Visit With My Son

I gave my son his fish. I wanted to get him one that was white, blue and yellow and really pretty but I just went for the least expensive one so I'd have more for his horse ride and other things. So I sent him off today with his fish and money for the horse ride and also for his organic milk. His fish is sort of red with blue and I tried to get one with the most variation but I liked the turquoise and other one better.

There was some different woman for visitation today. My son came in with 2 different versions of his Lightening McQueen car. It was more mindgame stuff, and had nothing to do with what my son really wants or picks out. He had one car with a green cauliflower growth on its head and then another one which was larger and took off on its back wheels, which, I was told, "is Michelle's".

If something is "too late" it's that someone in the U.S. decided my son should be the next test-project for mind control. I swear, there is nothing which had a timeline, which would have made something "too late" or made it impossible for me to get my son back, unless there was some strange political thing in play.

My ex said, around Christmastime, that it was too late. Basically, too late for my son, was what he meant. Which is interesting, because that's about the time CPS decided they didn't have to offer ANY services at all anymore. Then my Dad and everyone else was saying the same thing when there is no timeline or anything to do with ME personally, that makes reunification "too late" when it never should have happened to begin with.

The only thing that would have been "too late" is for me to join the FBI as the cut-off is a certain age. I can't think of any other deadlines or cut-off dates. Then I thought, "Maybe someone is pregnant" and it's "too late" for something. Or maybe someone lost their job, or died.

I asked my son if he'd been swimming and he said yes and then no, because the pool was out and rusted red with algae and stuff, and I guess frogs and all kinds of things so it was being cleaned, he said.

He didn't have his charm necklace on even though he told me he wanted it, he didn't know who took it and thought it was someone from the state offices again. Like he got into the car or came into the state offices wearing that necklace and someone took it. Which might explain why he didn't have it at another visit and then it reappeared later in public, according to one commenter.

He seemed very cheerful today. I thought he seemed to be in good shape but I wasn't allowed to look at his ankle where he had a band-aid. I didn't ask about it either, because the state has tried to portray me as wrongly concerned about my son. I should have asked anyway and will next time. The state has no right making me look BAD if I care about my son.

My son sang a song about standing up and God backing you up and then another about no matter near or far, being close to someone. It was really cute to hear him.

He really didn't act out that much. He said he was 3 and when I reminded he'd turned 4, he put his fingers out but it didn't seem like something he'd do on his own really, but more like some kid taught him to do that. Otherwise, he sounded very happy to me.

I could SEE that he stalled again and didn't want to leave, AND he said, when Michelle said we wouldn't have a visit on Monday, my son looked very upset and sad and I reassured him that Tuesday was just the next day after that. So he knew and then I said, "Maybe on Monday you'll have a horse ride!" and he was happy about this idea.

I was handed "The Last Unicorn" movie back, which someone gave to him and I said to the monitor, "You can give it back to Michelle--she knows who it belongs to."

Michelle has basically been friends with, and had her hand in disrupting my living situation a number of times. She is friends with Mykal Holt, the woman my Ex and I lived with. Mykal Holt did an illegal lock out on me and claimed I was psycho and held up a knife and all of that horrible stuff her housemates did, and all along she was friends with Michelle. That whole thing was set up to work for the state.