Family Obstruction With My Son's Activities & Psychic Impression

I have email from my aunt saying they would accept a guinea pig or hamster for my son. I went out and bought one, and a turtle, and then I was told to return it because "he doesn't pay attention to the fish he has" and "he already has a pet" (the fish).

I asked my cousin if she thought that was really my aunt or if possibly someone was holding a gun to her head and pressuring her to say something like that. My cousin said, no, she thought her mom just didn't think he "needed" another pet. A FISH is a far cry from something that a child can HANDLE and which was PROMISED to him.

So I did my part to make good on the promises I made. My aunt chose not to.

I am the mother of this child. It is clear why biological parents should typically have the child, because in most cases, they are the ones who are bonded and most invested in the best interests of that child. It is possible to be invested with an adopted child, but nothing takes the place of a bond that was nurtured from birth, by a mother who would do anything for her child, to improve his life and keep him happy.

So then I sent email asking to have him involved in at least ONE structured activity, like karate, or gymnastics, or horse riding lessons, or music lessons--something I was going to pay for out of my own pocket.

My cousin was laughing and just being friendly and normal, but she said, "My mom said,'he already knows karate!'" refering to his active stuff.

Which, to me, is just negligent and dismissive of a child's potential gifts and interests and the responsibility to nurture those possible interests, talents, or gifts, in a productive and professional way.

I was going to have him signed up for a class that is 3 times a week, and includes the uniform, and has little self defense techniques, among other kinesthetics for kids, and it was only $60 for several months. For ages 4-7. And the response was, "He already knows karate!"

No one even answered or responded to my email about wanting to pay for lessons for him, for something he would enjoy and it didn't have to be karate. It could have been horseback riding or music, or anything. It required a small time investment and a little gas money to take him there and back. And it breaks my heart that while no one is even responding to my email, it's being joked that he doesn't need anything because he already "knows" how to do things and is happy enough.

That is not the way I would raise my son. At age 1 1/2 my son was enrolled in gymnastics (free play times, I took him to all of them), mommy & me preschool, swimming lessons, and storytime at the library. And that's not including all the times I took him to the playground and to visit with other kids.

Now, the lucky kid gets daycare. Real fun.

So, since no one even responded to my desire to give my son a gift, I decided to get him the pets. These were turned away as well.

And then tonight, my organic cooking for him was refused. It was accepted this time but not in the future, I am told they will not take groceries or food from me, that I buy organic or prepare for him.

To me, I keep defending my family. I keep thinking, with regard to my aunt's response about the hamster, "Someone is pressuring her. Someone is holding a gun to her head. Someone is saying don't accept this out of intimidation because they want to make my family look bad and then take my son out of my family, or try to."

I keep coming up with excuses, and sometimes, I do think I am correct. Other times, I think, this cannot be possible.

But then I think about the Korean exchange student who lived with them. The woman hardly knew any English at all, and what did she decide to do? She was telling me SHE too (!) was going to do this missions program that lasts 2 years, which EVERY SINGLE KID in my aunt's family has gone to.

This is fucking nuts. They ALL go to this missions training for 2 years, and then get a KOREAN EXCHANGE student to do it too! What the hell. And in the meantime, for all of the holy-moly-speak, no one can even manage to squeeze in time for a child to go to an activity that would be fun for them, because they are lazy and selfish with their time and would rather sit him in front of the t.v. and teach him to make idiotic remarks and learn expressions from some of them (not saying all of them are idiotic).

Attitudes like "hahhaa! he already knows karate!" are the kinds of attitudes which led their own biological children to work at places like merry marts and never finish (or even begin) real college degrees. When they were blessed with brains to do so. I am not impressed. But, I keep making excuses, because to my ears, it sounds crazy. To my ears, it sounds like someone is pressuring them to do this, and to keep my son out of certain activities and most of the time, in some situations, I DO know, that state workers have been involved. Telling them whether or not to take my son to doctor appointments and sending him to doctors where there is a serious conflict of interest. Telling them to keep a turtle or not because of possible "salmonella". Withholding organic milk from him because of possible "salmonella" as they steal money I sent with them to begin with.

My parenting style is diametrically opposed to theirs.
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I got a confirmation on a small psychic thing I got about my son. It was when I was asking to see something about William of Wales. I saw William doing something with both hands (which I already wrote about) but I am not totally clear on what. And then, I say him on a camel. I don't think William was ever on a camel as a kid. At least I've never heard of it, read it, or seen any video clips or footage of it.

So I was wondering about this and then it morphed and I saw my own son, and he was riding something or pretending to ride something, and I didn't know what though. But I saw my son pretending to ride something. That same night I was asking about W of Wales.

And then tonight, without having said anything to anyone about this impression, I asked my cousin what my son had thought of this sign I gave him, sent to him, that was a large sign that just had his name on it and my cousin started to laugh and she said, "He rode it like a horse." and I laughed and the other store person there laughed and I said "Really? what do you mean?" and she said, "Really, he put it between his legs and galloped through the room, like he was riding a horse." I said, "Does he do this a lot? to other things?" and she said, "What do you mean, like a broom?" and I laughed and said, "No! and if he did ride a broom I wouldn't want to know and have the town know about it either!" and she said, "No, I don't think he's been riding brooms, he too much of a boy."

But anyway, when she said he had rode the sign that had his name on it: OLIVER, like a horse, I thought, maybe that is what I "saw" him, psychicly, riding.

Which was a really small thing, but a nice thing to have confirmed.

How it got mixed with William of Wales on a camel I don't know. I guess I'll have to do a look-up and see if he was ever on a camel as a child.

I just looked and typed into bing: william of wales, camel and what came up? a NICKNAME! I had heard of "wombat"! but never knew he was sometimes called "camel"! Which is weird! well now I wonder why they called him camel. Did he ride one? did he act like one (how would one act like one?)...really curious now.

I have always assumed wombat was just given bc of the trip to australia when he was so young and they have things called "wombats" there so guessed it was an expression that stuck. I have heard of "wills" too but never camel. I don't know where camel would come from.

Camel because he was able to retain water like a camel? i mean, seriously, how is one like a camel?

I looked and can't find anything. I don't expect I ever will.

Anyway, in some ways this day was alright and in other regards, it turned out to be a very shitty day.

Just...

horrible.

Horrible, the sum of all things and what some have done to me and my son and the magnitude of this and other things factoring in.

I feel like someone started to cry or was sad somewhere after I wrote about the camel stuff and my son riding something so I just have to stop here.

I said tonight, to this man at the house: "I don't think about rebecca, or leah, or rachel, or esther or any of the others...I think about, with my son, I think about Hagar. The single mother that God saw. And for those conservative christians who try to downplay and diminish the dignity, power, and worth of single mothers, I saw to them, read about Hagar. God created a whole new nation because of her and her son. Because even God has pity on those who are outcast and thrown out or chased out and bullied, even against others who claim to have the quorem on God's favor."