Good News On Medical

I got some good news on my medical. The specialist I wanted is taking me on and the referral went through fine!

So that's very good. I did a little research and tried to find what I thought might be a good option for the area/location I'm in.

I also feel pretty good about the surrounding medical people. I mean, it's a good place, with a pretty good reputation, is larger, and I think a lot of people with experience are there. I will feel safer there than I have in some of the other places I've tried, in Washington.

I have to keep my "paranoia" in check, because while I know I don't have any form of TRUE "paranoia", in the general sense, because of what I've been through already, I do have a little PTSD which I don't want to get in the way. I keep my eyes and ears open, and I'll feel everything out cautiously, but I am trying to trust things will be okay too.

I don't have a bad rap on doctors. I have been with bad doctors, who were only interested in themselves, but I do believe most of them, self-interest aside, want to help and I am fully aware that everyone makes mistakes. I mean, if only a couple of mistakes had been made in Wenatchee, it wouldn't have been a big deal. But there, it was one major thing after the other, and the cover up was horrible. In Oregon and with many other docs, though, I have only nice things written about me: "pleasant patient", and "thank you for the referral for this very pleasant young woman", etc.

I had good experiences in Salt Lake City, and some in Oregon, and also, I went back and thanked the doctor who saved my life, who was so gruff while they were doing the aspirin clean-up. I told him thank you and that I was pregnant, and he understood what I meant when I had tears in my eyes, and said something about not only life, but two in return. Another life as well. And I'm grateful to a doctor here and there who stood up against the tide, to vouch for me. So I absolutely know there are many wonderful doctors.

My problem, sometimes, has been that I do a lot of reading and research and ask a lot of questions. Sometimes this has put certain professionals: doctors, lawyers, or anyone else at unease, maybe because they don't expect me to know these things. Well, and then I think I come across, in general, like an airhead, while underneath it all I'm really thinking, and then I don't say anything until something is really wrong, and it all comes out then.

I'll just see how things go.

If I get a really bad feeling, I'll know not to ignore my instincts. Otherwise, I am open-minded.