Starting out with Chris Brown again today. So embarrassing though, bc I thought everyone was out of the house this morning when I was belting out Lady Gaga's "Pokerface". Yes! and she's got her original version here in the U.S. I didn't know what was going on bc I heard her first in the UK/Canada version and then on U.S. radio the ppppp-p-p-poker face part was deleted and this morning I heard it again. I think it's the strongest version.
I was going to have lunch or coffee with my Pakistani friend but realized there was no gas. I'm suddenly reluctant to take Metro. I forgot how much I like to drive! It's difficult to take Metro over here too, and I hate standing in the cold at the stations. I'm seeing him either tonight instead or maybe tomorrow. I told him it's as friends but he joked it was a date after I told him I have a date tomorrow.
I'm not saying anything except he said his last name was Welsh and we have the same surname in my family. I didn't know it was Welsh. I'll have to look up info. I think my grandma, who has this surname (father's side) knows more. Well, it doesn't hurt to say the name I guess, because it's so common. Davis. So, she's a Davis and then there's "Sutton" in the family too, on her side. At any rate, aside from surnames, I think we have a lot to talk about.
My ex has been great and he is helping me get a printer so I can write and print out motions for my son, for extensions and things in Washington state. I think we're doing this tonight.
I read the paper this morning. Oh, from yesterday's paper, I noticed a designer I like, but what I liked was the pattern and design. I'm not always into patterns and designs, but this I like! It's sort of boho but it's not completely hippie, and it's also not totally modern, at least not 60s modern. Hussein Chalayan's dress featured on Section C. So like it and noticed some of the other geologic patterns and like them. It would be a fun club cocktail dress, the type of club with velvet couches or chaise, or a stand around the bar type of club. I like cleaner styles, but it's still simple without jewelry adornment. I wouldn't wear it to anything serious, but it's fun. I like Prada too. I'll have to look up designers to find which ones I like best.
I got a bunch of new make-up the other day and ended up with a lot of Clinique. I got a couple of things from Estee Lauder, but kept finding things from Clinique that I liked, and they're a little more reasonable in price. I like Lancome and Lauder for skincare and Princess Borgh. for the masks. They have the best face and hair masks I've ever tried. I like Mac for their eye shadows--the pigment is good. It only takes a little bit, to go a long way. I should write out my secrets for making make-up stretch when you're absolutely dirt poor. Because there are some tricks for making things go a long way, esp. in this economy.
I sort of want this Givenchy perfume but I'll have to wait.
I don't know why I'm talking about make-up. I guess it goes along with fashion. I do like the Lauder clear lip gloss. It's worth the money, lasts a long time, and the taste is bearable. Almost everything I have, though, is Clinique. I just gravitated to that brand. I like their shimmery non-foundation stuff.
This is a girly post. Oh, and the best hair shine stuff I've ever tried, I discovered at Lorainne Rose's house--the Hask shine spray but you can only use a little bit from a distance or it makes your hair greasy. It's better than the other luminators. Hask is really, really, cheap too and it lasts forever. I guess this is turning into a secrets page for cosmetics. If you use a hairspray, and then Hask over it, it works well, but you have to hold it way above your head so it barely filters onto your hair.
Like Taio Cruz's "I Can Be" (good positive lyrics). Like this "If He Can't Be" with the 80s song or melody thing behind it. It reminds me of that 80s song, with the electronic sort of Duran Duran voice.
Okay, here are some tips, for getting by with very little make-up...You can blend a lot of things:
1. Eyeliner. A black eyeliner can be used for lips and eyes. If you have a rose or red colored lipstick and add a little black, it will turn it a deeper red or add a slight purple undertone. After mixing on lips you can use for blush. Taupe eyebrow pencil works for brows, eyeliner, and lips (to neutralize color).
2. Lipstick. Anything that goes on lips can go on cheeks as a cream blush, in a sense.
3. White concealer. I don't think anything is better than this. Under eyes and above brows, makes you look a little younger or brighter, and if you add it to red lipstick, you can tone it down to pink. If you add a taupe eyeliner, you can make it more of a nude-pink color.
That's about it. You can actually get by with two eyeliners, one red lipstick, mascara, foundation, and a white concealer. I like pale yellow concealer too, for countering blueish undertones.
If you think of the color palette, and want to correct something, you just pick out what is opposite. Anyway, I'm glad to have some new make up. But it is possible to get by with very little too. Eyeshadow is another thing. It's tough to find a good shadow, but I think Mac is best. You can also use eyeshadow to tint and change lipsticks. Using eyeshadow to make a matte lipstick shimmery, or to change the color.
Mabye it's weird, but I just picked up what I learned from my art and painting classes. Lol. It works in hard times.
Hey! I just looked up Hussein Chalayan on wiki, and I must have good taste! Look at all the awards he's won. I'd never heard of him before until yesterday and couldn't take my eyes off of his designs. I really, really, like him. He's Turkish and then became a English citizen. He's won a lot of awards too. I'll have to look at his collection more closely. Anyway, check him out, he's, borrowing the familiar English adjective, "brilliant".
I had a dream about my ex last night. It was a semi-dream, because I was almost asleep, or maybe I was asleep just briefly, and poor guy, I woke him up to tell him about it. All I dreamed, was that he had a cut above his eye, that was sealed or had been stitched, but I couldn't see the stitches. It was his right eye, above the crease in the eye, and he had a cut. It was like he'd been in a fight. He said, mumbling, "accident" and I asked him if he'd ever had a cut there and he said no. I said, no, I thought it was from a fight, in my dream, but maybe it was an accident. It was weird bc that's all I dreamed. He had a cut eye. haha...my dreams about him have been with him with his hands up in the air and then a cut on his eye. Lol. If
I didn't know better...? At any rate, he is the one who is sick now, and I did try to offer to bring him water and some Nyquil but he'd already picked it up.
I like J. Holiday's "Bed" and read, from the lastfm bio, that he, Holiday, says there is a lack of storytellers in R&B right now. Which is sort of interesting, because maybe this is what I was noticing between the storytelling and metaphysical lyrics of the 80s and what is different now. I really like the melody of this one "Bed" and the lyrics are certaintly seductive.
I like Ciara's "Promise"...I think I like this for elements that are similiar to "Bed". The pulse is the same, and I like it. Like "Closer" by Ne-Yo so much. Like "Ice Box" by Omarion for the lyrics. Mario's "Let Me Love You" is excellent and is one I have enjoyed singing along with, harmonies and improv.
Once I'm settled, I might try looking into that agency that this indie film guy wanted me to check out, with his name attached. He's the one I told I didn't know how to act, but it would be sort of fun, maybe to take a little improv acting class. Those can be hilarious, the improv stuff. I know for a fact that I'm not a
good improv debater. I found that out in forensics (college debate), but I'm good in a team where I can counter ideas or be stimulated to think of something different.
SO I am going to send an email to my Grandma (Davis) and see what she dug up when she went to England with her sister a few years ago. All I remember was that she said there was a Garrett castle which was lost or sold in hard times, but was connected to our family. It wasn't HER family, because she was the Davis, but she was talking about her ex-husband's side, the Garrett side. My father's mother is a Davis and his father a Garrett. All I know about the Davis side is there are a lot of Suttons too. A whole graveyard full of them because we visited the cemetary. A huge clan of them, tucked away in the trees. On the Garrett side, it's supposed to be English and French (which is where the name "Guy" comes from, I think, passed down in the family). On my mother's side, there is a female middle name that's been passed down for a long time: Loree or LaRee and variants. Always as a middle name. I'm interested in the Baird side, sort of, if this is the side with heterochromia.
I remember talking to my grandpa's brother (Baird), whose wife did the genealogy, and I guess there are some larger figures in the family, but they all (Baird brothers) scoff at this. They are not impressed with geneaology or pedigree at all. They said to me, it doesn't matter where you come from or who your family is, from the past, what matters is who you are now, today.
I agreed, but still, I know families pass down traits and characteristics and even interests and, for example, you find twins that are separated and they come together and they're in the same line of work. Or father-son's that are separated and they end up both working in the same police force, like this example I read about recently.
So I think genealogy IS interesting. And actually, my family has documented a lot of it, for whatever reason, but I haven't delved into it that much.
Anyway, I know there's info that's written down, with names and dates, so I'll have to track it down, out of curiousity. I would like to do this for my son too, for his Mexican background but I don't know if the father knows that much. All I know is there was a little more of the Spanish than the indigenous indian, and his father was tall, about 6'2" I think. I wonder how difficult it is to find the heritage of Mexican kids. I know there is a little Cherokee Indian on my Grandma Davis's side of the family. And some Choctaw on the Baird side. Way back.
I really like "U Remind Me" by Usher too. And "Slow Down" by Bobby Valentino.
I want to write about some things I read in the newspaper today. NYT. I noticed first the Pakistani's who were jailed and then the photo of the Pakistani man with his hand raised, with the "peace" sign. I don't feel pessimistic about Pakistan at all, or, it may sound strange, Bin Ladin. I know that probably sounds crazy, but I've heard a lot of good things coming from Pakistani people and from reps who write editorials urging moderation in their reports about how they harbor terrorists. I also think Bin Ladin, while extremist in every way, is also thoughtful. I don't mean thoughtful torwards Americans, but thoughtful in the introverted sense where he could actually have a change of heart about some things. Anyone can change. I've certaintly changed a lot and I come from a very conservative, almost fundamentalist and strictly observant family. I some kind of peace could be obtained, but I don't really understand what the root of the animosity is.
Is it the American culture, viewed as immoral, and rallying jihaad, entirely, or is it another goal for more land or to avenge a situation where a lot of death and suffering has been witnessed? I know when people sincerely believe in an extreme end of religion, they ARE willing to do anything, if they think it's right, because the rationale is that the death of some will "liberate" others to "holiness". You know, getting rid of the heathen. But, I mean, some of these people aren't understood very well either. For example, most people probably don't know that Bin Ladin could marry a christian woman, from the U.S., if he wanted to. Seriously, it's not against the laws of Islam. There are some things that most people wouldn't expect to be true. I am much more familiar with Israeli religion and practice but I know less about their intelligence or main players. I don't know, because we all hear about Arab and Iranian people or "leaders" as in terrorists, and we hear about 'hamas" and other groups, but I never hear about any Israeli people or extremist groups. Does Israel have fringe extremist groups that act outside of the national force, or is it pretty contained? I personally don't even know. I grew up hearing a lot of good things about the Israeli army, from my father, but nothing about the rest of the Middle East, good OR bad. I read this book called "Hagar", though, when I was young, by Lois T. Henderson, which was from the perspective of the woman who was cast out into the desert to die with her son and how God had mercy on her, and this is from the Judeo part of the Bible, Old Testament or Torah, and it's an expression of the love of God for all people, and in that case, it could even be argued He took sides with Ishmael because of the mistreatment. So it's an interesting history, from a biblical perspective. Anyone trying to annhilate another group of people is scary, period. But sometimes, even the worst extremists can change. I believe those who have done me and my son harm can come forward and I think it is possible for someone involved in the case with P.Diana could come forward too. I want to get into that mines bureau. I think she had some important information on the whole landmines organization. People probably thought she was just going to become more outspoken and activist and were afraid of her power and ability to command attention to causes.
Like Bow Wow, "eighteen". Is this guy really young? I like the harmony and I actually like it when he's rapping more quickly. Really like Akon's "Don't Matter". That's the kind of man I need, one who knows it doesn't matter (as he shuffles me around in hiding, in various guises, lol). I like the hip hop-reggae combo. hahahaaa. This "Grub On" by Treyz, makes me think of a large police squad at the Pancake House or I-Hop, getting it on with the waitresses over strawberry waffles. hhhaaaa. This one cracks me up. Everyone's got their cans of whipped cream. lol.
I am really excited to see, in the NYT today, some politicians are fighting to have the statute of limitations extended, or suspended, for abuse cases against children. This is a pretty big move and it's really sad that religious leaders would be FIGHTING this.
It reminds me of the thing which I kept saying I would publish or put online, about what I felt was fraud in the Archdiocese bankruptcy and other sex abuse cases, regarding liabilty or vicarious liability between the Archdiocese and the parishes and schools and other organizations. Every time I threatened to put this online, something disastrous happened--a break-in, a major tire slashing, or something filed against me fraudulently. People worked overtime to keep my info out of the record. I still believe there is a place for it and perhaps when I have time and can get into my storage, I will get the whole stack of my research out and scan all of it online.
As for the comment by someone, in the times, claiming that the intention of politicians was to "bankrupt the church" I think this is ridiculous. This is the thing. No one wants to "bankrupt" ANY church. But if the deeds that were done, arise to this kind of fall-out, it is APPROPRIATE. What other sort of "punitive" message does anyone think should be sent instead? I'm really shocked that religious leaders would fight against the rights of victims to at least have a fair CHANCE to state what's happened to them and receive compensation for this. It's wrong. Victims often don't even face up to their damages until years or decades later. They don't know how to accept the consequences of the actions that were done against them.
These are people who are "most" religious, fighting against the rights of victims. It is so horribly hypocritical. The Orthodox Jews? why them? Why would they be against the rights of victims? or Catholics? OR Protestants? It's the same thing with putting caps on damages against doctors in malpractice cases. If a doctor goes out of business, it would be for good reason. The jury, the PEOPLE, should have the say, not lawmakers, judges, or the very officials who don't want to be sued. If hard lessons must be learned first, then so be it.
Really love "Burn" by Usher. Such a horrible sad "letting you go" song. I can see this one well, and I like the movement and rhythm of it.
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