I had only a couple of impressions which I confirmed. One was an image and I don't know why I had it, at around 4:30 p.m. or so, and the other one was an impression which I confirmed. Finally, I discovered more corruption or mindgames and realized some of it must be through a religious group. Which I have heard, but I didn't believe it.
I had an image of Philip Thebault. It wasn't anyone else but him. I just saw his face, at the age he must be now, and his mouth was sort of open so I saw his teeth even, and he was either brushing back his hair with one hand on one side, or putting something or scratching behind an ear, or doing something that meant touching one side of his head with his hand. I only saw him from the neck up, and I saw him in light so it was either outdoors or indoors with lighting. He had a little bit of a sarcastic look on his face or cynical or was doing something where it wasn't a full-on off-guard smile or look of vulnerability. I not only got his face but I also knew it was him because the name Philip was attached.
Then, I was walking back to where I stay, and I had this movie "A Perfect World" come to mind, which this man has that I've recently met and I wondered if he watches during the day or at what time. I was just thinking about these two things, the movie and how this man must watch movies during the day, and then I walked in and what was on? That movie. That same man was watching THAT movie. I said, "I was just thinking about that!" and he said he'd start it over. I said, "How far into it are you?" and it was at the end, so he started it over from the beginning.
I don't really doubt myself too much anymore, with this "insight" and psychic thing anymore, it's just sometimes figuring out if I can confirm it and why it comes to mind at all.
What was funny was that I walked in the door and had not even SEEN the t.v. screen and I didn't know what was playing because I walked in and said immediately that I had been thinking of that one movie, and then I he said, "I'm playing it right now." I said, "What?!" and then I walked over or looked up and saw this man running through the grass and I still wouldn't have known it was that movie because it was just a man running through grass and I have never SEEN this movie before. Anyone who knows him could ask him.
Then, what was strange, is that I was sitting there and watching from the beginning, and the boy's name was Philip. The only image I had ALL day was of Philip Thebault. Not only that, I had my serious flash of an image about PHILIP and then right after this I was thinking about that movie and then finding out this man was watching it.
I found out more though, which was disappointing. I pretty much found out the state thinks it's great to harass people. There are some serious losers who drive around this town too, because this full-on grown woman in a long white SUV drove past very slowly just now and made this totally bizarre face, turning her face completely to the side to stare at me and put a finger dramatically to her lips. I just think to myself, that THESE kinds of people, who I have seen a lot, are driving SUVs and have great jobs (even if they're idiots...I guess they know how to marry for money or do a really great job housecleaning for the boss) and they stoop to this kind of behavior. I don't think anyone would do this unless they've been secretly pissed or jealous for a long time and need meds.
And yes, there are definitely latino weirdos and others out there, but some of the most inane and juevenile behavior that I get to see, usually comes from WHITE people. It's like they don't know how to manage their grudges or something. I mean, really, really, childish behavior. All the way from 20-somethings to older people in their 60s or more. I'm not kidding, and it's usually 80% white people in BETTER THAN AVERAGE cars or vehicles who have been doing this lately. I would say middle to better than average.
I see poor people harasing others, or laughing or minorities doing something weird now and then, but they DON'T act like children who just lost a game of monopoly.
It makes me wonder where in the world they're coming from. Are they ALL local? or do some get shipped in "special".
I very rarely have seen a latino imitating some kind of sex abuse of kids or implying this, or doing some strange surprise nuts movement or going out of their way to snap their head in my direction and stare on purpose.
They talk about Mexicans hanging out the window and at least, one could give credit to the fact, that if Mexicans are hanging out the window, it's because they're coming from Mexico culture (some parts) where it's appreciation of a woman. You will not see blacks and Mexicans doing this little head snap thing, or bugging their eyes out to get to someone for sport, or trying to make an exaggerated imitation of me. Latinos also, in general, wouldn't be caught DEAD implying sex abuse of a kid, esp. in public, unless they are legitimately mentally ill.
Leave that to the white (American) idiots I'm finding out, who maybe are so far removed from the whole idea, they think it's funny.
I also never see white people with any real culture, poor or rich, doing this kind of thing. It must be a trait of the nouveau riche. Or the wanna-be-nouveau-riche. It's a certain group and what separates the goats from the sheep, I'd like to know. I could be a lawyer in an office and someone like the white woman who is a "professional" or married one, could walk into my office and I'd have no idea what kind of a loser she was unless I had someone following her around to find out.
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anyway, what bothered me about that movie was that I think someone wanted me to think that the boy in the movie was some kind of equivalent of my son. Really, it turns out, maybe it has something to do, in God's eyes, with Philip Thebault but I wouldn't know how. It doesn't look like his life at all.
Then, the main thing that bothered me was that on one day, in the restroom the main state workers used, which I didn't know was there and was for use, had a drawing on it of the same ghost face that the kid wears as a mask. It was the exact same thing, and it was on a white out board, or dry wipe board or whatever and on that same day the Catholic church was playing the same song or hymn they play in this movie torwards the end, which, I believe is coincidence, but I remembered it when it played on the movie because of both the Casper the Friendly Ghost face on the board where these women who were state workers thought it was hiliarious, and then every single day I was there, the Catholic church bells in Waterville were playing "How Great Thou Art". I think the people who would do this sort of thing would be the same ones who are sick enough to jointly attempt to run mind games.
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Also, sitting outside, while writing this and after mentioning Philip, some people drove by and I had that heart thing happen. Just once. It was either from a passing car or someone inside or this new guy who came over but I don't know which but it happened just one time and it was just the same thing that happened at the Safeway and at that bar the one night it happened. Not imagination.
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Listening to "Dear Mama" by Tupac. played the regular version and then this one with eminem ft. tupac but it's different from the one i remember. first night i've heard this version/mix. i like it.
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Anyway, Colombians do not do this. None of the Colombians I met anyway. Maybe, who knows, maybe you go to Colombia and maybe someone could kill you (?) but they're not going to act stupid. In general, good manners are important in their culture and one who dismisses good manners in themself is showing weakness.
That's not saying people don't get mad at eachother or very fiesty or insult one another. But in general, they don't act stupid in public. It doesn't look good and to even do this to "get to someone" is the same thing as losing ones own dignity, and manners are a very big deal in that culture, even with the way they raise their children--the children are very repsectful to the adults and to eachother. I think there are other "white" cultures that are this way too, but here, I have just never seen so many willing to lose their own composure.
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