Friday, December 30, 2011

Drugged Again (and Stolen From): State

Not only did someone give me something at the library, I've been drugged again or had something added to my food or drink in the last few days.

I have the droopy eye and it's not from a natural reason. I didn't have it at all last month and I was careful about what I ate or drank.

I hate this fucking country.

Even more, I hate those who are corrupt enough to dare drug me, assault me, and who have repeatedly obstructed me from justice.

Who tortured my son in the name of the United States of America.

Even the decent people can't make up for what wrongs all the corrupt government parties have done.

I haven't even been out of the house in the last week almost.

I noticed it after I had some of this green tea I get at the healthfood store usually and I think there might be something wrong with this batch, and then after I ate some veganaise from a jar that was already opened, which I've only left unattended at night if over at my parent's house.

Since someone has a key to my place, they can go in and out whenever they want and do whatever they want.

The only other thing I've even had was Christmas cookies my mother baked, and popcorn sealed in plastic wrap that my Dad gave me.

There was the poofing of chemicals of some kind by the middle-aged men in the library as I described, and I had no odd sensation like I was drugged until this morning when I had a large pot of green tea which I've not been drinking much of, and Veganaise from last night with vegetables.

All I know, is that I am still being drugged. The patches on my body that showed up when I took photos came back too. Not as bad, but they're there.

I took cookies from a plate of cookies that were sent to us by someone my Dad works with but I haven't had even one of them. Several days ago I took 2 really small bites from a chocolate chip cookie but that was it. I have a whole stack with me and haven't eaten even one of them.

The only time I had the weird sensation in my head, which happened in Nashville TN when I was drugged a few times, was after I ate from my already opened Veganaise.

Also, I know for a fact that someone was in my trailer within the last week because I had 6 water bottles at one end of cupboards that you couldn't get to unless you took time to get past the huge tree branch across it from a giant branch of myrtle I took into the house.

I had pulled all my water bottles to the opposite end of the long cupboard so I could reach them and they were all on the left side and then I saw there were a few more so I counted how many were tucked in at the other end still and there were 6 exactly.

I left them there, even though I couldn't reach them and knew I would just remember they are there and take them when I am out of the other ones. So it was just a few days ago because I decided to check them again and instead of there being 6 water bottles as I had counted and checked on more than once, someone stole one of them and there were only 5 left.

They also came in on one occastion and put their hands on pumpkin seeds I was drying. I had them out on a plate in front of the heater and the seeds were arranged differently and I noticed.

But mainly, there was no mistake that they stole a water bottle (full of water) from me.

The point is that someone is continually stealing from me and drugging me.

The only time I was wrong about something I thought was stolen and it wasn't--I'd misplaced it, was my red scarf being stolen. I couldn't find it at the same time my underwear was stolen so I thought someone stole my underwear and the scarf too but I then remembered I had the scarf in my bag. The underwear was right out in the open and had been laundered and was next to a laundered kitchen towel and socks and other things. I knew exactly where it was and it was right out in the open and someone came into my house and stole them.

And that is on top of torturing me and my son and obstructing justice.

Every single time I go to Coos Bay with my parents, or left for church, and sometimes if I went to the library or into town, local police and military used it as an opportunity to go through all of my things. Sometimes I've had someone going through my house if I just go over to my parents at night to watch news for awhile. They come onto my property and enter my house because I don't usually tie it with string then. But even when I've used string to help me know when someone breaks in, they've just gone ahead and cut the string, or retied it in a way that let me know they were in my house.

Every single month. Almost every single week as well.

They cut the strings and entered anyway so much I started to give up and quit tying it with string everytime. Because what is the point?

This country is going nowhere good and it's run over by criminals that have no respect for human rights or even for human life.

If I find out who is responsible, I will kill them myself, given the chance. I have no tolerance for people in this country who torture citizens of their own country. And it will be self-defense, and I will kill them. I don't even like violence, or the idea of killing.

But give me the group, and I will kill them. Since I will probably never know who is making the orders, I hope someone else beats me to it. I don't care what their name is, or what country they are from, they tortured me and they tortured my son and have not had the brains to quit.

So if someone knows something, feel free to kill them.

I wouldn't even mess around with torturing them, because I'm not a sadist like they are. I would just take them out for good, every single one of them.

And to clarify, I found it really disgusting to have this U.S. government psychic worker from Logan's in Nashville, TN, joking around, for whatever reason, and calling me "Cam Killer". She said it so much I started to wonder if the reason my passport was constantly delayed and obstructed was because someone thought I'd killed someone even. I figured it must be a big deal. And I didn't know why she was always saying this, laughing and looking at me knowing I wouldn't hurt a flea and then calling me "Cam Killer."

But Guess What.

I'm not like the criminals running this country anymore. I have no desire to torture anyone, for fun, or revenge, or for sport, or even for justice. When I know what the law is about self-defense and the right to defend oneself against torture and attempted murder I know I am within my rights to say I want them dead.

So again, please, feel free to kill them. And I wish I knew exactly who they are, because if I knew, it would be my personal pleasure to get rid of every single person that is guilty of committing these crimes against U.S. citizens on U.S. soil.

No excuses.

I don't mess with sadistic wackos that try to claim government privilege for torturing people. I would never torture them. I don't have any bone in my violence that enjoys seeing other people suffer, nor do I take any satisfaction at an idea of "revenge" because revenge has never been on my list.

Justice is on my list. And since they refused to listen to reason, and pleas, and refused to obey the laws in their own country, they must be killed.

It's not an optional matter. It's a necessary means and it's also not one of those crappy ideas of "means to an end". It is more like an end to the means.

I hope you feel comfortable about having a shorter life than originally planned--and that is directed only to those who are responsible for committing torture or trying to force innocent persons to commit torture.

So if someone did something but they didn't want to and they were being tortured themselves, that doesn't count to me. If someone was forced to do it under threat, coercion and whatever, just so the real perp gets away with seeming 'clean hands', that's not the group that's dead.

Kill every single person who is directly responsible for ordering torture against citizens, and I guess I think of my own family, but there are probably a few others. And, I would say it's justifiable to kill anyone who carried out that order without being under pressure to do so. And finally, some consideration would be made about those who didn't order the torture, and didn't carry it out, but who stood by and allowed it to happen when it was within their power to intervene.

That is justice.

As for whether I think this is people in gangs or people in government, maybe it's a little of both, but I would especially reserve the highest priority for those in government positions. Anyone abusing the name of the U.S. by torturing their own citizens through their own office, position, or authority in me they are the worst criminals and the most dangerous.

I don't care about slow death and torture because I don't want revenge. I don't care to "make them suffer" like these whacked out people have wanted with me and my family.

I care about being left alone. It is the LEAST that this country can do, to protect citizens from being tortured and if THEY have their own guys responsible for torturing, they have violated all moral and judicial right to life.


100% Self-Defense.

As for those who torture others and think they are just "defending" themselves from lawsuits or getting into trouble for things they've done that are pretty bad, that's not "self-defense", that's "self-serving". There is no moral or legal right to harm others so one can be "self-serving" and protect self-serving interests.

As to the right to protect one's own life, and freedom from torture, that's self-defense.

Just because torture doesn't result in immediate death doesn't mean it's not about the same thing.

I know the law in the U.S. allows for self-defense if someone is in your house when you're there and has trespassed, and I know that if you are about to be killed by someone or are in imminent harm, I think you can outright kill the person in order to defend yourself. So with torture, which is outright harm and injury, I think you can kill them to defend yourself. Especially when there is no other alternative and all remedies were exhausted about 7 years ago. If the FBI or White House doesn't intervene when citizens are being tortured, I think anyone who knows it's going on falls into the same category as the person who stands by and does nothing to speak up or prevent it. Some of these people clearly work within U.S. military parameters and if they think they can carry out such orders against their own citizens and not get killed over it themselves, they're wrong. They should be killed. Just because they work for the U.S. government doesn't give them a right to torture and break the law. And if they break the law in this regard, the law still stands true for the right to self-defense.

I respect the President, for example. But if the President himself came into my house and started torturing my family, I would be shocked but I would kill him out of self-defense. If Leon Panetta is giving orders to repeatedly and systematically torture citizens in the U.S. and no one is holding him accountable, I think someone somewhere should put a bounty on HIS head. Would that be self-defense? probably not. But if the person who killed him knew he planned to try to kill them first or used a lot of people to repeatedly torture his family, it might be very close to self-defense.

It's really interesting when a country like the U.S. acquires satellites and lasers and people to do crappy things, and then knows the citizens they torture can't fight back or defend themselves with the same technology.

How does one defend oneself then? How do you kill the persons in charge of employing sophisticated technology against you? Some of the people are local and they can be killed.

If this country had been founded today instead of in the 1700s, the Founding Fathers would have made sure the government never got too big for its britches. That is the entire reason people were given the right to bear arms. The U.S. government could have their guns and so could the people. And as long as the government didn't terrorize their own people, there was peace, and if government terrorized citizens, the citizens were given an equal opportunity to assemble themselves and fight back.

They didn't have "satellites" then. They didn't have "long range missiles" and "lasers" and "ultrasound" and nuclear bombs and biological weapons.

Where is the power of the people then?

Back in the 1700s the government thought, okay, they can have their guns just like we do. The right to form militias if the government got out of hand. The U.S. didn't say, "We'll have our guns but THEY can't have equal weapons of equal caliber because the people are stupid and can't be trusted."

Instead, the government got bigger and bigger and more and more powerful and acquired weapons they can and DO use against their own citizens. They expect very little damages or injury to themselves. What? Someone being targeted with satellite, biochemicals, and lasers is going to fight back with a gun?

So once the U.S. became exceedingly more powerful than the Founding Fathers ever expected was possible, the government began acquiring a lot of criminals into their ranks who wanted their own special little groups to be the ones controlling the nukes, the lasers, the weapons of mass destruction, and the less-than-lethal weapons.

And right now, those at the top and controlling these things are Roman Catholic and they are still trying to take more control, because if they weren't trying to do this, the FBI, for example, wouldn't be pulling out all their new recruits from private Catholic colleges.

So we have U.S. civilians who have nothing to protect themselves with except shotguns. I'm not necessarily arguing every civilian should have a nuclear bomb, but they should definitely have more than shotguns. Why? because if the government becomes corrupt, and it has, then who challenges those in control? They're not scared of me. They don't trust the people at all, but expect us to trust them while they use threats of clean torture and military technology to become religious dictators.

The FBI isn't even pursuing methods available to citizens to allow a citizen to prove they are being tortured. Where are the tests and traps that will help a citizen prove they are being targeted by the newer forms of violence--technology that is invisible?

Which U.S. government department has made that a priority? None of them. And I don't know of any scientists working to develop methods of detection either, because if they're any good, they seem to be working for the government, or forced to work for the government and not in the interests of the people.

Then even if citizens have methods of detection for clean torture and technology, where are the laws they can use? Do they go with "assault" or "torture" and how does one start accounting for the various forms of tortue and battery and assault that are being committed?

Take that to court now. Oh oops. It's impossible to take it to court. Why? Because the FBI is refusing to investigate crimes of this nature. Local police refuse to press charges or investigate crimes of this nature too.

If no one is investigating crimes of this kind, or pressing charges against others, what are they saying, "File a civil suit"??? Right. A civil suit for systematic torture and collusion to obstruct justice.

Try getting a lawyer for that. Even if you're Britney Spears they might call you crazy. It is impossible to get a lawyer for that because the lawyers already know the only people with power to torture and assault in this capacity are employees of the federal government. Like they want to be the next victim of the Religious Dictator Whose Britches Are Too Big.

Look around at the lawyers you could even choose from. Almost all of them belong to the same church. If you take any random sample of lawyers and find out what their religious background is, I would estimate over 70% are Roman Catholic and I would love to be proven wrong. Having a lawyer in the family is apparently as "traditional" to Roman Catholics as having a "doctor" (loosely held generalism or stereotype) in the family is to a Jew. Then look at who is presiding in all of the courthouses.

In Wenatchee alone, 9 out of 10 of the Judges are Roman Catholic.

Which is really great if you happen to be Roman Catholic but since you are already, you are probably not being tortured by Roman Catholic leadership in the U.S. government are you?

At the highest level of court in the nation, The Supreme Court, all of the Judges are Catholic or Jewish. It is almost the same thing in the circuit courts and lower courts.

Law enforcement is another profession that draws in a lot of Roman Catholics for whatever reason. I would guess with regular police, not FBI, but local or state police, it's probably about 50% Protestant and 50% Catholic. Give or take a few of the other religious groups. But then go up a notch to the FBI and it's not 50/50 anymore. The higher you go on the food chain, the more Catholics are pulling up more of their own fellow members into position with them.

Mormons sort of do the same, a little, like any group, but the Catholic church is notorious for it and Jewish to some degree too. Protestants have become this lukewarm flimsy group that doesn't know what they stand for, doesn't remember their religious history, and assumes everyone is friends. Some of them are more agnostic than anything, sort of having a church or belief, but too preoccupied with politics or the here-and-now than realizing what strategies are in place and affect them now and will affect them even more in the next generations. It's like the Catholic church has their very "country" even, the only church in the entire world that has a country all on their own. Then they organize all the feelers into their central hub. Protestants are all over the place. They have no central hub. They believe in the trinity as a hub, or share things in common and try to do good and better themselves, but it's not like we have, sitting at the Supreme Court table: Baptist, Baptist, Baptist, Baptist, Jew, Baptist, Baptist, Jew.

If someone saw that many Baptists all in the Supreme Court, people would talk.

Especially if each of the Baptists pledges allegiance to Country of Baptists. Instead of The Holy See, The Holy B.

Believe me, it would make news. Fox news would be all over the issue, and everyone would wonder, "What church is this? Is this the one that Pastor _______ leads?"

It is more than a little ODD and yet no one is thinking about it because they're just used to the way things are and how they've become.

This is a completely different country than was envisioned hundreds of years ago.

I'm not suggesting every citizen have the right to pack around cherry bombs, or have a fair supply of biochemical weapons in little baggies at their own disposal. I'm not suggesting every citizen be given a market share in each missile that's made, or in the right to carry around ultrasound machines for torturing their neighbors if they don't get along. I'm not suggesting each citizen is only matching the government's power if they are given an equitable amount of power and control over their own stash of weapons.

However, essentially, that's what the Founding Fathers did.

They didn't allow every man and woman to own a canonball machine. Probably not. But canonballs? For every handful of canons, there were thousands of people carrying guns who were matched eye to eye in strength and power, except for the canonball machine.

So maybe citizens today don't need to have the right to own their own nuclear bomb, i.e., canonball machine, but I'm sorry because the peanuts ain't working.

The right to own a gun, in today's climate, is like owning a bag of peanuts to throw at the back of someone who is torturing you with use of military technology and then employing their friends in law enforcement, their church, and justice department, to cover for their crimes.

The balance of power has totally shifted. Citizens have no method of detection for proving crimes are committed against them and therefore cannot protect themselves from being thrown into psych wards if they try to expose what is being done. Then they have no one on their side, if they're not Catholic, to investigate or be fair with the distribution of justice. No lawyers to take their cases, and no Judges to hear their cause.

Which is fine if you just do your job and don't say anything and don't draw attention to yourself in some way, or "offend" the church. But the minute the Ugly Beast is challenged, is when the Ugly Beast rears its head. That's when it becomes clear who is running and controlling this country.

The country is, in fact, in a worse state now than when it was in the 1700s and later. At least then, if you were tortured, it was means that showed up and could be proven. And it was gun for gun when it came to weapons. And aside from a few pacifists, every single house had a gun. Gun for gun. Tortured? you have proof and take it to court.

Now, there is no "gun for gun" that keeps a bad government or richer or more powerful criminal groups from assaulting and torturing others. There is also no method of detection of the kind of torture being committed. It is the equivelent of being shot at every single day and no one sees the wound. Not only are there no weapons adequate for self-defense as intended by the Founding Fathers, there is nothing for even proving the assault and torture is even happening at all.

So try to work and have a normal life in this country, if you lived in the 1700s, while they all have guns and take yours from you. Put those carrying guns around your house to encircle your property. Have the ones carrying guns point out that all their friends are in goverment and police. And then watch as they steal from you daily, force you to work for them, and beat you up every single day but make sure your clothing covers the evidence. When they beat you daily know their friends in government are holding up your passports and ability to even leave.

That scenario is not even CLOSE to what my family has been through and is going through now.

Then those who committed the torture clink their wine glasses together, give eachother a knowing look, and sit back feeling satisfied and say "Merry Christmas" to eachother.

So kill them.

Kill anyone who is found to order torture against U.S. citizens on their own soil. The FBI even blocks people who try to report these crimes out of their offices. They are enablers of torture.

If I had the power and knew myself who is responsible, I would gladly do it myself. One year torturing me, I might want you in jail and I'd like to hear why you're doing this. Two years of torturing me, I might think jail is still a good idea. Three years...I might plead with you. Even beg on behalf of my children. Four years, I might try to leave the country but then find it impossible...

It gets to the point where there is no more forgiveness or redemption for you. Those who are U.S. employed and have been responsible are guilty of years of torture and I don't even want you in jail anymore. How will having you in jail accomplish anything? You will never be in jail anyway, when you proved you're controlling the FBI.

So I want you dead.

You don't break into my house, and torture me, and then break into my house again and torture me, and break into my house again and torture me, and break into my house again and steal from me and torture me, and break into my house and kidnap my son and torture both of us, and break into my house and steal my medical records and torture me, and pull me over and throw me into jail on false charges, and mock me and stare at me naked and torture me, and inject me with poisons and tamper with my food, and then torture my son being sure that I witnesse the evidence of his torture and how you have government workers covering it up for you...

And then think I want "revenge".

I have never wanted revenge. Ever. I wanted to be left alone to live my own life and if you screw up my reputaion, I will try to take back what's mine.

So no, there is no motive for revenge.

I want you out. Dead. Killed.

I'm not like you. I'm not a "party girl" that enjoys watching suffering.

I don't want to deal with you anymore and I shouldn't have to either.

By the way, no, I don't feel "impulsive" and no, I'm not a "killer" and yes, I am sure this is exactly what these people wanted to drive me to or they wouldn't have first been making jokes about it.

But like I said, I'm not like you. I don't feel a desire for revenge at all. I'm not jealous of you and never have been, so the idea of seeing you suffer gives me no reward sensation or feeling of satisfaction. I don't want to humiliate you or find a grand scheme for destroying future generations. I don't want to kill because I think the idea of killing is good or that I will feel power. I don't feel violent at all.

I feel your death is a fact.

That's what I feel.

You torture and you torture and you didn't quit. You sheltered yourself in this country and you even got support from the FBI.

I don't feel you need to die because it will give me power, or make me "happy", or because I think I can then take something that belongs to you.

I only wanted what was mine to begin with and you took that and you are still living. So when you take something like "liberty" or my health and torture me every day, and when I see it's done to other family members, for years I prayed for you.

I, prayed for YOU.

I then thought there should be an investigation and that you should go to jail. If you live and survive to tell about it, if someone is normal in the FBI, I still think there should be an investigation.

But in the meantime, you're past your grace period.

All you've proven is that you want to be immune from any kind of penalty for the most aggregious crimes. You prove you will not stop, even when pleaded with, prayed for, and given a chance to stop. And when I say "you" I mean "you" collectively, who are responsible.

I would never join the military because I don't like the idea of killing people and I don't feel a need to do it either. So again, I am not like you at all and you haven't created a different person than I was before either. I am the exact same person, with the same good heart, and who, after giving you continuance after continuance after continuance to reform, you chose to use your postition for personal gain and hate crime. You have made this country weak.

I can count the illegal triggering of my migraines to go all the way back to at least 1997. If I go back to 1992 I can count triggering of seizure and an assassination attempt in running me off the road. Some torture never began until 2004. But I realized it goes back to 1997 for repeatedly inducing migraines to interfere with my work and then to interfere with college and most dramatically, coordinated to fall on hearing dates.

That is 14 years that you have used government resources for your hate crimes. You become more and more bold and increased in your power as you continued to degrade me and discredit me.

Your time is up.

So that is how I "feel" and it's really not a feeling at all, like I said, but a fact.

You must be killed and you will be killed but I won't be the one to do it. And the ONLY reason I won't be the one to do it, is because so far, I don't know the name of the person ultimately responsible.

Someone else knows your name though, and they know what you've done.

And everyone you colluded with should receive the same fate, if they qualify as I stated above, as those who directed and ordered this torture, the accomplices, those who carried out the crime, and those who knew and stood by and did nothing.

Exemptions are only for those who were coerced or tortured themselves in some way to do these things.

Those who had free will and did these things, must die.

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