Medication & Creating "Cause"

I am either coming off of something or going onto something new. Because how I've been, and off and on for so long since Wenatchee again, is not normal. I can say for certain the technology stuff hasn't been happening. For maybe the last week. There's been something else but it's been minor.

Someone kept telling me someone was dosing me with lithium and then I heard I was given something else that's totally different.

I think a lot of very serious things have been given, including a variety of meds. My ph balance is different again too.

I have had a weird taste in my mouth the last few days and almost felt like gagging while drinking a Red Bull, which is NOT normal for me. After I ate out, I had a Red Bull and something was different. First I was exhausted and then I was almost gagging over a Red Bull. Things tasted differently and my back has started to hurt again.

I feel like I've been a fucking guinea pig.

I have people saying, "Back to the salt mines, eh?" and when this is following comments about lithium, and meds, it makes me wonder what kind of salt.

I also don't have people being normal except when they think I'm on some kind of medication. Then, all the harassment ends and it's supposed to be that I don't notice it because the medication is "working" and my claims are all imaginary. This happened on the East Coast too but I never thought I was medicated, I just wondered why people were coming out of the woodwork to harass me and lie and be really horrible, only when my periods were back to normal or when I was mainly eating my own food or after I was pregnant. I started thinking about this and thought if I'm on some kind of medication that affects periods, and people are only normal when they think I'm on this, if they believe I'm "off" they might, if someone is trying to "prove" I'm nuts and "don't even know it" claim that I only "see" or imagine things when I'm not on the medication.

I've also noticed something about my migraines and migraine pattern. I don't know that I have true migraine disorder or if something is intentionally being done to trigger my migraines.

Because I will tell you something--I have been playing around and lying about when I get my periods.

I began to doubt my migraines were just natural. I have a specific reason to wonder. I also began to believe they are or have been triggered somehow by some kind of technology or trigger that is not normal for me.

So, since I've been claiming I get "premenstrual migraine"--one before and after my periods, I've been lying about what dates I actually get a period, to see if the migraine pattern changes.

If my migraines are truly caused by shifting horomones, I should still only get them on certain days or during a certain period. If my migraines are intentionally triggered by someone or something else, then it would follow that this group would attempt to trigger migraine around suspected dates of "pre-menstruation" or "post-menstruation" to make it appear natural.

I have found that my migraines are not following horomonal patterns.

Since I have been lying, I have only had migraines when it is around the time that others or anyone else would assume I should have them.

That indicates to me, that perhaps I have some very malicious and extraordinary group that has been affecting my life and the life of my son for a very long time, and trying to find the most covert means of doing this.

IF this is true, this might also explain why I have had, on some bizarre occasions, migraines up to 15 times a month, (10 years ago, so that's not perimenopause) which is not normal and unheard of and yet people were shocked I pulled through the best I could and did not drop out of college at that time. It would also explain how convenient this makes things for certain groups tied to lawyers who would like my migraines to fall on certain dates. And finally, it might explain why I didn't get migraines when I was on the other side of the country, if marijuana or something else doesn't explain. It could also explain why I would feel one "coming on" while standing near, or being near someone and then it could completely abate and not be triggered.

Again, I am not having migraines when I should have the migraines. I am having them only when OTHERS think it is the "right time", approximately, for me to have migraine.