I got out of bed to write this down. I had this sad deep feeling again tonight...all late afternoon and night.
It lasted until I went to this $1 store and as soon as I walked in, I sensed good energy. Then, I realized as I walked through the store, that there were even more kids there than adults. Many babies and toddlers and elementary school age.
Then this woman from the philipinnes came over to talk and then, it was strange, after she and all these kids left or maybe a half hour after I was there, I felt the deep sad vibe again.
I know it has to do with me and my son and this situation but I wondered about other things too.
Then, I was lying down and just having idle thoughts. And I thought about some good and maybe bad qualities about H and W and then all of a sudden, I thought goodnight to them or maybe said a really short prayer and all of a sudden, and I only add this to show how it came up, and I was not asking for any kind of image at all, but I saw them as little boys, tucked into bed, together. I didn't see them in separate beds, they were sharing the same one and were side by side. Who knows, bc maybe it's someone else and it just intersected with what I was thinking about, but it was from this angle of seeing them to the left sort of, and from above in some way. It was this very cute flash of them with the covers all the way up and I am not sure if this is my imagination, but I think W was to the left in the frame I saw, and H was to the right but I don't know if I was trying to organize it later. I tried to close my eyes and get more, but I couldn't really. I got what I did, unexpectedly, and when I actually tried to get something, I couldn't get anything more. Like, I wanted to know what pjs or if they had stuffed animals but I am not sure. I could guess one of them had a favorite stuffed animal, but that's not what I saw. I just saw both of them side by side as boys, about maybe, both under age 10 I think. Probably a little bit younger than that but don't know. It was just this fuzzy flash and I wasn't trying to think of them as younger either.
So I really don't know. They were close enough together to not allow another body inbetween, but there was space between them, a little space. I didn't see the full size of the bed at all, just how close or far apart they were and that they were all tucked in.
Anyway, it was about 15 minutes to 10 p.m. or so when I got it. Now I'm going back to bed.
I will try to sketch something to show the perspective I had.
I tried and then my pen ran out of ink.
It lasted until I went to this $1 store and as soon as I walked in, I sensed good energy. Then, I realized as I walked through the store, that there were even more kids there than adults. Many babies and toddlers and elementary school age.
Then this woman from the philipinnes came over to talk and then, it was strange, after she and all these kids left or maybe a half hour after I was there, I felt the deep sad vibe again.
I know it has to do with me and my son and this situation but I wondered about other things too.
Then, I was lying down and just having idle thoughts. And I thought about some good and maybe bad qualities about H and W and then all of a sudden, I thought goodnight to them or maybe said a really short prayer and all of a sudden, and I only add this to show how it came up, and I was not asking for any kind of image at all, but I saw them as little boys, tucked into bed, together. I didn't see them in separate beds, they were sharing the same one and were side by side. Who knows, bc maybe it's someone else and it just intersected with what I was thinking about, but it was from this angle of seeing them to the left sort of, and from above in some way. It was this very cute flash of them with the covers all the way up and I am not sure if this is my imagination, but I think W was to the left in the frame I saw, and H was to the right but I don't know if I was trying to organize it later. I tried to close my eyes and get more, but I couldn't really. I got what I did, unexpectedly, and when I actually tried to get something, I couldn't get anything more. Like, I wanted to know what pjs or if they had stuffed animals but I am not sure. I could guess one of them had a favorite stuffed animal, but that's not what I saw. I just saw both of them side by side as boys, about maybe, both under age 10 I think. Probably a little bit younger than that but don't know. It was just this fuzzy flash and I wasn't trying to think of them as younger either.
So I really don't know. They were close enough together to not allow another body inbetween, but there was space between them, a little space. I didn't see the full size of the bed at all, just how close or far apart they were and that they were all tucked in.
Anyway, it was about 15 minutes to 10 p.m. or so when I got it. Now I'm going back to bed.
I will try to sketch something to show the perspective I had.
I tried and then my pen ran out of ink.
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