I just haven't felt that really horrible sad or dangerous feeling in awhile. Don't know why but maybe in secret, someone close to me or that I'm connected to, has been doing okay or a little better or something. I don't know. I'm not sure.
Not that everything is right, because that's not true. But the feeling I get sometimes, it's not been so bad.
It's no better than usual. Just more level. There have been a few times where it's been very strong but I don't write about it as much.