Saint Card For Thomas Merton & Followers of Group Think

The last "image" I had, which was just a stationary image, was of a sword being drawn over the head of a balding man's head.

I wondered what it might mean. It may have something to do with my situation directly and someone who is involved, but I also thought it could be symbolic for something.

I will describe the image better:

It was as if I was standing directly in front of the man with the balding head. He was facing me, in posture but his head was bowed down and I couldn't see his face. He seemed to be either bent or kneeling or something. The person with the sword was standing behind him, and I had the impression it was some kind of "knight". But that wasn't totally clear. Both hands were on the handle of the sword and it was raised, and about to come down directly in the center of the balding man's head. But there was no movement in the image.

It wasn't a "hallucination". A hallucination is a scene one thinks is real and not imaginary. What I saw, was in my mind's eye and it just came up, with no attempt by me to come up with it. Also, I wasn't thinking at all about swords, or knights, or anything archaic.

But because I wondered if it's possible to injure someone down the head with a sword, I typed in a google search. It is possible. THEN, I typed in "man with sword over balding man's head," and described the scene. The only thing that came up, over and over, was stuff for Thomas of Canterbury, or, Thomas Merton, a saint acknowledged by both the Anglican and Catholic church. Several images came up, of the prayer card or saint's card, for this man, and it was exactly what I saw in my mind's eye.

I'm not saying that's what it meant, but I decided to read about Thomas Merton.

First of all, he's the patron saint for secular priests of the Roman Catholic church. Secondly, while it is wrong for anyone to be murdered for what they believe, this guy was killed by knights, because Thomas refused to acknowledge the authority of "the state" or, the king, over eccelessiastical authority. Thomas was an advisor for Henry the II (I believe it was), and agreed with Henry that the state should charge for crimes, and was also responsible for crimes committed by clergy. The church's position was that THEY were in charge of litigating crimes by clergy. Thomas and Henry saw eye-to-eye until Thomas also became clergy himself, and then he renounced his former opinion, that the state was in charge of prosecution of crime by clergy, to be in line with the Roman Catholic church's teachings, that THEY had sole authority to prosecute clergy for crimes. Because of Thomas's disagreement, he was allegedly killed while kneeling at mass, by four knight, who delivered blows by the sword, one after the other. The saint card for Thomas Merton shows him with the bald spot worn by ecclessiastics, and he is in a kneeling posture, with a knight behind him rasiing a sword.

I just thought it was interesting. I'm NOT saying it means anything at all, but that it's interesting, because one of the main problems the Catholic church has had against me, is that I was challenging their authority to hold their own clergy accountable for misconduct and crimes.

After what they did to me, I was encouraging others to report abuse by clergy. THEN, I was wanting to join the FBI to not only fight general corporate crime, but to find a way to remove priviledges held by churces, which I do not believe they should have, for CONCEALING crimes against children. We still have laws, and states in America, which allow and permit churches to keep revelations of child abuse private and within their own church. I felt churches should be treated, in the corporate structure, as any other corporation. They should retain their autonomy to practice religion freely, but they are subject to the laws of the land. I believe this to be true for not only the Cahtolic church, but every religious organization.

What reading about Thomas Merton did for me, was to show how this man, is STILL considered to be a SAINT, and revered for standing up AGAINST the state, or trying to use the state, to enforce the authority of the CHURCH. And if this is the patron saint for secular priests of the RCC today, still, it is evident that any challenge to this authority, is still considered to be a challenge against the church. Perhaps it would even be an honor to try to alienate, harass, and even torture someone who dared threaten the ecclesiastical authority and priviledges.

It makes me wonder who is carrying a prayer card for Thomas Merton, and who actually still believes what this man did, was right, and that any attempt to subvert or distill the authority of the Catholic church, is someone worthy of abusing and attacking, to this day. It appears the RCC still wants their clergy to emulate this man. Anyone fighting for "his cause" would surely be due to receive indulgences, naturally. Would surely have a high place in heaven, for doing what has been praised and fought for, by the RCC, for over a thousand years.

They still want to retain ecclessiastical authority and privileges. And maybe it was just too much, for them to take, this idea that a woman would do so many things that could be damaging to what some believe is their "rightful" privilege and authority. They are not the only church to claim to have the keys to heaven. We have jihaddists who the exact same thing. And if you are a true disciple and believer in the RCC, who will you prefer to obey? Secular authority? the king? the state? the secular U.S. government? or will you follow after the footsteps of Thomas Merton, and take up the cause of the church which has assured you from birth, that THEY have the keys to your salvation, to heaven. Not the state--the church. Eternity is forever; this life is short. How would you prefer to spend all of eternity?

Vindicating the RCC from perceived offenses committed by a "Protestant woman" would surely be pleasing in the eyes of God and bring one through many levels of purgatory.

I'm not making any definitive claims about anything. I'm just saying, there has always been "motive" to harm me and my son, and perhaps this is some kind of insight into the mind's eye of someone else who has organized others to target me, all for the protection and defense of the church, its authority, and its ecclessiastical privileges.

There are people who have positions in secular government, who MUST believe it brings glory to God and honors their church, for them to attempt to blend the secular authority of the state, with the authority of the church, and to use secular laws and officials, for their own ecclessiastical means.

The other thing I've noticed about these people, who have constantly harassed me, is that they rarely do it alone. They do it in groups, and feed off of eachother. It's as if they've nothing better to do, for sport, and go at it in teams. Why the great interest or amusement? I think it says a lot about the kind of people who get satisfaction from it. They are motivated by peer pressure and acceptance within their groups. They're not necesarily going to take satisfaction privately, unless they feel others are in agreement. They're followers. Most of the people who have gone after me, have been followers, not Thomas Mertons even. It's been more of a mix of greed, self-interest, and jealousy, with a kind of boredom and zeal for punishing others who step out of line. Most of these people are not exceptionally bright, but are socially well-placed because of the same reason which makes them followers to begin with--they value the appearance of superiority, and acheive this not always through actual merit, but through social networking and connections they forge by stroking the backs of one another and playing up to the people they believe will move them ahead on the ladder. Most of these people have been fairly corporate types, all the way around. At least we know there is an estimated cure, according to psychologists, for sadism, or deriving satisfaction from the misery of others--it's alleged to be DOPAMINE, which could indicate that internally and fundamentally, at the core, these are dissatisfied and unhappy people.

Sometimes it is those who are insecure or unhappy internally, who derive the most pleasure from putting others down, in that it elevates themselves. Even though we all hear this is true, and it's a cliche, there is truth to he saying.

Nazis? Were mainly followers. They weren't the brightest batch, though a few may have been outstanding intellectually. And they felt certain threats and believed a particular stance could not only be advantageous socially, but economically as well. It's group-think.

These people are not independent thinkers, at all.

Those who are independent thinkers, who dare to stand up against the tide and flow, are the ones who are willing to risk being a social outcast, for the sake of doing the right thing, or speaking for the innocent or the minority.

If someone is satisfied with their own lives, and their interior monologue and self-construct, they are typically not threatened by a single individual.

Dopamine is the cure? I wonder what that could have looked like, if the jews and gypsies and disabled had been able to experiment on the Nazis and administer all of them whopping doses of DOPAMINE.

LOL. It makes me laugh, but more than anything, I'm seriously curious. I wonder what all these people would be like on dopamine, if it would change anything or not.