an effort to predict what my response will be and have their guess already in place so they can take credit for it while my son is tortured and suffers. YOU people are the scum of the earth and you have no place on this blog. From now on, I will be reading all comments before responding and deleting all comments intended to be "homework" for the fucking DIA. Stay the fuck away from me and my son. UPDATED 8/15/2012 As of this post, I received about 30-50 comments to this post, all from the same person. I didn't even open one of them. All of them were deleted. FYI. There is no discussion to this post.

I Want My Son Returned (youtube to follow): UPDATED

I want my son returned. I asked my parents if anyone had talked to them about this. They said no. Which goes to show, why would anyone try to negotiate with my parents anyway? instead of talking directly to me? This is what the U.S. has done with me, even when I was in jr. high living with my parents. Always using my parents. I want my son returned. So I asked if they thought a hunger strike would do any good. They said no, you'd be locked up. I said, "Not if I first showed the world how I really am, normal, on youtube." They said my blog makes me sound bad but I said, "You can't judge someone by a blog. That is a piece of writing at one point in a day, that has nothing to do with talking to someone in person and finding out if they're normal or not." So I said maybe I will just put myself on youtube to the entire world, "Not showing implants with a scarf and scary (to some) music, but me just talking, and then after I establish there is nothing wrong with me, I will go on my hunger strike and publish it to the world, day by day." I guess I could add more CTs first, possibly, or, given the distress I've been in for almost a decade, and most importantly in the last 7 years, I could go on youtube beginning very soon. I want my son returned. My son and I were tortured, this country has tried to use me and my son as bait, and we are still being tortured. My son was kidnapped from me and this country concealed evidence of all the crime that led up to it. The entire CPS case is a fraud. ************** I tried making a video but I have to do it over. I've never talked to a camera before and it feels unnatural so I kept looking at other things and forgot to look into the lens. I looked into the lens only a couple of times, so it's not good for eye communication. I will upload something later. The weirdest thing I noticed, was that I kept thinking, who do I remind myself of? It was so strange--I don't even watch a lot of Hugh Grant, and it was like I was his own sister. Mannerisms, facial expressions, everything. I've never even cared for him that much. I mean, yes, I like him, and he's very good, but I wasn't like some people over him. I watched myself and it wasn't my Mom, or anyone in the U.S., UK or elsewhere except for Hugh Grant and then I noticed my son picks up on one of my mannerisms. How I got Hugh Grant I have no idea--I've seen his movies (repeated or not) maybe 4-8 times total?