Mean People & Free WIll & Moth Bunk

Oh gosh. There are some people who come across as very sincere and nice and pleasant and yet they're not. Who use power to manipulate circumstances and try to subvert the deicsions and will of others.

I know I saw a few people who are sincerely disturbed by everything that is happening with my son or with me. I saw them as I stared, shocked at a display I saw outside.

There are people who are beautiful people even and seem so sweet and then they're putting on demonstrations, pubicly or privately, to get others to do certain things, think a certain way, or to give them respect when it is God who deserves the glory if anyone should get respect, if it is not soley from a bad power.

I have felt the triumphant spirit myself though, and I think it's natural to feel this. A pride in acheivement and it's like winning a game, or contest, and it's completely normal.

I think as long as the triumph is not over sadistic ends or means, it is okay. But there are some who feel triumphant over sadism or encouraging it, either directly or indirectly.

I also believe people can make something appear to be magic or miraculous or a psychic power when it's not and when there is someone nearby who is doing what needs to be done.

If other people are around, as they were with the moth, it might not count. It might only count when something happens out of absolutely nowhere.

I also know that ones choices and decisions are based on the sound reason and will which is free will and to subvert this or try to subvert it, is morally wrong.

Almost every religion, and every culture, would agree that those who are morally superior or who have worth in the eyes of God, are those who recognize the free will that God gives to all.

I guess I feel concerned about some things.

I think all things are interesting and acceptable, to encourage in all degrees, except for any attempt to turn the will of someone or of large groups by unnatural methods or to take credit for something which may be coincidence or possibly set up.

Getting an insect to appear and then go to a specific spot has been done with scientists as much as psychics. Scientists who do not even practice psychic things have done this in experiments which are published online. I have read them. They are still there.

Which is why most people don't give credence to anything unless it is happening with controls or some good observation.

I don't have a bad vibe right now and I'm not in a bad mood at all either.

I am just aware that a few things have happened while I was sitting at a specific spot by a cafe. Why always the same spot? right by other people outside and pipes and eaves? The pipe is right next to my table and goes all the way down to the ground almost. So why did the moth appear from the ground level? at my feet, just inches away from that pipe?

I think I am not convinced of anything unless I see something occur in a location where I would not normally be, where there is not already pipes and eaves and people around.

If I sit at the same spot, almost every single day, isn't it possible that someone is literally trying to make something look really good or trying to make me sound nuts?

The little bat came out from that same pipe and eave area when there were also people around. It was floor level, on the ground.

The moth was also coming from the ground level where the pipe is.

So why all these things right by locations where I always frequent them or where I am known to pass by? and why me all the time too?

Why would this always just happen around ME? and why does someone want it to happen around me?

I think it's very cool when something is real, but without seeing for myself what is going on, I cannot say for sure that it is pyschic though I also don't discredit the ability.

I would strongly question motive though, when this is happening to me all the time.

Why?

Why would anyone do these things around me or want to follow me or try to influence me?

Why, when nothing is done about my actual and practical circumstances? These people are all doing just fine financially and politically but they enjoy doing this, for what reason?

This is why I have said I am tired of being used.

It is certaintly paying off for someone. So why, with all the need for me to be in the spotlight, good or bad, is this not paying off for ME?

Just wondering.

In fact, displaying certain abilities, if they are ever real or put upon, even keeps some people out of jail.

I would say, with that kind of advantage, it would behoove anyone to pick up such a practice or make it appear as though these abilities are real.

At least, thank God, I feel full affinity with someone over this. And that is what is real to me.

The bat and the moth came from the ground level, by the pipe which is right next to the table. The other butterly came from over a rooftop which could have been anything. The yellow butterfly in the park was interesting but could have been coincidence. And the yellow butterfly at the church I tried when the Army guy dropped me off, which hovered inbetween us--I would say that this one was the most remarkable because it was not a common location for me though it could have been natural though I did question it more.

Without really seeing something that is out of the ordinary, I would say that for profit or gain of something else, people could organize enough to make something appear remarkable which is really not and is only a set up.

I fail to see how any of it is helping me and my son. So then again, I go to motive.