Wednesday, June 3, 2009

My Mother On Prostitution & Her Daughter

My mother is just...unsalvageable.

I was selling some things and she wrote back and said she wanted "first dibs" on one item. It was worth more than what she offered so I asked for more. Not only that, I was giving her an opportunity, I felt, to make up for broken promises. They don't have a problem with money. They have a problem keeping their word.

So my mother writes all this stuff in emails which sounds sort of civil but which is still unbelievable. Then, I get on the phone with her, and she just goes off. She tried to manipulate everything, suddenly telling me I was morally wrong to sell what I was going to sell and she went off, saying how could I put a "price" on something of sentimental value and how shocked she was at my "values" and on and on. "Oh." I said drily, "I believe you were the first to put a price on sentimentality and you wanted to get it as cheap as possible."

My mother didn't quit. She just went at me, on and on and finally, I stood there, shocked to the core, she told me selling this item was NO DIFFERENT than "prostitution" and she called ME a "prostitute." My mother had just heard how I needed the money and how I hadn't been able to work in D.C. for 5 months due to injury and hospitalization for physical problems, and then when I was stable, I WAS looking for work in Wenatchee. But it didn't matter. My mother is one of the most selfish individuals I know, and after she didn't get what SHE wanted, at HER offered price, she tried to tell me to "do the right thing." Do the right thing.

Do the right thing, prostitute.

That's my mother. My mother the Money-Whore.

I burst into tears when she said this to me, saying, I could not believe I had the mother that I had, who was so awful to her own daughter, she likened her daughter to a prostitute. Not only that, my mother, who tried to fully BLACKMAIL me in the past, also told me I was supposedly "blackmailing" her. What? into buying a fucking "sentimental object"? I didn't blackmail her with anything.

This is the same woman who told me if I ever told my Dad how she went snooping through all his things, she would be sure "her" family, the entire Baird clan, ostrasized me. She promised me, she would make sure I was turned out by "her" family.

One thing I don't understand, about Diana's own family, is why, allegedly, her own brother wouldn't allow her to have a room or stay on the old family property with him. This is really...insensitive. Why did Diana have so many problems with her own family?

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