Chatroom Fun Again

I went to one chatroom tonight and as I was signing in, there was a "Kate" waiting there. Or, "Cate". I just stayed in to see if anyone was there but no, and I had signed in as "emmer". This is a chat where you supposedly cannot view people unless you've already signed in. So then a "daver" comes in. I was busy with something else.

I started thinking about some things, more things of course, which have been happening, and decided to check my mail at this site about royal news. I haven't checked any headlines on the royal family for about one week. Just didn't feel like it, and it's not important to my book. But after seeing "Cate" so quiet for hours and then "davers" who shows up when I've signed in as "emmers", I went to the forum.

So I get there and I had some new notifications but the first thing I notice is someone new who has just made an account with the name "7 no trump".

I really do not know what to do. There are some things, very serious things, which have been going on, and yet I don't know how or where to start. I realize too, that this has been very serious. There has been a very large group of people who have tried to have me locked up one way or the other, and then others who want to deny so much, and I see there has been a huge organized effort to keep me down, from getting my son, getting work, getting ahead in any fashion, and while I think some of this is old, there are too many internationals who got involved. It's like the main objective is to so trash me, that I not only do not get my son, but I don't get anywhere at all.

The timeline has been to screw me over legally, with this matter with my son. But there is something else going on, I think, that people are trying to trash me over.

I wonder, seriously, if the regular people have any idea at all. If they think they know...or if they hear things and assume stuff.

It's so bizarre. Everyone knows there is nothing wrong with me, and that I have a good work ethic and am talented, but no one will hire me here. I almost had an excellent job in Seattle and as soon as people found out, the next thing I knew, I was being sent to jail, yes JAIL, for something I did not do. The "stealing a car" thing when I never took anyone's car without permission, ever. This was the same incident where Wenatchee police deleted and erased my videotape footage of my visits with my son.

I think some, maybe most, have been led to believe someone was helping me when really, people have only been close to me or given me a place to stay, in order to have control and proximity over me. I'm fed a bunch of lies, and my belongings are stolen left and right, and I'm humiliated or the attempt is made at least.

I have taken a deep breath and tried to stand back from everything and start piecing things together and look at it all objectively. If some group couldn't screw me over in one way, they were working on an alternate way of doing this.

Then, I realize for the first time in my life that even some members of my own family have done what they were told, to screw me over. I don't know how it benefited them, unless they were just holding a grudge over something.

I get this very strange, almost international "credit" for something--I don't know what--maybe writing about a couple of interesting things or maybe some have realized I really do have a psychic gift even if it's not perfect and I'm still learning.

But despite all of this incredible attention, one realizes there wouldn't be this much attention paid to me unless some felt I was that important, and THAT great a "threat" to something.

And the international community is not concerned about a little lawsuit potential with Wenatchee medical professionals. There is no way all this attention over me is the result of people trying to help a few doctors.

The only reason people would help them, or try to go along with it and trash me even in this case, is for the sole reason that it is the perfect excuse for trying to say I'm mentally ill. There are some that really, really, want me discredited that badly. And then of course, taking my son away would be just to cause me distress.

The claims about "there is something 'greater' for you" than being a mother, is BULLSHIT. It's one of the biggest lies I've heard, in trying to manipulate me, along with telling me to "surrendure it all to Jesus".

People are not afraid of what I would do WITHOUT my son, they're afraid of what I could do WITH my son, and with a clean bill of mental health.

People have been jealous of me since the day I was born. Well, maybe 3 months after everyone realized I wasn't retarded (because they thought I was at first, seriously). If it hasn't been jealousy, it's been fear of my potential. I've had people trying to make money off of me and my ideas, and they don't want to credit me for any of it. Then there's been a fear about my intelligence and how smart I am. And then, the fear that in doing good for others, I might discover something that isn't very good about something else. Maybe jealousy over my looks and my voice too, though I don't know why this is a threat, and especially not now. I feel my beauty in internal more than external anymore.

I mean, one thing after the other. And then, to control and contain this and the outcome, I have been completely blocked from any kind of normal legal representation or work.

I don't think this has anything to do with a man in particular, it has been squarely about me. I have a few fans I guess, but my enemies are powerful enough they have bought and paid for the disinformation, harassment, and distress to me.

I love this quote I read today, from the mouth of JFK. I read it and was shocked. He said that? I thought. I then thought, "Wow. No wonder someone went after him." I will find that quote and post it here. I found it as I looked up more news about Somalia and the dumping and fishing problem there, and the pirate situation.