Photos

There are a lot of photos from the engagement party and the Colombian party. A. asked me to take them down this morning since we're not getting engaged and he might want to be engaged again someday or ? I don't know his reasons exactly.

It doesn't matter to me, if they are up, because this is what I've been doing the last couple of months. It's documentation of my history and story, and to remove them would be stranger, I think. It happened, and it's over, and these are memories.

I have other photos too, from the Colombian party, and for whatever reason, he didn't want me to put THOSE up when I was getting them. This was over a week or two ago before I broke off the engagement.

The more time goes on, the more I think the whole thing is weird. I don't know who was involved with what, but I heard some crazy stories and proposals and I don't know what to think. Today, this morning, A. acted so mad at me, like I had done something wrong to him, when I've done nothing wrong.

One minute he's saying he still wants to marry me and the next he is acting pissed off and grumbling he's not going to help me at all, with anything. There are a couple of things he agreed to help me with--printer capabilities so I can print and file papers for my son's case, and he said if the machine here didn't work he'd buy one, and then he said he'd pay for the dr. appointment for my back, which is next Wednesday.

This morning, he started to say he wasn't helping with anything. Then he said, okay, if he said that he'd help me with this, he would. He remembers because we talked about it several times.

I don't know what his deal is.