my destroyed sweater

I am starting to wonder if, all this time, people have stolen my clothes to wear them themselves, out of jealousy, or to do some kind of ritual with them.

Today, after finding a machine near the house with "featherlight" on the label, I went to the garbage near the house (not our bins supposedly) to find one of my sweaters destroyed and placed in the garbage with a white feather. I noticed first because it was sticking out of the sack a little but not enough until after I saw the other thing and the next thing I did was uncover the sweater and found a feather with it. I have been wondering where some of my other items have gone as well, like my brown tank top.

To me, it looked like some kind of ritual thing. But then on the other hand, it was maybe the one combination of clothing I had that was somewhat classic and looked put together, out of all the mismatched things I happened to get, after having my other entire wardrobe stolen.

It was my hand knitted (in ireland) sweater that was lavendar. I know there are some in Ireland who may not be great, and whom I wouldn't want to be around, but there are a lot of good Irish people too, and I don't know why someone would do this.

It doesn't "mean" anything. Everyone around here tries to import meaning into the smallest things. The fact that I discovered this and took it out, "means" nothing. It doesn't mean bad news for someone, or good news, or anything symbolic. All that it "means" is that I had a sweater, which, regardless of who owned it before, where it was from, or whatever, I had imparted my own essence and energy into that article of clothing that became mine, and I owned it and to steal anything that belongs to me, is not okay with me.

It is not something I think is the worst thing. Like I've said, stealing or attempting to steal or destroy, a gift from God--that is the worst thing anyone can do and few will escape accountability for this, if done to me or my son.

Those who steal my clothes, if for good for some reason, I guess God bless them. God bless their efforts if, in some way, some group has some huge superstition about something and they are attempting to protect me or my son.

But as for any attempt to cast lots or make guesses about things, that has nothing to do with taking my clothing.

I have had almost every single article of clothing I have ever owned, stolen from me. If I add everything up, it would be enough to fill 2 walk-in closets. I am not kidding. And MOST of the clothing, I bought myself with my own money and they were good pieces, from Cache or Nordstrom and a few things cheap here and there, from H&M and other places. My shoes were usually from 9west where I went to bargain places and bought them new but discounted.

I am really tired of it.

If someone wants an article of clothing from me that badly, they should ask, because I would honestly probably give it to them if they liked it. I wouldn't give away everything, but I have done this in the past.

I have had thefts where someone stole just 1 item over time, untold number of times, to grand theft jobs where my entire closet was basically taken. It happened in a very good apartment complex in Oregon (which was supposedly gated, and where almost everything, including good wool coats and expensive imported things (which I got on discount) were stolen), at a sort-of normal apartment complex (where 2 loads of white and cream colored articles of clothing, almost all from Gap and Nordstrom were taken), to the confiscation of all of my clothing that I had which was a combination of gifts from my ex-fiance and clothing I had purchased myself on the East Coast.

That's not counting shoes and the destruction of some of my shoes. It's also not counting the missing underwear and bras (mainly underwear).

Ask. If you want something, like my panache, ask God and maybe He'll give you some of your own.

Definition of panache:
1. Dashing style: a sense or display of spirited style and self-confidence
2. Helmet plume: a plume or set of feathers, esp. on a hat or helmet.
There are also references to the white plume by Henry IV of France and more especially, in Cyrano de Bergerac.
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Then, after I retrieved the sweater, I had all these people driving by with "Wow" and little finger to the eye in fake tear for sarcasm. Really nice stuff. Reeeeaaaaaally nice show.

The rest of my day, prior to later this afternoon, has been great. I am getting a lot done and while this man who is no good is still here, I am getting a few things accomplished even though I had to lie down for awhile because of migraine which was trying to come on. I pretty much got rid of it for now.
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I looked Octavian's perfume page today and it's about the secrecy of perfumes. There is a page all in German and I don't know a word of German. I could try a humble guess and translation but I don't know how I'd do. I am only able to understand some parts. moscozon extra I've no idea, but understand parts of the paragraph; Ambra kunstlich I've no idea but maybe amber something?; Vert de lilas maybe spirit of lilacs or lilac spring; animalide 6666 for beast ?; azarine T 8187 ?no idea; tonkarome, no idea; prunella for plum?; resedal S 7615, no idea. I can understand some of the content but not everything. I'm able to tell whether it's a rich and warm fragrance (or supposed to be) or more of a light flowery one, that sort of thing, reading about what flowers, characteristics, and notes. By context, I'm able to tell if it's woodsy or general attributes and then what mediums it comes in (colonge, cream, perfume) and cost. I would have no idea how to pronounce it but I can read and understand most of it, having taken no German but extrapolating from what I know as an avid reader in the English language.

Usually I'm led to new sites out of curiosity or my own interests but maybe I should try pulling up a few new things for fun. maybe i'll choose 4.

I had in mind gypsy horse cart but didn't know what to click on and then the only song to come up was "here's the money my gypsy". then i typed in perfume with notes of peach and candlelight and got an online review for "very irresistable" sensual perfume by Givenchy.

How hilarious. Because then this college student got up and walked past me twice, wearing a peach fragrance. It was very light and I've smelled it before. Colonge spray.

Then I typed in perfume, strawberries and chardonnay and got Ed Hardy perfume by Christian Audigier.

I typed in perfume with butterscotch and musk and found too many to choose from. right off mainly found Burberry Brit Sheer. It describes both musk and butterscotch and then there was a en avril un soir some describe with these things. I don't know, just goofing off for a minute.

Last look-up brought up "L'eau Ambree" by Prada. I got it by typing in the following, "perfume, tapestry, gossamer threads of rose, mystere and that is what came up, from the blogger site of perfume reviews by "Perfume Shrine".

Did I turn Amber over?

Can I have my son back now?

Are we there yet?

Now I've found Septimanie Perfumes Pavillon des fleurs, Creed, from sniffapalooza and discovered the U.S. military fragrance and princess anne, all on the same page. Oh, wallis too...wally and eddy and some others. A beautiful silk wedding dress there, of Ambre Cannelle (just found name). still trying to find the words I used which pulled this site up. The Snifapalooza Magazine from April 3, 2008.

I typed in a search with "perfume, dynamic, unrelenting, ganesha, base and top notes" (don't remember order exactly) and got this site from this date. unrelenting is from a description of Creed. dynamic fits for Pink Room Parfum #1. Wait, it might fit for Pink Room Pour Toi. Either one I suppose. They're both in there.

Anyway, I love this dress, I assume it's a wedding dress, of Ambre Cannelle.

I think I'll stop there. It's been interesting! as usual. :) The fun of being pleasantly sidetracked for a few moments. Now back to work.