This Morning & Last Night

I don't remember any dreams. I couldn't fall asleep though. Someone kept coming to mind which was strange, and I wasn't completely sure that's who it was, but in a different way.

I thought, I don't know. Yesterday I prayed that since I didn't really know who I would be best with or vice versa, in the long run, that God would help bring me to that person's mind and that person to my mind too. I might be wrong though--I'm not always right. I said to God, "May the best man win" (my heart...and that doesn't mean that person is "better" than anyone else but just the right match).

The sadness or heaviness passed about a half hour later.

Then I noticed something else strange. I was turned one way and felt something either move or watching me, intuitively, and I turned to look at the sky and nothing was there. I think I sensed movement but how I don't know. So I moved just a hair, and there was a huge "star". It didn't look like it was moving but when I looked back 4 or 5 different times, it was in a new location, so it had been moving very slowly. I thought this strange, that I was able to anticipate something like that. But that kind of thing happens a lot and I can't explain it.
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I also thought about the magazine photos I took and thought they were not the best. What could be read into that? Not much. I think it is more that I have people purposefully turning things over and wanting me to think something, whether there's anything there or not, and which is easier to do after legitimately noticeable things like a Canada magazine someone got and put out. Canadian? i don't think so, personally.
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Also, I think sometimes I'm misread because this woman was being escorted by a police car and there was no license plate on the back. She was truly horrible, going out of her way to make faces at me. Of course, there was no license plate on the back. So it was a white Silverado and I called the dealer that had these trucks and couldn't get information. I just said I like the truck and didn't know what kind it was but I wanted the one that woman had. So then people thought I really wanted a truck I think. I just wanted to know who SHE was, because she followed the police very closely and then didn't have plates on the back. The police car she followed was driven by a woman and those plates were: 47091D and the woman had a bob and it was tawny blond. They were driving down Cherry St. in the afternoon. I could probably find a time.
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Back to my thoughts about a significant person coming to mind, I wonder if, with those who are somewhat psychic, if they can communicate intimate or romantic thoughts to one another? I don't want to be vulgar but I was just wondering. If it's possible or if some do. Just wondering.
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I woke up with a decent sense of energy. At least for now, I feel better. I felt so horrible last night. It was very bad, and then I read a little royal news and I felt sort of bad about a couple of things, or sympathetic on a couple of matters and I so wanted to say something and write something, and still do, but I'm not going to. My opinions in those matters do not make a difference and I think it would only stir up trouble for me. I need to find another family or star or someone to write about to deflect.

One thing I sort of laughed about, but in just a light "oh no" giggle-snicker into my pillow, and I felt sadness mixed with it, was I read a clip about maybe William going to Ireland for training. I laid down and first I thought about someone else over there and then I thought, "Oh no!" thinking about rainbows as a symbol in Ireland. Is HE thuh rainbouw pouny? So I sort of laughed but it was a HA!!!! haaa? tapering off to a "oh no, they want me, because I'm a reliable Manchurian Candidate and easy to control." I THINK I'm in control of my life. Of course I had this thought and that's when I sense the satellite.

Then I thought about Harry too for minute. I thought about their girlfriends and felt a little bit sad but I'm glad they're following their careers. They are so young and could have kids or be married even down the road. It doesn't seem like the timing is right or that the situation is right for any of them to settle down. Better not to feel pressured. I guess that's the most I'll say about that.

I felt very good energy writing that last part though. And now, 10 minutes later. Even 20 minutes later very good, positive and strong energy. Like people praying.
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Alison Krause came to mind this morning. Been playing her songs. Maybe it's all good Easter Sunday energy. I was going to listen to down to the river to pray but put on "Lucky One" first and then "Whiskey Lullaby". That's one song that can really make me cry though. It's one of few that I break up sometimes trying to sing. The video to it is also heart-wrenching because it's so true and happens so often to people. Probably almost everyone can watch this and have someone come to mind, or recognize situations. I've seen women in those scenes, with men going after, like vultures, when a woman's defenses are down and impaired. I've seen all of this. And I've had people try to set me up to the same kinds of fate, and those I love as well.

This is a song that came to mind for Easter: Via Dolorosa by Santi Patti.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fy4QPHh7oDk
I also want to hear a song about Amazing Grace.

I am only joking about William and Henry. About the rainbow pony stuff. The guy who had the rainbow pony in his office is American and I wonder what other Americans he knows! I heard "Born In The USA" while in the store after I made my post. Anyway, I hope those that love me appreciated the photos. I was going to make captians but decided not to.

Listened to Born In The USA by Bruce Springsteen. Doesn't mean I'll live here forever, but there's a tribute!
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This Bible verse keeps coming to mind, and has for the last few day but I can't recall which one it is, "...it is a marvelous thing in his eyes" or something like that. Something about "The Lord has done it." and then "it is marvelous in his sight". ? this other part about the lord has done it, just came to mind.

This has been trying to press through for over a week and I just got enough to do a google search! It's Psalm 118.

Psalm 118 ~

1 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.
2 Let Israel say:
"His love endures forever."

3 Let the house of Aaron say:
"His love endures forever."

4 Let those who fear the LORD say:
"His love endures forever."

5 When hard pressed, I cried to the LORD;
he brought me into a spacious place.

6 The LORD is with me; I will not be afraid.
What can human beings do to me?

7 The LORD is with me; he is my helper.
I look in triumph on my enemies.

8 It is better to take refuge in the LORD
than to trust in human beings.

9 It is better to take refuge in the LORD
than to trust in princes.

10 All the nations surrounded me,
but in the name of the LORD I cut them down.

11 They surrounded me on every side,
but in the name of the LORD I cut them down.

12 They swarmed around me like bees,
but they were consumed as quickly as burning thorns;
in the name of the LORD I cut them down.

13 I was pushed back and about to fall,
but the LORD helped me.

14 The LORD is my strength and my defense;
he has become my salvation.

15 Shouts of joy and victory
resound in the tents of the righteous:
"The LORD's right hand has done mighty things!

16 The LORD's right hand is lifted high;
the LORD's right hand has done mighty things!"

17 I will not die but live,
and will proclaim what the LORD has done.

18 The LORD has chastened me severely,
but he has not given me over to death.

19 Open for me the gates of the righteous;
I will enter and give thanks to the LORD.

20 This is the gate of the LORD
through which the righteous may enter.

21 I will give you thanks, for you answered me;
you have become my salvation.

22 The stone the builders rejected
has become the cornerstone;

23 the LORD has done this,
and it is marvelous in our eyes.

24 The LORD has done it this very day;
let us rejoice today and be glad.

25 LORD, save us!
LORD, grant us success!

26 Blessed is he who comes in the name of the LORD.
From the house of the LORD we bless you.

27 The LORD is God,
and he has made his light shine on us.
With boughs in hand, join in the festal procession
up to the horns of the altar.

28 You are my God, and I will praise you;
you are my God, and I will exalt you.

29 Give thanks to the LORD, for he is good;
his love endures forever.
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There might be a New Testament reference too. I'm going to check. I think that's it though: "The stone which the builders rejected has become the chief cornerstone. It is the Lord's doing and it is marvelous in our eyes." Psalm 118:22.

It's also in Matt. 21:42. Will look up whole text and context.

I tried looking up the whole chapter which I'll still do, but this verse also popped up so I'll copy it here. Maybe it's meant for some: Verse Text: It's from Matt. 21:13.

And said unto them, It is written, My house shall be called the house of prayer; but ye have made it a den of thieves. (KJV).
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Here is the entire chapter for Matthew 21. I like it. I realize it's sort of tying in with Palm Sunday and that part of the verse kept trying to press through sometime after I met that Anglican minister. Either right before or the same day. And then I remember I was walking along the sidewalk after going to ER on March 24 for migraine, I believe that was the day, and this kept trying to press through and then the next thing that happened was that I was looking at a house that had just gone on sale by a family called the Kings whom I'd never met and the husband is a Nazarene assistant pastor. But I remember this moment bc I kept trying to wrack my brain for the rest of the verse.

I do know a lot of scripture, randomly, but it was drilled into me and then you pick up some of it just reading and rereading. But I couldn't get anything more than "it is marvelous in our eyes" until today. Right after I wrote the first part maybe someone out there was thinking for me and I picked up on it because then I got the part which precedes it: "it is the lord's doing" and I had enough to look it up with.

Happy Easter Everyone and may God bless your day.
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The next song I got was AC/DC's thunderstruck. hahahaa! :)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-f1cwycSWq0&NR=1
Oh I don't think I've heard this forever...since high school. I forgot that I love this song! Now I want to listen to more AC/DC. Hells Bells. Nice juxposition huh? it's just music. I'm serious about the scripture stuff though--not lying! and I do think someone helped me with the first part of that verse.

Oh great. An Army ad just came on television. NO, I'm not joining the military. I want my son and I want others to see to it there are no obstacles. But I recognize there are good people in military around the world and think it's good work, in general.

I have the channel on 5 and it's a hockey game but I'm not watching. It's just on. I'm used to hearing sports talk on Sundays. It's just familiar. Let's see, it's Detroit vs Philadelphia. I like how they can just put a stick out and trip the opposing players. How dirty is that? Sometimes...heh heh heh...I see a bike go by and want to jab a stick in the spokes...hehehehehee...er, what do you think that means?* (see note)

"You Shook Me All Night Long" and the poster is: animalcrazedlover. I hope he's not going onto Match.com with a username like that.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Bomv-6CJSfM&feature=related

*(i wish I could leave that to be understood as joking, because I was laughing very hard after writing it, but I have to put out this disclaimer because otherwise CPS will try to use it against me). :)

Well this was a disturbing video response to the AC/DC song: "hunted kid 1"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=izLqJ7dl5Uw

What does it have to do with the video at all? It just makes me think about my son actually, and what's happening to him and has already happened. I also have had the idea that some of the things that happened were done with someone wearing a mask so he couldn't point them out. So then I see this mask thing. I read about that on MK Ultra stuff--they'd take kids and wear masks and try to distort their reality and how they were able to report things. Seriously. It's documented information. Anyone could do that now, whether they're government or not, to just screw with a child and the parent.

I was thinking about my son today and at the last visit he had mannerisms and was saying things which made me think he'd been spending a lot of time with my cousin Armando or Andres. The way he said "stttoooooOOOp" and made this pouty lip face. So I asked him.

Really, my son is a LOT like me, his personality and interests and as a child, I would have shriveled up and died if I'd been raised by the Avilas. I'm not saying they're all bad, but they are not even the right match for my son's disposition, interests, talents, and personality. I am. Which is why, typically, if the biological parent is available, that parent should be raising that child, if their parenting skills are decent.

My parenting skills are excellent and I know how my son is and that he needs a mother who is on the same wave-length. I am not saying my mother and father were perfect at all, but there was at least some creativity, art, and music in the mix and there's not with the Avilas.
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With the military, here's my deal. When you start defending my son and my rights, I'll defend the country. Why would anyone even think that I would do service here when all these things have happened with my son and I continue to be smeared instead of justified? I would and have done service for people who are regular people, but I fail to see why, after this many years of trying to get help and make reports and being stymied, I would even think anything would change. "Ask not what my country can do for me but what I can do for my country" is an excellent principle and one I believe in, until I see what has happened with my life and my son over these years. Now, I feel it's an exchange and I don't know many people who have had to suffer what we've suffered, in this great country, with no intervention or help coming from those who are barely making it. It's a great idea to say country first, but then when you've been falsely arrested, defamed, valid reports ignored, and on and on and then ones only child taken without cause, and these people go out and tamper with evidence, it leaves one to wonder. I don't know many people who have to go through what I've gone through and then are pressured to just abandon their child to someone else. I don't see how it is possible to have this kind of thing happen in this country, unless the government and law enforcement are a part of the problem.

I don't believe medicating or experimenting with someone while they're in the middle of a custody crisis, is appropriate either.
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As for the satellite, I didn't hear a voice or "see" something. I unconsciously sensed something even though I had no knowledge of what it was. I just knew to look and when I did, I knew it wasn't a star even though it wasn't moving at all. 10 minutes later it was in a different location so I was right, it was a satellite. But I knew it was there, or something was there, enough to know to look to the left, behind the curtain, and there it was. How do I explain it? i can't. I just know it happens all the time and with certain people, I seem to know when they're watching even from a great distance. I have no idea what it's about. I don't even know, most of the time, why I'm looking in a particular direction until I see it later and then I realize.

I'm not going to this psychiatrist to be locked up so I can be under further observation. Your time of observation is over. I want my son and that's that and I want the truth about what is going on.

At least I have some money now for getting my federal and state records through FOIA.
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I keep feeling like the last psychic reading I did was a set up. I don't know why, but it felt off somehow, like I was getting a lot of contradictory information and there was this very heavy spirit until he left and then it lifted. SO I don't know what that was about. It felt more like a concerted effort to, I don't kow. I kept getting information but I felt it was for someone besides him. ?
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If These Walls Could Speak: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T2eKB_fZryY&feature=related