Visits With My Son

I haven't felt like writing about the visits with my son lately because there was so much about princess this and that and just seemed like someone putting ideas in my son's head and I know it wasn't my aunt or uncle.

So, I haven't wanted to write about it. Today was pretty natural, more so, and I felt my son and I had a very good and unique time. I think both he and I learned a lot and it felt therapeutic for him. I felt very good about today, like, "Wow, I really AM a good parent!" or good with kids in general. I'll detail them all tomorrow but I'm feeling a little bit nauseous tonight.

Was treated for migraine but something doesn't feel right, with my system in general. I'm okay, just feel sick.

I felt like I would be a very good children's counselor today, or psychologist, but that's not what I want to be. I just enjoy being the best that I can be with my own son, and kind in general, with other kids too.

What has happened with the law firm I was with, was very bad. I look at it now, and it was really very bad. I mean, this entire custody matter is prejudiced in a dynamic way and it all could have been prevented. Those lawyers at that firm, all of them, they didn't want me to get anywhere. They didn't even care about my son, at all.

I sort of feel like maybe a little bit of the truth is going to come about. I've gained in some ways, here and there, in showing I am not delusional but that very bad things have really been happening.

I also thought today, I wonder if someone stepped forward. Would that not be...just outstanding.

I pray so much, and the other day I just "felt" it, like, I "knew", there was someone, who was going forward to speak up for me to help me and my son.

I still see how some are trying to block me and distract me and keep me out of resources and even trying to have me with some psychiatrist that I shouldn't even be seeing without having an independent psychological evaluation first. After reading this report today, for the first time I got an idea of how trashed I've been, and with lies that I can PROVE are lies.

The problem is, I don't have much time and people here have still blocked me from resources.