Reconsidered Hotchkiss

I thought about going to Waterville today. I was going to file yet another request for a public defender for immediate and emergent help.

I paid the ticket price. I got on the bus. And then all of a sudden, I thought, "This is futile." I thought, "What in the world am I doing? I am going to file ANOTHER request for a lawyer now after what his clerk just said? after all my attempts? after I have appealed over and over for help? after this Judge has claimed I am nuts but that I am capable of representing myself? for my being such a risk and nuts, he has never given me much preliminary instruction as how to get a public defender. So what am I thinking?"

I then started talking to this fellow rider about this and was saying "and what the fuck... fuck...judge hotchkiss...it's pointless...fuck?" and the bus driver says, "Watch your language!!!!" and I said, "What part? are you offended by the "hotchkiss" part? or the f-word part?"

I added, "Is it that you don't like my taking the Hotchkiss name in vain because you're friends with him? or was it the f-word?"

The driver said meekly, "I never said I was friends with him. I said I knew him." I was getting off and said, "Well, if it's a bad word then he should change his name." and got off.

I told the fellow passenger who was next to me, "If that Judge can't follow simple rules, he should get off the bench." The poor dude was going to see him today.