Bauhaus! "She's In Parties"

I love Bauhaus! I think I've heard them before on the "cure" radio but now on "nick cave radio" and I really like this "she's in parties" esp. the end where the bass comes in...so cool, and then that bubbly sound and then the alter-electro effects. and then the very, very, end tapering out with the bass and rumble. Like PJ Harvey's "the piano" too. it makes me think of the skeleton she sings about in this song, but drapped over the skeleton are fine and tiny necklaces of jewels and beads and maybe a very small feather or two. delicate. Oh god i miss you in echo. i think these are UK artists. john parish and pj harvey, "sixteen, fifteen, fourteen" makes me want to cry almost. oh i love it. i love it. i love the scream, perfect and then the voices all speaking at once. the garden a sort of eden after the fall. then i got to hear "i will go down with this ship" in the store, which i like for lack of a white flag for once....and why have i not heard of anita lane before?! everyone should hear her breathe. she doesn't sing, she breathes the song. listen to "bella ciao" gorgeous, bella ciao. i think of a river flowing through this one. a smooth river with a dark undercurrent and pull. i wish i could sing this one at an open mic but her interpretation is inimitable. and i can't fake the beautiful australian accent. hee-ah instead of "here". heah.

i like campbell & lanegan's "black raven" so cool with the thump of the bass. with each thump a bird slumping, hopping with a fallen wing along the sill. at the churchbell, the woman diving from the bell tower and captured in flying hands. back to bird the woman and bird doesn't fly but the hands fly that hold the bird. cave & ellis on "rather lovely thing" so pretty, drops of rain falling from the edge of the leaf from the tree into the pond. i like the strings with the piano on this, very melodic and peaceful but determined. a thick blanket around the shoulders walking in the garden at dusk or grey day.

lol. love......smile......love "andy's chest" by lou reed. ahahhHA! at the part where he just goes off about the hairs on the bear, andy's chest...this is hilarious. i laughed right out loud at that part. i like this cohen song "who by fire"...to me, it's like a mosquito by the flame. something against the window, trying to get through...who by accident...who in mortal chains/who in power...who shall i say...is calling? wow that fingerwork must be something to see. who by the merry merry month of may/who by slow decay, who...like the organ work as well, i don't know.. in the beginning, i thought a buzzing bee, then a mosquito...snake charmer, gypsy weal. i want to say weal but i don't know what it means, if anything at all. aha! it does mean something...wale, wealth, or welt. mainly a raised stripe, a weal or, alternately wealth...the common weal or weal of the people. to make or cause to be prosperous. gypsy welt or gypsy wale or gypsy wealth. i like morphine's "the only one" as well.

i have had such a positive strong vibe again. i swear it is a connection to someone. for the last hour at least.

lol. "oh my" deserves an oh my at the end (by the drones) about eating the fortune cookies. very pretty but very creepy song, "lights out" by sonic youth. i don't know if i like lydia lunch too much but her lyrics are very good. the ship song by cave is good and then the fire song by gunclub is too redundant but has the perfect ending...the fire will stop. i am a little bit nervous about "to make a ring" by woven hand. wow. not a wedding reception song for sure. i like "crazy" so much, by afghan whigs. "crazy, that's what you'd like to believe/but it's not easy, when you're going crazy over the rainbow"...crazy over you. oh god! gorgeous idea. crazy about cha, crazy without cha, crazy...over you. what a great combination of words--so plain but made new. cliches clipping the heel. i like joy division's "insight", it's dark and redundant but in an original way. behind the blue screen. oh. hmmm. star wars. darth vader and luke skywalker fight. lightsaber to the ready. i liked hearing new order today, a lot. i do like new order's music...whow. that "insight" song...like lasers killing all the bluebirds in the sky. i like violent femmes "something worth living for" i don't know if i've heard them before but i know they're sort of popular.
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you know, this morning i had a string of ideas flowing and i wasn't on flexeril. i've been taking flexeril and feel mind-sluggish. but i ran out of painkillers and over the counter stuff doesn't help. i need to refill the hydrocodone/percocet. i'm off, but in pain. so taking flexeril and i hate that stuff. bogs everything down. i didn't take any today until this evening but i can tell it affects my mind and how i am able to process things. not as fluidly. i like tindersticks "tiny tears". i like harvey's "here i am". still have the very strong and positive vibe...so strange. wish i knew what it was. i like the "dive position" by boys next door.
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i remember how the hands were patting over their bodies
the mind, awakening of the senses, awakening of the butterflies
of the fireflies and the bees and the mosquitos and dragonflies
and me, and the pattering of small hands on skin and
colors on hands at end but tonight all in pink flamingo pink
bright gloss finish and hands taking up a wall, marking up
to the ceiling line, bodies rolling along the wall like a paint
roller, a wallpaper of color
my paintbrushes resting in a solution of wine, white wine and
hypnotic, blue hypnotic. took a swig, dumped the rest into a vase
for thinning the paint from the brushes, and it works!
banish the turpentine, bring in the vodka
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see?! the inspiration and ability to write is gone. damn flexeril. i'm going to bed besides, so tired! good night. "sunrise" by lanegan, so pretty...

you know what i'm getting now? mail from "Mrs. Sarah Ferguson". yeah. a TON of spam, and Fergie is saying "yours in christ"? i've got a bunch of fraudulent royalty shit. man. well, if you don't remember anymore, I am the holy grail.