X-rays and Pain (Dec. 08, 2007)

Yes, I totally sound paranoid. Especially at the end when I talk about poisoning. However, again, I had very severe pain that was unexplained and diagnostics showed there was SOMETHING wrong. I write about how one doctor snaps into action after I call a medical malpractice attorney. At the end, I surmise my son's loss of speech is because of possible poisoning, because it was very odd he couldn't speak anymore except in gibberish. He didn't quit talking, and was happy with me, but he could no longer form his words even though he tried. CPS and Wenatchee doubted me and said my son was fine, and didn't listen to me, but I tried to get help for him and told them this was NOT normal for HIM. He HAD been speaking very well:


I have cancer‏
From: cam huegenot (cameocares@live.com)
Sent: Sat 12/08/07 1:43 AM
To: dicksiedael@aol.com
Well, I've been telling you guys I have pain and "need" narcotics and about the recent (last 8 months) x ray which showed the broken tailbone and sclerosis of the sacrum. I have more problems than that. My pain was increasing in the back even ON my narcotics and was so severe it was constant and kept me from sleeping until I had painrelievers. Also, there's been a giving way and breaking down feeling when I walk, at ALL.
WHich is why I tried to tell you and all the relatives over here that walking a half mile to the bus stop doesn't cut it for me and would be too hard.

I begged Dr. Freed for an evaluation because no other doctor was taking me. I begged him to do diagnostics for this bone problem because it's been taking over. ANd I got to see the X rays today. He was trying to minimize or not scare me I think, and said "it's nothing to write home about", but after he saw them, he put me back on narcotic painkillers and a new painkiller for nerve pain called nuerontin. AND he's ordering a BONE SCAN which is what you do to find or rule out bone cancer. HE is Soooo anti narcotics, there's no way he thought it was "noting". At least someone believes me now, or I don't know what the problem was before, but at least I have painkillers. Yet, I am fairly positive I have cancer. I have had a feeling I had cancer before Oliver was even born and I told that "friend" of mine, Christa, I thought so. I was so mch more fatigued and just not normal and had such pain all the time.

What the X ray showed was one spot on the sacriallic joint that is enlarged and scratchy patchy looking. Then, my entire spine is curved now, which was never that way before. The WORST looking part, to me, was this big bone from my spine, near the bottom, which had a really strange abnormal appearance. All the other things/bones/knobs, on the spine, were smooth. But this one was patchy and looked fragmented all over the place. It was really weird,. AND it was out of alignment. THen, the other weird part was that on one side of my sacrum, on the right side, the bone just disappears on the x ray. On the other side, where it's normal, there is a line that follows up and around to the top. But on the other side, where it's wrong, the line and the bone, just disappear, like the bone is simply "gone" . A big chunk.

My pain symptoms exactly fit cancer, and the X ray looks like either trauma injuries OR, cancer. Dr. Freed pretty much ruled out degenerative disease, or at least the most common form. IT appears to be somewhat old but somewhat new, and as the pain began around pregnancy, it's most likely from pregnancy trauma OR possibly, something like cancer. Cancer fits the pain more because cancer is progressive and my pain has been getting much worse.

It was sort of weird. Because I talked to a lawyer in town who wants to see my medical records and RIGHT after I talked to him, Dr. Freed's secretary calls and says he'll get me in for evaluation that very afternoon. ANd, I was treated like a princess compared to all the past treatment. IT's so weird. Its like someone knew I was talking to a lawyer. But I am just happy he saw me. And that I"m on painkillers because I darn TOO do "need" them, AND getting a bone scan. Having the bone scan will ease my mind. Bc if it's cancer, it's detected and then treatement can begin, and if not, another solution could be found. Also, Dr. freed says I should have my prolapses fixed. He said it's urgent enough to have it fixed and not wait. He said if I don't have cancer, then I should have the surgery to fix prolapse and then see how I am after that. Maybe my pain would be better. Bc rioght now, he says, even WITH cancer or whatever, the prolapses are bad enogh that they are pulling everything downward and work on my back on their own. I told him I have even had to "push" myself back "in" when I was just walking out the door with my son. No exertion, nothing, but I was falling outside of the vagina and I could feel it. I had to reach up and push it back and it fell down again, but not as far out.

Please don't question my pain anymore or my need for drugs okay? I have never in my life been an addict or been drug seeking and I don't believe I have the personality type for it. It's not a part of me and if you read about narcotics, it's virtually mpossible to be addicted when you NEED them. I know you've questioned me because of the doctors and what they say about me, but you really need to trust ME more. I have always been a very good, reliable and reasonable judge of my problems, whether they're physical or emotional. If anything, I tend to minimize my pain and problems and try to ignore it. IF you can believe it. BUt that's why I didn't rush to a specialist right away. I ignored it.

ANyway, pleasee please please do me a favor and DO NOT tell anyone about this. Please do NOT tell Patty or any of your friends. Only dad. THis is personal and private for me. Also, it's okay if you tell your family, because maybe they'll start to figure it out that I haven't been exaggerating ANYTHING. Maybe one day, you'll even begin to understand and realize that I am not only right and ON TARGET amd reasonable about my physical probs but also right about the conspiracy that's been leveled against me and the hate crime that's gone along with it, for many years now. You should put more of your faith and trust in me. Don't be fooled by what everyone else says. I'm your daughter, and while that doesn't seem to mean much, maybe one day it will mean more. I would sure like to see my parents treating me with respect and believing me enough to really help me instead of blaiming me about "why can't you work?" and "why can't you ride the bus"? I saw how these medicals today suddenly treated me well, and while it was nice, it was also a little saddening, because they were all influenced by prejudice about me enough to treat me like dirt and even mock me and be derisive. Not all, but most. Don't follow the pack or go along with everyone else. I would have wished you had not changed your minds about me and had not lost faith and trust in me and that you'd not disbelieved me. You based a lot of your choices on impressions you had about me that weren't true and were formed by others who didn't care about me or were trying to hurt me. I was telling everyone for a very long time about my back pain and I was told I carry Oliver too much. Etc. Now I have evidence. What I would have wished and liked, was for you guys to have believed and supported me on my WORD alone, without the evidence. And I needed your support and belief on my WORD alone when I was telling you about the malicious crimes and conspiracy by several in the catholic church against me. I may not have the "evidence" or shown you the "Evidence" you felt could have made you believers, but I have not lied, exaggerated, or turned over too many stones. I am right on. Just as I've been right about my health.

Then again, now that you have evidence that I really AM disabled and need narcotics and have a bad condition on top of all my other injuries, I don't know that you'll help me anymore. Or support me and Oliver a bit more financially...or press to have my car fixed and taken to the shop. I question why you have allowed me to be without a car so long,and it almost seems you don't care and want me to be without one. I have a trial on MONDAY and you don't care if I even make it. Maybe you thought if I couldn't get there, or didn't have a computer, or all these things, that I wouldn't be able to defend myself and then I'd just give up and give in and THEN let THEM WIN and they'd be done. You are soooooooooooooooo wrong about that. And to leave me defenseless when I have a son to care for and cannot have black marks aganst my name is so cruel and seems so unchristian. You did not believe me. YOu wanted me to pull me up by my bootstraps and punish me for not working or taking the bus or being a troublemaker in the town or being on narcotics or whatever. You actually just allow me to be stranded out here, when Oliver has preschool and swim lessons and hasn't seen one other kid for over a month. And you thnk this will force me to take a bus and don't even BELIEVE me when I say it hurts to walk and is more painful and uncomfortable on a bus and harder to manage oliver in my discomfort, and takes longer.

I honestly think you've wanted to keep me from defending myself. LIke that would help. I really hope that advice didn't come from patty. Because if it did, she is the devil in disguise and you still don't get it, but may one day realize I knew what I was talking about. I'll bet you anything she framed her own ex husband and testified against him to send him to jail and get herself out scot free. THen there's debbie. I don't know about hr either.

All I'm saying, is that I am again right on in my judgments, against all public opinion. I am only asking you to think longer and really start to question the ideas others have put into your heads about me. You may think I"m demanding or throw fits...but um...how would you like to have all these things happen to you, and be disbelieved?!!!!!!!! I don't think you'd hold up any better. And why has it taken a year and a half t finally be evaluated for the back pain I've complained about? All this time, I had people say I was drug seeking. And you believed them and asked me if I really needed them and to clean up my own image myself.

THink about it. You have been influenced by the wrong people. Then you expect ME to be nice and sweet and patient when all this crap is going on and my own family doesn't believe me or support me and ends up pretty much harassing me too, and then claims I harass them!!!! WHich is exactly what these catholic assholes want in the first place.

Please make sure dad has a copy of this whole email and read it too mom. It's for both of you. If I have cancer, I may not have much time. I don't want to be humored and lied to. I want to be believed and supported, and to know Oliver is loved and cared for, and that I am not the only one who cherishes him and will look out for him above all else. If he doesn't have me, who does he have? He needs me desperately as much as I need him.

I read about some possible causes of bone cancer. One is bone marrow transplant (what i had on my knee). Another is exposure to certain chemicals. I would not put it past these people to have planted something in my apartments that was poisoning me all this time. Maybe that's why I was having headaches so much. Maybe there are no side effects. I d know that several times law enforcement and those FBI guys wanted to be INSIDE my house and they looked around for stuff. One of the fBI guys looked behind my refrigerator. THe lminute he was in my house, he was looking. He was looking for something specific. And then he wanted me to go into the other room so his buddy could look instead.

I fully believe and knw they would poison me. If they would do all these other things, they'd do this. And as for Oliver...He was TALKING a LOT. HE was saying full words and even half sentences and granny and grandpa heard hm saying grandpa and grandma at least, all the time, at their house. Then, one day, it all STOPPED. He hasn't said a straight word since. He can only manage gibberish and sounds. He sort of says "kiiikiii" for the cat, and that's it. He can't even make animal noises. And I found out what happened right before he quit talking. WHen we went to the ER for bad throwing up and food poisoning, they took Oliver away from me and said they were checking him out in another room. They told me his doctor would be the same woman who was looking at me. I got the records later and found out, Oliver was not taken to my doctor. He was seen and examined by Dr. BUTLER, the same doctor who seemed to have a problem with Olvier, who acted cold and hateful to him like he didn't like him. Butler has still refused to give me Oliver's vaccination records form the first shots he got that made him so sick for a month. Dr. Butler also screwed up his circumsicision and caused him more pain than necessary. Another doc has questioned what Butler did to Oliver's private part. Butler got ahold of Oliver in that hospital, behind closed doors most likely, and who knows what he did. He could have injected him with something or given him something orally. All I know is that Oliver never talked after that, and I never knew why not. I've been waiting all this time, for him to start talking again. He doesn't have any of the other signs of being autustic. If he WAS austistic, most belielve it's caused by mercury poisoning. Oliver stopped talking and was seen by Dr. Butler RIGHT AFTER I tld my "friend" christa that Olvier was so smart and all the things he was saying and how gifted he was and how his doctors ssaid he was highly intelligent...and I told her I was going to train him to follow the ways of God and be protestant and to know all about the catholic church and what they did to me. I told her he was going to follow in my footsteps and that he would be "the inheritor" of all the knowledge I"ve gained. Right after that, and after telling her this, Oliver, I believe, was poisoned.

He hasn't been the same since.

Love, Cameo