Broke Off Engagement

I broke off my engagement to my fiance. I decided last night, but I wasn't going to make this public until I had a chance to talk to him in person first. I told him we could just agree we decided we were better friends.

I have other reasons for making my decision, and many things factored into my process, but I have absolutely no regrets whatever. I will not be able to discuss my reasons why exactly, at least not right now.

I told him though, that I wanted the best for him and still would like to be in touch with many of the Colombians I've met. I wanted to socialize more and make better friendships as well, but I was struggling with the physical assault injury and miscarriage problems.

I had to go to ER again last night, because my back was so bad. I didn't know what was wrong, but I was in excruciating pain, and I'm guessing it was because I insisted on sleeping on the hide-a-bed. The mattress wasn't too good perhaps, but why that should make such a difference, didn't make sense. My spine began to ache and then I had such horrible throbbing pain radiating to either side of my back. It was very intense and I could hardly breathe, and it sort of felt like I had two hearts pumping in my back, the throbbing was so severe.

I didn't know what it was. I thought maybe it was from lack of support and my herniated disc from the assault which hasn't gotten any better, but I didn't expect this to happen.

As soon as I told the intake nurse, she said immediately it was from the new herniated disc. She said this was a common symptom. She has a herniated disc herself and said that's exactly how it felt.

At any rate, I gave back his ring. He said didn't I want it? and how did it make me feel? (???) but I said no, it was his and he could hock it or melt it down if needed.