TTSOML #192: Parents and The Cover Recording

I had the tape out, which has almost 30 minutes of evidence from being transfered to after-hours machines when it wasn't after hours, for my parents to listen to, but they declined.

My father was interested, but I was trying to fill him in first on other details. How does one fill in all the details of all the crap that had been done to me, in even an hour's time? It's not possible, which is why it's taken this long just to get as far as I have, and I'm STILL leaving out some important details which I'll have to include.

So he kept saying he wanted to hear, and I wanted to tell him about one more thing first, so they'd believe me, and then they just acted like I was imagining things.

They didn't think anyone would be "after" me like that, because they look at their daughter and wonder why anyone would spend the time and energy. They kept saying someone would just kill me.

Which is why neither one of my parents would make a good intelligence agent. They assume too much. They assume people are not sadistic and that some do not derive pleasure and satisfaction from a "game". They assume people are better than they are and that the "really bad guys" come bearing guns out in the open or are serial killers.

They didn't believe me, at first, when I said a monk was coming on to me, and they gave me bad advice to take a guilty plea I was NOT GUILTY for, and they think, because they have not had this personal experience, and because they haven't been involved with gangs or mobs or corporate criminals, that this is all the stuff of movies.

I have been right, about what I know, every single time. I have been right.

So I had to put the tape away, to save for other ears, and for later.

But my parents had a chance to at least listen to ONE thing that was happening and believe me, and they chose not to, saying they were "too tired" at that point.

Too fucking tired, but after all that's happened with my son, and their total lack of support, they go about their lives like nothing is wrong.

My family does not deserve me, nor do they deserve my son, period. They are a lousy excuse for "family" and both poor, rich, and middle-class have families like this.