What A Night

I think I fell asleep at 5 a.m.? and I'm up again at 11 a.m.! Not bad, I think. I had some crazy thoughts last night. We all do, right?

I will blame my all-over-the-world-thoughts on stress, exhaustion (my favorite popularly heard excuse), and finally, a drink. I think I only had the accumulative of one drink bc the first was a couple of sips but I've lost weight so it must affect me differently. That was a needed drink!

Whisked away at dawn, my fiance is gone. Do I go back to Washington now or try to start fresh and fast in D.C. first? and then appeal stuff? I miss my son, but I feel like I might get screwed over there.

I am thinking about sectoral heterochromia this morning.

I need to eat first probably.

I really like this ballad by Soda Stereo "Te para tres". I looked up the translation yesterday. and "Free" by Jon Secada. I'm liking Secada a lot lately, I only knew one song by him when I was younger but he has a lot of good songs. hmmm. Murray head too..."never even thought". contemplative and passionate at the same time. Like "Ever Fallen in Love" by Fine Young Cannibals. "One World" by Nik Kershaw is also a good peace world song. I think I like most of Then Jerico's songs too, like "Let Her Fall"

Okay, the sectoral heterochromia sightings. The little girl at the coffee shop had a very pronounced and very striking heterochromia and then there was "P" whom I met recently at that courthouse, who had a more subtle heterochromia. He was also wearing contacts though. He passed his eyes off as "hazel" but hazel is different from heterochromia. He had heterochromia, from what I could tell, because the spots were uneven and different from one eye to the other.

I began to wonder about all the people with heterochromia, and I keep thinking about how the Nazis would exterminate anyone with this trait!

I wondered how many of us are in the U.S. because we would have been killed if we stayed in Europe? or certain parts of Europe?

I think heterochromia is usually inherited...lost my train of thought thinking I need to get glasses because I can't see what I need to see. Far-sighted and maybe getting worse? oops. I mean, near-sighted right? where one cannot see things from a distance very well.

I think on my father's side everyone came over in the late 1800s and early 1900s. On father's father's side. Father's mother as well.

However, I have always wondered about my mother's side. Especially on my mother's father's side, because they came over at the beginning or middle of World War II, I think, and he was so insistent he was "Luxembourgish" NOT "German". But then I've heard there's a strong sense of nationality for the states or countries in Europe and someone from one country would be sensitive to this. I don't know. No one in my immediate family has this, or extended family as far as I know. So it would have to be back some generations. I wish I knew more. I would be interested in knowing more about others with heterochromia and if they have ancestors who came over during World War II. I think there's Luxembourgish AND German in the family, and some Pennsylvania Dutch whatever that is.

I was just thinking, about this guy I met today, who was sitting across from me, and I made a comment about his laptop and he said it was good for word processing and convenient but too slow for other things. We started talking about writing and I said something about being a little obsessive-compulsive and that it all began after I injured my knee and couldn't be a distance runner any longer.

To my surprise he said he had done the exact same thing! He said he ran The Boston Marathon and had been a distance runner for many years and that when he injured his knee he started writing and began publishing actually. He also said, it wasn't unusual and said most good athletes were obsessive-compulsive and told me the same thing "happened" to some other well-known runners and he gave me a list: Frank Shorter, Dick Beardsley, Albert Salazar, and Bill Rogers. It's the first time I've met someone who could relate to this and how devastating it is to lose the ability to run once you're really hooked. It's almost necessary to have some other outlet. He said he was a little depressed for awhile and I remember I had been too.

Anyway, it was good to talk to him.

I've done a lot of thinking today and made some good decisions.

That's all for now.