Energy & Errands

I sensed very even and calm energy yesterday even though my son worried me and I've been thinking about him this week.

But otherwise, ever since I prayed that prayer, I have felt a peace.

I had the song "Wild Horses" on my mind, by U2 the other day but this morning the one on my mind, which I haven't listened to in awhile was "This Is The World That Live In" by The Killers.

I was about to finish the Seattle and Bainbridge post but I have to do some cleaning today so I can't get serious about it yet.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W-plLIxHMsI (this is the world that we live in)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ywcHIinIw_Y&NR=1 (are we human, are we dancer?)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G4iLs1mhsZU (who's gonna ride your wild horses?)
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Well, I overplucked my eyebrows today. That was a big mistake.

After I clean I'll write about the other things and try to think about hostages and see if I get anything.
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It might not seem important, and may sound like a waste of time, but I discovered something new about psychic stuff, called "second sight" today. I was looking up what that ball was that was put in the Queen's hand for coronation, and read it's called an orb. So then, it mentioned something about Victoria so I looked her up and typed in "seances" bc I'd read somewhere a phrase about "the royal psychic bloodline" or something. So I looked it up. It had stories I'd never heard before, and all of a sudden, I realized why some of these people have come out of the woodwork to say such strange things. I mean, all the nonsense about asking if I was "from the highlands" and such, and then I read Victoria's daughter married a commoner (one of her daughters) who was psychic, but it was a scottish variety and they call it second sight and it's spontaneous. It sort of sounds like what I've experienced bc usually it's out of my control. What's really weird though, is something is mentioned about a corpse candle or effect from illumination and it brought something to mind which happened a long time ago and I don't know if I wrote about it or not. But it involved a candle and fire. Also, someone has said something to me about certain persons not wishing for a prophesy to be fulfilled, in my life, which would put me in a position of power. So then I'm reading about Victoria and a gypsy prophesied about her, in Malta, to her father, that she would be a great queen and I don't even know if she in line to be a queen. But he went back to England so she could be born on british soil and died 8 months later. anyway, sort of interesting. I'll check to see if I wrote about the mysterious things I witnessed happening with fire and candle flame, which I actually went to a psychics person about. He was sort of spooked by it and I was trying to find out how it was mechanically even possible.

here is a link about second sight and then i'll get the one about victoria. I think people have assumed I'm more well-read than I am on royalty and other things, or that I know more than I do, because I'm always finding someone make some strange comment and then later find out why they might have made it, because they actually thought I was also making a connection to what they were saying, and I never was.

I just read about the corpse candle and will o the wisp. It's sort of related but different from what I experienced or noticed. I feel like I wrote about it in my blog already, way back. At any rate, it was that one day or a couple of times, I had a lamp with me, the kind with all glass on the top and a round base and I used it for candlelight at night. One night, and then it happened a few other times, the flame left the wick and on one occasion, the flame left the wick and separated into more than one flame, but none were on the wick. So basically, I thought maybe it happened from fumes being in the air which made it possible for light to still be on fire even if it wasn't connected to fuel or a wick. It just separated and then moved on its own, up higher and I believe the glass was off a couple of times when this happened. Once a flame separated and went up a half a foot away and like I said, another time, the flame left the wick and then divided. I went to a chemistry teacher to ask about it and I just remember he was really spooked but said it was probably possible. I can't remember what he said. I just remember I met him and asked. I had wondered too if there were fumes or gases in the house which would allow this to be done but I didn't know. This happened when I still lived in Oregon, before I even moved to Washington. I was a full time college student getting good grades at the time and wasn't delusional. It really happened and more than once but I wanted to know what the logical explanation was. Oh, now I remember, after I talked to a chemistry guy I also talked to a fire specialist with fire safety, out of curiosity. I think no one knew. I remember they asked if the glass was on but I said no, it was happening when the glass cover was off. Because then it would leave the wick and separate out further than glass would allow. They thought it was really weird. So I started to feel like a joke when someone told me to call NASA. I said, "Are you kidding?" I think I made a few calls after I'd moved and everything because it was still on my mind now and then and I wanted an explanation. I don't know how it would be possible unless there was some kind of gas or fume in the air which allowed it to carry like that. But I don't know why it would split either. I think after someone convinced me "NASA knows all about that stuff" I actually did call NASA, and I talked to someone. I don't remember ever hearing what the reason might be but they talked about combustion and stuff. The thing was, every time someone had a question or assumption which they thought made sense or solved the mystery they were stumped because it wasn't what they thought it was. It didn't fit their paradigm of possibilities. I really think now, it had to be a gas or fume in the house, but why would it split like that? I have no idea. I actually think I might look at psychic explanations but I really feel that for this, there must be a logical explanation. I mean, hmm...a gas burner for example...isn't it possible that the flame can appear to have no connection to the actual burner but just be fueled by gases in the air? does the flame ever split up and spread out as well?

I'm really not convinced that I have this, but I just found something that's rare called "pyrokinesis", the ability to control or ignite fire. It's extremely rare. I read this one article and can say at least that I did see the flame "dancing in a direction" and splitting apart and going directions, away from the wick and then to the left and right, but I was not consciously doing anything. I was just staring, like an observer, dumbfounded by what was happening. But I think it has to do something with gases in the air. I know for sure that I cannot start fire and actually, I've never tried to control it either. I HAVE tried to move objects recently, tried with mental power to see if I could "bend spoons" or get something to move and I cannot. If anything has ever happened, it was out of my control.

Also, one has to be careful too, because if one were to read this article and not go through the gang or military stuff I and my son have been through,...it would be easy to write off a computer "overworking" or a burnt smell coming from my son's mouth or the physical pain we had and the blanched tissues I was passing even in canada as my stomach was searing in pain. I would definitely not agree that I have a gift of "pyrokinesis" simply because I have had the sensation of my insides burning up. Not at all. But I do wonder what that flame thing was about and I really haven't noticed or tried to notice anything since. I wrote the information down in a book and that book was stolen. I drew a picture of what it looked like when separated and everything, if I remember correctly. I've had a few of my journals stolen, one with gustav klimt's "the kiss" on the cover. Here's the article: http://articledirectorystore.com/reference-and-education/psychic/psychic-101-an-interesting-look-at-pyrokinesis/.

Weird. I was trying to find a youtube clip on pyrokinesis and found something by Russian guys instead. It says the opposite of what the U.S. says. This guy said the USSR began experiments after hearing about the U.S. doing experiments. So I don't know, because both countries want to say they started their programs in response to another country's programs. For all we know really, they've been using such a subset of skills since the 1900s or so and just formally put in programs later.
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I clicked on this one because it came up and started laughing out loud almost immediately. the DRAMA. I thought, "What is this? Fox News?" no, it's from the Sci (Sci or Sci/Fi) channel. But it's a really good example of remote viewing and what it is. I can definitely say I'm nowhere near to THAT. But very interesting because if people read more and see more examples, I think the general population will be more accepting of the idea and I think it will help some people from being stigmatized as nuts or fraudulent. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Imej6_ATJuc&NR=1
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Oh this thread is so funny. I found something by a guy writing in who says he discovered fire powers, so he describes his experience and then, so funny, you read the others and scroll down to "seagull777" and that comment just cracks me up. "Plains of fire"? "Sounds like HELL to me."http://www.psychic-experiences.com/real-psychic-story.php?story=2280. So so funny.

I found another one too, which I'll include in a minute, but which is more balanced and shows how the line between kinda kooky and truly psychic can be a fine line. Many normal people with extraordinary abilities, but even some who are different can have legitimate powers or abilities.

Watching something about Holland while reading about this, and learned about Vincent VanGogh. I didn't know he killed himself. I think I like his self portraits best. I especially like how he paints his beard, in technique, but he was able to get emotion through as well, in the eyes, in his own eyes. Wow. The Dutch are the world's leading exporter of flowers. You should have seen their stock market or whatever, selling room, super hi tech.

I just keep laughing over this pyro thread. It is SO funny. You have the "air empath" telling the pyro guy to "go to church" to avoid "plains of fire". Why doesn't someone write in and tell this guy someone just gave him a message to move to Wenatchee. And then, at the very bottom, this woman sounds so indignant about his using marshmallows for his pyro experiment. She's the "water empath" I guess. I am open minded but I can laugh at myself and others too, and at how things sound or the way some people think of this stuff.

I don't think I'd spend time on it, personally. I don't have enough patience. I just pulled out a lighter and tried to get the flame to bend back and go a different direction and after 5 minutes, I was done. How long do these people take to focus and make things move? The ones who can do telekinesis?

I have definitely showed legitimate ability in some things, but not this one. If it happened at various times, it wasn't because I focused on doing something and it worked. I think we have a cousin in the family whose clothes caught fire when they were playing with a Ouji board and ever after no one in the family would touch one. But it moved for them and then one of the cousins ended up having to do a stop-drop-and-roll and there was more than one witness.
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listening to a live version of Wild Horses by U2: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=85ySUSnVsMM&feature=related
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I had an image while thinking about something for someone else but it could mean something for that person, whose husband is going in for knee surgery, or something I was seeing in the moment I suppose. I saw a doctor putting on gloves to do an operation at about 6:00 p.m. It might be for this other person who said her husband's going in Monday, but I also felt like maybe it was something in real time that entered my mind. I don't know. I felt a sadness after this conversation and don't know that I will take an email from her again. It's been too weird, like sometimes pleasant and normal and other times, inuendos that others might find funny but I don't like. I also keep getting quizzed about psychic stuff and actually, if I feel God or whatever, if I feel I'm compelled to give a message or share something, then I wouldn't charge for that because it came to me out of the blue and is something I might need to share. But if people are coming to me, to basically "work" for them, and try to get something for them, I feel it's my time and I should probably be paid for it.

I'm starting to think there's a fine line in being willing to share a free gift freely with others, when prompted, and maybe getting paid for time if it's not spontaneous.

I mean, I have said the same about doing government work...if I'm in an experiment or part of a research group, I want to be paid for my time.

If I feel, in a bar, that I'm supposed to share a message with a woman I don't even know, and I do it, that should be free. I'm not going to say, "I feel like I have something to share with you but you need to pay me first". No, I feel that if something comes to mind that I haven't even tried to get, that this should always be free, under all circumstances, and STILL, taken with a grain of salt. I'm human and make mistakes and just trying to practice a gift.

But I'm starting to think it's different if someone comes to you, specifically seeking you out for messages or for insight. Hey, I will be the first to say, this has no guarantees but espeically if on the spot and it's not just flowing to me. But I want to practice, so I appreciate the opportunities, but I feel that while I wouldn't charge an excessive fee, I would at least charge a small sum for my time. At first I thought maybe it should all be free, but I'm not some kind of wandering prophet type who can just sit on a porch all day and go over the psychic socratic method.

I really don't even know how good I am at this yet either. I know I've had some very good success rates but I'm sometimes wrong about things now and then. I also know that there are some things which come to me much better than other gifts.

I got an idea about brain surgery for someone today too, randomly but I don't know who. Today I got a lot more about hospitals, doctors and surgeries or operations. I think it's the first time maybe, about doctor stuff.

At some point I might quit putting all the ideas or images online anyway, and not even reveal what comes to me unless it's very specifically for someone that I can go to and share it with. At some point, I will be done with making myself a free sample for experiments and research.

I have a child to support. I have a gift and I need regular work besides, but in addition, I have a child to support and I've made myself clear about how I feel about this gift and how I feel comfortable using it freely but then in a non-spontaneous manner, being paid for my time.

I maintain that any gift should be used to help others, and any insights given freely, as they come, but if it isn't initiated by God or "the spirit" or oneself, than it is different in my opinion. I could still be used to help someone, but it's then more work and I think time should be paid. I would keep it real though, so if I'm not getting anything, I'm just not.

I think there are a LOT of people who have amazing abilities, like this guy who did remote viewing who I watched today. Amazing. Maybe I've done the same many times and never had it confirmed, I don't know. I would like to be at a point where I could do what he did, but I really don't know how to approach that kind of thing without training or talking to others who were able to grow.

For me, it's just been praying to God for help and that's it. I have tried other things but I think I could practice and learn more, if I'm praying first.